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| Ashley Maldano | Feb 23 2017, 02:38 AM Post #1 |
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As I look straight ahead at the doctor in front of me, my eyes haze over staring at the blank wall behind him. The group of people in the room didn’t matter to me right now, no matter how much they attempted to try and help me. The way I was feeling right now….nobody could help me. As I sat on the hospital bed I could barely keep my eyes open from the immense pain my face was in. It literally felt like someone took a sack and filled it with bricks and decided to beat me over the head with it. And how my face looked didn’t exactly help with how it felt. ”Ash, look into the light as much as you can please. I know it’s tough right now but it will all be over soon…” The doctor said, holding up his light examining my eyes. I wanted to punch in straight in the face. Not because of anything he did on purpose of course...but the situation had me heated. Still heated. And for good reason. Tonight was one of the worst nights of my life as a nightmare that I thought I got away from came back to haunt me in the most vicious way… As I sat in the basement of my Detroit home, I couldn’t help but work on some designs I had been meaning to finish. The house was all sorts of quiet without Lilly running around, but her being with Michelle tonight was for the best. She has school early tomorrow and I had to get to the gym early to put in the extra work I wanted too. It worked out perfectly...even tho I missed her like crazy. Finally being able to call her my own was such a good thing, but for some reason I still couldn’t believe it. No matter how many times I show her off, reality never sunk in that I had a daughter. A beautiful, smart, caring daughter….who was a thousand percent better of a person than I was ever going to be. As I picked up my phone I dialed Michelle’s number, hoping it wasn’t too late despite knowing subconsciously it was and Lilly would be fast away asleep. I just needed to know she was safe and sleeping and peaceful. ”Hey, Ash. What’s up? Everything going good?” She said, as I sat up looking down at my sketch book dropping my pencil before speaking. ”Yeah, just working on these sketches and I couldn’t focus. I--” ”You were thinking about Lilly? Ash she’s fine, you got nothing to worry about. She was so excited to sleep over and took over my bed...but she’s all good. How are you tho? I know you got a few good matches coming up...you feel ready, champ?” She asks as I smirk shaking my head. ”Mich, you don’t feel ready until that bell rings. Then you feel ready. Besides I’m not worried. Things are going my wa--” I stopped, hearing a crash of glass sounding all too close as I looked up, jaw dropping. ”Ash? Did you drop the phone again..” An irritated Michelle asked before I scrambled to my feet. ”I’ll call you back.” I said before hanging up the phone, rushing up. As I made my way to the staircase leading upstairs, I couldn’t believe my eyes as I saw Jesse standing at the top, looking down at me with a smirk on his face. As I shook my head and stood still, I spoke out with a shaken voice. ”Jesse...what the hell are you doing here? I told you to stay away from me. I told you the next time you came near me I was calling the police. How did you even find me here? Nevermind..nevermind that doesn’t matter. You literally have five seconds to leave before I call the police…” I spoke to him, stepping back as he walked towards me. ”What? No hug hello? That’s not very nice…” He said, before walking down the stairs closer and closer. As I watched him walk towards me I could feel myself having flashbacks. Flashbacks that I wanted to burn out of my mind and never remember again, but the feeling felt all too much the same as he finally approached me, grabbing a fist full of hair as he spoke. ”Calling the police isn’t an option here, Ashley. You see...I’m not leaving here till you forget all about our past and move forward. With me. You’re so wrapped up in this fantasy life you’re living now that you forgot all about who you were baby...who you are. This crap isn’t you…” He said as he looked around the room, shaking his head pulling on on my hair as I yelped out. ”It never was or will be you. And we both know that I can bring out your true colors like nobody can. Now go get Lilly, pack some stuff and let’s go. You’re time is done here and it’s time you come home.” He said before yanking towards the stairs, but didn’t get very far before I pushed him away. ”Shut up. Shut the fuck up and stay away from me. Leave now or I swear to god…” I said before trying to rush over to my phone, but he kicked it out of the way and before I knew it I was on the ground. It all happened so fast. My mind was an absolute blur… ”It seemed like you had a minor concussion. Nothing too serious to worry about, but something to definitely keep your eyes on. The bruises and cuts should disappear with time…” He said, with a slight sigh before stepping back allowing two officers to walks up to me. As I heard them asking me question after question that I already heard, I turned my head looking into the mirror that was hanging up on the wall, and felt my stomach turn. The girl looking back at me wasn’t Ashley. She wasn’t the same girl as she once was. This girl was sad. Broken. Lost. Defeated. The list is endless. The bruises and cuts were more than just indents and marks on skin and the body...but they were constant reminders. Things weren’t going to be the same for a while after this. For as horrible as it was, it was an unwanted life lesson and wake up call, that took a turn for the worse. Jesse wanted to show how easily it was to break me...and for the first time he did. As I looked in the mirror, I tried my hardest to open up my eyes wide but they were too sore. ”Ms. Maldano, we want to catch the guy that did this to you. But it is very important that you are very detailed with what happened and any information you might know. You could prevent this from happening to anyone else or yourself again. We want to help you..” The officer said before putting his hand on my shoulder. As I felt his palm touch my shoulder blade I immediately flinched and scooted away from him, making sure he wasn’t touching me. ”My apologies, I was just showing that we are on your side and want to help you.” ”I know. But I already told you everything I know. I can’t focus right now. I literally just got fucking attacked and you want me to try and give you a play by play? Give me a day.” I said, shaking my head at them. My eyes rolled away from looking at them, and turned to the mirror studying my face…. Do you ever close your eyes and imagine you’re someplace else? A place far away where nobody can find you. A place where nothing could harm you and nothing could go wrong. Everyone has a place like that. A place in their mind where they could go anytime they please, and not have to worry about it disappearing. Most people call it daydreaming or fantasizing. For me? It was a way to not pay attention to what was going on in the real world, and stay safe in my dream world. ”I..I didn’t want to do this, Ashley. I didn’t plan on coming here and turning you into...this. But you needed it. You needed to be broken and be brought back to what you are. You’ve let this fame and fortune get to your head and you thrive on those looks to get you places...but that won’t be a problem anymore, will it? Nobody cares for you like I do...because if they did...would they really let you stay here all alone?” I heard him say as he stood up, looking down at my limp body curled into a ball on the ground. As I hid my face into my shirt trying to block any form of eye contact, I started to cry softly. No matter how hard I tried my dream world was fading away through my fingers and reality seemed too real. I felt his eyes peering down at me, but rather than looking up at him I kept my head down, crying some more. ”Unlike everyone else you try to impress, I’m still going to think you’re beautiful with those bruises and scratches. Even if…” He stopped. He stopped talking as soon as I heard the sweet sound of sirens blasting down the block and a sigh of relief escaped my lips as my eyes shut, and everything turned to a blur. A bloody...dizzy blur. As my head shook as I looked back at the officers, I sniffled fighting back some tears before looking up at them. ”Please give me a day? I want to go home. I just...want to go home.” I asked before they nodded their heads, stepping back before one of them slipped me a card before speaking. ”Of course, Ms. Maldano. Is there anyone we can call to pick you up or let them know what’s going on? Family? Friends?” They asked as I sat there in silence. ”None of that will be necessary. I can get a cab…” I said, before looking at them before stepping up and leaning over grabbing her oversized sweatshirt, throwing it on over her head. I didn’t want to be seen by anyone. No fans lurking because I’m sure everyone heard the news. No fellow RISE members. And especially not any paparazzi just looking for a hot new headline. I wasn’t myself anymore. As I threw on a Chicago Cubs baseball hat and put the hood of my sweatshirt on over it, I slipped my hand into my bag pulling out a pair of sunglasses and looked up at them. ”Thank you...for everything. If I remember anything I’ll let you know….but for now I want to keep a low profile. That’s all I want.” I said, as they nodded. ”That might be best. Until you get things back rolling. Take a little time to regain composure...you’ll get through this. You’re strong Ash.” He said, before I grabbed my purse and looked at him as I walked towards the door. ”I wasn’t strong enough to fight him off….so I’m not sure how true that statement is.” I said, before heading out and walking towards the door. |
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