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Goodbye.; Final RISE CD
Topic Started: Jun 21 2017, 08:50 PM (216 Views)
Ashley Maldano
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“Goodbye”
Starring: Ashley Maldano
Location: Queens, New York


It’s over.

It’s all over.

The last thirty minutes of my RISE Pro career...has past. As I sit in silence, I can’t help but keep my head down. I’m not ashamed. I’m not embarrassed. I’m...numb.

This feeling is different than when I lost the RISE Pro championship...because it feels like I lost everything. And as I sit on the ground of the locker room with my back up against the wall, I can’t help but think of my career flashing before my eyes.

From my very first battle royal to my all and out war with Big Momma. From the friends I’ve made to the ones I’ve lost. To the lessons I’ve learned and the times I didn’t want to be patient. To the days and nights I spent not sleeping and overworking myself….it all was for this moment.

My mind doesn’t even go back to the match...but instead to the half hour before the show started. Before the show started I requested that I meet with the person who has pushed me further than anyone I’ve ever met….Andreas Lasiewicz.

I wasn’t sure about going into this match….and I was nearly having a mental breakdown backstage but I knew Andreas was who I needed to see...because I knew that this was it. I knew this was my last night on RISE for a little bit now, but everything was hitting me at once and I wasn’t prepared on how I was feeling about this. I remember racing into his office, like I always did but instead of being a headache and trying to break down this wall of a man, I was panicking.

I couldn’t breathe and I couldn’t stay still as I immediately saw him standing there and went on a ramble about how I didn’t know if I was ready for Subversion. I didn’t know if I was ready to move up to the goal I had set for myself all these months ago. I wasn’t sure if I reached that level that I aspired to be on and worked all this time for. As I shouted and spoke loudly, Andreas….Coach Las….did the one thing I never expected him to do.

He reached forward and pulled me in for the biggest hug like I was a kid of his own. For once, I feel like I finally got that approval from the man that I worked so hard to impress for months. As he hugged me tightly, he reminded me that I’ve been waiting and working for this moment since day one. ”Once you see the light, everything will make sense. That is the reason I never “let you have any fun” or gave you a full explanation for anything. This is why I pushed you so hard. I wanted you to be ready...and now you are.” And after that? He handed me a bag of pixie sticks…

Thinking back on the meeting with Andreas, I bowed my head and started to cry.

Tears fell down my face...and I wasn’t planning on stopping them.

Everything was happening so quickly...but I had to push myself through it. This was a good thing...no matter how I felt about how it happened….it was a good thing.

Onto bigger and better things people keep telling me….

…...but only time will tell.


But for now...I was going to enjoy the final moments I had left in the place I called home….
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