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Topic Started: Apr 15 2017, 11:26 AM (399 Views)
RabbitRedeemed
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I have tried a lot to start this, can never seem to post. So this time I will. It is hard to know what to share, and I'm still in a healing process but this is resurrection weekend, and God rescued me.

I was trafficked as a pre-teen and that put me on a bad path. It doesn't matter what the predators did, it only matters what God is doing now. There were several each time except for the first time. He lured me into a garage and did his thing, and I think he led me to the others. I used to try to count the number of men and times they did their thing, but the Spirit told me that if I want to count something now to count my blessings. I'm good with that too. Besides the number doesn't matter.

Around 7yo I was used in pornography and by 10 I knew how to drink, smoke and was hooked on porn. And the truth is I thought that was normal. The predators would hit me too, well more like beatings. I got spanked a lot at home so I feared that. They hit me at the end sometimes to keep me quiet I guess. Once I remember getting hit with a section of hot wheels tracks, other then that it was mostly backhanding. They would knock me down and call me stuff like worthless little boy. I believed it, everything they said but I know now those were lies of the enemy.

God rescued me, in His time. He walks me through stuff usually one thing at a time now. He set me free from the chains of shame, guilt and fear. I have to remind myself of that sometimes and some part of shame still holds on. I don't know why but that's what I'm working through now. I learned at church last week that it's tied to pride. I'm not proud of what they did, or what I did, but I think the pride is in not turning it all over to Him so I'm working on that. Now that I see that I can work on it with Him, along with whatever else is left.

I forgave them, and the hardest thing was to forgive me. God has, and that comes in my thinking I say I forgive me too. One day at a time and one step closer to who He means for me to be.

“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him. I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me and I will answer him. I will be with him in trouble. I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I shall honor him, and show him my salvation.” Psalm 91:14–16.

God showe me what real love is, He drowned my fears in perfect love as one of my favorite songs now says.

Rabbt, Redeemed and loved!
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I forgot to add. All glory to God. He sought me out and led me home.
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Wonderful, beautiful testimony of God's grace and goodness in your life. Also remember one thing - the shame is not yours. It is upon the ones who used you for their own advantage. Jesus Christ removes the shame and guilt and you stand faultless before the throne. Redemption is not just about removing sin, but making us brand new creations in Christ, which is what we are! Praise be to our glorious God!
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It is so good to see you have been rescued by God Rabbit and the way you have forgiven those who hurt you is quite admirable , I also like the way you are so Thankful to God , you are a blessing to be around , I enjoy your company and your knowledge of the word , I think you are a great role model and someone who God is going to use to bless many people in your life , God Bless You
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Thank you Rabbit for your encouraging testimony. Hopefully through this, others will share theirs and that includes me. God bless you brother. You are loved beyond measure
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Amen, this shows the real and true power of God and what he can do, if anyone ask you prove to me God is real, all you do as I do open your arms and say your looking at it :)

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Amen may God keep on blessing ya
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Thank you everyone. You lift me up like my new church family, and my natural family now as they know now and support me. I did not think it possible, but I've learned with Him everything is possible. I know there is more work inside ahead and some day that list will get all checked off, done, finished. More important He will be with me every step of the way just like before. The difference now is this time I know that. The Hare wins, the Lamb wins!
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God can do anything in our lives, if we allow Him to. May He continue to bless you my dear brother!
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Just an update. I started counseling again this week. Like my first counselor told me it'll take time to peel that onion of all those years. I'll say it bites going through it but I also know with the Spirit leading me it ends well. I think I've said in the room that I don't know how much is left, but I know what's left behind. I'm already leaning new things too, and trying to remember that I can't change the past like Billy Graham once said, but I changed my destine when I decided for Christ. One day at a time you know, and the new counselors I work with (a christian group) tell me that we can get to a point where this doesn't sting anymore. I'm ready for that :).
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