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How We Became Fire; Het, REPOST from a year ago.James and ADE. Love, hate, love...
Topic Started: December 23, 2011, 1:25 pm (17,528 Views)
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“Ade…look at me.” He said with his eyes flooded with tears. I was shaking my head trying not to grab the kids and leave. He took a hand to my face and made me look at him. “I love them.” He said again. “I would die for them if I had to.”

“Then why did you start drinking because of them?” I asked him. “I don’t get it.” For a moment I wish we were home alone to have that conversation and not with a stranger in front of me watching us. I thought that moment was too private to share with someone I had just met but James seemed comfortable, he had been through that before so he was familiar with the procedure but to me that was being a bit too aggressive, my head began to spin franticly and I guess I panicked and got up from the couch. “You know what?” I said pulling my kids’ stroller and grabbing my purse. “I cannot do this. I am sorry.” I said turning to Dr. Callahan then I turned to James. “I am sorry.” I told him.

“Ade…” He called me.

“I am sorry but I can’t do this, I thought I could but I can’t.” I said. I pushed the stroller and left the office almost running outside. I didn’t say goodbye to anyone and I passed by a couple of people on my way out but I just wanted to get out of there. My heart pounded at an incredible rhythm.

“ADE!” James shouted following me grabbing my arm when I stopped to open the car’s door. “Please..” He said. “We need to do this together, let me explain.” He said.

“No, I don’t need to be here.” I told him shaking. My whole body was shaking. “I don’t need to share my life with someone I don’t know, I don’t have to talk about my feelings and share my sorrow with anyone. You stay and you deal with your shit and your head and then we’ll talk at home. I am going home. My kids don’t have to be here.” I shot at him.

“Our kids.” He corrected me.

“Right.” I said. “Our kids, the ones you blame for relapsing. I cannot believe in you.” I began to cry again and punched the car and then I punched his chest. “How can you do this?” I asked him beginning to sob. James grabbed my hands and pulled me to him and wrapped his arms around me and I stashed my face against his chest sobbing like a little child.

“I don’t blame them.” He said tapping my hair meanwhile I wrapped my arms around his waist too. “I just wasn’t ready for the sleepless nights, to lose you to them…” He confessed. “I know this is so stupid and I had 3 kids before and I know how it goes but I was not ready to be your second best yet. And I’ve wanted them since I knew you were pregnant, there was not even one single moment where I didn’t want them Ade but when they were born it was all about them and I still wanted it to be all about me, I had a hard time trying to balance things. I am sorry love, I am stupid. That was what caused me to seek comfort on the bottle again, the fact that I was drained from the bad nights they were giving us and then seeing you all the time with them and I was alone all the time.”

“What did you want me to do?” I asked him straying to look at him. He took both his hands to my face and cleaned my tears.

“Nothing. They needed you and you were as tired as I was if not more, I just couldn’t deal with that. It hit me I was being a jerk when Cullen fell ill in the hospital and I was so afraid of losing him. I opened my eyes once more to realize how they are important in our lives and I decided to stop with the booze but then it was too late for that. I don’t blame them for anything that happened, it was me and my insecurity and not being able to deal with the fact that we had them and you needed to take care of them, I wanted you just for myself and there on my worst moments I wished they hadn’t been born and it was just us so you could be only mine.”

“Do you have any idea of what you’ve put us through? Do you know how hard it was for me to see you coming home and not even look at them, or ask if they were alright. Shouting at them when they were just three weeks old, almost hitting me when I was trying for you to get near them. Do you know how many times you raised your hand at me? The night you made me leave Cayla crying for almost an hour nonstop, you almost broke my arm preventing me from going to her and then I didn’t go because I was afraid of you. All this because you were jealous of them? We made them together, we had them together, they are a piece of both of us!” James grabbed my face with both his hands and rested his forehead against mine.

“I know.” He whispered. “I am sorry for everything.”

“You were never second best!” I said. “They just needed me more, I mean they were newborns, they needed me for everything, they still do! Only now it is easier because you actually get to help me. Our babies are so perfect James!”

“I know all that Ade. I’ve learned the lesson right away but then I couldn’t stop drinking. I tried, I tried hard but I couldn’t leave the bottle and then my struggle was even worse because I knew I was just fucking things up for us conscious.”

“You don’t have any idea of how horrible you are when you drink.”

“I do. Believe me I do and I don’t want to lose you that’s why I stopped. I always remembered the next day the horrible things I did to you or to them. I’d always remember yelling at you or pushing you aside. I remember seeing my fingers marked on your arm the next day, the way you looked at me the next day was just too painful but you stayed with me and you coped with it and we need to do this now together. I need you inside with me Ade.” I shook my head. I could not go in there, I discovered I had issues myself. Not the same as he did but I still had issues talking about my life with strangers, that wasn’t gone and I didn’t want to go back.

“I can’t go.” I told him. James looked down at his feet.

“That is why I never told you the true reasons because I knew the day I’d tell you, that would be it.”

“No…no…” I said. It was my turn to cup his face between my hands. “This is not about you, it is about me now. I can’t go in there…I can’t share this with him, a total stranger. I don’t want him to make me anymore questions, he might ask something I don’t want to talk about.”

“Oh Ade…” He whispered. Pulling me to him again in a hug. “Babe, you have to face your demons. You have to let that go somehow.” He said.

“Right now I am not ready and God…I am mad at you. I really am.” I told him. I understood his point but I was building up some rage inside realizing he had put us to a lot of crap when all he had to do was talk. “I am pissed off at you James. I need to leave. Call me when you’re done, I am out of here.” With that I turned my back on him and drove with my kids on the backseat, not sure where I was going but I took the boulevard by the sea. Tears ran down my face, I wanted to shout with rage. Mixed feelings assaulting me, wanting to be there for him and feeling guilty for leaving him there all alone. I stopped on a hill and sat on the ground.

“Oh God help me.” I implored looking up at the sky then it sunk in me that I had bailed on James when he needed me. I’ve learned that my strong side had some boundaries and those were when all of a sudden the target was me. I could go through a lot of things but I could not stand someone trying to dig deep into me, still I felt a weird feeling for leaving him there alone. “Fuck!” I said all alone. Then hearing my babies crying I came back to the car and calmed them down then I drove again like I was automatic, clueless of where to go, hammering myself with guilt but I drove towards my parent’s cemetery. I stopped my car in front of the gate and shivered. I gripped on the steer wheel and my hands shake a bit. Then I glanced at my kids in the back and they both smiled at me, I smiled back at them and sighed.

“Your father is just a troubled guy, he didn’t mean to.” I talked to them and then tears assaulted my eyes again. “And I left him there…” I sobbed a bit. I took the courage to get out of the car and put the twins in their stroller. I gulped in front of the gate frozen but then I began to walk inside slowly. I was ready to turn back at any moment but I kept going. The further I went the more I cried and I stopped, sobbing and falling down on my knees in front of my parents stone. I kneeled on the floor and rested both my hands on the cold stone and cried loud.

“I miss you so much…” I said. “I need you here with me, I needed you so many times, I need you now. Please help me…help me go through this. I love him so much and I left him there alone. Give me strength…please…” “These are my babies, they look a lot like him, they’re beautiful. I know you would approve the man I fell in love with, he is just this amazing man. He’s my soul mate…I found my soul mate. He knows everything I need, he understands me like no one ever did and we got married and had these two amazing little beings and they are the most important people in my life. The three of them equally, he’s not second best…I thought he knew better…where did he get that idea? I have a family now, you would be proud of me. Well now he must be really disappointed and really pissed off because I bailed on him, I left him there all alone. I just hope he can understand.” The babies giggled and I looked back to find James standing right behind me. “What are you doing here?” I asked him cleaning my tears.

“I followed you in a cab. You’re right I am fucking mad at you.”

“I know.” I told him resting my gaze on the floor. “I am sorry.” James took a step closer and with two fingers under my chin he made me look up at him.

“But I am also proud. You got through your fear and came here.” He said bending over my lips and kissing them.

“I bailed on you and you kiss me.” I told him.

“I understood your reasons. Do you forgive me?” He asked. I rested my forehead against his.

“I got really mad at you, you know? All you had to do was talk to me.” I caressed the back of his neck. “I know I didn’t have much time to you but I was having a hard time, it’s my first time as being a mother, having contact with babies and I was scared, clueless of what to do. I should have tried to give you more attention but I was so tired.” I explained.

“I didn’t talk to you because I was ashamed of what I was feeling, come on, being jealous of my own kids, that’s so ridiculous.”

“I am sorry I left baby, I was so shocked that I could not deal with it and then my fear…but if you followed me here, is the doctor still waiting for us to come back?” James laughed.

“No. I called him, I apologized and explained a couple of things, I have to come back tomorrow, you don’t have to go if you don’t want to.”

“Did he say I didn’t have to go?”

“No.” He shook his head. “I am saying you don’t have to go if you don’t want to.” He pecked me.

“I want to go alright? I will go and I will do this…” James held my hand and step forward towards the stone.

“I’ll take good care of her.” He talked to a stone. “This is our family, here we are the four of us. You have the most amazing daughter.” Then he let go of my hand and crouched. ”Do you know why I fell in love with her? Because she just didn’t care about who I was. She didn’t care about the music, she was independent, beautiful…she is strong, she is an excellent wife and a wonderful mother. I couldn’t have wished for more. I am lucky to have her. So, thanks….” He got up and held my hand again and looked in my eyes. “You didn’t bail on me Ade. You didn‘t bail on me when I most needed you” He whispered. I let go of his hand and surrounded his neck with my arms.

“I love you James.” I said. “Oh…I love you so, so much.”

“I love you too sweetie.” The twins whimpered probably sick and tired of being stuck in the stroller. “They are getting cranky.” James commented.

“We better get out of here.” I said straying and James began to push the stroller. I entwined my arm and his and we began to walk.

“I don’t want you to think that you are a bad father. You are great with them, the worst part was indeed when they were born, that was weird but then you were amazing.”

“But then I kept on drinking.” He said.

“I know but you were never that aggressive with them anymore.”

“I also hurt you, I wasn’t aggressive to them but I was with you.” I kissed his cheek.

“I am past that. We both are.” He pulled the stroller with one hand and pulled me to him with the other.

“Do you have their bottles with you?”

“Yes why?” I asked.

“Because I am going to take us somewhere.” He said. James drove towards Hollywood hill stopping when we reached the letters and we had an awesome view over the city. Cayla and Cullen began to complain for food, I looked at my watch and it was time. James grabbed Cayla and I grabbed Cullen, each of us with a bottle on the other hand.

“Let’s go outside.” He suggested. We opened the door and walked up to the front of the car and sat on it side by side with our babies in our arms sucking their bottles hungrily.

“Usually young couples dating do this.” I laughed.

“Isn’t a nice spot to be away from the world and feeding our kids?” I smiled looking at him. Cullen began to close his eyes as the bottle was finishing and Cayla followed him. They were tired. “Look…they are so tired.” I smiled watching our babies sleeping in our arms. James smiled too and bent over me kissing my lips. “Do you wanna marry me again?” He asked me breaking the kiss.

“Yes.” I said giggling and he kissed my lips again and again and again.

“Really? You would marry me again?”

“Of course. No one can make me feel the way you do.” It was my time to kiss him. James put Cayla inside the car and then came back to take Cullen in. Then when he came back he lay me down on the car and bent over me kissing me more passionately.

“Don’t you think we are a bit old to be up here cuddling this way?” I laughed when we broke the kiss.

“What? Just because we’re past our teenage years and we have two babies sleeping in the back seat doesn’t mean we can’t be in love and cuddling upon this hill. This is beautiful.” He said sitting by my side again. With an arm around my neck I cuddled against him. The view was amazing as the sun came down and the city was becoming dark.
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Finally! James finally admits why he went back to drinking. I guess i can understand why, but I still think his reason is totally selfish. But again, I understand. I feel like the end is in sight! Things are finally all starting to come together :)

Ade has been really great. I understand why she walked out on the meeting. She obviously has her own issues she hasn't dealt with. But, I think the two of them will be okay.
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Oh, if I've been Ade, I would have reacted the same way. How hurtful must be to hear that. But I'm happy they could dialog and make up. LOL Married couples not always have many chances of romanticism, but it was nice they could make the best of the moment while they could.
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The day after I woke up really soon. James and the twins were still fast asleep so I just put my bikini on and went downstairs to profit a bit of the sun that was shinning beautifully. I stopped by my kitchen to have some cereals first and ate them slowly sat all alone at my table. I made mental notes for that afternoon at rehab. I should not bail on James again, take deep breaths to calm myself down and stuff like that. I also knew the process was not going to be easy, I had issues opening up and there were things kept inside of us that maybe were better left unsaid. We would hurt each other at some point and I learned that we both had to be a lot stronger.

I’ve thought the hardest part was the abstinence syndrome but in fact that part of talking and sharing our feelings and discover how we both felt during these months is much harder. Of course there were feelings we both forgot about it meanwhile but if the doctor asked we would remember and we would have to talk about it, there were a few things I had inside that I didn’t want to tell him because I knew it would hurt him and because I didn’t see a point in bringing that up, for example the day I packed the stuff to come back to LA while he was getting wasted in a bar, in the end I didn’t, I stayed but I know if he finds out about it, it’s gonna be hard for him. Knowing one day I was willing to leave…

When I was done with breakfast, I opened the door that led to the deck and laid on the chair. I poured sun lotion over my body, put my sunglasses on my face and relaxed, getting a bit tanned. I rested the electronic nanny on the table so I could hear what was going on in the room just in case the babies cried. A while after I began to hear some noise up there through the speaker, James was up but I remained still as I knew sooner or later he’d appear next to me.

It didn’t take long until I felt his steps at the living room and then I felt him walking past to me.

“Morning.” He said. I raised my shades a bit to look at him and smiled.

“Morning sweetie.” I said. James stood still in front of me and his smile opened up. “What?” I asked him.

“Just looking at you.” He said. But I knew him too well…soon I felt his weight over my body and he sucked on my neck. His shorts against my bare skin let me know he was just hard as a rock.

“Uh…morning wood?” I joked.

“Imagine taking the morning piss like this!” He laughed. He kept on kissing me and his hungry hands grabbed my breasts over the fabric of my bikini.

“Hey…” I tapped his hands laughing. “We’re in public area!”

“No we’re not. It’s private, this beach belongs to you, there’s no one around.” He kissed my lips and I gave in pulling him to me. Our tongues danced together for as long as we could hold our breath. “Open your legs for me.” He whispered against my ear and nipped in it right after. I laughed at his request and he took one hand down pulling one of my legs apart.

“What are you doing?” I talked to him. “Do you think you come down here all horny, you kiss me and you think I am ready?” I joked.

“You will be ready.” He said ravishing my neck with his teasing lips. Obviously my whole body was giving in. I shivered at the way he kissed my skin and he smiled. My hands traveled up and down the bare skin of his back. There we were getting absolutely wild at my balcony and I was loving every single bit of it. He pulled my bikini a bit to the side and closed his lips around my already hardened nipple and then kissed his way up to my lips again. I sighed as I felt him thrust against my crotch and then reality hit me.

“James…what if there’s some crazy paparazzi around here?” He ignored my question and slid his hand between us and under my bikini. I arched my body bucking against his hand. “Hummm…” I moaned.

“If there is…” He said stroking me at the same time as he spoke against my lips. “There’s nothing they can see, we’re both dressed, my hand can’t be seen…Love that face Ade…” He kissed as I was already gasping. He withdrew his hand and I felt him freeing himself off his shorts, then he slid my bikini to the side and his hand helped him find his delicious way inside of me. Who cared about the fucking paparazzi? He paused when he made his full way in and looked in my face.

“You know, they are not stupid, it’s pretty clear what we’re doing here.” I said.

“It is…but not on a photograph. Yes, James Hetfield lays between his wife’s legs.” He made me laugh loud but as he began to move in and out I forgot about the world and whatever surrounded us. It was just about me and him and I found myself praying that our kids wouldn’t wake up before we were done. He wasn’t rushing and we were just enjoying the moment, he thrust slow but deep making me arch my body every time he hit the right spot and my body shuddered in pleasure. “Isn’t this sweet?” He whispered in my ear. His voice so gone, his words so dragged in the pleasure he was feeling.

“It is…” I breathed controlling myself to answer straight but it was a gasp and the words trembled. “Oh…” I moaned louder, I was getting tighter around him.

“I love it when you get this tight.” He moaned. “Oh fuck…this is good.” He let out.

“Baby…harder…” I asked and he did it making me shout his name seconds after as the wave of pleasure hit me and took me high. He didn’t take the pressure and jerked against me while I was still riding my orgasm, filling the quiet beach with his powerful moans and groans as he thrust to milk himself dry, then he laid on top of me quietly resting his head against my chest. I played with his hair and we both stayed like that in silence for a while until reality strike us and we began to hear sounds through the electronic nanny.

“They are awake!” I blurted and worried I didn’t hear them cry but then I realized they weren’t crying and James silenced my lips with his hand and a smile formed on his lips as we paid attention. Cullen and Cayla were happily chatting with each other, between “Gah’s” and “Dah’s” they were completely entertained with each other.

“They are talking to each other.” James commented delighted and smiling.

“Let’s peek.” I said and he got up offering me his hand to help me stand. Tip toeing upstairs so they wouldn’t hear us, when we reached the door we peaked and the twins were facing each other, chatting in baby’s language and smiling at each other.

“This is just too cute.” James whispered unable to stop smiling. Then he went back downstairs.

“Where are you going?” I asked him but he didn’t answer me. James came back seconds after holding his cell in his hands.

“We have to film this.” He said and there he pressed play on his cell making a video of the twins. I peaked above his shoulder watching the images he was capturing and we stayed there drooling proudly about our babies until Cayla acknowledges our presence and smiles like crazy at us. James stopped filming and threw his cell on our table grabbing her and raising her high with his arms making her giggle.

“Morning my princess.” He said then taking her to his face and kissing her. “Uuh…someone needs to change, right?” He baby talked to her grabbing a cleaned diaper. I did the same with Cullen and then we took them downstairs. James entertained the then cranky hungry babies. They could be really impatient when concerning their food and I could hear them whimpering and James trying to calm them down.

“Ade, please hurry up, they are getting a bit out of control here.” He shouted just as I entered my living room with two bottles ready to put a smile on my children’s face.

“They’re ready.” I said sitting by his side, the whimpers immediately turned into a happy giggle.

“Good, I was running out of ideas to entertain them and clearly they were telling me daddy just fuck off.” He said making me laugh.

“Mommy is the savior, right?” I said as I picked the girl in my arms. James looked at me by the corner of his eyes.

“Next time you stay here and I’ll do the bottles and then we’ll see who the savior is.” He laid Cullen on his arms and he began to suck.

“Someone’s jealous.” I teased. He looked at me smirking.

“We could take them down to the beach after.” He suggested.

“Yeah…we should.” I Agreed. Once they were happy babies again with full stomachs I prepared a bag to take down to the beach with us and James arranged a shade where we could put the babies. Then he came back to take them down and I helped him, when everything was ready I came back to the house and left James alone with them. I spent some time just putting order around the house then I came back to the beach. As I opened the door that led to it I heard James laughter. He was laughing loud and I saw him cleaning his eyes trying to breathe. He looked really amused as he was laid on his stomach looking at our babies who were sat on the sand just in diaper.

“What’s the matter? Did you put sun cream on them?” I made the two questions at the same time, even though they were under a shadow and had their hats on their head, their skin was just too sensitive.

“Yeah I did, now answering your first question…” He began to laugh again and Cayla giggled looking at him which made me laugh myself. “I sat them here you know and then they were playing and stuff but all of a sudden Cullen put his hands on the sand and he looked at me totally disgusted…” He laughed again and I followed him. “But you should see his face, then he looked at his hands shocked and pouted and then stretched me his hands horrified and began to cry.” He began to laugh again.

“Oh my poor baby, he doesn’t know what sand is.” I laughed too looking at Cullen playing with king lion.

“His face was just priceless babe.” He said when his laughter subsided again.

“It must be really weird when you feel things of the first time.” I commented. “We don’t have a clue of how they feel.”

“I don’t think the point was the new, I think he was really disgusted for having his hands dirty, because the way he looked at them horrified…” He smiled again. “Obviously I began to clean them as they take them to their mouths all the time but I couldn’t help it, I had to laugh.” I pecked him, loving to see him so amused.

“Let’s take them to the shore.” I said getting up. James followed me and we picked each one of our kids in our arms and began to walk down the beach. The twins tapped our face with their tiny hands and giggled happily, I could tell my kids were happy babies so I expected us to be their heroes and best parents we could be. I was delighted with being a mother even though I knew it was not an easy task. Once we got to the shore we sat on the wet sand where the little waves crashed against us and put their feet in the water. Cayla shuddered at first but then she bounced a bit smiling at me. James did the same with Cullen but Cullen showed the disgusted face James previously told me about and we both laughed loud and hard. First he looked at James with his eyes wide open and really serious, then he looked down at his feet and whimpered looking back at his father.

“Oh sweetie…” James said holding him back up against his chest, even though we found it funny his heart melted hearing our boy complaining. “It’s ok.” He said kissing the top of his head. I sat Cayla down and she began to tap her hands on the water sending splashes all over us, when the drops fell on Cullen’s back he began to shake his arms and legs whimpering loud. James laughed again. “Cayla you’re pissing your brother off.” He talked to the little girl laughing while seeing her all happy playing with the water.

“She’s so happy!” I exclaimed watching her.

“Yeah…let her play.” He said and Cayla kept on tapping the water sending water all over her and James had to stray as Cullen complained every time a drop fell on him. We came back to the house when Cayla was fully wet and I had to bathe her to clean all the salty water off her body, James helped and took care of Cullen and finally after lunch we left to the meeting, or another attempt of a meeting.

On our way there I went silent, I couldn’t help it as fear took care of me. James knew perfectly well how I was feeling and grabbed my hand giving it a light squeeze.

“Do you wanna go home or go for a walk while I am there?” He asked. I shook my head.

“No, I’ll try.” I said.

“Really? I know this is hard for you.”

“I will go.” I said firmly but my hands were shaking. I looked back at my sleeping kids and mentally searched for the strength I knew I had to have.

Everything went just like the previous day we went straight to the doctors office. James and I sat on the same couch side by side and he held my hand.

“No holding hands.” The doctor said and James pulled away. I felt my body shudder and I tensed. I knew the doctor was telling James to back off so I wouldn’t be so protected. Dr. Callahan got up and brought two black bandanas on his hands. “These…” He said sitting on his desk looking at us. “are to cover your eyes. I don’t want you two to talk to each other, I want you to pretend that you’re here alone, pretend the other isn’t here. Alright?” He asked. James and I looked at each other before nodding. “That’s exactly what I want to avoid.” The doctor pointed. “I want to avoid your complicity, the fact that you two look at each other and acknowledge each other presence may refrain certain aspects that might be important.”

“Alright.” James said quiet. I remained in silence, I was truly horrified. Dr. Callahan covered our eyes and it all went black. I couldn’t see a thing and there was silence in the room. I heard some steps around me and I didn’t know if James was sat by my side anymore and I was a bit lost. I took a deep breath.

“Adriana…” Dr. Callahan called me. Again he addressed to me first, I sat straight in an impulse. “Did you and James talked yesterday?”

“Yes we did.” I answered.

“How did you feel about it?”

“It hurt me, of course.” I said promptly. “It is not easy for me as a mother to hear what he said.”

“Yesterday you left, how do you think that made him feel?” I took a deep breath thinking.

“I know he was hurt even though he tried to go through that because he knows well why I couldn’t stay here. James keeps things inside…”

“Inside like keeps it and then tell you later?”

“Yes.” I said. I heard a chair grating on the floor and there I was sure James was not by my side.

“So, yesterday you left and you regret it because you are here today with us and talking…” The doctor remarked. “When he began to drink again… I bet those were hard times right?”

“Extremely hard.” I said with my voice shaking a bit already.

“Was there a time back then when you thought about leaving him?” My hands trembled hearing the question. I stayed silent there, I knew I was going to hurt him with my honest answer and honestly, I thought about lying but then I didn’t think that lying would be much help and we needed to be honest.

“Yes.” I said with my voice failing.

“Ade…” James exclaimed my name totally surprised with my answer.

“James, let her talk.” The doctor said. “What made you stay Adriana?”

“My love for him. He’s amazing, he understands me better than anyone and I never felt about a person how I feel about him. He makes me feel special We are married and we have 2 kids so we have a lot to fight for.” I was feeling my tears soaking the bandana as I describe my relationship

“And did he made you feel that special during these last months?” There I broke and a slight sob escaped my lips.

“Don’t cry.” James told me.

“James!” The doctor reprimanded.

“It looked like I didn’t matter anymore. He became distant, sometimes it seemed like he didn’t love me anymore but I knew that was the booze.” I sobbed. “I am sorry…” I said. “It’s just that it hurts too much when I think about this…” There I began to fall apart.

“Do you think he came here because he loves you?”

“Yes.” I said. “I trust him.”

“Why did you leave yesterday?” He changed the direction of our conversation and I didn’t like the way it was taking.

“I don’t like to talk to strangers about private things.” I answered.

“Losing your parents, how did that affect you?”

“Leave her alone now.” James said. I confess I wanted to talk but somehow trying to formulate an answer in my mind brought all kinds of thoughts and the thoughts were too painful for me and nothing came out off my lips except my sobs. I heard the chair moving.

“James, where are you going?” I heard the doctor ask but my eyes were covered and I couldn’t see what was happening, soon I felt his arms around me and I clutched my arms around him too and it felt good to have him there. He took the bandana off my eyes and kissed me.

“You can’t do this to her.” He talked to his sponsor patting my hair at the same time and his arms had my healing power.

“When will I be able to work with you two properly?.” The doctor addressed to us.
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I strayed from James’s arms and cleaned my tears with both hands, like I said I wanted to talk, I just had to find the courage and that came straight from his arms and his hug. He looked in my eyes like asking me if I was ready and I nodded and still we didn’t exchange a single word. The doctor watched our silent conversation and spoke.

“This intimacy between the two of you, this connection is what stands in the middle now. James you can’t be so protective of her.” James was crouched in front of me with his back to the doctor, he winced a bit hearing his words and our eyes locked one more time then James looked back at his sponsor.

“This is about me, it is not about her. I love her, I know how it hurts for her, don’t ask me to hear her cry and not come here and support her. I can’t do that.” Then he got up. “Look…” He said shoving his hands in his pockets. “I don’t know if there’s a certain way to work with us but separating us this way doesn’t seem right to me because Ade and I, we bond, we lean on each other a lot and we need that. The thing you see as bad it is really the thing that I most appreciate in my relationship, it is the chord we have tied to each other, it is amazing.” The doctor nodded and motioned a hand for him to sit by my side and James held my hand.

“Dr. Callahan…” I said. “Losing my parents wasn’t easy for me. I got all alone in the world at 16. At that age you still need guidance…and I didn’t have that. I ended up in foster care, it was insane…I missed my parents every single day and every single minute and the hard times I had the two years I lived in hell brought me scars. I always shut my feelings up, I don’t open up easily, I wasn’t capable of loving I guess and then everything changed…”

“You met James.” He stated and I nodded. “I see…” He said. The doctor stayed silent for a while, guess he was thinking about what to ask.

“How hard it was for you to break into her wall?” The doctor addressed to James.

“I didn’t know much about her when we met but soon I learned a bit of her past and I realized we had the same background, the same scars, only she was able to deal with it better and great for her but the part about the feelings was the same. I could see a lot of myself at her age in her and I knew it wouldn’t be easy and there were times where I found myself completely lost. To know what her mind was thinking I had to travel a lot in time and wonder what I would do in this situation or that because she was about the same and then I could deal with this and that. It wasn’t easy at all…but I was in love with her and determined to have her.”

“Adriana…” He addressed to me. “When James first approached you how did you feel?” James and I looked a bit lost at each other because we didn’t understand why he was making us those questions and then thinking about his question I almost giggled because when he first approached me it was in London and it was just for a wild night and nothing else but deep inside I knew what the doctor meant so I forbid my mind to travel that far.

“It was very helpful for me. I never had the chance to talk to someone who knew exactly how I felt. I can open up with people I know quite well, I don’t have a problem with that but it’s not like I let many people get close. I never had many friends, I was never the type of socializing, these kind of things but then James came up and he knew, we shared every single bit of the same pain so him telling me that things would get better were much different than someone who was never in the same situation. He was there, he lived it so he knew better. I believed in him. He also made me feel protected even though I felt naked of thoughts in front of him because he could anticipate what I was thinking or what my next move was but at the same time I liked the fact I had someone in the world who knew me that well. Most of all he was never manipulative, he knew how to deal with me but he never forced anything and everything happened when it had to happen.” James gave me a smile and I smiled back at him feeling a bit more comfortable.

“Were you aware this could happen? I mean, he could relapse, his problems…”

“I was. He never hid anything from me. He always said he wasn’t cured that it was an every day fight so I was aware this could happen even though, secretly, I never thought it would. But he always told me what his weaknesses were.”

“Was there women this time?” Not addressing the question to any of us specifically James shook his head.

“No…” He said. “No women, I didn’t cheat on her. It was just me and the bottle and coming back home pissed off.” I felt my heart racing, I realized how afraid I was of his answer even though I had asked him the same question before. I knew James wasn’t lying.

“Would you still forgive him Adriana?” The doctor’s questions made me smile and I felt like answering him, been there done that but then I refrained.

“It didn’t happen so I don’t know. It’s hard to judge a situation if we haven’t lived it. He has cheated on me once but he came home and had the courage to tell me. He could have easily kept it to himself and I would never know about it but he chose to tell me. I forgave him, I took my time to think about it then we found out I was pregnant, James explained how everything happened and I love him so I stayed.”

“But you thought about leaving?”

“Yes I did and there was a time when I was determined to do it, I even told him but I was also looking for a reason to be able to forgive him and hearing how everything happened, hearing the doctor telling us we were having a baby made things a bit confused and James asked me to stay so many times and showed me how he regretted it and I chose not to go.”

“James…what if she left?” James puffed and ran a hand through his hair.

“She is my soul mate. I mean she says no one knows her the way I do but the opposite is also true. No one can dig deep into me the way she does. I still have my fears inside of me and she also can deal with them perfectly and then she’s very strong, she’s the strongest woman I’ve ever met. If she left? I don’t know… I would go after her. I don’t want a life where she isn’t part of it.”

“And then your kids were born and everything changed…” The doctor said. I knew there he got to where he wanted and I was no longer his target, James would be and I had to be there for him.

“I love my kids and that can’t even be questioned. I would die for them if I had to. But yeah…my relationship with Ade was and still is so intense that when they were born I felt we were losing that. I know it is ridiculous but I wanted her to have the time for me, to do things together, just the time to sit and talk or just cuddle on the couch watching TV you know, we used to do that and all of a sudden we didn’t do it. I should know better, I’ve had kids before and I know how things changed and let alone we didn’t have one baby but we had two and that was double work and double attention. I felt lonely and I wanted her just for myself, I searched for comfort the worst place possible but at the same time the only place I knew. Then well…it was the alcohol talking all the time and I did stupid things and then I was still angry at her because instead of paying attention to me she still paid attention to them. It was always a matter of her attention and never a matter of not wanting them or not loving them.”

“Adriana, Are you mad at him?”

“Well yes.” I said. “Whenever I think about all this I get mad.”

“Tell James how you really feel about all this. Look him in the eye and tell him.” James looked at me and his watered, mine did too but I still talked.

“I get angry when I think about it. All you had to do was what you do now, you help me and you spend time with them, I also know that it is a bit different, they’re bigger, they sleep the whole night, I am not so tired so we have time for us. I also missed my moments with you, I want you to know that. The first month of their lives you didn’t even look at them, well maybe the first week, then it was just this fray train derailing and that hurt me so much and then all your hideous behavior that was just insane. I packed my stuff once ready to come back to LA but then I put everything back to place ready to fight for us, you got home so wasted…and I was just so disappointed. I hated you that moment but then they say there is only a thin line between love and hate and I found out that I hated you because I couldn’t stand what you were doing to yourself because I loved you and I wanted you to be alright. The whole time you were suffering for nothing because I was missing you too and I also wanted to cuddle with you in silence but we had them and I had to be there for them. The whole time I loved you, I want you to know that.” James pulled me closer to him in a hug and whispered in my ear.

“I’m so sorry for everything I put you through.”

“I just want you to be alright.” I told him. James strayed and cleaned his eyes.

“James did you try to stop drinking?” James nodded.

“Yeah…absolutely. When our boy fell ill in the hospital I realized I had to stop. Ade needed me and so did he, my girl was at home and I had to take care of her and then Ade also found out so I really needed to pull it all together and end that, only I couldn’t. I tried and I stayed sober for a few days but then I came back and it was worse every day. My last wake up call was when we had a fight in the studio, I knew there I was going to lose her if I didn’t do something so I went up to the North and she went after me and here we are now.”

“And you really want to stop.”

“Oh yes. I feel like I am having my life back on track again. I don’t want to be that ugly person, the person who gets home and yells at his babies like I did. Man even today we were at the beach playing with them, they’re almost 7 months you know so they do a lot of stuff already and they want to discover new things and that is priceless. My other three children are almost teenagers, I cannot express how pleased I am to have these babies, I am one fortunate guy. No, I don’t want to go back, no way. I can’t miss them growing up, I can’t miss their first steps or their first words. Together with their mother we are like the biggest people in their world, the way they smile at us, when they giggle looking at me it’s the just the cutest thing and no, I don’t want to miss a thing.” The doctor got up and walked up to us.

“I think our work for today is done.” He announced. James and I got up and shook hands with him. “I also noticed most of the stuff you two had already discussed on your own, there was not shocks or big revelations, you two talk and that’s a good thing.”

“Communication is one of the basic for every relationship.” I said.

“But you would be surprised at some couples that get here. So many things are said and heard for the first time. Like when he told you yesterday that the kids were his reason, you were shocked.”

“I was but deep inside I knew it. I pointed them so many times, I tried hard to make him notice them and he ignored them all the time so I knew at some point they had to be the connection somehow but it did hurt when he said it.”

“We’ll talk more tomorrow. I don’t think these meeting are going to take long, your therapy is standing right next to you.” He said talking to James. He held my hand and looked at me smiling. “See you guys tomorrow.” James pushed the stroller and we came back to our car. The twins were awake but still calm and we drove back home.

“That was hard at the beginning.” James commented.

“When he asked about my parents…I can’t really talk about that, you know how hard it is. Why does he need to know about that?” James shrugged.

“I don’t know. Shrink stuff I guess.” He laughed loud and Cayla responded to his laughter giggling on the backseat making us both hoot with laughter. “What’s up princess?” He asked her looking through the rear mirror. “Happy Cayla?” He grinned and she reacted smiling and making baby sounds talking to him. The connection he was building with them was just amazing and James paid them more and more attention.

As we got home pretty late. I went straight to the kitchen to prepare their food and James occupied himself of them watching a Raiders game at the same time. The kids were sat on the floor right in front of him looking at the TV, obviously they didn’t have a clue of what they were watching but even then they looked at it attentively.

“The ones in black guys.” James told them and I laughed all alone in the kitchen, as if the babies could understand him.

“I can’t believe you are trying to teach them who the Raiders are.” I teased him coming back in the living room with the babies’ food.

“They have to know since they are little.” He grinned.

“And you want your kids to support a team that never wins.”

“Don’t provoke me Ade.” He laughed.

“I am not provoking I just think the 49ers would be a better choice.” I said smirking. James narrowed his eyes at me. “You don’t agree?” I pushed him.

“No sex for a whole week.” He said. I laughed loud again.

“I can do that! But can you?” I asked him. James ignored me looking at the TV really serious, then he threw his arms up in the air.

“Motherfucker!! What the fuck? Fault…you stupid fuck. Son of a bitch.”

“Hey…language!” I said.

“They don’t understand.” He said laughing and grabbing the bottle so he could help me feed them.

While James watched the rest of the game I was able to put the babies to sleep and cook our dinner. I laughed all alone in the kitchen every time he cursed in the living room, he suffered tremendously watching his team play.

“Are you still hungry?” I asked leaning against the threshold while he watched incredulous the TV as they lost one more game but my question made him laugh loud.

“Come here you little teaser.” He motioned his hand. I sat in the middle of his legs and his arms pulled to him while he bit my neck at the same time. I laughed again as he bit me one more time. “Ask me now if I am still hungry.” He teased me.

“Stop that!” I asked.

“Beg me.” He continued and I was almost choking in my laughter and gasping for air.

“Please…” I said.

“Is dinner ready? I am kinda starving.” He finally said.

“It is ready. I came here to call you.” I got up and then stretched him my hand to help him stand. Everything was ready so we just had to sit and enjoy the meal. After dinner we just relaxed on the couch watching a movie and after the movie as we still didn’t have want to go to bed we stayed there listening to the radio playing low and talking, making plans, cuddling and just enjoying each other company.

“Do you know what I miss? I miss going out and dance.” I confessed listening to the love songs playing on the radio, it kinda made me remember when we were on tour and he would pull me to dance. James got up from the couch and gave me his hand. “What?” I asked him raising an eyebrow.

“We can dance.” He said grabbing my hand and pulling me up as Slave to Love began to play. He pulled me to him and smiled. “Wanna dance with me?” I smiled back and wrapped my hands around his neck and we began to move slowly. There we were dancing all alone in our living room. We danced so close and so slow and to me that was just one of the most perfect moments I have shared with him. The music came to an end and we danced the one that followed, Need you by Lynyrd Skynyrd.

“You know I get so lonely, that I feel I can’t go on, and it feels so good inside baby just to call you on the telephone. Ooh baby, I love you…” He sang in my ear while we danced. I strayed to kiss his lips and they united in a slow passionate kiss. James hands pressing me more against him and my arms pulled him closer to me as well. As my lips parted and our tongues entwined he wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me up and I wrapped my legs around him. His hands gripped on my legs to support me and he began to climb the stairs, laying me on the bed when we got there.

“What happened to the week with no sex?” I asked him.

“Like I could resist you.” He said kissing my neck. I closed my eyes and tugged my fingers onto his hair enjoying every touch. “Love me back to life.” He whispered.
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Phew! At least she knows he didn't cheat further on her. It was a difficult day in therapy, but I can tel they are already getting so much closer. :heart:
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We stayed in LA for 3 months. Therapy didn’t take long as the doctor told us but James wanted to stay claiming he was not ready to come back. Friends came to visit us, his children also did and we had a wonderful time in there. We regained our relationship, our love and became even stronger and closer. I was the one forcing James a bit to come back. I was missing our friends, our house but most of all I had to make him deal with his daily life again. Little by little we did that.

None of us came back to work right away. When we got back home James didn’t want to go back to the studio right away and we took our time getting used to San Francisco again but it was fast until we were both engaged in our life again, so a couple of weeks later we came back to work. The babies came back to their nursery school while I stayed in the studio with Metallica. James and I established a schedule though, none of us would work extra hours, we would be home for dinner so we wouldn’t drain ourselves, besides I truly needed help with the babies, so I would leave the studio around five o’clock and then James would go home and meet me a bit later, usually he’d get there around seven, sometimes sooner.

None of the guys caused any problems. They all had kids and their families to be with so this worked out fine for all of them. I was having a great time working with them. It was my first time with a band this big but still we were doing an amazing job. James was singing in the cabin and I was trying to capture the essence of his voice the best I could under Lars eyes who was sat by my side. I shook my head.

“What?” Lars asked.

“The sound is muffled.” I said. I motioned a hand at James to make him stop. He rested his hands on his waist and looked at me a bit pissed off.

“Now what Ade?” He asked.

“Don’t give me that look.” I warned him. I got up and walked up to him to check the microphone. I passed by him and pushed him to the side with my elbow a bit cranky without saying a word.

“Hey…hey…” He said grabbing my arm and spinning me around to him. “What’s up with the bad attitude?” He asked already smiling. I looked away from him.

“I’m not in a bad mood, I just came here to check on this.” I said but he wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me to him.

“You pushed me aside without even looking at me, yes you are cranky.” He said kissing my neck and giving it a light bite. I giggled powerless to resist his charm. “That’s better.” He smiled.

“Now let me go. I have to check this micro.” He did as I asked and watched me attentively while I checked it. “It needs to be change, one of the cables is broken. We need a new micro!” I said coming out of the room.

“Don’t you have to go to pick the kids up?” James asked while we waited for the techs to change to micro.

“I can do this take and then I’ll go.” I said.

“How are they?” Lars asked. “It’s been a while since I last seen them.”

“They’re 11 months man, they began to crawl, they want to grab everything and we have to watch them all the time.” James laughed.

“Two babies crawling around the house sounds fun.” Lars followed James’s laughter.

“I need to be at home to help Ade watch them because she can’t do anything when she’s alone with them unless they are sleeping.”

“Yeah…now they don’t even want to be locked up in the park.” I said. “They complain, but they look amazing. They are so huge.

“Do they say mama and dada already?” Lars asked.

“No, when they see us they say like dadadadadada, they identify but they don’t say it straightly, same with me it’s mamamamama…” I told him. “Well, it’s ready, let’s go cause I have the kids waiting for me.” James went back to his cabin and Lars took the place by my side. The song went down alright until the end, when it was done James pumped his fist in the air.

“Alright!! One song without Ade interrupting me.” He spoke at the micro making Lars burst into laugh.

“Do you want to sleep in the tub tonight?” I asked him with a smirk and Lars laughed loud again.

“Be careful Hetfield she will keep her promise.” Lars commented. James came out of the proof sound cabin to join us and I began to grab my purse and my jacket..

“You’re going?” James asked me when I turned around.

“Yeah…it’s already past five.” I said looking at my watch. James cupped my face between his hands and kissed my lips taking his time on them.

“See you later.” He said.

“Don’t go home too late.” I asked him.

“We will be done soon Ade.” Lars said. “We just need to check a few things, it won’t take long. Myles and Layne are spending the weekend with us so I want to go home soon too.”

“It won’t take long.” James said pecking me again. I nodded and pecked him one more time before I left. My drive from the studio until the babies’ nursery took half an hour.

“Good afternoon.” I greeted the girl that usually took care of them.

“Good afternoon Mrs. Hetfield, they’re in this room playing.” She said opening a door. I saw a room full of other babies their age interacting amongst them. Mine were sat on the floor playing with some red blocks but Cullen looked at the door and he saw me and he threw himself with his hands on the ground and crawled until he reached me, then he gripped onto my jeans and got up looking up at me smiling.

“Hi sweetie.” I said crouching and kissing him. Cayla was almost reaching us smiling and giggling. That was without a doubt the best part of my day. Seeing them all happy because they saw me, also when James got home was another party and that was amazing. Theresa helped me taking them to the car and once they were sat in it, it was out time to go home.

“Say bye bye Theresa.” I talked to them waving so they could do the same. At that time there was already so many things they could do, so they stretched their arms and opened their hands and opened it and closed because they didn’t know how to wave but that was their way of saying goodbye. “And a kiss, blow a kiss.” I said doing the gesture and they took their hands to their mouth.

“They are lovely.” Theresa said.

“Have a great weekend.” I told her. I drove back home with my two kids being extremely noisy in the back seat, either they would giggle, either they would baby talk or sulk but they were just babies and that’s what babies do. Disco came barking and wagging his tail when he saw me parking, I spent some time tapping him while my two impatient children were whimpering desperate to get out of the car. When I opened the door the whimper became a smile and then they had this funny way of smiling where they would frown their nose and sniff at the same time which made us laugh all the time, James went crazy with it all the time.

“Time for a bath?” I asked them as I took them upstairs. Cullen shook his head making me laugh. “You don’t want to take a bath Cullen?” I asked him and he shook his head again smiling. “But you are baby.” I kissed his cheek. I put some water in the tub and put them inside. I knew they loved to play in the water for a while so I just let them play and splash while I sat there watching them and playing with them too. “Watch out for the duck.” I said catching their little feet and they laughed loud. “Oh damn…” I exclaimed as my cell began to ring. “Stay still.” I said grabbing the cell that was on the toilet never taking my eyes off them.

“Hi babe.” I said.

“Hey hon.” James said on the other end. “I was thinking maybe I could take dinner home so you don’t have to cook today, how about that?” I smiled at Cayla as she tried to grab my phone.

“No Cayla, no…” I told her and she began to shake her head too and made me laugh.

“What is she doing?” James asked.

“Trying to grab my cell I told her no and she began to shake her head. I think it’s a good idea babe.”

“What do you want to have?”

“Chinese.”

“Ok…love you.” He said.

“Are you coming home already?” I asked.

“Yeah…I am already leaving the studio so in an hour or so I’ll be home.”

“Love you too. See you later.”

“Put them on the phone.” James asked.

“Ok…wait.” I put the cell on the speaker so the babies could hear him. “Talk to them.” I told him.

“Hi babies…” He said. They looked at the cell serious but recognized the voice and smiled.

“They are smiling.” I told him.

“It’s daddy, say hello to daddy.” James said.

“Say hello.” I insisted with them but they were too mesmerized looking at the phone that they made me laugh. “They are mesmerized looking at the phone James.” He laughed loud.

“They are thinking what the fuck is my dad doing inside that box?” He laughed again and the babies giggled loud hearing him.

“Dadadadada…” Cullen shouted and James and I just laughed even louder hearing him.

“Did you hear that? He was calling you.” I said.

“I heard. Ok, I better turn the phone off before get caught by the police.” He said. “Love ya.”

“Love you too.” I said hanging up.

When I finished their bath I took them both to my bed so I could dry them up and dressed them, that was a hard task as they couldn’t stay still and always had to be doing something, my trick was to put something in their hands so they could entertain themselves. I took them downstairs in their pajamas and heat their food and then I took everything to the living room and sat with them on the carpet, as they loved, and began to feed them. They looked at the fire place serious like missing the flames they loved to watch.

“We’ll ask dad to fire that when he gets home.” I told them. It was cold outside so I was also in the mood for a fireplace. After they ate we stayed there playing. I heard James’s truck parking outside and soon I knew they would just go crazy when they see him but I didn’t say a thing. I heard the door of our house opening and then closing but they were too entertained. James appeared on the door of our living room with the bags of Chinese on his hands and he smiled watching them play not realizing he was there, then he knocked on the door.

“Who’s here?” He said loud and the twins looked up at him smiling and sniffing. Cayla crawled fast to reach him and James put the bags on our table and caught her in his arms kissing her at the same time he walked up to us and sat by my side pecking me while Cullen clutched onto his legs trying to stand. They could stand if they were holding onto to something, finally he did and James kissed him too. The two babies giggling happy with him.

“Daddy is home…so happy.” I said.

“Give daddy a hug.” He asked and they clutched onto his neck. “Oh that is so good.” He said grabbing them, one in each arm. “I am so lucky.” He said giving a kiss to them. Then they wanted to go back to the carpet and grabbed a few toys and handed it to him.

“Now you play dad.” I laughed. But James was more than happy playing with them. “Can you just put some wood in the fire first?” I asked him.

“Sure.” James got up to get the fire for us and Cullen began to cry.

“Oh sweetie, what is it? Daddy is bad?” I asked him and Cullen nodded.

“I am Cullen?” James asked smirking and he nodded again. James made a shocked face and took his hand to his heart. “What did daddy do to you?” Cullen took his hand to his face meaning James had hit him. That was a trick he, himself has taught him. When he did that we laughed like crazy.

“How does daddy do?” I asked and he tapped on his face again making us laugh to tears.

“No Cullen. Daddy doesn’t do that!” James said. “That is for when we ask what they do to you in school.”

“Nice one dad!” I kissed him and we laughed again. When they saw the flames in the fireplace the babies clapped.

“They are just so funny.” James said while they played.

“Wanna have dinner already?” I asked him and James nodded. I got up and went to the kitchen to get everything ready. As they were awake we would have to have dinner in the living room to keep an eye on them so I prepared the trays while listening to James laughter and their giggles. It was like that every day, he’d spend so much time with them.

“Give daddy your pacifier.” He asked Cayla when I brought the first tray, taking it off her mouth. She cried a bit and shook her arms.

“Don’t piss her off.” I said but he just threw me his tongue out. He could be such a kid himself. When I came back with the second tray Cayla was holding onto his arms and trying to have her pacifier back, then when she did she sat back and grabbed her pink diaper rubbing it in her eyes. Then she crawled back to James and sat on his leg and leaned her head on his chest.

“Awww….” I said melting.

“So sweet.” He kissed the top of her head. “Go ahead. I’ll wait until she falls asleep.” He said.

“It’s ok. I can heat the food again.” I said as I realized Cullen was fighting with the urge to sleep himself. James and I took them to their room and put them to sleep. It took about half an hour then everything went quiet and it was just the two of us. We had dinner by the fire place and then we just pulled a cover and watched TV snuggled against each other in the dark just with the light of the flames dancing in the dark.

“I’m glad tomorrow is Saturday.” He said.

“Me too. The album is almost done.” I commented.

“Yeah, I still have to lay the voice and some guitar parts but that’s about it. We had a lot of stuff done before I left.”

“I love the songs. I think it’s gonna turn out really well. I want to make some work in it still after everything is recorded and finished, just polish the sound a bit.”

“Enough about work. Have you decided if we make their birthday party here or do we rent a place?”

“Oh, we still have a month” But they will be just a year old so they don’t know what is happening. I think if we make it here is better with just a couple of friends and kids and stuff.”

“Yeah probably it is better. Can you believe they’re gonna be a year old already?”

“Time flies. Soon they won’t be babies anymore.” I smiled.

“Well…” James smirked laying me down and standing on top of me. “If we miss having a baby, we can take care of that.” He kissed me suggestively.

“Yes, but they are still babies so let’s not think about that.” I said kissing him too. I pulled his hand down with my hand and parted my lips right as they touched. My tongue dived inside his mouth searching for his and I played with it. James broke the kiss.

“I wouldn’t mind to have another one.” He said serious. I looked in his eyes and I saw some seriousness in his words.

“You want to have another kid?” I asked him. He stayed still looking in my eyes in silence. “James it’s too soon.” I said.

“I know Ade. I am just letting you know that I am not done with having kids with you.”

“Can we practice until then?” I asked him playfully and sliding my hand under his shirt.

“Oh yeah…” He kissed my neck. “Starting right now babe.” He hushed.
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LOL Their interaction with the kids is just lovely. I'm glad they're back, and alsmot finishing with the album.
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I agree with Alma! The interactions with the kids are so adorable. Things are finally back to normal for them. It makes me happy! :heart: I just hope nothing else terrible happens to them.
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I let myself go as he kissed my neck teasingly. He kissed, then sucked and then bite sending shivers all over my body. His fingers began to unbutton my shirt slowly while our lips united sharing a kiss and his fingers burned on my skin as my shirt fell opened. He ran his hands through it until he reached my breasts pausing there, cupping them and then palming them and finally squeezed them as at the same time our kiss deepened and our tongues met each other intertwining.

My hands roamed under his shirt, my tact longed for direct contact with his skin, and with the tip of my fingers I pressed every inch of his back, pulling the shirt up at the same time. Our kiss broke so I could take it off his head and I threw it randomly on the floor. James sat on me and pulled me up, retaking my lips in a kiss and pulling my shirt off my arms, then his hands traveled to my back and he unclasped my bra expertly leaving my breasts naked under his delighted gaze, even in the darkness I could see his eyes sparkling. Again his hungry hands delighted on that part of my body and his thumbs played with my nipples until they were hardened. His lips left mine and kissed my chin, my neck again and he made his way up to my ear, grabbing my earlobe between his teeth and pulling me down on the floor again. My fingers tugged onto his hair as he kissed his way down and the tip of his tongue toyed with my right nipple. I parted my legs making him lay between them and his hips bucked against my crotch making him heave. I did too.

I slid a hand between us and rubbed his erection, even under his jeans I could feel it twitch against my palm. I gave it a light squeeze and he moaned clenching his jaw. Taking my hands to his chest I made him roll on the carpet and it was my turn to sit on him. I searched for his lips with my own and his hands pulled me down willingly. I rocked my hips against him and we both broke the kiss to release a moan returning to it again in seconds. I raised my hips a bit and began to undo his jeans, then I pulled back standing on my knees and pulled his jeans off. I grabbed his manhood in my hand giving it a light stroke making him arch his back.

“Humm…babe…” He let out sexily. His voice choking and trembling a bit. I bent one more time over him and ran my hands up through his chest kissing his navel at the same time. He was panting hard and expecting more, I kept my way down tracing lines with the tip of my tongue but I kept on teasing him not giving him what he wanted. His fingers tugged in my hair and he pulled my head down. “Oh Ade…please…” He asked me and I obeyed willingly, that was my plan all along. I grabbed it in my hand and ran my tongue through his length making him relax. I looked up and he was quiet, eyes closed and lips slightly parted, his chest coming up and down and he panted a bit and then I returned to satisfy his need. I locked my lips around him and stroke him. He thrust lightly and slow enjoying his lonely ride. “Yes…like that.” He let me know. He rested on his elbows looking down as he moaned in pleasure. “Suck just the tip Ade.” He asked me, I gave him a smile and did as he asked, I run my tongue over it and then locked it around my lips circling my tongue around it, James threw his head back and leaned back on the carpet. “Oh yes…fuck…so good.” I stroke him with my hand and kept my lips in there and James was just about to lose it. I was so pleased with his moans and uncontrolled words that I could have stayed there until the end but then jerked a bit and he almost shouted me to stop. “Stop…stop…” He gasped. “Jesus stop Ade.” He said sitting and pulling himself out.

“Why did you leave?” I smiled coming up to him and kissing his lips.

“Give me a few minutes now or I will just explode in seconds.” He asked.

“I am dying for you.” I whispered in his ear taking my hand down again, he rolled his eyes onto the back of his head and then grabbed my wrist taking my hand away from him.

“Seriously if you don’t want me to come on your hand…” He smiled pecking me and laying me down. It was his time to sit on my legs undoing my jeans, he bit his lips tugging his hands in it and pulling it down, then he just ripped my panties too leaving me naked in front of his hungry eyes. I stretched a foot and rested it on his shoulder, James kissed it and then with my other leg on his waist I pulled him to me. He took his hand to my ankle pulling my leg back and obeying my request. With his hands holding my legs he entered me slowly but easily. He pulled back and then pulled in again standing on his knees.

“Ooohh…” I moaned. “Oh baby….that is good.” I raised my hips so he could go deeper, I wanted to feel every inch. He let go of my legs and gripped onto my hips, his fingers squeezing me as he thrust.

“Fuck…Ade…so wet baby.” He bent over me and leaned on his elbows cupping my face between his hands and kissing my lips. “You make me lose my mind.” He whispered. His husky voice trying to take control of his body. As he thrust my mind was also losing control of my body. I wriggled under him, my sweaty palms were glued onto his back and I just wanted more. I panted unable to speak and all I could do was locking my gaze in his blue one and he thrust again making me close my eyes and bit my lip. “So lost…” He hushed brushing his nose in mine while he found a steady rhythm where our bodies became one.

“God…” I growled as I was peaking incredibly high and fast. I raised my head and nipped on his shoulder dragging my hands to the back of neck as I kissed it after. “Harder James.” I whispered in his ear burring my teeth on his shoulder again as he pumped into me fiercely. “Yes…” I supported him.

“You like it like this? Uh?” He gasped as he kneeled again in front of me pulling my hips onto him rushed by his own urge.

“YES!” I almost yelled as I felt my legs getting a bit numb with the pleasure I gripped onto the blanket while he thrust madly.

“Come on Ade, give it to me.” He said as he knew I was close. It didn’t take long, I arched my back and cried his name while I jerked in absolutely frenzy. “Like that babe.” He told me as I rode my orgasm, then it was his turn. He picked his up his pace and quickly his own body quivered and his face flushed.

“Yeah…” He groaned clenching his teeth and his seed was spilt inside of me then we both laid down panting and tired. After a while he turned on his side and pulled a strand of my hair behind my ear. I looked at him and he pressed the tip of my nose with his index finger and gave me a tender smile. “Why are you so quiet and silent?” He asked.

“I was just thinking.” I told him. He leaned on his elbow, resting his head on his hand and looked at me.

“About what? You looked a bit distant.” He said.

“Do you really want to have another child?” I asked him as that was what was haunting my mind.

“You don’t?” He asked back.

“But you already have 5 kids, I thought you were done.”

“I thought I was too but then I found myself thinking I want to have more kids with you. I am gonna ask for it until you say yes Ade.” He kissed me and I ran a hand through his hair.

“Ours are still so little babe, we still have time.”

“I want one more.” He insisted and the way he said it and the way he looked in my eyes I knew he really meant it. He was actually asking for another baby.

“Give me just more time.” I said.

“Of course.”

“What if is not one more and it’s two again?” I asked him laughing remembering our surprise when we knew we were going to have twins.

“Then we have to deal with that again.” He chuckled.

“Cayla and Cullen still need so much of us.”

“But I am getting old Ade. I am not 32 as you are. I want to be able to see them grow, all of them.” I understood there his rush and I smiled and he smiled back at me.

“We should go to bed now. Our monsters are going to wake up soon and ready to play.” I said. James got up and offered me his hand. We grabbed our clothes and took everything upstairs and before we closed the door of our room we checked the kids to see if everything was fine.

The next morning the kids woke up around nine. James didn’t even move when they cried and I had trouble keeping my eyes opened. I kissed his cheek before I got out of bed and went to check on my kids. Cullen was standing on his bed gripping on the rails and Cayla was sat on hers both whimpering as they didn’t want to be alone.

“I am here.” I told them while I opened the curtains. The sun was shining and they blinked their eyes as the rays of light entered the room. I picked up one at a time to change their diapers and then took them downstairs for their breakfast. I sat them on the floor with some toys in front of them and turned the TV on the cartoons so they could entertain themselves. Then I hurried to the kitchen to get food ready and came back to them.

“Hungry?” I asked them and I laughed as they both nodded. I sat them in front of me and with two spoons and a plate filled with pap I began to feed them. “Hummm…delicious!” I smiled as I gave a spoon to them one at a time. You have to learn your tricks once you have twins.

I stayed there playing with them great part of the morning, the three of us still in pajama until James appeared with his hair tangled in shirt and boxers, barefoot and leaned against the door. The twins were so concentrated playing that they didn’t feel his presence, I raised m eyes and smiled at him and he took his finger to his lips asking me to stay quiet and I did. James crossed his arms around his chest and stayed there waiting until the moment they’d notice him.

“Ma…” Cullen blurted handing me a car.

“Is it for me?” I asked him then he shook his head and took it back, then I saw Cayla turning around and yelling.

“Dadadadadada…” She yelled pointing at James who was already laughing at her.

“Where’s daddy Cayla?” I asked her and she pointed to him again. James approached us crouching in front of them and they stood holding onto his knees.

“Dada.” Cullen said and James stayed still, serious and almost shocked looking at him.

“What Cullen?” He asked him but his voice was shaking a bit. The boy smiled and pointed at him.

“Dada.” He repeated. James looked at me with his eyes shinning and watered.

“Did you hear that?” He asked me smiling. I took my hands to his eyes and smiled at him.

“Yeah, I did. Why so mellow?” I joked. He laughed.

“I don’t know.” He said cleaning his eyes. “I guess…I don’t know.” He said again picking Cullen up and kissing his cheek.

“I can’t believe I was the one having pain and carrying him for nine months and now he says dada first.” I complained. Then I tickled Cullen’s belly. “Your father just moaned with pleasure you know, I shouted in pain.” James laughed loud.

“I also sweat a lot.” He added.

“Oh excuse me for the hard work. You got the good part and now they betray me this way.”

“Say dada Cayla.” He turned to our girl and I tapped his chest.

“Hey, stop corrupting them.” James hooted with laughter.

“Someone’s jealous.” He said nodding and the babies imitated his gesture which cause us to burst into loud laughs again.

“We better hurry up as we’re having lunch at Katy’s.” I told him.

Wanna get them dressed first and then we go in turns to have a shower?” He suggested and I thought it was a good idea. James took care of Cayla and I of our boy, when they were ready I went for the shower first. I didn’t take long as it was almost one o’ clock. I got dressed in tight blue jeans and black boots and a black shirt. I grabbed my black coat off the closet and rested it on the bed for when we leave.

“Your turn.” I said entering the babies’ room. James pecked me before he disappeared and I left them playing while I got everything I needed to take with me. James was ready almost as the same time I was already carrying my coat on his arms.

“Thanks.” I said grabbing it. He looked nice dressed in black. We put a coat on the kids and we left in his truck.

“We are a bit late.” He commented.

“Not much, I texted her saying we were a bit late. She will know how it is once her boy is born.” I said.

“Did they choose the name already?”

“Not yet, seems like they don’t seem to have an agreement.” James chuckled.

“Welcome to parenthood. Kids can divide the parents in so many ways, starting with the name.” He said

“It is true. I think they’ll do fine.”

“I do too. Phil is all happy.”

20 minutes later we parked in her yard and she came to receive us. Her cute 4 months pregnant belly jumped in my eyes and I couldn’t resist to rub my hand in it and somehow I remembered how it was when I was pregnant and nostalgia took care of me.

“How’s the boy?” I asked her.

“Behaving really good. I just feel sleepy all the time.” She complained.

“I know how it is. Hell to get up in the morning and the struggle to keep your eyes open after lunch.”

“Indeed my friend.” She agreed.

While we had lunch the twins fell asleep and we could profit of a nice adult conversation then me and Katy began to take the plates to the kitchen while James and Phil shared a conversation about Hot Rods.

“How is he doing?” Katy asked me.

“He’s fine. Our life is totally back to normal. He’s been caring and always there for us especially with the kids, he’s been amazing with them. I think life is back on track again.” I smiled.

“Good.”

“Today Cullen called him dada.” I told her. “You should see his face looking at him and then he even had tears in his eyes Katy. It was just amazing. He created such a good vibe and connection with them and the attention he gives them is just awesome.”

“He loves his children a lot, you can tell that by the way he deals with them.”

“Do you know he wants to have another one?” Katy looked back at me with her mouth opened.

“Really?” She asked and I nodded.

“Last night he told me that he wanted to have another baby.”

“And you?”

“I don’t mind having another baby with him. I mean I am happy, he’s a wonderful man and I love him and I love being a mother but it’s so soon. The twins are just a year old next month. They still need a lot of attention.”

“Did you tell him you want to wait a bit more?”

“Yes I did and he said that he’s not 32 as I am that he is getting old.” I explained and Katy nodded her head thoughtful.

“I understand his point. He is asking you for another child Ade, that is so special.”

“I know that but ours are still babies that is my point.”

“Between getting pregnant again and having the new baby they will be two or maybe two and a half.”

“Two years old is still a lot of work.”

“I don’t know, it’s your life so it’s your call my dear.”

“But at the same time it was so sweet of him to ask for another baby.” I smiled.

“Exactly. Just relax and don’t think too much about it. Maybe he’ll let it go and give you a bit more of time.” She patted my arm.

We stayed with Katy all day long and even part of night. We had dinner there and when we came back home the twins were already sleeping. We took them upstairs to their room and changed them to their pajamas, they were completely lost in their sleep that they didn’t even opened their eyes, after being really well tucked in I turned the presence light on and we left to our own room. James came back of the bathroom just in his boxers and slid under the covers. I followed him right after.

“Recovered from the shock of having your youngest son calling you dada?” I asked him kissing his chest. James surrounded me with his arms.

“It was just too overwhelming for me you know. I was a total ass when they were born and until they were 5 month old I was always drunk then I regained the pulse of my life and I began my journey with them and hearing him calling me dada today was just the bonus of all my efforts, it was just too good. I don’t know how to love Ade but hearing these little details lets me know that I am doing a good job.”

“May I disagree?” I asked him and he raised an eyebrow. “You know how to love babe, everything you’ve done for you older kids and now what you’ve done for me and for our children that is love. The times you make us laugh and the efforts you do to be with us and spend time with us that is love so you know how to love.”

“I do? Because sometimes I think if I am doing enough, if I am being good enough. I am insecure…” I kissed his lips and he caressed my hair.

“You’re doing a wonderful job. You make me feel loved since the first day you asked me out.”

“Good, ‘cause you are loved indeed.” He kissed.

“Now let’s get some sleep.” I said but James rolled on top of me.

“Sleep? Yeah…but after some adult entertainment.” He smiled.

“Get off me.” I laughed and tapped his back.

“I can’t, look how horny I am.” He said grabbing my hand and shoving it inside his boxers so i could feel him hard.

“Oh baby….” I purred.
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:3 James is so sweet :cloud9 and hot :drool asking for another baby! :3 And Cullen calling him dada was adorable.
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A month passed with a blink of an eye…

“Jesus I am almost sleeping on this table.” I complained, hearing one of the new songs for the tenth time. The album was done and we were just adjusting the last details and that was a work that was done by me with James and Lars in the studio but it was a very cautious and careful work and it took time to arrange all the little details and unwanted noises our double voices or whatever we wanted to do with it.

“This part is so boring…” James complained as well. “We have been listening to the fucking songs for a whole week now!” Yes, and during that week we completely slacked on our kids and spent little or none time with them. Katy was the one picking them up at school and we would pick them up at her house when they were already sleeping. James and I were feeling terrible doing that but we were just trying to get the album ready and done and gone.

“We’re just missing three songs.” Lars said but I also could feel a bit of despair in his voice.

“I think we should double your voice on this bit.” I said stopping the tape and rewinding it. “Here..” I pressed play again. James was not even paying attention, I looked at him and he was looking at his watch.

“It’s past midnight…” He commented out of the blue. I looked at him and our gaze locked. “Happy birthday mommy.” He said. It was our kids first anniversary and we weren’t even at home with them. We were not like that.

“Happy birthday guys.” Lars greeted us, tapping on James’s back.

“Happy birthday daddy.” I said kissing his lips but James looked sad.

“We’re not even with them.” He said.

“It’s for another cause, if it’s not like this we won’t finish this album never.” I said.

“Still…” He said resting his arms on the back of his head and stretching his legs. “Is it an album more important than our kids?”

“No…” I said.

“It was just this week James.” Lars said trying to calm him down but James wasn’t mad or angry, he was just sad and maybe extremely tired. We were drained.

“I know Lars, but I don’t feel good doing this. At least tonight we should have been there with them and when we pick them up now they will be sleeping, they are sleeping already.” I grabbed his hand and truth was I thought he was so right. That week had been hell for me, I missed my kids above everything and the bit we were with them in the morning wasn’t enough, I needed to spend more time with them and doing this made me feel less of a mother.

“We finish this song and we go, at least tomorrow it’s day off.” I supported him. Lars nodded.

“Yeah, at least tomorrow we all have time to be with our kids. What time is the party?”

“It starts at 4 o’clock, because they will sleep a bit after lunch and they usually wake up around that time but if you want to come up sooner, feel free.”

“Ok. Now let’s finish this shit.” Lars mumbled. “I can’t fucking hear James’s voice any longer.” He complained and that actually made James laugh and myself.

“Ok, this part.” I played again. They listened to it attentively and James frowned.

“I don’t know…” He said. I looked at him hopeless, I knew he didn’t want to work any longer and I pressed stop again.

“You know what? Let’s go home.” I announced. “We’ll come back to this the day after tomorrow.”

“Good idea.” James said jumping off the chair and Lars remained sat looking at us.

“You’re staying?” I asked him. Lars shrugged.

“We could at least finish this one.” He suggested.

“Lars, I can’t take this any longer. I am tired, I haven’t seen my kids, I haven’t had sex in a week…I just want to get rid of this fucking album. I can’t do this any longer.” Lars hooted with laughter and I looked at him incredulous. James rested his hands on his waist. “What?” He asked.

“I don’t think Lars needs to know certain details.” I told him.

“Am I lying?” He smirked and I tapped him. Lars laughed again.

“Now I know why he has been cranky.” He said grabbing his wallet and putting his shoes on. “I am ready. I also can’t stand being here any longer.” James grabbed my hand and the three of us left the studio. We said our goodbyes near the cars and we left to opposite directions. We got to Katy’s with no problem due to the late hour, no traffic. The twins were sleeping, obviously, not even waking up as we took them inside the car.

“Thanks Katy. See you tomorrow.”

“See you tomorrow.” She said crossing her arms around her chest leaning against her door.

“ADE!” James shouted.

“Is he cranky?” Katy asked.

“We haven’t had sex for a week.” I hushed and Katy laughed. “See you tomorrow.” I said again and she waved. “Can’t you even wait 5 minutes?” I turned to James as I fastened my seat belt.

“It’s almost 2 am.” He muttered, Stepping on the gas and puffing at the same time. I smiled looking at him. “What?” He asked looking at me by the corner of his eye.

“You look cute when you’re slightly pissed off.”

“I am not pissed off, I’m just tired and annoyed.” He clarified.

“And needing to get laid.” I teased and he smiled.

“Yes. Come on, a whole week…NO!” He commented.

“I am sorry, I have been tired, we always get home so late and then we’re always running in the morning.” James grabbed my hand and kissed it.

“I know babe, I am not mad at you or blaming you. I am also too tired, all I want to do when I hit the sheets is sleep.”

We parked the car in front of our house and Disco barked making Cullen opening an eye but he fell back asleep the next second. I kissed his forehead and snuggled him against my chest like protecting him and James brought Cayla inside. First thing we did was to put them in their bed then we stayed there looking at them. James was running his fingers through Cayla’s face.

“Sleep well sweetie.” He whispered. I kissed the boy again and then I kissed my girl and finally I kissed the back of his shoulder.

“Can you believe it’s been a year already.” He said.

“Yeah…they are so cute and so grown up.”

“Let’s go to bed.” He said holding my hand. “At least tomorrow I want to dedicate my whole day to them.” He kissed me. I nodded and followed him towards our bed.

Morning…

I woke up and stretched feeling relaxed but in an empty bed, next thing I heard noise coming from downstairs, I eavesdropped and James was laughing loud with the twins. Confused, I read the time in the alarm clock on the nightstand, 11am.

“Shit…” I said running downstairs. “James!” I exclaimed bursting in the living room.

“Mommy!” He exclaimed smiling but looking at our kids. They both looked at me and pointed smiling like crazy.

“James, it’s so late!” I said crouching in front of them and they came to me immediately. James pecked me.

“You were sleeping so well love. I decided to let you sleep and rest.”

“But…” He silenced me with two fingers.

“They are fine. I fed them and dressed them and we were playing.” He smiled, I smiled back at him and then looked at the twins who were hanging onto my legs bouncing up and down visibly happy. I kissed each one of them and then I turned to James again.

“Do you think they miss us?”

“I don’t know…that’s hard to tell but they have feelings.”

“Oh babies, I feel so awful.” I held them in my arms.

“Mama.” Cayla said.

“Yes sweetie, mama.” I kissed her again. “How’s things going for the party?”

“They are outside getting everything ready. Hope it doesn’t rain.” James laughed.

“Let go of mama’s hands, come on.” I said to Cayla, Cullen crawled back to James meanwhile. Cayla let go of my hands and stood balancing herself.

“Yay…” James clapped and then she did too. “Cayla is the best!” He said seeing she was looking at him. They could stand already but they didn’t walk despite our attempts to instigate them in doing it.

“Go to daddy Cayla. Go…” I told her. “James call her.”

James extended his arms at her. “Come on sweetie, come…” He called her. Cayla looked at his hands and then back at me. She smiled but didn’t move, she looked again at James and shook her arms waiting for him to grab her or picking her up. James shook his head. “No, you come here.” He told her, then Cayla, fearful gave a step towards him and he smiled, losing her fear she took another one and then another and then she was about to fall and he grabbed her. “She walked Ade!” He said.

“Awww…my little girl walked, these things are so amazing.” I said.

“What about you lazy one?” He talked to Cullen who pointed at him.

“Dada.” He said.

“Yeah dada…get your lazy butt up and walk too, what are you waiting for?” James smiled.

“I think he is gonna take some more time.” I said. Cullen was really comfortable crawling, Cayla always tried to stand first and balance on her own, she was more adventurous.

“I think so too.” He kissed him and then he kissed me. “I have to go outside and see how things are going.”

“Ok..”

“I love you.” He told me kissing me again and taking his time on my lips.

“I love you too.” I replied and then he left. I peacked from the window and James was talking to the guy who was organizing the party. I took the twins to my room and sat them to play with a few toys while I chose what to wear. I took a quick shower and meanwhile James came in the room.

“Already dressed?” He asked me.

“Yep.”

“Since we’re all ready we could go out for lunch and then when we come back it’s time for the party.” He said. I agreed. I needed to go out, have some fun.

We had lunch by the sea and alone the two of us sang Happy Birthday to our kids in the middle of the restaurant, during desert we asked for a muffin with a candle in it and we made our own private party. Some people in the restaurant raised and clapped when we finished and the twins applauded too fascinated with the candle burning, they didn’t have any idea it was their birthday. After, we took a walk by the beach and sat on the sand playing with them until they wanted to have their nap, that’s when we came back home.

The guests began to arrive, first it was Francesca with her boyfriend and James’s children, each one of them brought a different present to the babies, yes my babies were extremely spoiled. Then Lars arrived with Connie and his three kids and then Kirk with Lani and their boys, Rob and his family, Katy and Phil. Soon our garden was filled with adults talking and children playing and running all around.

“James never asked you again for another baby?” Katy asked me as I dressed the kids for their party.

“No, since that first time that he never asked about that. Well we have been busy with the album maybe that’s the case.” Katy grabbed Cullen and I took Cayla to go to the party. There Cali and Marcella came to take them and I let them because they were amazing and extremely caring with them.

“Cali is a lady.” James commented grabbing me by my waist.

“Your daughter is a teenager.” I said. She had grown incredibly beautiful.

“I feel old when I look at them.” He said. I turned around and kissed his lips.

“You’re 49 now, not old at all.” He brought his lips close to my ear and intertwined his fingers in mine squeezing my hand a bit.

“Let’s have another baby.” He whispered.

“James!” I exclaimed straying to look in his eyes but they were so pleading that it crushed my heart.

“Please Ade…” He said. “I really want to have another one. Let’s try.”

“But…” He silenced me with a kiss.

“Please babe.” He asked again. “We are happy, we love each other.”

“I know that but you have an album coming out, you’re going on tour and I am gonna be alone with them.”

“I will be here as much as I can.” He said, he cupped my face between his hands and rested his forehead against mine looking straight into my eyes. “Ade, I am asking you to have a child with me, please. Another one?” I couldn’t help but smile, his eyes were begging me and that melted my heart. “Is that a yes?” He asked me.

“I need to go to the doctor first, see if everything is alright.” I said.

“And if it is?” He asked.

“We’ll try, ok?” He smiled and held me tight against him.

“We’re gonna make it.” He reassured me. “Thank you.”

“You don’t have to thank me.” I said straying and tapping his chest. “Nothing makes me happier than to have another child with you, I just think it is too soon but since you want it so much and it’s the second time you ask for it…”

“I really, really, really want to have a baby now.”

“Then we’ll make one.” I laughed and clutched onto his neck. I kissed his cheek.

“Only you to convince me into these things. James after this one, we’re done!!” I warned him. He kissed my lips laughing.

“I promise.”

“Good.” I said serious and then he kissed me again. Like that I decided to have another child with him, one that was planned.

As the party went on and the night took place the guests began to leave. Francesca was first but she left the kids and James had to take them home later. James left on his truck and I had to take Katy home as Phil went to a football game, Lars stayed with me and kept me company, I would drop him home after I leave Katy, secretly we wanted to share a few ideas concerning the album and we talked about that when I was taking him home, with my twins already sleeping on the back seat. When I was on the highway the traffic was insane and we had to stop.

“Jesus…” I said looking at all the cars lined up in front of us.

“It’s probably an accident.” Lars commented.

“I’m gonna call James, he needs to take this road so he can avoid it.”

“Maybe he’s already home.”

“Don’t know…” I said picking up my cell off my purse and dialing his number. It rang skipping to the voicemail later. “He doesn’t answer.” I said.

“Probably he’s home already. Don’t forget it took us a while to leave, he had left for more than half an hour.” He said. I peaked out of the window and saw the lights of an ambulance. “It’s an accident.” I said. “I can see the lights of an ambulance and the police is also there.” One by one and little by little we began to approach the scene of the accident, from a certain distance I saw the wheels of a car turned upside down.

“That looks bad.” Lars commented. I shivered as I was sensitive to car crashes, my parents died in one and that was enough for me. I looked away.

“Ms…” A policeman tapped on my window and I opened it. “Please take your car to the right, it’s gonna take a while.” He warned me.

“What happened?” Lars asked.

“We have a truck, a black Ford turned over on the road.” I froze hearing the word truck and Ford plus black. I grabbed my cell and called James again, it rang until it skipped to the voice mail again. My heart skipped a beat and I just threw my cell on my purse.

“Ade, are you alright?” Lars asked but I opened the door of my car and ran after the policeman.

“Officer…” I called him. He turned around. “Does it have blue flames?” I asked with my voice shaking, I was having a bad feeling about all that.

“Yes, do you know…” The police man said but I just burst running closer to the accident scene with my heart racing a mile per second. I went hysterical.

“JAAAAMEEEEEEESSSSS….” I yelled running.

“Ade!” Lars ran after me, shouting for me.

“NOOO….” I cried. “JAMES!” I called when I got there but a another officer grabbed me forbidding me to go further. I cried and sobbed loud.

“Ms. You can’t go in there.” The police said.

“That’s my husband.” I said. Lars grabbed my arm and I looked at him with tears running down my face. “It’s his car…” I said, my voice failing a bit.

“Calm down.” He said but he was pale himself and shocked. I looked again at the truck with its wheels in the air.

“JAMES!” I shouted. “NO…” I cried. “Oh baby NOOOOO…” I jerked off Lars arms and trespassed the barrier running towards the truck but a fireman working in the place caught me preventing me to go further. “JAMES!“ I yelled at the top of my lungs. “Don’t leave me…you can’t leave me.“ My world came to an end that very second.

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Poor Ade! She just can't seem to get a break :( I hope James is okay!

James being cranky from a lack of sex is kinda funny! Haha, poor guy.
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:o I scream with you to lady!
JAMESS :blush:
I wanna know if he will be okie :(

Lovely and dramatic

more :biggrin
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