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Goodbye Promises
Topic Started: Aug 15 2017, 01:59 AM (154 Views)
Celeste
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She sat on the edge of the bed. Her head held in one hand as the other rested in her lap with the palm open. The tips of her raven hair brushed over the object resting in the middle of her palm. Her eyes would not tear themselves away.

CJ slept soundly behind her. The sheets were askew and barely covering him, but the heat of the night made it barely noticeable. He didn't stir when she shifted uneasily. As if this night couldn't get any more emotional.

Celeste had just quit the federation which trained her. Turning her back on what is, was, her home. She did it in the middle of the ring. Announcing her intentions to the thousands watching.

She spoke with truth and conviction. It took a lot of thought. She knew what she was betraying but her heart would not let her go on. Instead of arguing with those in ECWF who acted more like parents than friends, always telling her how she should act and why, Celeste chose to do what most teenagers do…

Leave “Home”.

Now she sat on the edge of this bed, with her boyfriend of six months, trying not to cry over the uncertainty. Trying not to let the fear get to her. Finally being on her own was…finally being on her own.

Above all else, Celeste was determined to prove them all wrong. She can be something more than just an ECWF superstar. Her mind raced with so many thoughts.

Fuck them and their dogma. If they can't accept my determination to be the best I can be, which means spreading my wings and working other places, then it's their loss. I'm tired of questioning myself because of them. I don’t need to be a wrestling legend. I just need to exist right now. To grow. To change. I know damned well I'll find similar opposition in HKW and else where. People who will try everything to tear me down for my actions. But I'll stand tall. Fight. I won't back down from the likes of TCB and others.

And even though I'll have my enemies, I'll have friends too. Felix, Brian, Hunter, Annie. That's more than I can ever say for support from “home”. But what is the meaning of this in my hand? Why did I go rooting around in CJ's travel bag?


Celeste wanted her vape and thought it got tossed in his bag between the arena and home. They rushed out, not wanting to stick around for any backlash to her speech in the ring. It wasn't there though. She found something else. She wished she didn't. Why couldn't she refrain from opening the tiny box? Her hand closed into a fist.

Why did he do this? Oh Conner…I don't even know if I'm right for you. I still hold onto my secrets. I fight so hard sometimes to protect you from my idiot mistakes. I love being with you, but you don't understand me. Not completely. Not yet. And you know this! So why? When we still haven't…

Celeste glanced over her shoulder when she heard him sigh and mutter. He turned over to his side without waking up. Celeste carefully stood up from the edge of the bed and walked to the window. Her robe hung open a bit, but all was dark anyway. She looked out at the clear night sky, keeping her hand closed into a fist. Gathering her wits, Celeste slowly opened her hand and looked down.

A ring resting between the lines of her palm. It glittered like the stars in the moonlight. Her name had been engraved onto it. A small diamond rested near another colorful gemstone. She wasn't sure if this was an engagement ring or promise ring. Her lack of relationships worked against her knowledge in this matter. Either way, the implications of such a gift were…to put it in the terms of her youthful expressions…freakin HUGE!

Do you love me that much? No. You can't. Not yet. What do you expect me to say to this? You are the most serious relationship I've had. Practically the only real relationship ever. I don't…I can't mess this up. Shit! Why did you go and do this?! I'm going to screw this up.

Her heart beat faster. The fear was real. She hated herself. Hated herself for devoting her life to so much training as to miss out on a lot of basic stuff. She felt half complete. And she is feeling her way in the dark. Going down this new road with no map. It was her own damned fault.

Holding the ring between her thumb and index finger, Celeste held it up to the window. She looked through the band at the stars. Her breath shook as she slipped the ring onto her finger.

”Celeste…Cross…”

She whispered. Her voice quivering on the last name. Never in a million years did she think she'd get married. Looking at the ring now on her finger, Celeste became certain it was a promise ring. Still, the implications were there. How many broken promises has she endured in her young life? Far too many to count. Which is why this felt wrong. Dangerous. It may not be Conner who breaks a vow either…

”No…I need to be a Spirit awhile longer.”

Quite awhile longer. Years preferably. Celeste slipped the ring off her finger. Turning away from the window, she tip toed to CJ's travel bag to place the ring back in its box and return it to it's place. Once done, she crept to his side of the bed. Holding her long hair back so it doesn't drift down into his face and stir him awake, Celeste placed a gentle kiss on his cheek. A moment later she laid next to him. Staring at the ceiling, sleep seemed to be elusive. Only one thought kept her eyes from closing.

Great…every time he reaches into his back pocket I'm gonna freak out.


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