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A Taste of Eternity; Het, Baby James meets Stephanie...
Topic Started: December 19, 2011, 4:35 pm (18,983 Views)
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That same night Lars invited me to go to a concert at a club. None of us should be allowed to go in but as I said before, Lars managed everything. I was just 16 and I knew every single rotten club of that city. I knew James was going to be there but still I didn’t care. I had spent the whole day at home trying to organize my ideas and my stupid heart. I ordered him not to beat faster when James would come closer, I shut down my brain for today’s incident and I hoped it worked.

The door of the bar was packed with people to get in but Lars knew everyone and we got in first. Ron was inside together with a boy I had never seen. He has this medium long orange hair. I thought he was funny, if it wasn’t for his American accent I would swear he was from Ireland. David was his name. Dave for friends. I was just talking to them when James arrived holding a red head girl on his arm and laughing a lot. He was happy. For a moment I thought what happened didn’t have any meaning to him, but then as soon as he set his eyes on me he let go of the girl and my heart was pounding again.

“Steph…” He told me as if he was surprised to see me. I gave him a smile. It was the best I could do. The girl was trying to hold him and was clutched against his chest and purred on his ear. James grabbed her by her arms and pulled her away. To me he could do whatever he wanted with her, I looked at him by the corner of my eye and followed the boys, the concert was about to begin. I wasn’t able to say a word to him, I was already struggling with the fact that the first thing I saw in that club was James with a girl by his arm. That ruined my spirit right there. The band was playing but I wasn’t even listening, last thing I knew James was by my side.

“Is the band cool?” He asked in my ear trying to get me to talk to him. I just nodded and not wanting him to see my weakness I just began to rock out. If you ask me what they were playing I don’t have a clue, but I was just rocking out. Or I pretended I was, that was the best way to ignore him. In the middle of the concert a guy in front of me began to give me the eye I thought it was the best way to let go of my crazy feelings, so I just began to flirt with him. If James could do it, so could I. Soon, right in front of James’s face I kissed the stranger with all I had.

I saw James just going to the bar really fast. As I made out with the guy, that I didn’t even know the name, I looked at him. He was paying attention to the concert leaning against the bar’s counter but he glanced at me now and then. His expression was rigid, he drank beer after beer and I swear I could tell he was having no fun. I almost smiled in victory. I was getting on his nerves. Just like me it was the first time he was seeing me with a guy and deep inside I prayed that he was feeling the same way I did. I wanted to humiliate him and I felt like I was a bad person but I didn’t care. Anything to let go of him and still, I was just doing that to provoke him. The guy held my hand and took me to the toilets. It’s true, I didn’t know his name, I had just met him but I felt like having sex, I needed to get my tension out and I had a guy willing to go for it. I gave him my hand and followed him. Obviously it was not my first time having sex.

The guy just pushed me against a wall and began to unzip my jeans, I was on fire, I must admit and I wanted it badly. If you ask me if I wanted him, that’s different but he was all I had so I had to take it. I took my hands to unzip his jeans too, just when my hands were on his zipper James kicked the door opened and last thing I knew he grabbed the guy by his shoulders and pulled him back with all his strength.

“What the hell are you doing?” I shouted at him. He just ignored me. He literally dragged the guy out of the bathroom and then he kicked the door shut. God, he was furious. I zipped my jeans back and took a look at him again. “You didn’t have the right!” I hissed.

“What the fuck was that Steph?” He asked me. Yes, he was furious, he was beyond furious. His voice showed that.

“What?? I wanted to have sex! It’s not like he was rapping me.” James ran a hand through his hair pulling it back and walked around in circles. His eyes were sparking with anger.

“You’re not like that Steph. You don’t take guys to the toilets of a bar. That’s not you.” He said.

“What the fuck do you know? It might not be me now as you ruined everything.” He just took two steps closer really fast and glued his face in mine.

“Get out of this bathroom now!” He ordered me. I just crossed my arms across my chest and looked away from him, again he was standing too close and I was on the verge of tearing his clothes apart. “I’m gonna count to three Steph if you don’t leave I’ll carry you out.” He menaced. I kept looking away while he counted. What could he possibly do? When he reached number three he crouched in front of me, grabbed my legs and pulled me up, he leaned me against his shoulder with my head down. I was ready to kill him.

He crossed the whole bar carrying me that way. I was moving my legs franticly and punching his back with my fist and shouting for him to put me down but he just ignored me.

“We’re leaving. He said when he passed by Lars and Dave who were shocked looking at us, none of them did anything to help me, so James walked out of the bar with no problems. When we were far enough he put me down. I began to smack him with my fists on his arms and on his chest.

“I hate you!!” I shouted at him while he tried to catch my hands to make me stop.

“CALM DOWN!” He shouted making me jump back. “Calm down, God, you are not like that Steph. Don’t think you can just go and fuck around while I am watching, I won’t allow it. You are not like that!”

“It’s none of your business.” I shot at him. “If other girls do it I can do it to”

“You are not like other girls Steph. Can’t you see that? Don’t ruin the respect all of us have for you by doing something that stupid.” He was talking calmly and it seemed so genuine it made me give in.

“I hate you so much.” I still said beginning to walk. Then I just came back to him. “Still I wanted to have sex tonight, it’s not like I was gonna do it with all the guys in there and you ruined that. You don’t have the right to go in there and ruin everything for me. It’s not the first time you do that for Christ’s Sake!” Then I began to walk again.

“Are you talking about your ex?” He asked running after me and walking by my side trying to keep up with my rhythm. “Are you Steph? Because the guy was a jerk and he didn’t respect you, ok…” He was trying to defend himself.

“You don’t know that, because you have never even given him a chance, you made his life as miserable as you could until he finally walked away from me, to the point of not even giving me the chance to chose between him and you. And my ex was just one, remember Kevin? It was because of you…Mark?? Another one, you hit him. Please…” I told him. I stopped walking all of a sudden and looked at him. “You know what I had just realized, that you shake people away from me, it’s a fact, but I also have my guilt in this, because I let you do it, and I see you doing it and I don’t stop you. When I have to choose, I choose you.” James looked at me without saying a word.

“If you want you can choose them.” He simply said. But his voice ached, he was hurt with my words.

“It’s not that. It’s not shaking you away from my life, that wouldn’t be fair for you or for me, because I like you, but honestly Jamie, next time you try to fuck up with me again, I’ll cut your balls.” As I told him this I just turned my back on him and retook my way. I heard him laughing loud and I smiled too and then I just heard him running after me.

“You don’t have the guts.” He defied me. We were walking peacefully now.

“Try me.” I defied back. We laughed loud again. Our laughter echoing in the desert street.

“Want me to take you home or do you want to go back to the club?” He asked. I looked at him.

“Home please, you must be out of your mind if you think I am going back there after the embarrassment you’ve put me through.”

“I did what I had to do.” He said firmly.

“I just wanted to have sex Jamie, that was all.” I tried to explain. He began to walk again, I followed him. “It was just this time.” I tried to tell him, but he cut me off.

“Please Steph, I don’t wan to hear about that.” He said. I bumped against his arm and laughed.

“I guess I am gonna have to play by myself at home.” I said laughing. James just turned around to look at me, grabbed me by my shoulders and shook me a bit.

“Can’t you see Steph? Can’t you see it? He paused looking at my eyes. “Please, I don’t want to hear about that. I don’t want to know about you having sex. JESUS!!” He shouted letting go of me beginning to walk once again. I stood still in my place watching him.

“Why not?” I shouted. He threw his arms in the air and looked up at the sky, then he put his hands on his waist and looked at me.

“You are fucking annoying.” He told me.

“If you stopped using the word “fuck” maybe I could forget all about it.” I answered. I just saw him spinning around and taking huge steps going up the street. I had to run to catch up. “I was joking!” I said when I finally reached him.

“Well, I am not laughing.” He said not slowing down his pace. I took my hand to his arm and pulled him back.

“Slow down at least.” I said. “I’m sorry, I’ll stop.”

“If you don’t stop Steph, you’ll go home alone.” He informed me. I just shut up. For a while we made our way in silence, I looked at him through the corner of my eye now and then, he was with his hands in the pockets of his jacket. His expression less furious than before.

“I’m sorry.” I said again breaking the silence.

“It’s ok.” He said almost in a whisper.

“So you left the red head hanging to rescue me?” I asked him smiling. A soft smile formed on his lips.

“It’s not just me who ruins your things uh?” He said looking in my eyes for the first time since we began to walk to my house.

“Thanks.” I told him. “Thanks for pulling me out of that bathroom.”

James just put one arm around me and pulled me to him and kissed the top of my head. I loved how I fit right under his arm perfectly. “So my balls are safe now?” He asked. I burst into laughter and tapped his chest.

“You’re such a dork!” I said.
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They both obviously like each other, but it looks like they are both denying it, or are still too nervous to tell each other how they really feel. Come on you two... when are you going to spit out your feelings for each other?! :P :heart:
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a re-post eh? well i shall re-read this amazing story again

moar plzz XD :biggrin
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Merry Christmas:)))

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A year later, James together with Lars, Ron and Dave have formed a band. James ended up leading vocals of the band, to what they thought it was just temporary, he was not really enthusiastic with the idea at first but then, not founding anyone that could fit, he went for it. They had trouble finding a name for the band, Lars came up with something like “thunderfuck”, now that was a horrible and lousy name. None of them agreed, thank God, and one day, steeling the name from a friend of his that was looking for name for his magazine he came up with “Metallica”. Now that was a name! Lars was pretty sneaky, and he had a great vision for business, when the friend asked for his opinion he like that name for his own band and advised his friend for another name, taking that one for the band. It was cool and they called themselves “Metallica”.

They were already playing some gigs in some local clubs in LA, I had been to them all. I liked to see them play live and I couldn’t show my pride the first time they played for an audience. Just 20 people but they still rocked the shit out of them. They were fast and wild and they had a blast but they were having trouble in prevailing their style. By that time LA was filled with glamour rock bands and that was what sold back then. They were just them, a group of four guys that dressed in jeans with no make up and tried to sell their stuff. But they still tried, they remained faithful to their style. God bless them.

That same year I graduated from high school and have applied for medical school. Yes my goal in being a doctor remained the same and I wanted a lot to do it. I got the results for my application the same week my graduation was taking place. I got in the institute I wanted. I was moving to San Francisco at the end of that summer and when James asked me about it, I couldn’t tell him that I was going to another town. I kept it all to myself and decided to tell him just when I had the results. I decided to go for it the day of my graduation. My parents were there and so were James, Lars, Ron and Dave. They were there when I received my diploma and I was so proud to have great friends witnessing that moment.

Deanna was not there. When she moved from Downey she became distant and ended up changing school. Later she went to live with her father and left us all behind. I tried to reach her a couple of times but she refused contact with me and anyone related to her brother. I never understood why, but seeing I was unable to contact her I gave up. Maybe one day…

Like I said they were all there. I was happy and with my diploma in my hands I ran to my little group.

“Congratulations sweetheart.” My father told me giving me a hug. Then it was my mother’s turn.

“I just hope you have a great time in San Francisco.” She said also pulling me into a hug. My heart dropped on the floor. They were the only ones that knew I was going there. I looked at James and his eyes were stuck on me as asking me for an explanation. After a kiss from the other guys it was his time.

“San Francisco?” He asked me not even caring to congratulate me. I looked at him clueless of what to say.

“I applied for the medical school and I got in.” I finally said.

“Yeah…but you never said it was in San Francisco.” He said. “Steph…you’re leaving?” I just saw my parents leaving us and then the guys doing the same. The moment of telling him was here and my heart was about to come out of my chest.

“I’m not leaving, I’m just moving to another city.” It wasn’t a smart answer but it was all I could come out with.

“If you’re going to another city then you’re leaving!” He said raising his voice a bit. “You’re leaving me Steph.”

“I am not!” I said. James and I have managed that year holding our friendship. Like I said I became a master in hiding my feelings and somehow it all ended up to disappear. Or thought it had disappear. Our friendship was as strong as it was before though. We cared too much about each other to let go and now I think he was feeling betrayed.

“Look, I will come here from time to time and you have a car now, you can drive up there and visit me, it’s not that far.”

“I knew you have applied to medical school Steph, and I think that’s wonderful because it’s what you’ve always wanted but you never told me you’ve applied to another city. You’re going away…You’re gonna be far!”

“Jamie, Bay Area Medical Institute is one of the best schools in the country. I’ve chosen that one because it was good and it was rather near.” I told him.

“Near? It’s a fucking 3 hours drive, that’s not that near!”

“But it’s gonna be good for me. It’s my dream, my career. You have to think about that too. Our friendship is not gonna end because I am there, we’ve been friends for so many years, it’s not like it ends now.” I explained.

“I know…” He whispered. “But you won’t be here if I need you all of a sudden as it happens so many times.” My heart dropped on the floor one more time.

“You can always call me and I’ll call you every time I can. Jamie, come on…” I said grabbing his hand in mine. “This is my dream…” I tried to convince him. He looked at me and I felt his fingers wrapping in mine. Hiding my devilish feelings for him I loved the sensation of having his fingers entwined with mine. I liked every contact with him.

“Ok…” He sighed. “I understand, congratulations.” He said pulling me to him into a tight hug. I hugged him back as if I was fighting for my life. The mixed feelings I had for him killed me but I did a great job in staying alive and most of all I didn’t want to ruin my friendship with him. We were partners in crime, what we had was huge and perfect, too perfect to be ruined. I found myself thinking, sometimes, that I could not live in this world without him, so I did my best not to having to face the world without him. Lars always gave me a hard time saying I liked him and he liked me but I couldn’t see things that way. I knew he trusted me and I knew he respected me and I was about the only person who could stand up for him. No one dared to put sense on his head when he was furious about something but I always did. I was always the one to have the guts to tell him he was wrong.

“We still have the whole summer.” I said pulling back, he just smiled but I could tell it was such a sad smile.

“You’re coming to see us live tonight right?” He asked me changing the subject.

“Of course.” I said smacking his arm. “I wouldn’t miss it for the world.” At that time I have changed my mind about him having success in the music world. James had become very talented and I had seen some of the lyrics he had written for some songs. Those were good, he was good and I supported him with all I had. Plus the fire and energy they had on stage was undeniable, they were up to be huge, they just needed luck and someone to guide them through.

Later that night I hear my mother calling me saying James was already there to pick me up. I was in my room and took one last look in the mirror before I left. I liked what I saw. My make up was light and the denim skirt I had chosen looked good on me, I mixed the skirt with a Motorhead tank top and some boots. I looked good. I was a metal head but I never forgot about my feminine side, I was 17 now and you know how young girls want to look good. I had a great amount of guys after me, so I guess I was what they considered a pretty girl, I was confident in that field. Dave used to call me “cat” because of my blue eyes and sure I wanted to captivate the masculine attention. I was successful, only thing I wished is that I was taller but I even stopped worrying about it. That’s why high heels are for right?

“Here I am.” I said running down the stairs. James was at the door, we were running a bit late but I saw his eyes glitter a bit when he set his eyes on me. Perfect, I looked good.

“You look good Steph. “ He said on our way to the club. He was driving his car, new to him but that thing was as old as shit, still it was what he could afford and it could take us anywhere. I even helped him choose the car, we went to look for it together, that’s how close we were. James had worked hard to buy it and he was so proud he finally had a car. The gigs the band was playing were for free most of the times. They wanted to show their work so they took all they could get, he was still 19 so he had plenty of time to show his value.

“Thanks.” I said with a grin that made him laugh. While he drove I took a glance at him. His hair was so long now, he was wearing a white tank top and black jeans, ripped on his knees, his trademark as I used to call him. James was looking better every day, that was for sure. His boyish lines were disappearing into manly ones and that made my head spin in five seconds. I still did not believe that I was in love with him, I thought I was not, but I caught myself several times wondering how it was like to have sex with him, to kiss him. Most of all I thought that it was lust that I felt and lust you can control it pretty well, only that night I didn’t. I explain.

They began to play, the place had a little more people than usual, guess people were beginning to spread the word and every gig had more people attending than the previous one. I was right in the front as usual. He sang the whole time looking right at my eyes and I was struggling so hard to take James and sex out of my head. It was hitting me more than ever. I couldn’t understand why as he used to do that every time he played, he was too shy and didn’t feel comfortable on stage, he had said that to me millions of time, sometimes between songs it was Dave who talked to the crowd instead of him but that night, that night everything seemed different, he was teasing me with obnoxious looks and smiles as if he was reading my mind. I was about to lose my senses and I tried to concentrate on other things, I looked away at Lars and his funny faces playing drums, I gave the horns at Dave while he was ripping his guitar but then I always ended up giving James more attention. He was my star.

When they were about to finish their set, between one song and while Dave was, once again, doing the talking, James smiled at me, I smiled back and my heart was racing, no matter how hard I struggled, I was condemned that night. Suddenly James went down on his knees right in front of me and gave me a grin, I felt my knees failing and that was my death sentence. In one insane and foolish move I just stretched out my arm at the back of his neck pulling him down to me and I glued my lips on his. I was too lost to even reconsider, he responded to it and I just parted my lips eagerly when I felt the tip of his tongue trying to invade my mouth. God, we kissed with lust, with plain desire, hungrily, his guitar made a tremendous noise as my body touched it when he pulled me up to him. We would win the contest for the hottest kiss for sure. I broke up the kiss abruptly though and we looked at each other almost in shock, my eyes should have been about the size his were, his eyes doubled sized looking at me. He got up and went back to his place. I saw Lars laughing at me and giving me the horns. Dave just burst into laughter and so did Ron.

“A bit of insanity.” Dave shouted at the microphone. I was about to die of embarrassment and James was walking around in circles on stage as if something heavy had stricken his head. I took some steps back and went to the bar. I asked for a beer I needed to cool down and a cold shower for sure. They played one more song and they called it off. How was I going to look at him again? I don’t know, but I learned how to pray that night. I prayed he didn’t question me about it.

He drove me back home in silence and I didn’t have much to say as well, so I kept quiet too. Just when he parked in front of my house, he turned the ignition off and he looked at me. I shivered with fear because I knew he was about to say something, and he was.

“What was that Steph?” He asked me. Not a trace of anger in his voice, confusion maybe.

I looked down at my hands and played with my fingers. I was too embarrassed to look at him. “I am sorry.” I just said. “I guess I just got carried away by the whole thing.” I stopped talking and he didn’t say a thing, I felt his eyes were still on me, so I looked up at him. “I don’t know…” I sighed. My voice was weak with fear. “I don’t know…” I repeated. I couldn’t tell him I had these fantasies of fucking him brainless. That’s not the kind of fantasy you have with such a great friend of yours. James kept quiet looking at me, I expected him to say something but he was just staring at me. My eyes begged him to say something, at least he could tell me not to do it again. He bent over me and I just shuddered for having me so close. He took his hand to my door and opened it, then he turned his head at me, our lips so close again and my heart betraying me again. From that tiny distance he just spoke.

“Go home, we’ll talk tomorrow.” He said straying and sitting down back on his seat. I was about to hop off the car when I turned to him again.

“Are you mad at me?” I asked him. He just shook his head giving small taps on the wheel. “I am sorry.” I whispered at him. I honestly didn’t know what to tell him. James just opened a faded smile.

“I’m sorry…” He whispered back my words and smiled again. I looked confused at him as he stared momentarily at the hood. “What are you doing Steph?” He asked turning his head to look at me. “Sorry…I am sorry. That is just so…” He didn’t finish. I waited a bit to see if he said anything but he didn’t, I don’t know why but he seemed hurt with my last words. “Let me try something.” He finally said, before I could move he kissed my lips so softly and for a few seconds, then he strayed a bit and we looked into each others eyes then we just glued our lips back together. Yes, I gave in and kissed him again. It was not the frantic kiss we shared at the club, it had much more into it but I couldn’t figure out what it was. The way he explored my lips was beyond tender, tender as I never thought he could be, no one had kissed me like he did and I had kissed a few guys back then. I don’t know what he put into that kiss, but it was devastating and it ripped the floor off my feet.

“Now go home.” He told me, but I was the one curious now.

“Now I am the one who wants to know, what was that?” I asked him as I still felt the sweetness of his lips against mine and his tender tongue tangled with mine.

“You have to figure that out for yourself.” He told me.

“Jamie…” I tried to insist.
“Go home Steph.” He whispered at me. I hopped off the car. He waited until I opened the door of my house as usual when I was about to get in I heard the engine of his car and then he called me.

“Steph.” I looked back at him.

“Unlike you, I am not sorry.” He said and then he just stepped on the gas leaving me confused at the door of my parents house. I thought a lot about that until I subsided to my sleep, but I didn’t find any good answer to what happened that night. He was punishing me for my rant, that’s all I could come up to.
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I said it several times and I say it now (and I hope more times in future)

I LOVE THIS FIC
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Great part! Those kisses they had were just so sweet!!! :heart:

Can't wait for more!! :heart:
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Next day we all had agreed to meet at the beach. I woke shaking the thoughts of the previous night out of my mind. Eventually everything would go on normally without further damage. It was just a kiss. No, make that two kisses and the second one…Oh man…the second one was for sure hard to forget. The way he kissed me was just too unforgettable but still life had to go. I washed my face and put on my bikini and some shorts, a t shirt as I was ready. Downstairs I met my mother making breakfast.

“Morning mom.” I blurted taking a plate off the cupboard and serving myself of some mushrooms and eggs that my mother had just cooked.

“How did it go last night?” My mother asked joining me at the table. She had already eaten she was just making conversation. As she asked me that, the show just completely vanished off my mind and I could only think about what I have done at the end of it and then what happened right in front of my door but I answered her anyway and tried to sound as casual as possible.

“It was pretty cool. They had more people attending and they played in tune. It was really a blast mom. They nailed it.” I said taking the glass of juice to my mouth. She looked at me studying my face. I didn’t like her look not even a bit. She was definitely studying my behavior.

“Just that?” She insisted. I just nodded taking a few more sips of my juice. I really didn’t want to get into more details and it was getting a bit late. Taking the last pieces of the eggs still in my plate I got up and announced I was spending the day at the beach.

“I’m gonna meet them at the beach mom, I won’t be home for lunch, ok?” I said getting up. She got up too and began to take the plates to the sink giving a nod agreeing. I went upstairs running and brushed my teeth. I picked up my beach sac and took off running.

“Bye mom.” I yelled opening the front door, she yelled a bye too. I took my bike and rode down the street. It was such a hot day I couldn’t wait to lay myself in the sand and take a few dives. When I got there I left my bike near James’s car and began to look for them. I heard some metal blasting on a radio so there should be where they were and I just followed the sound. I wasn’t wrong. That’s exactly where my group was.

Once there I saw Lars and Dave, already with a beer can in their hands. Ron and his girlfriend and there were some girls I didn’t know. There was no sight of James. I greeted everyone and then stretched my towel in the sand and got rid of my clothes. I was putting some sun lotion when I noticed James coming out of the water with nothing but a girl next to him. I wanted to shoot him. There it was again my rage consuming all my sanity but I tried to remain calm. When I saw her jumping on his back I threw myself violently on the towel. Lars giggled. He was right by my side. I shot him my killing look warning him not to say a word. He got the message.

“Morning Steph.” James shouted right in front of my feet. I raised my head and took a hand to my sunglasses taking it off my eyes. I put them back though as the sun was stinging in my eyes and I couldn’t see a thing. James was standing right in front of me with his hands on his waist, soaked in salt water and the girl curled on his arm.

“Morning.” I hissed and then threw myself back in the towel ignoring him the best I could.

“Wow…such a good humor in the morning.” He hissed back. He was provoking me and I decided not to say a word. He tapped me with his feet on my feet. “Hey, you hear me?” I counted to ten. I still didn’t tell him a thing, I got up and told them I was going to the shore. I saw James turning his head as I passed by him, but I didn’t look at him.

“Want some company?” Lars shouted. I looked back and signaled him with my hand to join me. By the corner of my eye I saw James watching me and the girl struggling hard now for attention. I couldn’t hold a smile of victory when I turned around again and began to walk. But then I had nothing to be victorious about. It was pretty ridiculous, he was a friend. It didn’t bother me seeing the other guys with girls, still I had that small problem with James. Lars sat by my side in the sand feeling the water cooling down our legs.

“Why are you moody?” He asked me.

“I’m not.” I said.

“What was that last night?” Now he was touching a delicate point.

“I don’t wanna talk about that.” I just said playing with the sand in my hands.

“It’s not the first time I tell you this, but you like him Steph and you so fail to see that. Either you fail to realize it or you just don’t won’t to admit it.”

“Lars, I’ve known him for years, it was never that kind of feeling I had for him, bare that in your mind. If you ask me if I think he’s cute, yes I do, but it’s nothing more than that. Still I treasure my friendship with him, he is for sure one of the most important persons in my life.” Lars was listening to me attentively.

“And he likes you, I am sure of that.” He said. I hooted with laughter. Lars didn’t even show a smile. He stood serious looking at me. When my laughter finally subsided he spoke again. “I don’t know why you laugh, it’s so obvious. Have you ever thought why he spoils all your relationships?”

“Because he’s my friend and he likes to spend time with me and when I have a boyfriend I cut down on the time I spend with him.” Lars shook his head.

“That’s an excuse not to accept and see the obvious.” I began to laugh again. It wasn’t the first time that Lars was telling me these things but every time he did he’d make me laugh. The smile vanished off my face when James sat by my side though. I tensed up. Lars just got up saying he was going for a dive leaving us alone. I didn’t want to be alone with him so I got up too saying I was going with him but James caught my wrist.

“Are you avoiding me now?” He asked. I sat back on the sand.

“No, I was just going for a dive.” I tried to sound normal.

“Because it really seemed like you were just leaving because of me.” James was serious, not a trace of joke in his voice or in the way he looked at me. “This is getting weird Steph.” Now he was at the point. Yes, things were definitely getting too weird. Every time I convinced myself that we were just friends I just got more pissed at him.

“What do you mean?” I asked pretending I didn’t know what he was talking about.

“You know exactly what I mean Steph.” He clenched his teeth while telling me that. It was obvious he was mad at me. “Out of nothing you kissed me last night and then you show up here this morning and you’re cranky and you answered me in a rude tone.”

“Let me remind you that you also kissed me ok? It was not just me, and it was not even the first time you did it, remember last year? I didn’t go after you teasing your head about it. And don’t pretend like it meant something to you and you’re hurt because first thing I saw this morning was some slut in your arms.” I heard him crack a laughter, I looked at him ready to jump on his neck.

“The girls bug the shit out of you” He defied me. I got up like a bullet and got in the water. I stopped walking after a while because I was feeling the water too cold in my skin. All of a sudden I just heard a “splash” on my side and water falling all over me. James decided to dive, on purpose, and spread water all over me.

“You’re such a jerk!” I shouted at him. He laughed loud looking at my pissed face.

“If you come in here you have to get wet.” He said walking towards me.

“I’ll get wet when I am ready.” I hissed, if I was pissed off before now I was boiling. James cupped water in his hands and threw at me. I growled and went up to him. I slammed his arms with strength while he tried to catch my hands. Lars passed by us laughing.

“You two don’t kill each other.” He said while leaving us behind. James caught both my hands and put it on my back imprisoning me. He knew that if I moved it would hurt. I was quiet but ready to kill him when he’d let my hands go free. Without warning he just let go of my hands but cupped my face really fast kissing my lips with strength, almost hurting me. I tried to pull away but he was grabbing me steady, I don’t know how he did that but he immobilized me in a perfect way to do whatever he wanted to do. Finally he broke the kiss, I never kissed him back even though he was trying. I resisted.

“I HATE YOU!!” I shouted at him getting out of the water but then I came back to say I hated him one more time.

“You say that again and I kiss again Steph.”

“I hate you…I hate you…I hate you…” I repeated countless times and then left. James took a run and caught me, holding me tight against his frozen body.

“No you don’t.” He whispered in my ear. “And those girls Steph, at least they don’t kiss me and then say they’re sorry.” He said letting go of me in the most despicable way. Leaving me behind he didn’t even waited up for me. We didn’t talk to each other the rest of the day. He laid his towel right next to mine and made out with the blonde right in front of my eyes. I stood strong decided to put an end to whatever was happening between us. How many times have I said that already?

Lars threw another party that night. I spent a lot of time looking at my wardrobe deciding what to wear. For revenge I wanted to look gorgeous and this time I would find a guy to rub on his face. At least this would all be over once I was in San Francisco. I knew that if I stayed here our friendship would fall into pieces in no time. We were a time bomb ready to explode at any moment. After dinner I just left my parents, picking some bills of my father’s wallet I took a taxi to Lars’s.

The party was as usual, music blasting, beers all over. Guys making up with girls and yes James was still in the arms of the blonde I’ve seen at the beach. I went dancing with some dude I had never seen. Lars was just giving me beer after beer. I was getting drunk quite fast. The party was wild, as wild as teenagers can be. There was pot but me and James were the ones that always stayed out of it. He’s tried already but I never did.

I saw James watching me while I danced but I was having fun and amazingly I felt relaxed. I knew my relaxation was due to the alcohol but I didn’t care, all I wanted was to have fun without anything bugging me and I was succeeding. After 6 beers I was basically off. Nothing could hit me that moment, it could have been the biggest catastrophe and I wouldn’t care. That’s how much drunk I was and then Lars made some shots of Tequilla, I drunk three and I was done for the night. I dragged myself up to his room and laid on his bed. Everything was spinning. It was not a new feeling to me I have been drunk before but I hated that feeling. Lars came to check on me if everything was fine and then left. Suddenly I heard the door open again.

“I am fine Lars!” I raised my voice but not moving to see who was coming inside of the room.

“Are you alright?” I heard James’s voice and I felt sober all of a sudden I sat on the bed.

“I am fine, like I said before I am fine.” I said feeling the walls spinning. I laid back and stood still. I felt James’s weight sitting on the bed.

“Can I get you some water, coffee? You exaggerated a bit.”

“Oh…Please…” I told him. “I need to pee.” I said trying to sit back on the bed, I sat and then stood still, trying to focus. One James was tough for me and now I was seeing two it was even tougher. I blinked a bit and forced myself to see just one when I succeeded I got up and just stumbled on my own feet. James got up really fast and caught me preventing me from falling on the ground.

“Steph, you can barely stand.” He said. “Let me help you.” He grabbed me by my waist and guided me to the bathroom. I closed the door while he waited for me outside. Once I was done with my physical need I washed my face. I was feeling terrible. I opened the door to find him against a wall still waiting for me, as soon as he saw me coming out he just took his arms to my waist again but I shook his hands.

“I can walk.” I said, but I stumbled all over.

“Yeah, I can see that.” he said surrounding me with his arms again. He held me against him with one hand while his other opened the door of Lars’s bedroom, that’s when I felt his body against mine and my drunken mind clicked in the wrong way.

“Jamie…” I whispered burring my nose on his neck. He strayed but I went after it and liked his neck. He shuddered.

“Steph…stop that.” He said. “I’m gonna put you in the bed and you try to sleep a bit.” He was trying to sound serious but I could tell my touch was bothering him. When he tried to lay me on the bed I didn’t let go of his neck. I wrapped my arms around it with all my strength and pressed my body against his.

“Jamie…you smell good.” I purred clutched onto him and kissing his neck he momentarily closed his eyes but kept trying to take my arms away from him. He grabbed it and pulled my hands down.

“Stay still. Lay down.” He said turning his back on me and going to the door. I don’t know how I managed but stumbling I reached him at the door, closing it and literally falling against him I shoved him against the door and he was forced to catch me again. There we were body against body one more time. I didn’t lose time, I lifted my feet a bit and kissed his lips, he resisted at first but then I felt him subsiding even letting go of my hands. That was a wrong move and I tugged my hands right there inside his shirt touching his skin. He pulled me away.

“No.” He said holding my arms.

“Come on Jamie, just this time.” I said. He looked at me for a moment and letting go of my arms I glued my self against him again. I tried to kiss him but he kept on avoiding my kiss. I took then a hand to his jeans and grabbed his already erected member. I smiled at him, now that was actually my victory smile.

“You want it too.” I said stroking him. He was just about to let go. He was heaving. I was all over his body, while he shook one of my hands away I was already there with the other, when he felt me opening the zipper he quivered.

“Oh god…” He gasped looking at the ceiling. I was just about to slide my hand inside when he grabbed my hand and pulled me back. He grabbed me strongly by my shoulders and shook me. “No, Steph, no…” I sat in the bed looking at him. He pulled the zipper up and the crouched in front of me.

“I don’t want it like this, I don’t want it if you’re gonna regret it later. You’re drunk.”

“Are you rejecting me?” I asked him.

“No, I am telling you that I don’t want it like this, you’re senseless, you don’t even know what you’re doing.” I looked at him almost passed out.

“You’re not gonna remember anything tomorrow are you?” He asked me smiling, I smiled back. “I want it Steph, but not like this.” He said kissing my forehead. I just threw myself on the bed and I don’t even remember him leaving the room. I passed out instantly.
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Oh my... James is amazing in this. that he didn't take advantage on her. True friend :D I love it! :heart:
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Yeah, I agree, he is a true friend.^ If he hadn't said no, then she would have regretted it in the morning, I think they both would. Anyway, I hope that she listens to Lars soon, because he is so right about them two. :P :heart:
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I just read all the chapters today! I loved it!!!!! I really did! :heart:

And James want it, lálálá :drool

More? :horns: :horns2
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MOARRR !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Just caught up today and I'm loving it! Can't wait for more! :heart:
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Thank you girls. Here is more:))

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I woke up several hours later with a heavy weight against my body. I opened my eyes even before I turned around to see what was basically on top of me. I realized I was still at Lars‘s, but I honestly didn’t remember how I ended up in his bedroom. I cringed when I felt a hammer inside my head and then I remembered how I ended up in there, I remember crawling the stairs to lay in that bed. I turned around pushing the weight back when I looked James was lying by my side. I felt my eyes coming out of my head and I found myself looking at me to see if I was dressed, then I realized he was dressed too.

“Thank god!” I said relieved. My voice came out louder that I thought it would and I covered my mouth with both my hands. He stirred but he kept on sleeping. I watched him for a while. What the hell was he doing there with me? All of a sudden I felt my stomach churn, I stood still not even moving a finger trying to see if the nausea would leave, but it didn’t. I got out of the bed quickly and ran to the bathroom, I didn’t even gave me time to close the door, last thing I knew I was standing on my knees spilling my guts out.

“Praying to the porcelain Gods?” James asked me. Shit, I was throwing up so loud I had awaken him up.

“I’m sorry I woke you up.” I managed to say in between vomits. Then I just felt my stomach turning upside down again and I buried my head back in the toilet even choking in the vomit. I felt his hands in my hair, he pulled it back and held it while I puked, choked and cough at the same time.

“You drank too much.” He said crouching by my side and tapping my back.

“Thanks for letting me know.” I said spitting to the toilet and raising my head a bit to look at him.

“Felling better?” He asked. I nodded. He got up and stretched his hand to help me stand. I washed my face and rinsed my mouth. I could so use toothpaste and a brush that moment. I just looked for toothpaste, spread a bit in my finger and washed my teeth the best I could.

“What time is it?” I asked him.

“4.30.”

“Shit! My parents are gonna kill me.” I said trying to run out of the bathroom but stumbling in my feet. I was still a bit drunk. James caught me once again.

“I called them Steph, it’s ok. I told him you were spending the night here.” I looked at him surprised. Since when had he been in that room with me? “Want some coffee?” He asked me. “It would do you good.” I nodded. He took my hand and took me to the kitchen, passing by the living room we found Lars and Dave sleeping on the couch, Lars with one leg on Dave. I bet they didn’t even know they were sleeping that way, but me and James looked at them then we look at each and we began to laugh. He covered my mouth with his hand when my laughter was about to awake them. Dave moved and then put one arm around Lars. We just had to leave the place running because we were laughing loud. Tears in my eyes from the laughter

In the kitchen I sat while he prepared me a cup of coffee, while watching him, flashes of the scenes at the room began to appear in my mind the more I remembered the more I wanted to dig a hole and crawl in. I just felt like disappearing. I buried my face in my hands in despair, not wanting to look at him.

“Is everything alright Steph?” He asked as he turned around catching me in that position. I took the hands out of my face and looked at him begging for mercy. He placed the cup in front of me and sat. “You remember?” He asked. It was so funny how he could read my mind, how he’d know what I was thinking.

“Not clearly, but I remember I did something bad.” I told him.

“Hey, don’t dwell on it. You were drunk.” He said peacefully, I could tell he was not mad me.

“Did we?” He shook his head much to my relief. I couldn’t live with that. Well, I could live with that but I couldn’t live with the fact that I didn’t remember.

“How bad was it?” I asked him. James smiled, it was such a sweet smile.

“You gave me hell and I had take a cold shower.” He looked so deep in my eyes that I felt myself shrinking in the chair.

“I don’t wanna know about the details ok, spare me of that part. Oh god…” I said burring my face back in my hands. But he took my hands down. “Thanks for being such a man and not taking advantage.” I told him. He entwined his fingers in mine.

“I would never do that.” He said. I finished my coffee in silence. When James was putting the cup in the sink I broke the silence.

“Sorry for spoiling things with your girl tonight.” It was obvious he had left the girl hanging to stay with me, the least I could do was apologize to him.

“She’s not my girl Steph. She’s not even important. Wanna go see the sunrise at the beach?” He suggested. I looked outside and the day was about to begin so I just nodded. We got in his car and James drove us there. We sat on the sand and looked at the horizon just watching the darkness disappearing into a beautiful dawn. None of us spoke for a couple of minutes. We were just there waiting for something we didn’t know what it was. Suddenly he began to laugh I turn my head to look at him and raised an eyebrow. Then he imitated my voice.

“Come on, it’s just this time.” He said. I grabbed some sand and threw at him. He just laid back on the sand hooting with laughter. I was not mad at him but I was embarrassed because I had a clue of what he was talking about, but at the same time seeing him holding his belly laughing so much made me happy, I liked to see him happy. I just shook him and began to laugh too just from watching him. “You were almost begging…” He said choking in his laughter. I tapped his arm.

“I told you I didn’t want to hear about details.” I said. He got up and chuckled again a bit when looked at me.

“I’m sorry Steph, I am not making fun of you, it’s just that this sentence keeps ringing in my ears.” I watched his expression, he was being honest.

“You have the right to make fun of me. I put myself alone in this awkward situation. I am not even mad at you because of your lousy imitation of my voice.” I told him. “And, much to my relief I don’t even remember saying that.” He laughed loud again and wiped his eyes at the same time as tears appeared in it.

“I am not even gonna tell you where your hand was.” He teased. My mouth fell open. “Yes Steph, exactly what you’re thinking.” He said nodding.

“Oh God, just stop, say no more.” I said shaking my head. I looked back at the sea ready to die that moment.

“You don’t remember what I told you? He asked me. His voice was so low I almost didn’t understand what he had asked. I looked back at him and shook my head. His eyes showed a bit of sadness and he looked down at the sand.

“What did you say?” I asked. But he shook his head showing me he didn’t want to tell. “You don’t want to tell me?” I asked just to be sure and he shook his head again. I had to respect that. I had had enough fights with him and I knew if I insisted he would get pissed because I was insisting, then he would shout and I would shout back. I didn’t want to fight with him no more. “Ok.” I said. “Do you know I have to go to san Francisco on Friday?” I asked him changing the subject. He raised his head looking at me.

“You’re already leaving?” He asked.

“No, I just have to go there to deliver some documents at the school then I will come back.” He went silent. He looked at the sea and I felt him really far. I grabbed his hand as some idea popped up in my mind. “Jamie…” I called him. He turned his head to look at me. “Wanna come with me?” He instantly smiled.

“I don’t have much money Steph, I can’t pay for the trip, I mean for both of us.” I laughed.

“Silly.” I said. “I don’t want you to pay for my trip, we can share the bill and if you can’t share I have money I can use for both of us. We could stay for the weekend Jamie and go to some clubs, they say the metal scene in there is just insane.” I said to convince him. His eyes glowed.

“You pay for the fuel, I can pay the hotel.” He offered.

“If you don’t have money, I can pay it, really I don’t mind.”

“I pay the hotel. I‘ll look for one tomorrow and make the reservation.” he insisted.

“Ok, but you book just one room Jamie.” His eyes doubled sized so I thought it was better to make things clear. “I mean one room with two separated beds, this way you save up money.” I decided that because it would be cheaper for him, I didn’t want him to spend his money with me even more because I was the one coming up with the idea and I knew he didn’t have much.

“It’s gonna be fun, just the two of us.” He said smiling.

“I think so. You know what? This sun is taking too much time to rise and I am feeling sleepy. I said yawning. James laid back on the sand and tapped his chest.

“Come here.” He said. “I am feeling sleepy too.” I did as he asked. As I laid my head on his chest he surrounded me with his arm. I fell asleep to the sound of his heart beating, one of the most sweetest moments I have shared with him.
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Oh God it was so beautiful :heart: and the fact that I was listening to Nothing Else Matters at this moment just made it more special :wub: (it fits perfectly, believe me) can't wait for more :horns: :biggrin :horns2
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