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| A Taste of Eternity; Het, Baby James meets Stephanie... | |
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| Izzy | December 29, 2011, 4:32 pm Post #61 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Awesome part! I loved how this part was written. Can't wait for more.
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| faroo7luvsmetallica | December 30, 2011, 4:15 am Post #62 |
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Girl You Stank Take a BATH!
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MOAAAAAAAAAAAARR!i this,your writting never seazes to amaze me woman!
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| Scorpion Flower | December 30, 2011, 6:40 am Post #63 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Thank you all so much! Here's more:)) ________________________________________________________________________________ The club was crowded, apparently Trauma was a well know band in the Bay Area, I got hooked instantly as I laid my eyes on the stage. There was a guy on the left side banging his head like a maniac. He had style and I was amazed looking at him. Christ he was fantastic and for a moment I even forgot James was by my side. “Do you want a beer Steph?” He asked me clueless I was too far gone. I looked at him and nodded just to turn my head to stage again. I didn’t even felt James walking away. He came back and handed me mine I look at his hand and he had a jar. I laughed. “All that?” I asked him still laughing he gave that grin of his, that amazingly addictive grin. The grin that made lose my mind in the concert a few days ago. I felt like doing it again but I held my horses. “This band is so great. Look at that guy over there.” I pointed. James looked and he stared, he was as amazed as I was. “And we think we’re wild motherfuckers.” He told me. Then it was the guy’s turn for his solo. We almost went down on our knees. “Holy shit!” James blurted. “Damn…” I said with my jaw on the ground. “That’s a bass!” James aid in a awe. “Duuuuuuude…” I said dragging the word. One thing was sure, the band was good, but that element alone made the whole show. The guy could play by himself and we wouldn’t give a shit. The show went on and we had a blast. In the middle I felt James fingers wrapping in mine, that moment I almost forgot where I was. I gave him my hand and we watched what was left of the show holding onto each other. And it felt so good, it felt so good to feel his hand in mine, it felt good to feel his thumb caressing my hand, it felt good realizing he wanted to be there with me and it felt good that he had the need to that simple gesture. I was in love with him, I was in love with him with my body and soul. I was in love with him with all I had. “That was an awesome show.” He told me when the show was over and the band left the stage. I looked at him and didn’t say a word, we stood like that for a while, just looking at each other. His eyes on mine, we got lost in each other’s gaze and the world was such a wonderful place. Then some drunk guy ran against me and I fell against James, my body glued in his, we didn’t stray, subsiding to my need to have more, I lifted my feet a bit and rubbed my nose in his. He stood still and as I didn’t felt him stray I touched his lips with mine. He kissed me, right there, then he strayed a few inches and placed his bear on the counter that was behind me, his free hand grabbed the back of my neck and he pulled me to him for another kiss. I felt my knees getting weaker as he explored my lips and then I just parted my lips eagerly to meet his tongue. I can’t explain the emotions that were running through my body and mind while we were kissing, while our tongues were entwined, the way he kissed me and the way his arms pulled me to him made feel alive and made the moment perfect and made my invitation for that weekend worth it. We broke the kiss when we ran out of breath, but we stayed close. His arms still around me and my arms clutched onto his back. He ran the tip of his fingers through my cheek and smiled at me. “Does this feel good?” He asked me in an incredible tender tone. I nodded at him also smiling. He bent his head over mine again and place another juicy kiss on my lips. I swear I didn’t want to let go of him. It felt so good to be around his arms. We watched next band like that, his arm around my shoulders and mine around his waist and tugged on the back pocket of his jeans. Then I saw that maniac dude at the bar, I pointed him out at James. He let go of me and went to talk to him but I followed him. “Hey…” James said calling him. “I just want to congratulate you for the amazing show.” He told him. “I’m James.” He said stretching his hand at the guy. The guy shook his hand immediately with a cigarette on the corner of his lips. Then he turned to me and gave me his hand. “Stephanie.” I told him presenting myself. “Cliff.” he said smiling. I saw James narrowing his eyes at the guy. “Are you from here?” he asked me. “No, at least not right now but in October I’ll be studying here and the med school.” I said. “Good, then you already know a place where you can come.” James narrowed his eyes again. “I also have a band.” James said trying to disperse Cliff’s attention. “Really?” He asked. “How is it called.?” “Metallica.” James said proudly. “I’ve heard of you guys, but you’re down in LA, you need to play a few shows up here.” “We’ve heard that the scene here is incredible but we haven’t got the opportunity.” James explained. “Maybe one day.” Cliff told him. “Well I gotta go back to my band mates nice to meet you.” He said shaking James’s hand one more time, then he turned to me. “Steph, can I call you that?” He asked me, I nodded. “Well, Steph, nice to meet you, and in October show up here, I hang around here often.” he said. James narrowed his eyes at Cliff again, Cliff looked at him by the corner of his eye and smiled and then left. My eyes followed him. What a guy!! When I looked back at James he was watching me with his eyebrows raised. “Are you impressed by him?” He asked me. I felt like throwing my arms around his neck and whisper in his ear that I was not impressed in that way he was thinking. He had that exclusivity but then I wasn’t sure if I could be that open so I didn’t do it. “He was awesome.” That’s all I said. “Playing?” He asked. I laughed. “I hang around.” He said imitating Cliff. I laughed even more. “Not impressed in that way.” I said. “But he seems to be an interesting guy.” I added this time James narrowed his eyes at me. “Don’t be silly.” I told him taking one step closer. He took a strand of my hair away from my face and I held his other hand with mine. I took the liberty and I felt his hand holding mine. “He seemed interested.” he told me. “Well but I am not, not in that way.” I said. James got rather serious. “What?” I asked. “You’re the most beautiful girl in the club, damn you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen.” My heart cracked but of joy. “And that’s all that matters to me.” I said but at the same time music began to blast really loud. “What?” James shouted in my ear. “Nothing.” I said. James pulled me back and I rested against his body, he surrounded my waist with his arms. The night couldn’t be more perfect even if I had planned all that. The alcohol was making him less shy and more willing, soon I felt his nose rubbing in my ear and then his lips nibbling on it, he didn’t know what he was doing to me, my body began to tremble at his touch. I turned around and stood on the tip of my toes, I kissed him again, and again and again. Every time we kissed the more fire we added to our will. I was on the verge of shoving him against a wall and threw caution in the wind, we decided to go back to the motel once the cub began to be empty. We made our way back there hand in hand, in fact we didn’t let go of our hands the entire night, just like we were a couple but, in fact, we weren’t. We made our way back there really fast, I knew what was going to happen, we stretched the string a lot in the club but I wanted it. God how I wanted it. Once we closed the door of our room it was absolute insanity. I jumped against him, he caught me in the air while I surrounded his waist with my legs, he shoved me against the door with the most lustful kiss, instantly my hands began to pull his shirt up not breaking the kiss. I wanted to feel his skin, I wanted to feel everything. I wanted him. The kiss was broken once I had to pass his shirt through his head. I tossed his shirt on the floor randomly, I needed my hands free for him, to sense every single bit of him. After another ravishing kiss he carried me to the bed, laying me carefully on it and following me. A shiver ran through my spine when I felt his hand under my shirt, I arched my back to press myself against his palm, lifting the shirt up he kissed my belly, I arched even more and I held my breath when he reached my breasts, then he stopped and lifted his head. “Too many clothes Steph.” He said, and the way he looked at me… God those eyes, dark and dancing with desire. I was the one taking my shirt off, it was faster that way. I didn’t care if I was showing that I wanted it that badly, at that point I just wanted it, period. He instantly took my naked breasts in his hands and he squeezed them gently in a caress while he place kisses and soft bites in my neck. He was sending me to heaven and the main point hadn’t began yet. My nipples hardened at his touch and he played with them, teasing them. My hands roamed all over his body and then his jeans got on my nerves. Sliding my hands between us I unbuttoned it, James lifted his hips a bit so I could slid the jeans down. I smiled, he wanted it so badly too. I tugged my hands on his chest and pulled him a way, at first he gave me a confused look but then when he saw me undoing my jeans he smiled. He got rid of his and so did I. Finally naked. He came back and place himself on top of me, tugging one knee in the middle of my legs, I parted my legs willingly, eagerly, lustfully. I was burning and craving for him, but he was a teaser and I should have known that already. He kissed my lips, I tugged a hand in his hair pulling him to me, our tongues dancing together almost violently, his mouth was hot, burning, his lips were swollen with the desire and his erection rubbing against my wet parts were killing me. I lifted my hips a bit and pressed his buttocks to make him slid inside of me, but he resisted and gave me that devilish and boyish grin. I wanted to kill him, he was making me ache, I raised my hips and rubbed myself against it, my moist parts pulsing to receive him. I was moaning and nothing was happening yet and so was he. Music to my ears, I thought, I loved the sound of his out of control voice. I pressed him down again, this time harder. “Are you sure?” He asked. His words coming out in gasps his desire was almost making him choke. “Are you fucking kidding me? Nice moment to ask me if I am sure. Yes I am sure.” I told him pulling him for another kiss and then I felt it. He rammed inside of me with such strength that it almost hurt, oh…but it was such a good pain. I took a long intake of air inside and then breathed it out. He paused and then he began to move. I rammed my nails on the skin of his back, I’ve always thought it would be good but not that good or not with that insanity and loss of senses. I was totally blown away. He moved inside of me hastily and I was loving it. “Steph…” He breathed my name out looking straight in my eyes.. That was awesome. The way he said it, the way he looked at me when he said it and what we were doing when he said it. I lifted my head a bit and placed a kiss in his lips. “Jamie…” I said. I was so lost I couldn’t say more. I was about to tell him that I liked him but my orgasm took the words away from my mouth. I moaned and whimpered while my body was on ultimate pleasure. I came hard around him and he didn’t last long after that. I felt his whole body shudder and he spilled inside of me. He threw himself to the side panting. It was savage and I was exhausted, I also needed my seconds of relaxation so I didn’t bother he went away as soon as he finished. It was too intense, there was too much into it. Now that it was over I needed to recover and organize what just happened in my brain. I closed my eyes waiting for my breathing to normalize. I was laid on my back with my hands on the back of my head when I felt his fingers playing with my hair. I tilted my head to the side and opened my eyes. He was smiling and he looked so good. He looked so peaceful and so relaxed, so gorgeous that I was ready to take him again, I wanted to feel him again but I just smiled back. “I’m so tired.” I told him. “So am I.” He said. I took his hand to my lips and kissed his fingers. “We better sleep then.” I said. We both pulled the covers and snuggled into bed. I turned off the lights and told him goodnight. I felt his lips on my cheek and I turned my head kissing his lips, yes after what we had just done the goodnight had to be in a special way and we lasted long on that last kiss, then I just felt his arm around me and after seconds he was sleeping. I was too excited and at the same time too confused to sleep. Was it just sex to him? Did he like me same way I liked him? These questions kept me from falling asleep. Edited by Scorpion Flower, December 30, 2011, 6:50 am.
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| Helvi | December 30, 2011, 7:06 am Post #64 |
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Frantic
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oh my... I think, I need a shower LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED and moooaaar
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| Lawrah Luvsmetallica | December 30, 2011, 9:35 am Post #65 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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I loved it..... XD he is soo loving.
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| faroo7luvsmetallica | December 30, 2011, 11:03 am Post #66 |
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Girl You Stank Take a BATH!
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weee,you posted again!! MOAAARR!!
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| cmania | December 30, 2011, 3:14 pm Post #67 |
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Frantic
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never never never finish this fic xD i wan´t this forever pleasee....
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| Nah Bruno | December 30, 2011, 3:43 pm Post #68 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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OMG that was hot hot hot ![]() Steph, wait, he may not love you, but you already went pretty far Although I think he does More?
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| Izzy | December 30, 2011, 5:23 pm Post #69 |
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Outlaw Torn
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That was HOT!
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| Scorpion Flower | December 31, 2011, 10:14 am Post #70 |
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Outlaw Torn
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It took me long hours to fall asleep but just a few to open my eyes again. I stayed still looking at the ceiling and thinking. The same questions hammering in my mind. James was passed out. His softly and heavy breathing warming me up, I took a hand to his face to caress him but then I strayed and just watched him. I loved his button nose, I thought it was so cute, his eyes, that were now shut were the most amazing eyes I’ve ever seen, his hair, so long now, gave him that wild look I loved. I loved him and I was paralyzed with fear he didn’t feel the same. That’s what was keeping me up. I wanted to tell him that I liked him but I haven’t found the best way yet. Is there even a best way or appropriate moment to tell someone we like them? This was so new to me in so many perspectives. First it took me long time to admit I was in love with my best friend, second I have never felt that much in love for anyone as I felt for him, third I have never been so afraid to get involved with someone, I was coming to Sa Francisco, he had a different girl every night, these two points were what was making me keep a certain distance and not delivering myself completely. Tired of tossing around in the bed I got up and I went to the window. The sun was shinning and it was already high, it seemed like it was a hot day, the street was already packed with people franticly walking from one side to another. Cars beeping, motorcycles roaring. The usual noise in a city. The more I wanted to shake the thoughts away from me the more they stayed. They persisted, fear was bigger than anything. When I told him I was afraid, maybe I should have told him how much afraid I was ‘cause I don’t think he has the notion. There I was panicking again. “Steph…” I heard his voice calling me. I took my eyes off the window to look at him. He was laid on his back with his hands on the back of his head looking at me. Sleepy face and sleepy voice, he was so cute. “Why aren’t you here?” He asked tapping on the empty side of the bed. I looked at the floor and played with my feet for a while not giving him an answer. I saw him pulling the covers away and getting up, in two steps he was standing right in front of me. He took two fingers to my chin and pulled it up, the blue of his eyes searched for mine. “What is it?” He knew something was bothering me, like I said with him I didn’t have to talk, he could read my mind. “It’s nothing.” I told him choking in my words, I was on the verge of crying. I could not believe that. He must have noticed the tears ready to fall off my eyes. “Is this about last night?” He asked me. I didn’t want to hurt him, I didn’t want to fight with him, I just wanted to have the courage to tell him I liked him and I wanted badly that he felt the same. The tears in my eyes were from the fear I had he wouldn’t feel the same about me. The tears became a river down my face. James strayed a bit and I saw his eyes looking at me in disbelief, this was going in the wrong way. “I can not believe you’re crying because we had sex Steph. You regret it?” I shook my head and wiped the tears away from face at the same time. “Obviously you do.” He said pointing at my face. “No, I don’t.” I told him slightly sobbing. “I guess it’s a bit late to tell me that, your tears show otherwise.” He said turning his back on me. He closed himself in the bathroom and I heard the water running he was taking a shower. I sat on the edge of the bed and buried my head between my knees. He took it all in the wrong way and I was too coward to tell him the truth. I was still like that when he opened the door, already dressed and then I saw him walk to the door. “Where are you going?” I asked him. “I don’t know, but I need to go somewhere. I can’t be here.” He said. I got from the bed and shouted at him. “Jamie wait.” I told him. He didn’t look back, he waved a hand at me and shouted “I don’t want to wait.” I saw him disappearing in the crowded street. Tears…well tears came back. I did a great job in spoiling things. Cowardly I kept my feelings inside. He didn’t show up to have lunch with me. Mobiles at that time didn’t exist, just so you know, it was impossible for me to try and find out where he was, at least he hasn’t taken the car, so I knew he was just walking around. After having another burger at the diner I decided to do the same, I walked randomly around the streets paying attention not to get lost, always trying to find a spot I would memorize so I knew my way back. I ended up at a beach. I sat up in the hill watching the little ants down there, walking around from the sea to the towels, funny dance. I stood there for hours, the whole afternoon, I got up when I saw the sun was disappearing and my stomach roared, complaining it was time to eat. I stopped by the motel first to see if James was already there, but everything was dark and silent inside our room, no signs of him, I closed the door and went to find something to eat. I ended up eating hotdogs in front of the club we had been yesterday. “Steph.” I heard someone calling my name. There it was the dude with the bell bottoms. “Hi.” I said. He also had a hotdog in his hands. “How are you?” “Fine and you?” He studied my face. “You don’t look that good.” He said. I gave him a faded smile. “Let’s go sit over there.” He told me pointing and a bench in a small garden. I followed him. “Wanna talk about it?” He asked me when we sat. I thought at first I didn’t but then he was a stranger, sometimes it’s easier to talk to a stranger and I thought why not? I needed to get it out and since I had no one in there and he was offering I went for it. “I had sex with my best friend.” I said calmly looking at him. “The guy that was with you yesterday?” He asked to be sure. I nodded at him, Cliff gave me a smile, a sarcastic smile while he rolled up a joint, he licked it to finish it and then he lighted it up, then he looked at me. “He’s not your friend.” He said holding the smoke inside when he finally throwing it out, he spoke again. “He likes you, the way he looked at me while I talked to you, I am quite sure of that.” I laughed. “I wish he did. I like him, I wanted to tell him that but I don’t have the guts.” I said taking the joint of Cliff’s hand. I had never tried it and I decided to do it when he handed it to me. I smoked pot for the first time with my dearest Cliff Burton. “Why not? Just tell him, come on I bet he wants to hear that. You were holding hands at the club yesterday, that’s not friendship, that’s beyond friendship.” He said. We stood there for hours talking, I was stoned and so was he, later we began to talk about music and books. He was a very intellectual person, he was a mysterious soul and he had his won weird style, but he was a great guy and his charisma was unique, I was glad I had already someone I knew in that town. At the end of the night we exchanged phone numbers so I could contact him when I would move in definitely. I went back to the motel still high but I was conscious. I opened the door to find darkness, just the light of the TV on and James laid on the bed watching some show. It was really late. I saw him turning his head to look at me but he didn’t say a word. I went to the bathroom brushed my teeth and my face. I looked at the mirror and my eyes were a mess; tiny, bloodshot and shinning. I thanked god he had the light of the room turned off otherwise he would notice it. He would give me hell for it. I washed my face with cold water and changed to my sleeping shorts and shirt and came back to the room. I laid by his side. First I didn’t want to bother him but then I subsided to my will of hearing his voice and I wanted to fix things. “Where have you been?” I asked him out of the blue. “Walking around.” He told me dryly and not taking his eyes off the TV. That indifference hurt me. “Wanna talk about this morning?” “No, Steph, I don’t want to talk about this morning.” He said, but this time he looked at me. The light of the TV was illuminating my face, I saw James looking at me attentively and then he lifted his head a bit and looked better. “Where have you been?” He asked me serious. “In that club we went last night.” I told him but I was not happy at the way he was looking at me. James sat down on the bed and took a hand to the light but I grabbed his arm. “Don’t do that.” I asked. He shot me a furious look. “Why not?” He said taking my hand away from his wrist and turning the light on. I turned my head to the other side so he couldn’t look at me, but he grabbed my jaw and pulled my face to him, then I saw him looking straight in my eyes. “I can’t believe you got high Steph.” He said. So much disappointment in his voice it almost killed me. “It was just this time.” I tried to excused me. “It doesn’t matter. I thought we had agreed we wouldn’t touch that stuff. It freaks me out!” He was shouting at me. I even think he was on the verge of hitting me. “You have tried it.” I accused him. “It doesn’t matter what I do. Stay the fucking away from that shit, Steph. I am double mad at you right now, I can’t believe you went to some club and got high.” He said. James turned the TV off and then the light, he turned his back on me and pulled the covers up. “Jamie…” I called him. “I don’t want to talk to you, I don’t even know if I want to talk to you tomorrow.” He hissed. I sobbed a bit. He turned around. “Now you’re crying?” He asked me. “I am sorry, I promise I won’t do this again.” I told him. I felt him letting go a bit of his tension. “I’m still mad at you about this morning. I’m hurt to be more exact.” He turned his back on me again. I let him fell asleep. |
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| cmania | December 31, 2011, 2:26 pm Post #71 |
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Frantic
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| Nah Bruno | December 31, 2011, 2:56 pm Post #72 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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OHH so sweet! Just tell him Steph, for fucks sake, he likes you too I love James on this fic so much, and I'm glad you've mentioned Cliff too
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| Lawrah Luvsmetallica | December 31, 2011, 3:54 pm Post #73 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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MOAR!!!!!!!!
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| Scorpion Flower | January 1, 2012, 9:38 am Post #74 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Next morning we woke up around mid day. We packed our stuff in silence and then we both went for a shower. James barely looked at me while we both were in the room and then we left. We went for lunch before we began our way back to LA, we ate in silence, it was killing me. I was dying inside little by little as I realized he wasn’t talking to me at all or looking in my face. He avoided eye contact, the tension was consuming me. After lunch we hopped in the car and he began to drive. He blasted the radio really loud, the day was hot, the sun was shinning and I resigned looking out of the window watching the landscape. I was looking outside but honestly I was not seeing. I knew we were in a desert road, there was nothing but I was thinking about the words he hasn’t said since we woke up. I took my hand to radio and turned the volume down, I saw him giving me a pissed look but I ignored it. I sat back in my seat and looked outside again. He just took his hand to the volume button and blasted it again. I shot him a deadly look and turned it down again. He looked at me pissed, it was the first time in that day he actually looked me in the eye. “What?” He hissed. “My head aches.” I hissed back. “That’s not my problem.” He shot back. He was just spiting out his words and I puffed. “Then what the fuck is your problem.?” I confronted him. “Nothing.” He said shrugging. “Nothing? Don’t you want to talk about it?” I said a bit calmer trying not to make things worse. “No, I don’t want to talk about it. You know exactly what’s wrong.” “No I don’t!! You know, yes in fact I have a clue but you didn’t give me the chance to explain. You assumed you were right and just turned your back on me.” That was it for him. He frayed the car abruptly and stopped by the side of the road. “What do you want me to think? You were crying for Christ’s sake! Is there anything else I should think than that you regretted it? I don’t get you, honestly I don’t. You wanted it Steph, I could feel it, all the way you wanted it and then the next day, the next fucking day you cry about it. Yes I think I am right.” He was shouting at me. His fury showing on his face, his eyes shooting flames. “You know nothing Mr. think he knows it all.” I threw back at him. He crossed his arms on his chest looking at me. “If I am not right, what was that all about?” He said looking at me. I stared back at him, there I was again wanting to tell him everything but the words didn’t come out. I didn’t know where to begin, all I had to say was “I like you.” but it sure was hard for me to blurt it out and I couldn’t say anything. He gave me his pissed off smile. “Yeah, I thought you didn’t have anything else to tell me.” Hearing him say these words made me open the door of the car and get out. “YOU KNOW WHAT? I’LL WALK!” I said pissed off. He could be so irritating. I heard him laugh and then he shouted at me. “Good luck, see you in a couple of days!” But I didn’t stop walking. “STEPH!” he shouted, but still I kept walking, I would find another way to get home. I heard him opening his door and then I heard his steps after me but I didn’t stop. “Steph…” He said when he reached me and grabbed my arm. “Are you out of your fucking mind?” He asked me even more pissed. “Clearly, this is not working. We keep on fighting and I don’t want that. I don’t want to spend my days fighting with you.” I told him and then I turned my back on him again. It was obvious I couldn’t come back home walking but that moment I just didn’t want to be with him. I was running away, that was a fact, I was running away from my feelings and I was tired of struggling with them. “It was always you Steph. Always about you.” He shouted at me. I stopped walking but didn’t turned around. I heard him take a few steps and his voice was nearer. “You always failed to see it, you were always too busy looking at other guys, too busy to notice me. I can’t count the times I cried out your name while making out with other girls, it gives me the chills just to think about it. I’ve always waited for you to say the words I wanted to hear but you never did and then that time when you saw me with a girl and you left the party, I asked you to tell me, and still you didn’t. That hurts!” I turned around to look at him, I was crying. “I don’t care anymore, after the other night I can’t keep it inside, I don’t want to keep it inside, I don’t care what you’re gonna tell me next but I can’t let you come up here without knowing you’re leaving a guy down there that likes you and I mean that REALLY likes you. I like you Steph, I have always liked you, why is it so hard for you to see it? Giving me hope and then…” He shook his head. “It’s so cruel!” He said. My heart was beating a mile per second. I took one step closer. “Jamie…I…I…” He was waiting for my words but seeing I was not gonna finish he spoke again. “I am in love with you Steph, you hold my heart in your hands, that’s why it was so damn hard to see you cry after making love to me. I felt humiliated and used because I had my expectations high and you crushed it.” I shook my head at him. “No…” I said. “No?” “No, it was not that, Jamie, I wanted to tell you that I liked you but I didn’t know how to tell you, it crossed my mind that to you it meant nothing and that I was just another one. I didn’t know how to tell you that…” I stopped and looked down. He took a hand to my chin and pulled my face up. My face was filled with tears. “Tell me what?” He asked me. “Tell you…” He interrupted me, I guess at that time he knew what I wanted to tell him and he so needed to hear the words. “Say it Steph, please…” I sobbed, I took my hands to my face and cleaned my tears and then I looked in his eyes. “I am so in love with you.” I said almost whispering and holding onto him right after. I sobbed loud. “I am so in love with you that I don’t know what to do with my feelings, I don’t want to come up here and leave you in LA but I must do it because it’s my dream but it’s tearing me apart. I want both things so much.” At this point the was holding me so close to him he was on the point of suffocating me, but I wanted him glued to me. “We still have the rest of the summer.” He said. “And when I have to come here?” I asked him. “We’ll find a way. We’ll make it work.” He tried to convince. I was convinced, he didn’t have to say much, as long as he wanted me, I wanted him. I strayed to look at him and make him the question that was causing me the majority of my agony. “What about all the girls?” “What girls Steph? They were there because you weren’t, I don’t care about anyone else, that’s why I never had a girlfriend because that was reserved to you. Only you can have me that way, if you want it of course. Do you? Steph, do you wanna be my girlfriend?” I smiled at him. I stood on the tip of my toes but he was standing so straight I couldn’t reach him. “Why are you so damn tall?” I asked him. He bent down over me smiling and I glued my lips on his. He tasted so good, this time even better than I remembered. We kissed for long time, there in the middle of a desert road, then we broke the kiss he grabbed me by my waist and lifted me up until I was face to face with him and we kissed again. “We better go now or we’re gonna arrive really late.” He said, I nodded. “Do you still wanna walk?” He teased me, I smacked his arm and then held his hand while we came back to the car. We arrive in LA really late. James parked the car in front of my house. “Do you gonna go to the beach tomorrow?” He asked. “Sure, I’ll meet you there.” “No, I’ll pick you up. The guys are probably going too.” I smiled thinking about how would they react to this change. Yes, the weekend twisted our lives and I was happy it did. I came back committed with the only guy I remembered being really in love with. “Will we tell them or we’ll just let them figure it out?” James took a few seconds to answer me. “Naahh…we’ll let them figure it out by themselves.” He said. I kissed him not caring if my mother was at the window peeking, I mean I didn’t know if she was there, but she usually did that when she heard a car parking in front of my door. “See you tomorrow.” I said kissing his lips again. He ran a hand through my hair. “I’m gonna miss you until tomorrow.” He said smiling. “I’m gonna miss you too.” I said. He bent over my face and rubbed his nose in mine before kissing my lips again. I got out of the car and he waited until I opened the door of the house, the usual, then I waved and he left. “Mom.” I shouted. “Hi .“she said. “How was San Francisco?” I threw my arms in the air smiling and spinning around. “Awesome and I got a boyfriend.” I said with the hugest grin ever. “Jim?” She asked. I nodded at her, gave her a kiss and left running through the stairs. I was exhausted from the trip and in an ecstasy of happiness. |
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| Lawrah Luvsmetallica | January 1, 2012, 10:16 am Post #75 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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im happy for them |
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