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| How We Became Fire; James short story | |
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| Scorpion Flower | September 8, 2010, 1:11 pm Post #31 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Thank you so much my dear. Tornado and volcano will be back tomorrow... The tour begins!!! Or hell begins...
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| elena | September 8, 2010, 2:19 pm Post #32 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Can't wait! :horns2 I'm sure that James will act like a huge rockstar (like he is) with a something big stuck in his ass(like he is not).And I will love that!
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| Karla Hetfield | September 8, 2010, 11:11 pm Post #33 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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I'm so happy that she's going on tour! This story rocks really! I love how they are reacting to each other, it makes things more interesting! Loveing it very much! Thanks for the update!
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| Scorpion Flower | September 9, 2010, 5:50 am Post #34 |
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Outlaw Torn
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I drove back home almost like an insane person. I was pissed, I was extremely mad I had to go against my will. Since when I’d bent over someone? I knew that job would be a great opportunity for me but quite frankly I’d rather not take it and I did. I did it because I was provoked and I had that bad habit of not taking shit from anyone. All of a sudden, while driving towards the beach James crossed my mind and I frowned all alone. “Arrrghhh…get out of my head!” I shouted all alone. I decided to call Katy. I took my cell and driving I pressed dial for her number. She answered me at the third beep. “Hi Ade.” She said happily. “Hi.” I said. “Look, you need to pack your stuff, we’re going on tour for a month and a half.” I informed her. Katy was my assistant, so she’d go wherever I was going. “Already? This was fast.” She exclaimed. “So, which huge band is it?” I was quite sure she’d popped the question but I didn’t feel like pronouncing the name Metallica. “Can you meet me in half an hour in my house, you can pack later.” I told her. “You sound concerned Ade, what is it?” “We’ll talk about this later Katy.” I told her. All of a sudden I saw a shadow crossing right in front of my jeep. I pushed the brakes abrupt and violently, I got really scared as I was sure it was a person and I wasn’t even paying attention. My wheels cried out loud enough to Katy hear it on the other side. “Jesus Ade, what was that?” She shouted. I looked to the person right in front of me scared as shit. I’d hit the brakes fast enough not to run over him. Above all persons James was the one crossing the street without even looking. He stayed frozen in front of my car, I knew he recognized me. My hands were shaking and my legs too. “Just meet me at my place.” I said with my voice failing a bit. I hung up the phone the next second. I opened my window and shouted. “Can’t you see where you’re going?” James looked at me and didn’t even bother to answer me, he began to walk again. I took hold of my car again but then he seemed so out of this world that I just parked the car and got out of it. I had to run a bit to catch him. “What’s the matter with you? Crossing the street without even looking, I cold have hit you!” I told him. With his hands shoved in his pockets he turned around to look at me. His face rigid, his lines tense. “I am sorry, now leave!” He said. I don’t know what got into me, instead of turning around and go back to my car, his concerning look got the best out of me and I made a stupid move. “You don’t look good, what happened?” I asked. I decided to put away my thoughts and give him a chance. Like I said I was stupid and he was arrogant. “None of your business. Just stay the fuck away from me!” He exclaimed. “Stay away from me now and stay away from me while on tour. Don’t even talk to me.” I looked at him thinking he was really losing it but his tone and arrogance were too much for me to take. “Fine!” I shouted. “Just be alone! I am stupid I even bothered to come here. You are an idiot, Jesus, I never thought you were such an idiot.” With that I turned around and walked really fast towards my car. Again I picked up a crazy speeding, my house wasn’t that far and I got there even faster that my own thoughts. As Katy wasn’t there yet, I decided to begin packing my stuff. With my bags on the bed I raided my wardrobe choosing the clothes I wanted to take with me. Katy didn’t give me time to do much, she arrived when I had all my clothes still scattered on the bed, but at least now I only had to fold it all very well and put it in the bags. “You look so nervous.” She said crashing down on my new couch. “These look amazing.” She said smiling stroking the leather of the couches. “We’re touring with Metallica.” I blurted out. Katy looked at me silent. “Really?” She asked studying my face. “He was there?” I nodded. “How was it?” “Too bad. He’s such a jerk. Kept yelling at me that I couldn’t take the job, then he basically forced me to take it, I don’t get it. Anyway, I ended up saying yes. We’re gonna have a crazy schedule, there’s too many shows and too many cities to visit.” I began to babble about our work because I thought it was the best way to get rid of all other events that bothered me. “How are you feeling Ade?” She asked me ignoring what I was saying. I took a deep breath. “I am a professional. Obviously what happened in London is not going to be repeated. I don’t mix pleasure and work BUT it seems to me that even if I wanted it, he’d never approach me. The guys hates me for no reason. That was the impression he left me. I don’t care as long as that hate doesn’t interfere with my job.” “I don’t know what to tell you.” “At least, you’re gonna be there…” I said shrugging. I didn’t know what else to tell her. I woke up next morning feeling cranky and with my head pounding. I felt glad that my instructions said to meet the crew at the LAX, crew and not one mention from the band, so I thought we were flying to Miami separated. I intended to keep my distance from him, well, the distance I could because I had to work directly with them during he shows and rehearsals. Katy met me at my place, she left her car parked in my garage and we took a taxi towards the airport. We had to meet them at the gate 39. LAX was the usual mess. I had a hard time understanding what we were doing at the international airport if we were flying domestic, but I guess Metallica played by other rules. After dragging the stroller with our luggage and ran over a couple of people we finally saw gate 39. “Finally!” I muttered. “You’re in a terrible mood Ade!” Katy said. Only little I knew my mood was about to become even worse. I saw a bunch of people, about 20 persons gathered near it. I saw Lars and then I saw James. That couldn’t be real! Until the last second I hoped we were all flying in different flights, only we didn’t, we’d all take the same one towards Miami. I gulped. A guy came to pick up our luggage and then a bus came to take us to the plane. James stayed as far as he could from me and I didn’t venture to go anywhere near him. Lars made the introductions, as I expected they were mostly men even though there was about 3 women in there. They all seemed quite nice I didn’t think I was going to have any type of trouble adapting myself to their environment, except from the guy that was sat right in the front of the bus talking peacefully with Zach. In the bus, and regaining my mental sanity from seeing James so soon again, I noticed the absence of the wives. I tapped Lars’s shoulder that was sat right in front of me. “Isn’t Connie coming?” I asked him. I sure could use another friend with me in that awkward situation. I saw James taking a glance at me when I made the question but I pretended I didn’t see it. “She’s already there.” He said smiling. “Ah good.” I wouldn’t venture to ask James for his, maybe she was already there with the kids too. That’s what I thought. I knew the families usually traveled along with them when the school was closed. The bus stopped in front of our flight, we all climbed the stairs. I left everyone go first so I would be on the back, that way I could see where James was going to sit and choose to sit far from him. Katy found herself a new friend quite fast. She sat with Phil, he managed the meet n’ greets of the band, they were chatting happily almost since we got to the airport. Phil was good looking and I winked at Katy as I passed by her. I was glad she was meeting new people and even making friends. She was like the sister I never had. “Ade, sit here.” Lars said pointing at the vacant seat by his side. I did as he asked, Lars seemed like a nice person and he was a friend of mine boyfriend. “Ready to rock n’ roll?” He asked me already in the air. “Always!” I said excited. Yes, I was excited that was going to work for such a huge band. I had made a lot of mental exercising the night before to keep my other matters away and enjoy this great chance. “We’re not playing in the next two days but we like to go sooner just to get ready for it. We also have some interviews, so you have two days to enjoy the heat in Miami.” “It’s plain and simple. I will go to the beach.” I said. I saw James walking towards us. “Aahh… sorry to interrupt.” He said feeling uncomfortable. “Lars, how many interviews do we have scheduled?” “In Miami?” Lars asked. James nodded. “I don’t know by heart, but I guess two and it’s only tomorrow.” Lars informed. “Good…” James said vaguely. “Isn’t Francesca and the kids coming?” Lars asked him. I felt I was a left over in that conversation. I concentrated on the back of Zach’s head right in front of me not to look up at James. “No.” He said. With that he came back to his seat. I saw Lars looking at me, I knew right there he was aware of what happened between the two of us. James had told him for sure. I felt uncomfortable under the Danish’s stare, so I looked away and our conversation ended. I watched James for a while, he was with his back turned at me so I was safe. I was wondering all the time why his wife was not joining him but there was nothing I could do about it and I also couldn’t ask him. We were not that even intimate to ask. Maybe that was why he was such a different person from the one I had met, that would probably explain his weird behavior, it had to do with his personal life and nothing with me. Five hours later we landed in Miami. It was incredibly hot outside, I felt like I had landed in a different country. It was about lunch time. We headed to a luxurious hotel right in front of the beach, I knew where I was going to spend the rest of my day. In the reception the keys to our rooms were distributed. I found it funny both Katy and I had different rooms. “I could share a suite with Katy.” I spoke to Lars. “Sometimes things get pretty crazy on tour.” I jumped when I heard James’s voice behind me. “You might wanna take someone to your room.” He spoke directly to me, his tone was none but a provocative one. “I don’t sleep around with people.” I hissed. “Really?” He smiled, a sarcastic smile. “Listen…” I said between my teeth but the I refrained myself from continuing that conversation. I leaned a bit over him and hushed. “Fuck you.” With that I picked up my key card and left towards the 11th floor. My suite was too big. The living room had an amazing view over the beach. The blue and calm water almost calling my name. I opened my suitcase and picked up one of my Brazilian bikinis. I put on a white dress, flip flops and tied up my hair in a pony tail. I called Katy’s room. “Wanna come to the beach?” I asked her. “And lunch?” “I bet there’s some restaurants near the beach, we can have lunch there and then get tanned.” “Perfect. I’ll be downstairs in 10minutes.” I smiled sitting back on the couch. I would not let James Hetfield ruin my humor. He wish! Katy and I had lunch alone, just the two of us. We found a salad buffet right in front of the spot we wanted. The place had lounges chairs scattered on the sand and we quickly decided to stay there. They brought us our salads on the beach and we had our meal while we tanned. Soon we saw Kirk and Lars coming out of the water. They waved. “We’re right over there in that shadow.” Lars pointed. “Come on, join us.” We picked up our stuff and walked with him. “Not surfing?” I asked Kirk. “There’s no waves.” He said pointing at the flat sea. Katy coughed and I looked away to where she was looking. James was laid on the sun in one of the lounges chairs. I shuddered a bit at the sight of his body, I confess he was still agreeable to my eyes, despite his terrible humor he was still an handsome man and tasting his salty body crossed my mind momentarily. The moment until we got there and he saw me. I felt bullets craving in my skin coming out from his eyes. “What are you doing here?” He asked. “I was invited, deal with it.” I shot. I was going to play his game. If he wanted to be rude I could play rudeness quite well. I saw Kirk smiling at my answer but he had no idea what the real facts were. “Lars…” He called Lars’s name and looked at him waiting for an explanation. Another proof that Lars knew the whole truth. “Stop being a jerk.” Lars told him. James laid back on his chair and closed his eyes. I raided his body again in seconds with my eyes. So stupid, so rude but incredibly tasty. “Is Connie here?” I asked Lars as I made myself comfortable in the chair. “No, she went shopping with Lani. They spent the whole morning at the beach and now they were not in the mood but you’ll see her during dinner. We are all having dinner together.” I saw James opening an eye to look at Lars, obviously he was not fond of the idea and neither was I. “I am sorry but I already have plans with Katy.” Katy nodded knowingly. She knew I didn’t want to sit at the same table with James. My food could be poisoned, who knows? “Then you will see her tomorrow.” Again Lars didn’t ask my reasons. Soon they all left to the water. James refused the invitation and so did I which meant we were left alone. I didn’t want to talk to him and it was clear when he turned around to lay on his stomach and turning his ass at me that he didn‘t want to talk to me either. What a ass…God the guy couldn’t look better on both sides, his back was just as good looking and his other side. I picked up the sun cream from my bag and began to run it over my body trying to ignore his presence but the air was just too thin. Hearing the noise he turned his head to look at me “Why did you stay?” He asked. “I didn’t feel like diving.” I said shortly. “You should have gone.” He said. I counted to ten but then I didn’t control myself. “What’s your fucking problem?” I asked him a bit louder. James turned around to face me and sat on his chair. “I guess I made it very clear when I said I didn’t want you near me.” “Look, I got that quite well but it also seems pretty clear that we’re working together and staying away is quite impossible. Can’t you just ignore me?” He narrowed his eyes. “You didn’t have to come to this beach.” “I know but it happens that I did. I came alone with my friend I happened to find Lars here and he invited us to join him. We decided to do it so just act cool and deal it. We’re working together. If you don’t want to talk to me then don’t, I couldn’t care less but at least act professionally.” He cracked a laughter. “You are funny.” He added with irony. “What’s your problem? Is this all about what happened in London? You regret it and you don’t know how to deal with it? Put your shit together man. I also regret it and you don’t see me acting around like a jerk. Again, I repeat, you don’t want to talk to me, you don’t want to say hello, I am fine with that. Just act like a professional. Act like a normal and educated human being. I don’t have to put up with your shit. I don’t have the time or the patience.” “You’re just talking shit.” He shot. “Funny thing is you’re the one talking shit, you’re the one with a shitty attitude. Live with the consequences of your actions and don’t give hell to other people just because you can’t deal with it. Don’t be afraid, I am not going to run to your wife saying you slept with me. I am over that. I am here to work and do my work well. Just let me do that and in a month in a half we all be back home and we don’t have to see each other again.” “You want professional?” “I don’t want anything else from you.” “I can be professional.” “Then show me.” I defied him. “I just don’t want to talk to you or see you or be around you when I am in my relaxing time.” I counted to ten again. “Just bare one thing in your mind when in you are relaxing time and you have to deal with my presence…” I told him speaking slowly. “I don’t give a fuck about you. Bare that in your mind and you’ll be able to deal with my presence better.” James turned his rear at me again and I laid back on my chair. Silence came back. “Professional…” He muttered but I decided to just ignore him. |
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| elena | September 9, 2010, 11:22 am Post #35 |
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Outlaw Torn
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I think James acts like an asshole because of his family problem and he scared not to fuck up even more. Ade likes him because he is hot. Great chapter! :horns2 |
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| 4everJamie | September 9, 2010, 1:28 pm Post #36 |
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Some Kind Of Monster
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I think they´re both trying so hard to fight over who will hold the upper hand, because deep inside they´re both just insecure and don´t know how to deal with the situation and their nascent feelings for each other. Maybe they need someone who will mediate between them, so that they can get along in a more civilized way.....(to start with )Well, anyway it´s a good thing Ade has her friend by her side. Curious what will be next... |
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| Karla Hetfield | September 9, 2010, 11:00 pm Post #37 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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Hi! This story is getting better and better! I really loved the chapter, especially the part where they are at the beach. I like thw way that she react to him. Thanks for the chapter!
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| Scorpion Flower | September 10, 2010, 6:18 am Post #38 |
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Outlaw Torn
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The day of the show in Miami arrived. I was able to avoid James the day before, we haven’t seen each other, much to my happiness . I woke up soon, around 8.30, I needed to get to the venue quite early to make myself familiar with Metallica’s gear and sound. I couldn’t fail, for two reasons, first because they were Metallica and I didn’t want to make a fool out of myself with them and second because I knew James would just love it if I fucked up. I couldn’t fuck up. I had to be perfect. So around 8.30 I took my shower and Katy met me in my suite for breakfast. She also had to be there with me. We sure were going to have one hell of a day and night. “Are you ready for today?” She asked me while she picked up some eggs of the tray. “I’m nervous, if that’s what you want to know.” I said. “I’ve never seen you being so insecure about something.” “I know, but they are huge and I’ve never worked for such a huge band before.” “That or you are scared because James is the front man of the band you’re working with? Why does he scare you so much anyway Ade? I’ve never seen you so scared of a person before.” Katy was right. Somehow James scared me, in a way I couldn’t explain but as she was my best friend I tried to put things as straight as I could. “I don’t know.” I said honestly. “I can’t say that he scares me but he gets on my nerves and I guess that’s what makes things so hard.” “I know none of you was counting on seeing each other let alone work together and be this close the whole time but this is weird. He’s aggressive with you for no reason and I see you shake in front of him. Usually you’re not like that, it seems like he has some power over you or something. I mean, it’s not like you bend over him because you don’t, you’re yourself most of the times.” “He’s rude with me and I have to act the same way with him. I don’t know why he does it, probably he regrets it and he acts like a jerk but I can’t be nice to a person that always has a stone to throw at me no matter what. I get nervous because I am always clueless of what he’s going to do or say to me.” “I understand. You have your point. He’s being nothing but an idiot with you.” She agreed with me. I nodded at her, there was not much more I could say about it. When our breakfast was over we caught our ride to the venue. A closed pavilion with the stage and lights already ready for the night show. “This is your space.” Mick showed the table and the little cabin where I was working. I took a look around me and from there I could see perfectly well the four members of Metallica as I studied their positions on stage. I thanked Mick for everything he showed me and then I took a look around the stage to learn where all the PA’s were and I began to imagine how the sound had to sound like. “Katy, we need to check all the cables.” I told her as I made my perspective in my head. Katy began her first task. Checking all the cables and if everything was plugged in. That would take a while. I came back to my mixing table and studied all their buttons and then which buttons belonged to each member. That was not hard as they were all marked by sections with their names written on it. James was the most fortunate one, he used great part of it compared to the others but that was because he had his guitar and the micros. Around lunch time all the techs were there and it was time to rock n’ roll, at least for us. I began to check the sound while the techs played the instruments. “Kirk doesn’t have sound on his guitar.” I told Katy. “But I checked everything.” Katy told me. She was by my side helping me manage the million buttons. “Kirk doesn’t have sound on his guitar.” I talked in my mic to the guitar tech on stage. He nodded at me and began to check all Kirk’s gear. “Everything is plugged in.” H said. We gave it another try and no sound was coming out of it, well there was this thin sound but not even closed to what it should sound like, soon I realized what the problem was. “Maybe you wanna turn his amp on?” I told the guy laughing. “Sorry!” He told me also laughing. “Tough night ãh?” I joked. “You don’t wanna know! It’s on, let’s check it now.” He informed. The sound came out perfectly and strong as it should be. Katy and I banged our heads for a while hearing the amazing sound of Metallica’s powerful instruments. I was satisfied after an hour and a half, the other part had to be done with the members of the band. “I think we should all get some lunch now.” I said. “Thank god! I am starving, it’s two o’clock already.” Katy complained. We had lunch all together right there at the venue. Metallica had their own catering company and they served our meal. Then it was relaxing time in front of the pool table until all band members were there. Around five o’clock it was time to go back to work, and this time James was already there. I only saw him when I came in my little aquarium, as I called it. He was holding his guitar already and gave me the most intense look when he saw me. Our eyes clicked, touched, but we didn’t say a word. Not hello, not good afternoon, not anything. He was serious, I haven’t seen his smile directed to me not even once since we met again. “I am ready.” I informed them. They all prepared themselves and then began to play The day that never comes. I was adjusting the sound as they played when James spoke on his mic. “I want the sound of my guitar louder.” He said. I nodded not wanting to go against his orders and pushed his button up a little bit, then I waved saying it was ok for them to start again. “See this button here?” I told Katy who watched me attentively. “If he screws up with me I can shut him up in seconds.” I told her with a grin pointing at his mic’s sound button. Katy began to laugh. “You don’t exist.” She said. “I still don’t have enough sound on my guitar.” He said again. I rolled my eyes. The sound of his guitar was loud enough he was trying to pick up on me. “You have enough sound.” I said running out of patience. “If I put your guitar louder we won’t be able to hear Kirk.” I played professionally. James narrowed his eyes at me and began to play again. The other’s followed him. I adjusted Lars’s sound a bit and he gave me the horns as a signal he like it. James began to sing to stop the next second. “My sound is coming out distorted.” He said almost aggressively. I pretended I touched the button but in fact I didn’t do anything. I knew the sound was just fine he just wanted to piss me off. “Check it now.” I said when I finished my performance. “The same.” He shot after trying it. “The sound is fine.” I shot back. “If I say it’s not fine, then it’s not.” He said. “And if I, the sound engineer, say it’s fine then it is.” I hissed. “Wanna be fired?” I looked at Katy and grinned, then I just turned his volume completely down while he was talking shit to me again. Katy began to laugh. “Time to shut him up.” I told her. Anyway, he was aware the sound was coming low and so were the others, until it came off. Lars’s giggled and James just stared at me with his killing blue eyes and resting his hands on his waist. I waved and smiled at him. He looked down and I swear I saw him smiling, but I could be wrong, then he looked up at me again and pointed up with his index finger. I put the button back to its place. He stopped, I made my point and I smiled victorious. After that it was time to talk to which one of them about which special effects they wanted and on which songs. I sat comfortably in a small round table in a improvised meeting room. I was meeting each member at a time, I was a bit nervous I had to be alone in there with James but I tried to calm my selfdown and played with a pen between my fingers waiting for Lars to arrive. I wrote down all his instructions and then one by one they were all done. It was James’s turn. He made me wait at least 15 minutes, I knew he made it on purpose so I decided not to say anything. I had to be the one trying to stop his rude actions. He came in silently with his, now normal, serious look. James sat in front of me with his elbows on the table and with his chin resting on his hands. “So?” He asked. “So…what special effects do you want and where?” I made it shortly. The sooner I ended that moment with him the better. James ignored my question and looked at the bunch of bottles of water standing by my side. “Give me a bottle of water.” He ordered. Yes, he made it sound like an order. I raised an eyebrow giving him an inquisitive look. ”Didn’t you hear me, I want a bottle of water.” He said. “I don’t think I am getting this straight?” I provoked. I was not his maid, if he wanted water, he should take his ass out of his chair and get it, or he could ask nicely. “You’re working for me and if I tell you to give me water you give it to me.” I laughed. “I am a sound engineer I am not your maid. You want water? Come and get it.” I said. We stood staring at each other for a couple of seconds then, just to tease him a bit more, I reached for a bottle of water, I opened it and took a sip, then I put the bottle back on the table and looked into his eyes again. James smiled, not much, but his lips curved a bit. The first time he smiled at me since we got there. “Can you give me a bottle of water, please.” He said. I didn’t smile back but I reached for a bottle and gave it to him when he was taking it I took it back and it was his time to raise an eyebrow at me. “What do you say?” I asked him as you do to the kids when you want to teach them how to be polite. “Thank you.” He played my game. There I smiled and gave him his water. He didn’t open it, he just took the bottle off my hands and rested it on the table. “I do think the mic’s sound should be louder.” He said. “Ok.” I said taking note of it. Then, amazingly, it all went normal with no further incidents between the two of us. He explained what he wanted and I took note of everything he said. With the meeting reaching an end I came back to my sound table and began to mark every single button I should push at the right moment. Then dinner time. Dinner was shared in a larger room than lunch with all the crew and the band members after they came back of the meet n’ greet with the met club fans. Phil came back with them and joined me and Katy in a nice chat. He was a good guy and he was also from LA, so we had a lot to discuss, including places we both shared and liked. I saw James watching me, glancing at me a couple of times during that conversation. He didn’t come near or talked to me since our meeting but I was fine with that and I had an idea that’s how things would be from then on. He was already on his stage clothes, all dressed in black, he looked happy, he was laughing, I loved the sound of his laughter and while he wasn’t looking I couldn’t avoid but to look at him. He was so good looking and I even found him relaxed. He was all pumped up he was going to play again. I saw him look at the time then he looked at me and shouted. “Hey, sound engineer, time to rock.” He said. Lars glanced at him surprised, usually he was the one aware of that. “Can I at least finish my food?” I asked. James just turned around not answering me. “Uh, he’s just ON you all the time.” Connie said. I shrugged as I didn’t want t go into further details. I came back to my position 10 minutes before the show began. When Mick gave me the signal and the lights came down I prepared everything for the big appearance, after Ecstasy of gold was finished I played the entry of Blackned at the PA’s, the band came in when it was their turn. I was working and watching my favorite band play at the same time, I had been able to join two things I loved a lot in one place. I had a great feeling. I was mixing Metallica’s sound live on stage. I felt huge. I couldn’t take my eyes off James while they played. I know I’ve always loved to see him on stage, I loved the leader he was, the power he had but I felt something different that night. I watched him beyond that, I watched every single move of his body, I saw us in London again, that was much beyond music, it happened and I couldn’t deny it. I tried to understand why he was being so rude. We were both on the same boat, I couldn’t understand why he had to act the way he had been acting. James looked gorgeous that night. He played and sing wonderfully, actually the whole band did, they nailed it and so did I. I ended the show feeling relieved I hadn’t missed anything. I didn’t fail not even one bit. Task accomplished, at least, that night. After that we all gathered in a club near the hotel having a few drinks. Connie and Lars came with us straight from the show. James arrived later with Kirk, I didn’t think he was going there. I was dancing with Katy and Phil in the middle of the club, I saw James leaning against a pillar looking at me. My legs began to shake a bit much to my discomfort, I just kept on dancing and having fun and made my effort to ignore his eyes on me all the time. Connie and Lars also joined us. When my beer was finished I left them dancing to the sound of “TNT” by ACDC and went to the bar to grab another one, there James took a few steps and stopped by my side. “See you and Phil became close.” He told me. “He’s nice.” “Quite fast.” He added. Pun intended. “There you are being a jerk again.” I told him turning my gaze straight to his. “Don’t you have better things to do, other than trying to piss me off. If you don’t want to talk to me why coming here?” I asked. He looked at me in silence for a few seconds before he answered me. “I’m gonna do my best to make your life here hell.” He said putting his face closer to mine. I felt my heart jump, I didn’t like it or understood why. I came even closer, that was no safe distance I could tell, my heart pounded even more and I saw James chest coming up and down. When I made my move he tensed. “Stop that.” I told him. “Are you going to sleep with him?” He teased not straying I didn’t stray too. “I might.” I shot even though I had no intention of doing it. Lars approached us. “Is everything alright between you two?” He asked us. We both turned our heads to look at him. “Your front man doesn’t know how to keep the distance.” I talked to Lars. “Don’t you dare to play funny with me.” James said losing his grip and grabbing my arm. I jerked him away. “Now I am the one who tells you to stay the fuck away from me.” I told him, then I just came back to Connie, Phil and Katy, shaking that is. James was running out of line. James POV “What the fuck?” Lars asked me after Adriana left. “What?” I told him pretending I didn’t know what he was asking me about. “You’re being a dick, can’t you see that? Leave her alone.” “She had no right to come here.” I told Lars. I know I was being a jerk but I honestly felt that way. I felt she was invading my space and that was not supposed to happen. I looked at her dancing, she was so young, so pretty and I didn’t like the fact I liked that. I didn’t like the fact I couldn’t get through to her. I didn’t like the fact I was so indifferent to her. I wasn’t used to that, I always had the spotlight on me. “James…” Lars called me. I turned my gaze off Adriana and looked at him. “Why are you looking at her?” “I’m not looking at her.” I said. “Yes you were, I am not blind. I think something weird is happening. You slept with her, let it go. Do you want to sleep with her again?” That question hit me in surprise. I looked at Lars incapable of answering his question, he opened his mouth. “Oh God…you want to sleep with her again!” “I didn’t say anything like that.” I defended myself. “You didn’t have to. Your eyes just told me that. Let her go man, she’s not into to you.” Lars wasn’t giving me no news but the fact he mentioned it pissed me off. “You don’t have to tell me that ok?” I shouted a bit. “I know she doesn’t want it but I didn’t say I wanted it. Stop acting like you own the truth, you know nothing. I don’t want anything from her, anything. I want distance. I hate her, I don’t like her.” “You need to put your shit together. What I think is that you’re in denial and unless you get things straight in your head you won’t be able to deal with this. You’re married! Think of that.” With that Lars left quite fast leaving me no space to answer him. Again my eyes dropped on Adriana still dancing. Every single move of her body made my own shudder. She was gorgeous. I shook my head to take the dirty thoughts away. Getting myself involved with her would be a huge mistake since we were working together and a big plus in this…I didn’t want to get involved with anyone, I was separating and that was hurting enough. Adriana glanced at me but strayed her eyes as she saw me looking at her again. I saw hate in her eyes, I was making her hating me and why did the fuck I care? I didn’t care, she could hate me. |
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| elena | September 10, 2010, 6:55 am Post #39 |
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Outlaw Torn
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The part with water was funny James loves her I wander if he will really divorce with Fran.
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| 4everJamie | September 10, 2010, 2:04 pm Post #40 |
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Some Kind Of Monster
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I couldn´t have said it any better!!!Thank you for the update! |
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| Karla Hetfield | September 11, 2010, 12:11 am Post #41 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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He sure likes her it's obvious... Thanks for the update! Have a nice Saturday!
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| Scorpion Flower | September 11, 2010, 6:27 am Post #42 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Next stop New York City. We flew quite soon and I was hangover as shit from last night. The night at the club went all night long and I had my share of alcohol indeed. The crew flown alone, we had to be there sooner than the band, they were playing that same night. The craziness was about to begin, there were not much days off. I made my fast check in at the hotel, better we all did and then we left all together to the venue. The stage was on, it was incredible how fast the rest of the crew worked. Their schedule and timing was even crazier than ours. The usual stuff previously. We checked all the cables and then we went on to check the sound. I realized part of the PA’s weren’t working. There was no sound coming out of it. “Steven, this side of the PA’s isn’t working.” I told the tech while I watched all the cables already together with Katy. All was plugged in. I told Katy to do part of my work at the table while I roamed around the venue to check if the sound was getting everywhere. It only served my purposes, one side of the venue wasn’t getting any sound. “Shit.” I muttered all alone. “This side doesn’t have sound.” I shouted. “I don’t know what’s wrong.” Steven shouted back. “And the acoustics in this place are absolute shit.” I said jumping back on stage. “We need to do some changes or it will sound like shit.” I said almost thinking to myself. I was already thinking about what I could do in the mixing table to make the sound better. “I need the guys to be here, I need to check this with them, until then we better solve this PA thing otherwise the big boss is gonna get here and set my ass on fire.” I said referring to James. Katy giggled immediately. “It’s not your fault Ade.” She said. I looked at her with my hands on my waist. “Sure it is not but he’s gonna make it like it is. Do you have any doubts?” Katy just shook her head. “We need to get this thing going before he gets here.” We all began to undo and do all the plug in again as fast as we could, that was delaying our real work and after all the shit was done the PA’s weren’t still working. That was killing me as I saw the time went by and still we hadn’t a solution. They couldn’t play just for one part of the pavillion, everything had to be working. Lars and Kirk came in. My heart stopped, James should be there at any minute. “What’s the matter?” Kirk asked as he saw us all working hard. “These PA’s aren’t working which means the right side of the venue doesn’t have sound.” I explained. I saw James appearing from behind Lars’s drums. Faded blue jeans, white t shirt and black flip flops. I watched him for a few seconds, he looked so good. I didn’t want to look at him but my eyes kept on betraying me I was only able to stray my glance when finally his eyes hit mine. Again that intense and tense look. Lars was talking to him, probably explaining what was happening. James spoke loud after Lars was finished. “And why do we have a sound engineer if she can’t fix the problem.” He said looking at me. I saw Katy shaking her head and I looked straight into his eyes. Like I had predicted he didn’t miss the opportunity to point his finger at me. “Like you said I am a sound engineer not a fucking electrician.” I told him. I wasn’t in the mood for his games and bad humor. I had a shitty time this morning waking up, I was hangover and tired from the lack of sleep, plus that place was cracking my head with problems. “Have you done anything to try to fix it?” James still addressed me and this time walking up towards me. His pose was one of a rockstar and when he was close enough I recognized his t shirt as being the one he was wearing back in London. My thoughts traveled a bit far that moment and I couldn’t take my eyes off him. Not getting an answer from me he clacked his fingers in front of my eyes. “Hey, did you hear me?” “Yes I did! Of course I’ve done something!” “Then what’s the problem?” He was pissing me off with his aggressive tone once again. “I don’t know!” I shouted. “You don’t know? Is that what you have to tell us? Is that why we’re paying you?” I turned my back on him not wanting to fight again. James knew better than that, he knew that was not problem to fix and still he was making it as if it was. I turned my back and began to walk but he caught my wrist and pulled me back. His hand burned on my skin. I look down at his hand grabbing me and then I looked in his eyes. We stared and I felt his fingers tremble a bit. I looked at his hand again and the tip of his fingers were trembling a bit but amazingly so were mine. I jerked my hand away. “You pay me to mix the sound and let me tell you the acoustics here are shitty, I had some solution but as you don’t bother with that, I am gonna leave and I only come back once the PA’s are working because without them I can’t do my job. MIXING SOUND!” I shouted the last part to make it very clear. Kirk looked at us confused. He didn’t understand why there was so much hatred between us and Lars was shaking his head just like Katy. The others were trying to fix the problem for the almighty king James Hetfield. “I need to discuss some things with you, are you free?” I told James. “No.” He said promptly. “I don’t want to discuss anything with you.” He said picking up his guitar and crossing the strap over his shoulder. “It’s about work.” I insisted. James just picked on a string making an incredible noise. “I didn’t even hear you.” He said ignoring me. I ran inside my spot and turned the sound of his guitar off. When he was about to play it again he looked at me knowingly. “I said it’s about work.” I insisted coming back to him. “I don’t care. I don’t want to talk to you.” He said turning his back on me. I pulled him by the strap of his guitar. “Look you stupid fucker if you don’t want to talk to me I am cool with that! You don’t want to say hello, you don’t want to say good morning, FINE!” I said throwing my hands in the air. “But when I come to you to talk about work, you talk to me! If you still don’t want to do that, I’ll find a person to talk to you, I can also do that, for once you could act professional. This is not kindergarten!” I was pissed off. He had the power to piss me off that easily. James heard me, tilted his head to his left side and spit on the floor. That disgusted me in such a way. I gritted my teeth in anger. “That just shows how much of a despicable person you are.” I said leaving the place almost running. I had to be alone for some time and I closed myself in the bathroom. His gesture hammered on my head and for the first time I felt like I was going to cry. I couldn’t cry, not because of him so when I felt my eyes on fire I just opened the water and began to splash cold water all over my face. That prevented the tears from falling. Katy opened the door gently. “Are you ok?” She said rubbing the back of my shoulder while I watched my soak wet face in the mirror. She knew me well, she knew that moment I had weaken out. I nodded at her without pronouncing a word. “He was really stupid.” “I just feel like grabbing my stuff and go home Katy.” I said letting it all out. “You just got here. You’re strong, don’t let him scare you, that’s what he wants!” “I don’t give a shit about what he wants or what he thinks.” “You’re just tired. Look, he left the stage as you left too. I guess he didn’t even think about what he’s done. I bet he regrets it now.” “That man doesn’t regret a thing, he’s just some self absorbed cold motherfucker.” I told her.” “Ade…” Katy said looking pale and shaking my shoulder a bit. I turned around to find James watching us with his hands shoved in the pockets of jeans. How did he managed to get in there without being heard? I don’t know… “Leave us alone.” He ordered Katy who left almost running as if he was Hitler himself. I stretched for a towel to dry my face. “What did you want to talk about?” He asked me. I threw the towel back to its place incredulous. “You gave me hell outside and now you come here to ask me what I wanted to talk about? Now…I want to talk about what is wrong with you. Now, I want to know what have I done to you? Have I done anything wrong? Did I leave a bad taste in your mouth and I don’t know? Tell me…WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?” I shouted at him not caring he was my boss and he could send me home sooner if he wanted. “I don’t want to talk about that.” He said leaning against a wall and crossing his arms across his chest. “I don’t care about that. You have to have an explanation or is that just part of the show? Do you feel comfortable acting that way? Do you even like the person you are?” “Stop that…” He said. I knew I was pressing his buttons. His face was turning from relaxed to rigid but I was too turned on to stop. “No I don’t stop! I had my share of people treating me badly for no reason. I had to fight hard to cope with that for years and then get myself free from that. I stopped taking shit from people long ago and I don’t even like to remember the days when I had to. So you stop it! Right now, right this second I don’t even want to know what your reasons are because I know you don’t have none.” James threw his head back and closed his eyes. Probably he was trying to calm himself down. “Stop that.” He said twice. “No.” I insisted. “You need to behave. You need to stop acting like a jerk all the time. You don’t like me, it’s ok, just don’t act like a prick just because of it…” “Stop it!” He shouted at me. But I was only beginning and my rage was just about to float. I stuck my index finger on his nose. “You listen to me carefully, if you want me to leave just say it! Don’t make me just go out of my mind and do it myself. The game you’re playing is weak because we don’t even have the same weapons. Spitting on the floor while I am talking to you? That’s low Hetfield, very low….” I shouted at him. James just slapped my finger away from his face, grabbed me by my shoulders and shoved me against the basin leaning his body on mine. “I SAID STOP IT!!!” He shouted loud right in my face. I stopped. He was so close. His warm body pressing mine and I saw him getting weak. I felt his hands less pressured on my skin, I saw his chest heaving, he was gasping. His blue gaze locked on mine. I wanted to move away from him but I couldn’t, he was trapping me. James let his head fall a bit, his lips too close to mine I just looked away from him turning my head around. I felt my legs betraying me, that couldn’t be happening, not after the hell he was putting my through. “You slept with Phil last night didn’t you?” He whispered. Suddenly his voice was sweet and soft. He was weakening too. I didn’t understand his question. That hadn’t nothing to do with what led us there anyway and it was none of his business but I gave him a honest answer. “No, I didn’t.” I said firmly. My voice choke a bit as I felt his hand on my waist. He gripped his fingers a bit and I gasped a bit involuntarily. “Don’t lie to me Ade.” He insisted. “Don’t call me Ade! Friends call me that and you are certainly not a friend of mine. Are you always that curious about the intimate life of the people who work with you?” I asked gaining strength to look in his eyes again. Something different was there but I couldn’t figure out what it was. Something I could thought, the same lust as in London was there. I shuddered at my realization. “I am not lying.” I said again. “Remember London?” He asked huskily. The hand on my waist releasing the pressure and his fingers traveled a bit, he was trying to slid his hand under my shirt. I began to try to free myself from him but his other arm pushed me to him stronger. “Let me go.” I ordered. As I said this Lars burst into the bathroom shouting. “What the hell is going on?” He asked. Obviously he saw us in that awkward situation but James let me go fast when he realized the door was opening but not fast enough, and Lars was a smart guy. I left without explaining anything. I had my share for that day. I just wanted to get it done with and crawl into my bed. James POV “You were grabbing her?” Lars asked me as Adriana left me hanging in there. I don’t know what got into me but when I felt her body against mine I just wanted to possess her again and again and then some time again. I wanted her right there. I went against everything I had been telling her. I showed her I wanted her and I felt weak for that. I didn’t understand what was the power she had to make me lose my mind that easily. Last night in the club seeing her smiling and laughing and having a good time made me wish something bad would happen so she’d stop smiling. I am not like that. I am not that kind of a person. And she was right, If she had slept with Phil that was not problem, I had nothing to do with it. They were both single, they could do whatever they wanted. “I was not.” I answered Lars. “You were!” I rubbed my hands in my face. Too much pressure. “Leave me alone man.” I asked him. I was not shouting or being rude. I just wanted to be left alone to process things in my mind. “Talk to me.” Lars asked me. “Tell what’s on your head” “I don’t know what’s on my head! I don’t know!” I told him desperately sitting on the floor. “Is she that good in bed?” Lars asked sitting by my side. He was trying to understand what was going on. I had to smile at his comment and I knew I could talk to him. We had shared so many things through the years together. “You think this is about that? Because I don’t know. I fell kinda lost in here. One thing I know is that I didn’t want to run into her again. I told you about that when we were still in London. She left me with a strange feeling, she’s mysterious. I don’t want to treat her the way I do, every time I leave the hotel I say to myself I won’t do it but then when I get near her I just feel like shouting at her and hurting her. I don’t even know her! I know nothing about her!” “I don’t know how to help you, but you need to stop this. Concentrate on your marriage man.” “I’m separating Lars.” I dropped the news. I also needed to let that out of my chest. Lars looked at me surprised. “I have to look for a house when I come back home.” “Really? Maybe you guys can talk things out.” Lars suggested. I shook my head. “No, we talked things out over and over again. We decided it was the best thing to do. I don’t even know if I still love her man. We grew so apart! The only thing worrying me is my kids. I hope she won’t use them as a weapon.” “I don’t think she’ll do that.” “My head is a mess right now. I don’t recognize myself. I have been doing stupid things, one after another.” “Maybe you should begin to make things right from now on. You could apologize to Adriana, I bet she’d accept it.” There was no way I was going to apologize to her. She was also rude. I didn’t want to apologize. “What you did today on stage was really mean man.” “I don’t want to be near her. I don’t want to be near her.” I added. “Because you lose your self control?” “Because…” I sighed. I didn’t know what was after the word because. I didn’t know why or how or what was happening. I just knew I found her incredibly beautiful. I had seen many beautiful women but Adriana had something more than just beauty. She hypnotized me. She intoxicated me. “You need to put your head back together man, that’s all I can say. The girl is not mean to you. Try not to be mean to her like you were today. You crossed the limits. She’s good at her work, she’s proven that yesterday. Even if you had slept with her and you regret it…” I stopped Lars there. “I don’t regret it. I want to regret it but I don’t.” “Maybe your problem is there then.” He said standing on his feet and tapping my shoulder. “I saw the way you looked at her at the club yesterday night James and acting like a jerk to her, that’s not the way you’re gonna get her, even if you just want her for one night again.” “I don’t want her!” I said. “I think you’re in denial and maybe that’s where your problem with her relies. You want her but you don’t want to want her. God bless your head.” He told me laughing. “Leave me alone for a while.” I asked him. “This is the ladies toilets.” Lars warned me. I had forgotten all about it. “I’ll be gone in a minute.” I said. Lars closed the door behind me leaving me alone with my buttons. Francesca and my kids hammering on my head and then the next second Adriana. “Get the fuck out of my head.” I said slamming my head softly. I couldn’t want her. I just couldn’t. |
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| elena | September 11, 2010, 10:35 am Post #43 |
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Outlaw Torn
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James little by little start realise that he loves her. Great chapter!
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| 4everJamie | September 11, 2010, 11:20 am Post #44 |
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Some Kind Of Monster
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![]() Hetfield, you´re a pain in the ass!! If he doesn´t listen to Lars.....maybe Katy should do this ![]() the next time she sees him. Because he had been rude to her and disrespectful towards Ade! sorry, got carried away... Anyway, good chapter!! |
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| Karla Hetfield | September 12, 2010, 12:35 am Post #45 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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It's just a matter of time until they be together again... Amazing chapter! Have a nice sunday!
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