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Terrible Things; This is Sad, but it is a love Fiction with James/OFC
Topic Started: December 13, 2011, 8:51 pm (4,591 Views)
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I stuttered slightly, trying to force the air back into my lungs as I inhaled a brush of his Black Polo cologne. *just for you my friend. You know who you are*
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& yes, i've already finished reading this :P
THAT IS SUCH A CUTE PICTURE OF SKIP! :wub:
Hahaha thakn you. He's a character.I'm sure you've seen the others of him, and the ones pf what the accident did to me.
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January 17, 2012, 8:18 pm
I stuttered slightly, trying to force the air back into my lungs as I inhaled a brush of his Black Polo cologne. *just for you my friend. You know who you are*
:biggrin :horns2 :heart:
& yes, i've already finished reading this :P
THAT IS SUCH A CUTE PICTURE OF SKIP! :wub:
Hahaha thakn you. He's a character.I'm sure you've seen the others of him, and the ones pf what the accident did to me.
I sure have :biggrin :heart:
Ah he's so cute :3
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Quoting limited to 3 levels deep*just for you my friend. You know who you are*
Hahaha thakn you. He's a character.I'm sure you've seen the others of him, and the ones pf what the accident did to me.
I sure have :biggrin :heart:
Ah he's so cute :3
Tis he is. Hahaha. Did you see what I posted in the Fact About Yourself Thread? Haha :lol:
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I noticed James slight hesitation and just smiled. Skip pawed at the ground in anticipation. Waiting for me to swing up. I rested my hand on James' shoulder and stroked it gently. "You want front or back?" He stared at me not knowing what to say. So instead, he shrugged. "Okay, back it is." I grabbed a stool and set it at Skips side. I threw myself up onto his back. "What's the stool for?" I giggled and shook my head. "You. It's for you to help you get on him." He scoffed cockily and to my surprise threw himself up the way I had jsut done. "Wow. Impressive. You're a natural." He chuckled and kissed the sweet spot behind my ear.

I sighed and gave Skip a gentle squeeze with my knees and he moved slowly, dragging his feet til he adjusted to the new weight. We rode in silence for a few minutes. I took in the feel of his hands on my hips relaxed, and the sun setting in front of us as we rode towards the pasture that was horizoned with mountains. It was like the perfect scene out of those fairy tale books that your sibling or dad would read to a child. James chin rested on my shoulder lazily and I smiled. "Having fun?" "Yeah. It's so relaxing and quiet. Now I know why you enjoy it so much." I giggled and nodded with a quiet 'Yeah.' He didn't have much to say after that and neither did I. We both seemed to be mezmorized by the view and by the feeling of the relaxed moment.

I stopped Skip just short of the barbwire fence that cut my property off from the government land. It was a good few miles walk to the mountain. They towered over us, looming as if they were actually taking in the emotion that radiated from our bodies. James snaked their way around my waist and he pulled me against his chest tightly. I could feel his breath on my cheek and the corner of his lips crving into a smile against my jaw. "It's beautiful." He whispered. Skip snorted and shook his head. I felt James tense for balance for just a moment. I smiled to myself. Try waking up to it every sunrise and riding away from it every sunset."

He leaned over my shoulder and stared me in the eyes. I had my head turned slightly and all I had to do was pucker my lips and we would kiss. But I refrained. I was slightly nervous when he just smiled at me and slid off the back of Skip. I stared down at his out stretched hands. "What?" "What do you think? Come down here." I leaned away from him in confusion but then slid cautiously to the ground. "Will he run away?" "No." I whispered even more nervously. "Good. Take his bridle off and let him go graze." "Why?" "Just do it." I didn't queston his request and slipped my boy's bridle off smacking his butt gently letting him know he was free to roam. He strode off silently and a bit joyously.

When I turned to face James, he had his back to me, his hands shoved in his pockets and staring off into the nothingness of the sky. I rested my head on his back just between his shoulders and stroked his pecs with my hands. He sighed and leaned back against me. "What's bothering you?" I pressed slightly. "Nothing is bothering me. I'm just calm." I nodded against his shirt, inhaling his scent. He gestured his head over his shoulder, "Why'd you bring me out here? This seems like a personal place to you." "I thought I'd be able to share it with you." "Well, is it personal?" "Yes." "I'm guessing you would've told me by now if you wanted me to know?" I knew it was a question but he made it off like he wanted it to be a statement. I pulled away from him and he turned to face me.

He looked, emotionless. There was nothing in his eyes but the calm blue and slight bloodshot veins. His slips were closed in a tight line, his cheeks a slight pale. He looked almost as if he was staring directly through me, as if he was thinking about somehting important. "James." He blinked. "I brought you here, because it's something I wanted to share with you. My dad would bring me here. And occassionaly, my brother. My dad brought me here to help get me away from the people that...scrutinized me or whatever. It was his calming area and he wanted it to be mine. And now it is." His face stayed blank. I stood in front of him not exchanging any type of glance but his blank expression.

"James? Are you hearing me?" He nodded and shifted his hands in his pockets. "Seriously, what's wrong? you look like you're in deep thought about something." "I am." "Well, are you gonna tell me, or am I gonna have to play 20 questions and guess it for myself?" He smiled sheepishly and looked at the ground. "I was just thinking that...maybe this place won't be...just your's and Skips' anymore.." He lifted his eyes nervously and somewhat with caution to stare at my baffled expression. I jsut stood there. It was my turn to go silent in thought and shove my hands in my pockets.
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I just stood there, watching the ground. It felt as if it was spinning underneath me so I fell to my knees. James rushed to my die, his hand on my houlder. "I'm sorry...Did that upset you? Damn it..I knew this would be the wrong time...Fuck..Bailes I'm sorry..." I just shook my head from side to side wondering and wondering why he'd want to move here. This was my place..My quiet little place. He had a huge house massive expenisive vehicles. I had a stable, and a home with a lot of land to go with it. Casotr would never go for this life. I'm a country girl, no city girl. They are city people they will never adjust properly..

James was stroking my shoulder, his lips pressed to my ear begging me to speak to him. But I pushed him away from me and he fell back onto his bum. Staring at me in disbelief. "James...I..I don't know if that's a good idea....We aren't even really...dating..I mean..We are but it hasn't been for very long and you want to make this place 'ours'?" He just stared at me in silence, confirming my question. "No..Just no, I won't allow it." "Why not?" His voice was hoarse and raspy like someone had poured dust down it. I almost felt bad because I knew it was caused by the lump that was formed from trying not to cry.

"Because...Castor..He's got friends and a school...He won't like it out here. It's too far from what he knows. You can't take him out..." "Castor will be fine. He's been here twice before and he's loved it each time. My boy likes the privacy...Likes the...uh..the open..And I d too." I shook my head not believing him. "You don't know what open is.." He rose to his feet quickly and grabbed my arm yanking me up forcefully. "I don't know what open is?! I lived it for years and years! I slept in the open with someone I loved every night! I know what open is! I know what free is!!" I stared at him blankly. "Someone you loved? What she do leave you cause you grabbed her the way you're grabbing me?"

He let go of me quickly. "This ain't about that. I want this to be our place." "And if I reject?" "You don't have a choice Bailes. I known you long enough...To consider us..an item. We can make it. Bailes please...Just let me in!" "Let you in?! Why? This is ME James! THIS is what I do! I live here for me! I don't intend on anyone intruding!" He shook his head sadly and I watched a single tear well in his eye. "SO that's what I am? An intruder coming onto your sacred land...Huh..I thought we were much more than that...I love you Bailes...I wa..Fuck I need you..You can't just push me off like this." "I can...And I just have."

I stared in the faint direction of my grazing pony. The only man who will ever live on this land with me. The only man who will ever know what has happened here and why it means so much. "Bailes...please don't..." He made his way towards me and rested both hands on my shoulders. He could see the tears in my eyes that I tried so desperatly to hide from him. "Why you crying baby? Tell me why you don't want me.." "It's not that I don't want you..It's that I don't want you here. You don't understand..this is a place that I grew up on...This a place where so much of my life rests...You'll never understand.." "Oh But I think I will...And I think I already do..It was a man wasn't it?"

I stared at him in a daze not knowing what to say. How he guessed I don't know. I never gave any hint. "What happened?" I shook my heand 'no' and a tear forced it's way out. "Bailey, you tell me...And I swear I'll tell you mine. You lost someone didn't you? Someone who provided this for you someone who....cared and then just left..Tell me Bailey..." His thumb stroked my cheek in a gentle manner, brushing my lip casually. "I..I..ca.." "Oh yes you can Bailes..." He wrapped his arms around me and swayed slowly from side to side. In a soft whisper against my hear I heard him say, "Now most of the time, we'd had too much to drink
And we'd laugh at the stars and we'd share everything Too young to notice, and too dumb to care Love was a story, that couldn't compare. Now, I'm only telling you this because life...can do terrible things.." I cried, sobbing quietly against his chest. His flannel gripped tightly in my fists as I clutched my shaking form to him.

"I said, "Girl, can I tell you a wonderful thing? I made you a present with paper and string. Open with care now, I'm asking you, please. You know that I love you, will you marry me?" I felt him slide down my body and watched as he reached into his back pocket pulling out a tiny all metallic band. He held it in front of me between his thumb and index. His face was serious, his eyes welled with unshed tears. My cheeks were flushed and stained with my tears, my throat sore from the sobs. "Now my dear, this ain't no wedding band, it's a promise ring. It's got a date on it I'm sure you'll know and remember. But if you don't do anything else or listen to anything else I have to sya, just promise me that you'll allow me to put this on your finger to show that I swear on anything that I've ever been given that I love you and that I'll always love you. Please, put it on your finger."

I just stared down at him. I knew my face was probably ghost white, and that my eyes most liekly faded to an absent grey. I extended my shaky hand and fell to my knees to be at level with him. My hand touched the tops of his knuckles and he smiled. I smoothed the ring with my fingertips. "It's a part of me...The only part I have left. I want you to have it. You already hold the other and I want you to have this one." I stared at him blankly as he spoke through me. "Bailey, please my love. Take it." I slipped my finger through the tight hole and he slide it over my nuckle. He held my wrist up to marvel at it. The ring was heavy and real metallic.

He smiled and kissed the inside of my wrist. "Come into the house and lay with me...And I'll tell you everything you want to know and everything you need to know." He nodded and whispered against my cheek, "And I shall tell you the same." With that, we gathered Skip and headed back towards the house. Setting Skip back in his resting area we made way silently to the house and up the stairs into our bedroom. Where he lay silently on his back, my head on his chest and his arm protectivly on my waist.

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His heart was slow and steady in my ear. His chest rising and falling in slow, relaxed breaths. I danced my fingertips along his sternum and watched them intently as they played with the thin chest hair. His fingers were stroking my hip smoothly, our legs intertwined with each other. We lay there in silence for a few minutes before I finally spoke. "My daddy gave me this place...I grew up with three older brothers and a little sister. Mom was never around, daddy just raised us himself. Dylan was the oldest and he was never really...there. He was around whenever my little sis needed someone but if dad or me, or Jace needed him, he didn't give it a second look. And before we knew it, my little sis and Dylan were gone. Just like mom. Never came around or so much as called. Jace and I, we were close. And he's the one who got me Skip."

"He would take me out the back area where you and I were and we would sit together and talk about everything...One day I remember he left and didn't come back for...God it must've been a year or so. But when he did show up again he was in a camo uniform. I cried for hours. Wouldn't let him touch me, wouldn't let him speak to me. He found me sitting underneath the old tree over there next to the barb wire fence and he just sat next to me...He would hold me just like you are now. People always stared at us weird because we never left each others side. And they thought it was some kind of..insest shit going on. He would get so angry. But he uhm...he sat there with me all night under the tree and said that daddy had this place rigged up for me where I could work on cars and bikes all I waned and that this place would be mine and when he came back, it would be his and I's and he would fight off any boy who came over."

James and I were silent for a moment. I kissed his pec gently and nuzzled him. "But he never came back...Daddy said that when I turned 21 he would speak to me about it. Tell me what happened to him. But, he passed away before I was even 19. Car accident. I was alone, locked in the house for the longest time. No one to care for me. I neglected Skip for days. My neighbor had to come down and feed. Check up on me every so often. But I never quite got back on my feet again. My dad left some papers lyin around in the den and I didn't find them after a couple weeks of his passing. They were just little notes and pictures of him and some woman. I grabbed a whole stack got on Skip rode out to the tree and sat for hours. There were pictures of my dad and some woman I assumed was my mother, and pictures of Jace and I. But no photos of Dylan or Sarah. I found a little letter explaining they were never my fathers kids and explaining why Jace went to the service why my daddy drank. And that he left the place to me and the money."

James shifted underneath me til both his arms were wrapped snuggly around my waist. His chin rested on top of my head and he kissed my hair. "I look like I'm barely gettin' by but I've got enough to last me til I die. My dad was a good man. Jace, he was the type of man that every girl dreams of. Country, gentleman, hard working and just such a good guy with kids. He could do anything. I go out there every night, even when I work late at the shop, I come home, ride out to the far back jsut along the line of the fence and Talk to them. I practice making Skip do rollbacks showing off to them. Their ashes are out there and I know they are just sitting on the sidelines watching me live life and be happy."

James fingers stumbled a moment on my hip, but soon resumed tracing tiny circles along the bone. "The reason I'm afraid to let you here with me..is because sometimes, I get bad. I get so down and so upset and I don't ever want you to see that of me. I don't want you to think I'm crazy or tell me that I need to get over it. But when it's all you've ever had in life, you can't just let go. Ever. It holds on." "I know how that feels. Trust me." I lifted up onto my arm and stared at him intently. "I guess it's my turn?" He chuckled nervously and stroked a strand of hair behind my ear. I just nodded, asking him to go on. "I guess life has a way of doing some fucked up things every time they seem to be going right. And it's never up to us to decide when or how life takes these things from us." I kissed his lips softly. Letting them linger against his. Not pressing to start any touching or what not.

His large fingers traced down the curve of my spine and he pulled away from me, resting his forehead against mine solemnly. "She was everything to me. I met her when I was..oh about 17-18 or so. Heh, she was a wild thing. She could hold her liquor and she was just always bubbly. But not that stupid blonde, show offy type. She could hang as hard as the guys and sometimes even harder. Her name was Alexi and she caught me staring at her at some party after a show or somethin. And after being smart asses to each other, we finally went out. One day...sometime after Cliff had passed it had been a few years that we had been dating, we were sitting on the hood of my ol beat up truck. Sharing a bottle Vodka, and a cigerette. I smiled at her and out of my drunken mind I asked her to marry me. I gave her Cliff's ring that night."

"SHe was somethin else. We never fought, we never cheated on each other. I never felt tempted to touch other women when I was dating her. We had our days where we would ask each other for a break from everything. And then there were days that we were stitched to each others hip. Heh, then sooner than later she was pregnant with Castor and when he was about a toddler she came into my home studio and she was just...crying..This wa a girl who never cried. You could do anything to her and she wouldn't even flinch. And I asked her what the matter was and she said she only had so long. Said that there was something on her lung that had spread way to far..A place that it wasn't supposed to go. I didn't cry, or feel anything at that moment. She admitted herself to the hospital did treatments or whatever. I visited her everyday with our son on my hip. And on the last day, we were curled up on either side of her holding her together and she just..." He didn't finish his sentence but I had gotten the point.

I patted his chest and smoothed my hand over the soft hair. I kissed at his jaw and he smiled. His chest was rising quickly, trying to hold back the hurt and the tears that threatened him. "James...it's okay...You can cry." I stared up at him in sadness. His hand shot up ove rhis eyes and I felt his chest shudder underneath me as he tried to hold the sobs inside his throat. I grabbed his wrist gently and pulled it from his face. He clamped his eyes shut and turned his head from me. But I insisted, stroking his cheek with my free hand til he stared at me. His eyes were darker than ever. The pupils a strong, dilated black, the white red with bloodshot.

"Baby...it's okay to cry." I smiled gently and nuzzled my nose against the corner of his lips. I felt a tear slide down his cheek and onto mine. "I miss her so much...And Castor, he's such a spitting image of her and he wants so bad to have a mom. And I've done things to him...that I shouldn't have ever done. I've treated him ways that if she were here she would hit me consistently. He's been such a good kid. Has my attitude but her personality and looks. He loves you, you know that Bailes? He really does. He's the one who convinced me to come to you after our 'fight'. He wants you to fill those shoes for him..." I sat up and turned so that we were sitting side by side against my headbaord. I twidled my thumbs absently and pushed myself into my thoughts. "James...Do you think I'd be ready for that?" He smiled and his hand landed on my thigh smoothing it.

"I think you'd be perfect for it. I think you're more than ready. I knew that the day we went paint balling and I saw that childish smile on your face and how you interacted with my son every time he would come to the shop. You'll be just fine. And if you'd like, if things get uncomfortable here for you with my son and I living here, I can keep the house in the city and we can use that as our 'vacation' home when you wanna come by." I smiled and rested my head on his shoulder. "What made you fall in love with me?" My voice was hoarse and just barely above a whisper. His head lay over mine and his hand stroked my thigh. "I couldn't tell you to be honest. There was jsut....I guess when you love someone or when you fall in love with someone there's really not an explanation for why. Ya know? I could list off things that make me love you but I really could never tell you why I love you or what mad eme want to love you or make me need to love you. You're just..unique." I felt him smile and he kissed my head, then my temple.

"You're so perfect." I whispered. He chuckled and moved til he had me in his lap facing him. I linked my hands around the back of his neck and smiled at him. His eyes were tracing the curves of my breasts and I saw his predator grin creep onto his lips. "I'm far from perfect baby." His hands lay on my hips calmly, not moving. I leaned forward and pressed our lips together. "I love you." I licked his bottom lip and he sucked my tongue between his lips. I moaned softly and his fingers squeezed the bare skin that played peek-a-boo with my shirt. I rocked my hips gently in his lap and he broke the kiss tossing his head back in a soft hiss.

I smiled and gripped his shoudlers repeating the action. Smiling as I tugged every moan out of hist throat. His fingers were tight and a little sweaty on my hips and I was sure there'd be bruises there in the morning. "James....Look at me." He bit his lip and stared up at me. His blue eys coated in lust and want. His lips were full and pink begging to be kissed and his chest heaved with each breath trying to calm himself. I smiled at the reaction I was able to get out of him. I could tell he was unsure and a bit nervous. "you wanna do this now?" He huffed trying his best to refrain. I nodded my head and kissed him eagerly. My tongue exploring his, dancing and tangling together. His lips were curled in a smile against mine and his hands rubbed at the top of my ass eliciting a gentle moan from the back of my throat. "Oh fuck..." he breathed. "Bailey....should we?" He was questioning if it was the right thing to do.

It bothered me that he kept asking for permission but I reminded myself that he had every right to. I nodded once more and kissed him softly. "Tell me." He whispered. I stroked the back of his head and pulled him to me in a tight hug. Leaning my head down til my lips pressed against his ear. "I need you James..Please." His lips brushed against my neck where my pulse jumped through my skin. I shivered in nerves and tugged a lock of his short hair in my fist. His hands ran up and down my back like he owned me. "God james.." I whispered against his ear. He smiled against the soft spot behind my ear and pulled me tightly to him. I felt like I couldn't breathe but I didn't care. So long as it was him restricting it.

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Hahahahaha it's that "heat of the moment" sex hahahaha
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It goes from this :( to THIS --> :drool :drool

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Hahahahaha it's that "heat of the moment" sex hahahaha
How about instead of telling me it's heat of the moment sex, write about it ;) :hump :nanner4: :wink
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It goes from this :( to THIS --> :drool :drool

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Hahahahaha it's that "heat of the moment" sex hahahaha
How about instead of telling me it's heat of the moment sex, write about it ;) :hump :nanner4: :wink
Oh you'd like that wouldn't you? ;)
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How about instead of telling me it's heat of the moment sex, write about it ;) :hump :nanner4: :wink
Oh you'd like that wouldn't you? ;)
Should i really have to answer that? :D
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Oh you'd like that wouldn't you? ;)
Should i really have to answer that? :D
Nope. I see the wheels turning in your head hahaha
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