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How We Became Fire; James short story
Topic Started: September 2, 2010, 5:12 am (19,032 Views)
Scorpion Flower
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After the show I just came back to the hotel I wanted to relax and be alone. I took a shower and put on some sweaters, I ordered some food and crashed on the couch eating and watching TV. I felt fine and relaxed and soon the events began to fade away. Solitude had an incredible healing power over me. I heard a knock on my door, I opened it to find Lars.

“Hi.” I said surprised.

“Can I come in?” He asked me. I strayed a bit to give him space to come inside my suite. Lars sat on the couch while I closed the door shut and then I joined him.

“Can I get you anything to drink?” I asked him.

“What do you have in your fridge?”

“I don’t know.” I got up and went for it. “Well, we have beer, water and some soda.” I informed.

“Beer is fine.” He said. I took two bottles. One for him and another one for me. I handed him his and then sat in front of him.

“I came to see how you’re doing.” He said. I looked into his eyes and nodded.

“I am fine now.” I said. “You know the truth don’t you?” I asked him. I was quite sure what the answer would be though.

“Yes.” He simply said.

“And Connie?” He nodded again. “Christ! Soon everyone will know!”

“Don’t worry, Connie is a friend of yours she won’t tell and your secret is also safe with me.” He assured me. “You two need to learn how to live with it.”

“I can live with it. It’s past on my head and I am willing to make things right you know but he doesn’t let me. He picks up on me all the time and I don’t have to shut my mouth when he does it. Today he was extremely rude.”

“I talked to him but he’s stubborn as hell as you already might have noticed. Just try to be patient, he’ll get better. I know he will.”

“You came here to defend him?” I asked.

“No…no…I came here…” He stopped thinking of the words. “Maybe I am defending him after all.” He said smiling.

“It’s ok, you are his friend so I understand.”

“It doesn’t mean I am on his side when he pulls all this shit out. I want you to know that you can count on me.” I felt like hugging him. It was important to me that I was connecting with someone on that band and having Lars’s support felt incredibly good. “Now I also came here to ask you to join us downstairs at the bar.” I shook my head. “Come on, even your friend Katy is down there. He’s there too, I have to be honest.”

“Now way!! I’ve had my Hetfield dose for today. If I go there he’s gonna say I went there to go after him or he pulls something out. No.” I said firmly.

“Come on! You have to stand up to him.” Lars was smart. “You can’t show him fear or he’ll eat you alive.” I smiled, he was right.

“Give me just a few minutes to change.” Lars nodded and I went to my room. I picked up some black jeans and a white tank top. I was about to leave when I looked at my pale face in the mirror so I decided to put on some makeup to look better and then I ended my simple outfit with black high heel sandals. James was quietly sat on the table talking with Kirk, his eyes immediately dropped on me when I got in there with Lars, this time I was satisfied he didn’t look at me with hate. He looked normally.

I sat with Lani, Connie and Katy on another table. The bar was opened just for us, the crew, band members and their families. Phil joined us as soon as he saw me. I didn’t have a problem with that because I knew there was nothing behind his sympathy for me, it was pure friendship that was building up between us but James glanced at him seriously when he saw him coming. I ignored his killing look, that was the best thing for me to do. Trying not to care with his stuff and live my life the way I wanted and be surrounded by the people I wanted. Lars instructed the bar’s band to play some songs and a small and private party took place there.

“Come on, dance with us.” Lani told me pulling my hand but I didn’t feel like it so I just watched them all dancing and just James and I sat at the table. I began to laugh watching Rob, Kirk and Lars pulling up a show. Lars even got up in a table dancing, that was too funny and I laughed loud, suddenly I felt a presence sitting right by my side.

“You didn’t want to dance?” James asked me trying to start up a conversation. I looked at him expecting for his next move but he actually shut up and waited for me to say something. I couldn’t stop thinking he had something planned out to tease me, that’s how he worked anyway.

“I am not in the mood.” I said.

“You’re tired?” I looked at him surprised. Was he really trying to pull out a decent conversation with me?

“I am.” I said vaguely.

“I…” He said. I looked at him. He looked tired as well and the way he looked at me I found out he wanted to apologize, I panicked a bit from having him a bit defenseless in front of me. “I want to apologize to you.” He said.

“Taken.” I said coldly. Then silence took care of us and I continued to watch people dancing, by the corner of my eyes I saw him rubbing his hands on each other nervously, I didn’t resist to look at him just to find his gaze watching me. His blue eyes were different, he actually wanted to talk to me but honestly, I didn’t like the way my heart was beating fast so I just got up and joined them dancing against my will. I looked back at James left all alone and I felt a bit guilty, he’d taken his time to bend over me to apologize so I could put down my guard a bit. I came back to him and stretched him my hand. He shook his head.

“Oh no I don’t dance.” He said.

“Come on, have some fun.” I said. I wasn’t feeling very comfortable with the situation but then he smiled and got up, he joined us. I saw him relaxing for the first time since the tour began, not long ago, just five days ago. James began to laugh hard as Lars danced with him. I felt like I had my mission accomplished and came back to my seat. My legs were hurting too much and I just stayed sat with my martini in my hand. Phil joined me.

“That was great what you’ve done.” He said sitting by my side.

“I’m not a bad person, he apologized so I guess that’s not bad.”

“Even then Ade. He was very stupid for you today. I don’t know the reasons and I don’t really care but he’s terrible when he’s not in a good mood and you’ve been getting a lot of that.”

“I hope it stops now.” I said resting my martini on the table. “I am tired, I’m gonna go to bed. See you tomorrow.”

“See ya.” He told me. As I waved to Katy who was talking to James, I saw him saying goodbye to her and then he began to walk. I was already waiting for the elevator when I felt his figure by my side.

“Going to your room?” He asked. I nodded not able to say much. The scent of his cologne was floating in my nose and he smelled incredibly good. My heart racing again left me nervous. Again, as usual, I didn’t like that, not even one bit. I didn’t like how that man controlled my emotions, near him I wasn’t able to control anything in my body. We got in the elevator without talking then around the 5th floor James pressed stop.

“I’m not very fond of being stuck in an elevator.” I told him.

“I would like to apologize properly, I would like to buy you dinner.” He offered. My jaw dropped.

“I am sorry but I can’t.” I told him. There was no way I was going to take his offer.

“Why not?” He asked. I didn’t want to tell him my reasons, well there was a lot. First he was a married man, second I didn’t think I should accept it as he had been treating me like shit, third I didn’t want him to think I was available for another adventure. I was not.

“Because I don’t think you have to pay me dinner. You apologized and that’s enough.” I said pressing the button for my floor but he grabbed my hand and I didn’t manage to do it.

“But I want to. I think I owe you that.” He insisted. I was running out of arguments.

“Seriously though, you don’t have to do that. I don’t think it’s proper.”

“It’s just dinner Adriana. I promise. Do you know what I mean?” I nodded. He meant he was not going to try anything else.

“Even then, I don’t think it’s a good idea.” I pressed the button this time and the elevator moved.

“Just one dinner.” He insisted again.

“Please, don’t insist.” I told him. The elevator stopped on my floor and the doors opened. James stuck one foot at the door to prevent it from shutting.

“Why not? Tell me your reasons…”

“There’s no special reason. I said it, you apologized and that’s enough. You don’t have to pay me dinner.

“Come on…” I shook my head. James got the foot back inside and that left us only a couple of seconds.

“No, you’re a married man.” I said.

“I separated.” He said much to my surprise as the door shut. That left me without excuses.

“That’s not the only reason anyway.” I shouted but I don’t think he had heard it as the elevator was climbing already.

I came inside my suite still processing the bomb he dropped. He separated? That couldn’t be.

James POV

Why did I end up inviting Adriana to have dinner with me? I don’t know. I don’t have a clue how I ended up coming up with something like that but I was on a mission now. I had to make her accept my offer.

Next morning we were all flying to Philly, our next show was there and when I got to the airport I saw her talking with Katy. Like a person who had just been hypnotized by her youth and good looking in the morning I walked up to them sharing random good mornings while I passed through members of my crew. I don’t remember exactly who they were, Adriana blurred my vision.

“Morning.” I said when I reached them. Katy looked at me as if I was some kind of monster. I couldn’t blame her. I had been a monster in the past few days and I had been offensive to her friend.

“Morning.” They both said at the same time.

“I’m gonna get us some coffee.” Katy talked to Ade.

“Black.” She said. I learned a new thing about her, she liked black coffee. Same way I did back in the days. Then Adriana paused her green eyes on me expecting me to say something to her. I got stuck on my words as I watched her perfect face. Everything in her was just perfect or maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me.

“Did you think about what I told you last night’” I decided to say. Like I said, I had a mission and I wasn’t going to give up until she said yes.

“There’s nothing to think about.” She told me. She was not aggressive. Her tone was normal.

“Come on. Is that so hard to have one dinner with me?”

“I just don’t think it’s appropriate.”

“I told you, I separated! Besides what’s so wrong in a dinner between friends?” I know I haven’t used the right words. Her gaze showed me that too, we weren’t friends, maybe one day we could call us that but now wasn’t really the truth.

“Nothing’s wrong in that, except for the part we’re far from being friends.” She had the guts to give me the right answer. I thought she had put her guards down but one thing I learned there, was that she never put her guards down. I came up with a smart move.

“You’re right and that dinner is exactly to fix that.” I told her. Adriana looked around without much to say, I thought there I had won my point. Meanwhile Katy came back with the coffees and Adriana took a sip. Her lips against the glass made quiver a bit.

“I don’t want to have dinner with you. Period.” She finally said. The jerk in me came back. I was like that when I wanted something and I couldn’t get it.

“You are a really spoiled brat by your parents aren’t you? You can‘t even accept an apology.” I told her already with my miserable and aggressive tone. I didn’t think my words were that bad in a way anyway not until I saw Adriana looking at me rather shocked, her eyes glittering and that wasn’t rage, that glitter were tears in her eyes. I wasn’t that aggressive, not enough to make her cry. Then I saw Katy looking down at her feet and somehow I sensed that I had fucked up badly. I had no idea. Adriana opened her mouth to speak and her voice showing the same sorrow she had in her eyes.

“Yeah, I am really spoiled. Foster care spoils you a lot.” With that she turned her back at me and left. I froze not having a clue of what was going on. I looked at Katy, I wanted an explanation and she was the only one who could give me one.

“You really know how to screw things up don’t you?” She told me. Great, just what I needed, another person who thought she could point her finger at me.

“What did she mean? What did I say wrong?” I asked her. Katy shook her head.

“That you’re gonna have to ask her. I don’t know if she’s gonna tell you, she doesn’t like to talk about it first place.” I knew right there that it was a lot bigger than I thought. Adriana had a past that hurt her, I could tell now and I needed to know what it was. “Just one other thing.” Katy said before she left me. “Being aggressive is not the right way to deal with her. She’s a tough girl, she’s gonna fight back and she’ll never give you a chance to be her friend not even a connection. If you want to build a friendship with her you need to slow down your horses. And this is as far as I go.” She said walking up to her friend.

Once again I was the one leaving a bad taste in my mouth. Definitely there was a lot about her I should learn and I felt like an idiot because I knew I’d hurt her but at the same time I didn’t know it was going to hit her that much. I need to keep my mouth shut sometimes. I made a mental note to learn how to do that and fast.
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James,you are a stupid asshole! :angry I think he really fucked up this time. :( I hope things will change. :)
Thank you! :heart:
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:nanner: YAY!! Another update!! :nanner:
:horns: Thank you!!! :horns2

“You really know how to screw things up don’t you?” She told me. Great, just what I needed, another person who thought she could point her finger at me."
I liked that!!! :biggrin :wink :wink
Yes, James you deserve to have a guilty conscience....you can´t treat ladies like that!!!!
Katy should have spanked you....no :o ....maybe you would have liked that!! :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:

I :heart: this story....

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I love how she doesn't melt for James. It's good for him to be put in his place, to be reminded that he's not omnipotent. This is a really good story. I can't wait to see how James pulls himself out of this newest pile that he's stepped in. =D

-MG
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Hey...
I really liked the chapter. James is now trying to be a little more gentle to her, but then he just screwed up again.
Thanks for the update!
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“Ade…” Katy called me sitting by my side while I cleaned the tears off my eyes. “Are you ok?” I nodded.

“He’s such a jerk.” I muttered.

“He didn’t know.” Katy told me. I looked in her eyes surprised she was defending him. “Don’t give me that look Ade. Yes, he acts like a jerk around you and what he said was totally uncalled for BUT he didn’t know where he was stepping.”

“So he should just shut the fuck up. He doesn’t know what’s behind people, he doesn’t know me, he should be careful with the things he throws up to the air.”

“I know and you’re right but you also have to understand his side, he didn’t know, he didn’t know he was touching a gentle subject. I think you should tell him.” Again I opened my eyes in surprise at her.

“No way.” I said.

“Why not? I am quite sure he’s gonna ask you about it and I think he’s the right person to understand your feelings. He was alone in the world at the age of 16 like you were. He’ll understand you pretty well. This time, I have to give him that, if he asks, you should be honest with him. But you have the last word, it’s your life.” I took the advise in silence. Soon we all were inside the plane for the short flight towards Philly.

Again after landing it was the same usual rush. Hotel, check in and then venue. I made my best moves to avoid James for the rest of the day and I was able to do it until I had to work with them some time before the show. I have to be honest, James also avoided me, I saw him do wonderful moves not to cross my path that day but, like I said, we had to work together some time. He was quiet and peaceful the whole time. Silent even, taking my instructions without reposting and I was glad that I was having a quiet day. Remembering of my absent parents was too much for me, something I never learned how to deal with. So many times I had needed them by my side and I felt all alone. I was all alone, not that it was their choice but I was left alone.

After rehearsal, the usual buffet in a large room for crew and band. I picked up a plate and grabbed some chicken salad and then I sat alone in a couch at the corner of the room. I had been like that all day, expecting some solitude in a place crowed with people. James was having his salad on the opposite corner. I watched him for a while. He was looking down not feeling exactly comfortable. I knew that by the lines of his face, it’s funny how some days with a person makes you know some aspects of her just by the expression, or was I watching him too much? James got up from his bench and I choked on my salad when I realized he was walking on my direction. He pulled another bench and sat in front of me.

“I am sorry for what I said today.” He said straightly. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, whatever it is, I didn’t know.”

“It’s alright.” I said looking down at my plate and playing with my food.

“What did you mean by foster care?”

“I don’t want to talk about it.” I told him. We looked at each other in the eyes and his gaze begged me for an explanation.

“I lived in foster care.” I ended up saying. I looked down again with my hands shaking a bit.

“I’m sorry.” He whispered.

“It’s ok.” I said shrugging.

“What happened?” He wanted to know more but I wasn’t ready to give him more.

“I don’t want to talk about this.” I said again.

“When you’re ready I want to hear the whole story.” He offered. Again I looked up at him and our eyes met. “Adriana, I know I have been acting badly with you but what happened in London has nothing to do with it.” I almost jumped in my seat.

“Oh, no…no…. I also don’t want to talk about that.” I said almost in panic. James smiled openly. I guess he had fun watching me panicking in front of his eyes. His smiled murdered a bit of my soul.

“You don’t need to be scared.”

“I am not scared, it’s just that it’s not appropriate that’s all.”

“You use that word a lot?” He joked. I giggled a bit.

“Seems like I do lately.”

“How about that diner?” He said out of the blue and that made me laugh loud. He laughed too. The sound of his laughter….dear god.

“You’re such a pain in the ass.” I said.

“I am not giving up, besides now I want to hear all bout your story and dinner is perfect for that.”

“No.” I told him.

“James, time to go!” Lars shouted and I was saved just in time.

“We’re not finished.” He said getting up and pointing his index finger at me giving me a wink. I smiled at him. I had to go too. Show time, rock time and Heavy Metal time. All in one. You wouldn’t get less from the guys.

Once again in my life and for the days touring with them I couldn’t take my eyes off James while he did his thing. This time he glanced a lot to me, whenever he had the opportunity to look back and at me. I never mind straying my eyes and we met countless times. I was hypnotized by his wild way on stage. With the show reaching its end we all went to a small club near the hotel. That was a must after every show, sometimes the band joined us others didn’t. I knew this time the band was going to be there because the invitation came from Lani with whom I was building a good friendship. I didn’t know if James was going to be there but even if he was that wasn’t bothering me at all.

James was there. Looking tired from the show but he was there. Dressed in black as I loved to see him. His hair still wet from the shower, he looked sexy as hell. He smiled at me when I arrived and I reattributed the smile. I didn’t come closer him though. I stayed with Connie, Lani and Katy talking. I was beginning to feel exhausted and the tour was just beginning. I couldn’t wait for a day off and a day where we didn’t have to travel immediately. James waited the moment I was alone to come near me. I was leaning against a pillar with a bottle of water in my hand when he stopped by my side. At first I tried to ignore his presence, too much of James in the same day was not gonna do me any good, too much of sexy James was too much for me to handle.

“Drinking water?” He began to talk to me.

“I don’t want to have a drop of alcohol tonight.”

“I told you things get pretty crazy on tour didn’t I?

“You did, in another context but you did.” I didn’t miss the opportunity to point another error of his. He shook his head.

“I am sorry for that too.” He smiled.

“You use that word a lot don’t you?” I teased him a bit. He cracked a laughter.

“Seems like I do lately.” He said picking up my own words. “How about that dinner?” It was my time to crack a laughter.

“You don’t give up.” I commented randomly.

“I don’t. One of my qualities or not but I don’t give up.”

“If I say yes will you leave me alone? God…I am getting tired of hearing you.”

“If I have to beat you by fatigue then be it.” I laughed again.

“Ok…one dinner and then you leave me alone.” I said trying to make a deal with him. I don’t know why I accepted it, I wasn’t even sure of my proposal. It seemed to me rather impossible to go out for dinner with him and then be it, but honestly, I was getting tired of having him after me almost begging for a dinner.

“Tomorrow then.” He said.

“Already?” I said surprised.

“We’re flying to Boston in the morning and it’s a day off so I guess it’s a good idea.” He said shrugging. Yes, a day off, all I had been waiting for and I was setting on a commitment for dinner and James Hetfield.

“I don’t want to be seen anywhere around with you.”

“And how are we supposed to do that when we’re going out together?” He said smiling softly. He was playing with me, I could tell.

“I don’t know. It’s your plan you sort it out. I told you my rules now you play by them.” I defied him.

“I’m sure I can figure out a way.” He said taking the game.

“Good. Now excuse me Lars is calling me.” I said leaving him alone with his thoughts. Somehow part of the real me came back in that conversation with him. I played my part and he took it. This couldn’t be just his shot this had to be mine too. I could only wait for what his solution was. Me? I just thought our dinner wasn’t going to happen due to my rules.

James POV

I left to my room as soon as I had managed to settle the dinner with Adriana. That was the only reason I had been to that club to begin with. I had to convince her to have dinner with me and I came back to my refugee feeling victorious. Or some sort of victorious because she had set her own rules. I couldn’t be defeated by that, I had to show her I could come out with a solution. It didn’t took me long to find one, alone, sat on the couch of my suite thinking about a way, it immediately occurred to me the perfect plan. She didn’t want to be seen with me? Then be it. She’d have dinner with me in my suite. It was private, no one would go in there except us and it served the purpose perfectly. I laughed at my own and easy solution. She never thought I would come up with that, even though I was quite sure she knew it was a possibility. She’s smart, I could tell and tough. I love tough women. I love a woman who can fight and she could do it like anyone else.

I finished my water and went to bed. I couldn’t sleep, I was too exited I was going to be with her again. I was not going to try anything, I was sure of that. I knew my body wanted it, it pleaded for it but my head was being reasonable enough to command my body instead of the other way around. I wasn’t sure of what was happening to me or why it was so important to me to get to know her better but I wanted to know her better. There was a lot behind her, much more than I could think of and I wanted to learn every single piece about her. Dinner was perfect and that was my goal. Of course apologizing was another one but secretly I knew it wasn’t the main point.
Adriana ran through my mind some hours before I could finally close my eyes and let my body sleep peacefully.
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elena
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Love this story! :heart:
James is smart :cool
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4everJamie
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Good that Ade has her friend with her...so... :dance I think we can declare armistice between Ade and James now :wink
And now it´s all about THE DINNER!!!
Can´t wait to see where that will lead them.... :wink :wink :biggrin

:wink "he looked sexy as hell", huh?? :biggrin :lol:

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I Love this story!!!

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Gaby de Trujillo
September 14, 2010, 3:53 pm
I Love this story!!!

A new reader. :)

Thank you so much for taking your time to read it and commenting it:))
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I'm glad that she accepted his invite to dinner. It'll be fun! Can't wait to see what will happen...
Thansk for the update!
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Boston was hot as hell that day. It was hot or my nerves were killing me. We’ve had a quiet and peaceful flight there. Being a day off, I left all my bags in my suite and I joined Katy in the pool. Our tan needed to be worked out already and there was nothing left to do. We could have been out in the city but we both wanted something relaxing. Afternoon laid by the sun seemed nice.

“Are you nervous Ade?” She asked me.

“Yes.” I said fixing my sunglasses and sticking them in my nose. My answer was simple and short but there was not much I could tell her.

“That nervous?” Katy insisted with me. She knew when I was scanty for words I was a lot nervous.

“I should have never agree with this dinner. I regret I said yes, honestly.”

“That or you are afraid of being alone with him?” I rolled my eyes at Katy. “I know you Ade and I’ve never seen you so scared of a person. Take this as an apology dinner as he says it is.”

“I am not looking at it in a different way but he didn’t have to do it.”

“But he chose to do it and you agreed now just relax and then get yourself a shower and get yourself pretty for tonight.” Again I rolled my eyes at her only my eyes were hidden behind my shades and she couldn’t see it.

“I don’t nee to look pretty for him.” I claimed. Katy began to laugh and I looked at her inquisitive.

“What? Can’t I laugh?” She asked.

“Yes but not on this situation. Come on, I am almost freaking out.” I complained.

“Ade, it is just dinner!” She almost shouted. “Try to have some fun and since the two of you have been like cat and dog try to make peace with him, that’s what he is trying to do and that is not a bad thing. It is, actually, a good thing for you. He’ll stop giving you hell”

“Ok…” I whispered not really convinced with her arguments. I didn’t like the feeling of being nervous either. I whished for a moment I could relax just like my friend suggested me but I couldn’t and I also couldn’t admit it to myself. Last thing I wanted to feel was all the strange feelings I had whenever my eyes hit him. The shaking hands, the sweating palms, the racing heart, the weakness in my legs, my knees failing on me and my mind, franticly, looking for him whenever he was around. That I kept it all to myself. The reason I was nervous was because I was going to be alone with him, I was afraid I couldn’t control my emotions and I’d give it away.

“Have you seen him today?” Katy broke the silence again.

“No, we just talked on the phone. He’s picking me up at my room at 7 pm.” I clarified.

“You better get yourself ready then.” She said. That made me realized the time was near and I felt goose bumps in my skin.

After half an hour, around 6pm we left the pool. I went alone to my room. First I chose what I was going to wear that night. Katy’s words saying I had to look pretty hit my brain, why not? After all I was a woman and women like to look good no matter what the situation is. I’ve chosen a strapless black dress and high heel matching shoes. I knew I was going to look good and it was not exaggerated. With the task of choosing the outfit done I plunged my shaking body in the hot tub with relaxing oily scents. I remained there for a while with my eyes closed relaxing the more I could. Then I just showered quickly and got dressed. A bit of makeup, light one, made me look pleasant. I liked what I saw in the mirror when I looked in there to see if I was alright. I was, at least, according to my opinion. A few drops of perfume and I was ready.

James knocked on my door a couple of minutes later. 7pm sharply.

“He’s on time!” I spoke to myself surprised while I walked to the door. I saw him dressed simply in black jeans and grey shirt. No matter what he was wearing he’d look perfect anyway. I scrutinized him for a few seconds.

“Are you ready to go?” He asked me. I nodded.

“Did you find the place where we’re not going to be seen?” I asked him. I couldn’t wait to know what his solution was.

“Don’t worry about that, I got it all figure out.” He said with a soft smile on his lips. I went to search my purse in my bedroom and I noticed my hands shaking a bit. Then I closed the door of my room and followed him to the elevator, noticing he pushed the 9th floor instead of the lobby.

“We’re going up?” I asked him.

“Yes we are.” He said shoving his hands in the pockets. I noticed there was a bit of nervousness in him too. We were definitely not comfortable around each other. I would have never slept with him if I knew one day I’d be ending up working with him. James guided me through the corridor and stopped in front of the presidential suite. I raised an eyebrow.

“Don’t give me that look, I wasn’t the one booking the suite.” He said.

“This is your suite?” I asked him. I tried to figure out what we were doing in there.

“Yes it is.”

My curiosity was killed when he opened the door and held it for me so I cold come in. The living room had a perfect table set for two. I smiled a bit at his solution, definitely we would be quiet and we wouldn’t be seen.

“You are a smart guy.” I said looking back at him.

“I hope you don’t mind.” He said resting his key card on a small table near the door.

“No, I don’t.” I told him. I didn’t mind. James handed me a glass of juice. I knew there was never alcohol around him and that was his room so I wasn’t surprised.

“I ordered stakes. I don’t know what you like so I opted for something random. I’ve seen you eat meat before.”

“Stakes are fine.” I said. A knock on the door almost made me jump.

“Our food.” He informed me walking up to the door. James let the guy put the trays on the table and then tipped him, we were left alone again after two minutes. We sat on the table and he served me. I was a bit silent because I didn’t know what to tell him.

“Those are good.” He told me as he took a piece of his stake au poivre. I nodded, indeed the food was tasty.

“So, did or did I not came up with a good solution?” He asked smiling proudly. I smiled back at him, his boyish grin looked so perfect I couldn’t not smile back. I don’t know if I smiled because of his question or just because the sight of his own smile was just too good to ignore.

“I have to give you the credits for this. Nice job.” I said. I had put all my weapons down. He was being nice so I was acting normal too.

“You look pretty.” He said all of a sudden. I almost choked in my food and James looked down at his plate slightly blushing as he blurted out the words.

“Thank you.” I said randomly. It is what you are supposed to say after a compliment and he had given me one.

“Adriana, can I call you Ade?” He asked. He cleared his throat a bit before he addressed me the question. I was having dinner with him, that broke a bit of our distance. I couldn’t deny him his request. I nodded silently. “Good…Ade, if you don’t mind me asking, why did you live in foster care?” I knew he was going to make me that question. It was impossible not to. I could not answer him but I had the will to do it and innocently I expected he’d be satisfied with a light answer, not going into too much details. I didn’t know if I could handle to tell him all the facts without falling to pieces. That was a very delicate subject to me. I went for it anyway.
“My parents died when I was 16, as I was a minor and we didn’t have any family I ended up living there.” I explained. James looked at me a bit shocked.

“Your parents died?” He asked and I nodded. “How?”

“In a car crash.”

“I am so sorry. That must have been hard.” He said. Suddenly his eyes dropped on his plate and his face turned a bit sad. “It is hard…” He mumbled. “I know it is.”

“Sorry…” I said without much to tell him. I knew exactly what he was referring to. James looked back at me.

“How was it? How was it for you Ade?” He asked me. There I knew our conversation was just beginning and I guess for the first time in my life I was talking to someone who shared the same pain that I did. Somehow it felt good.

“I had no one else in the world…” I began. I was about to speak about something that I kept private all the time. “I felt lost, I didn’t want to believe it was true. I was afraid, scared, then I went to foster care and that was just even worse. My life was already a mess and that made things even worse but I didn’t have choice. I had no one.”

“Was it that bad?”

“I was bullied by the other girls all the time. For no reason they didn’t like me. All I could think of was getting out of there. I only did it when I was 18, I suffered again but at least I suffered on my own, not because others were causing me that suffering. I never understood why they terrorized me, I cried a lot wishing my parents would come back to rescue me from there but that was impossible. I missed them a lot, I still miss them a lot.”

“What did you do when you left?”

“Work. I wanted to go to music school and I had to live on my own so I worked. I’ve had three different jobs to have enough money to live on my own. I starved sometimes to have money to pay the rent and school. I couldn’t lose those two things.”

“You’re a fighter.” He told me smiling. He smiled for the first time since that conversation began.

“I had to, was that, fighting or I could just end up in the gutter. I’d rather fought.” I said proudly.

“It was a good decision. A decision I didn’t take it myself. You know I also ended up alone in the world after my mother died.” I was surprised he was bringing his own experience up but I let him talk. “Just like you I felt really lost and afraid and scared, you know exactly the feeling. Kids, they are supposed to be protected by their parents, they need their parents for guidance without them they get lost. I was no exception. I went to live with my older brother but he had his own life and was too busy to take care of me and my sister. We were there but we were pretty much left at our own care. Two kids living alone in a wild world couldn’t be a good thing, and it wasn’t. My sister ended up having problems with drugs and alcohol and that’s when alcohol began for me too.”

“But you had your father right?” I asked. I thought since we were having such a deep and honest conversation I could make him questions too. He nodded.

“I did but that was only 10 years after he left our house, by then I was already too lost, you know. We regained contact but we never talked about what happened, I knew we would end up fighting if we did, so I never made him questions. I was like that, always hiding my feelings, not showing them to anyone.” I could picture myself in his last words. I was like that. I decided to lighten things up.

“Well but we both ended up doing pretty good.” I smiled. He smiled back.

“It took me long years but I ended up being a better person, I guess.”

“You did, you have your wife and your kids.” He opened his mouth in a tender smile when I mentioned his children.

“My children are the best thing I have. My wife…” He sighed. “I don’t think I have her anymore.”

“Maybe you can work things out.” I said. James shook his head.

“I don’t think so. I came to this tour knowing I am looking for another house when I come back to San Francisco.”

“Are you sure about that?”

“I am. You know, the other time I saw her do anything she could to save our marriage and I went for it because I wanted it too. I loved her. This time none of us were making the effort, you know what I mean? I didn’t see anything there, none of us did, so I guess this is the best.”

“And your kids?”

“My kids are aware of what is happening. Right before I came on this tour we sat with them and explained, obviously they were devastated but in the end they understood. It isn’t good for them to have their parents fighting around them all the time as it was happening. They’ll be better this way.”

“I was married once.” I said. Again his eyes looked at me in surprise. “Divorcing wasn’t easy, it’s never easy.”

“What happened?” He asked.

“Not enough affection on my side.”

“I see…” He said.

“I don’t think I am capable of being in relationship and give affection, I guess that was our problem.”

“I’ve been there Ade. One day you will be, I was.”

“You fell in love!”

“And you will too and then things will change, you’ll see.”

“I sure would like to know what love is.” I commented almost laughing. “I am losing hope though.” James’s eyes told me not to lose hope without him saying a word.

Dinner had been finished long ago. Our conversation took hours. We shared experiences. We were much more alike than we ever thought we were and in the end it was a very pleasant evening.

“Well, it’s a bit late, I better go back to my room.” I told him standing on my feet.

“I’ll take you to your room.”

“You don’t have to, I mean I just have to go to the 5th floor.”

“I insist.” He said opening the door for me. James took me to my room.

“Thanks for dinner.” I told him opening my door.

“I had a good time.” He said.

“Yeah…me too.”

“Well, goodnight.”

“Goodnight.” I responded. When he was coming into the elevator again he called me.

“Ade…” I looked back at him. “I think we should repeat it.”

“What?”

“Dinner of course.” I was surprised. “I liked your company.” He confessed. I smiled at him not knowing what to tell him.

“We’ll see about that.” I answered, mentally blaming myself for not being able to tell him that our deal was just one dinner.

“Goodnight.” He said again before he disappeared behind the elevator’s door. I didn’t have time to tell him the same again. I closed the door of my suite behind me and threw the shoes that were killing me randomly on the floor, then I sat on the couch thinking I also had liked his company. I liked to know another side of him. A side I wasn’t able to know until that moment not even in London. With a smile on my face I walked up to my bed satisfied with the nice surprise I’ve had that night.
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elena
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They start being close like friends :heart:
She should accept if he will ask her another dinner.
Thank you :heart:
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There you go!! A nice pleasant evening! :dance
“I sure would like to know what love is.” I commented almost laughing."

And me singing:
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
:biggrin :lol: :biggrin

Thank you! :cool

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I read the entire thing tonight... ^^ I lOVE it! *sighs* I wanna have a dinner with James.... :wub: :drool

Keep up the extremely good work! :heart: I wanna read so much more of this!
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