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| Lilith | March 6, 2012, 6:13 pm Post #256 |
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♥ Jaimelicious ♥
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OMG! James has to be ok!
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| Scorpion Flower | March 7, 2012, 10:52 am Post #257 |
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Outlaw Torn
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I was numb, serious. My face was pale, I didn’t move or talked, I didn’t react, I was voided of feelings, there was a hole in my soul. Lars was sat by my side holding my hand and Connie was sat on the other side holding the other. I wanted to cry but somehow tears didn’t come out. I sighed and some woman came talk to me. “I am so sorry for your loss.” She said. I didn’t have a clue who this woman was, I had never seen her. I looked around with my head spinning. Loss, what loss? I looked around again and saw Kirk and Rob, Lars was dressed in black too, he was crying. “What’s happening?” I asked, there tears came to my eyes as things were getting a bit clear. “Lars, I think the effect of the pill is disappearing, she’s agitated.” Connie commented to Lars and he took a box off his pocket. “Take this Ade.” Connie told me but I shook her hand away and the pill flew off her hand falling on the floor. “Oh God…” I buried my face in my hands and began to cry. “Nooo…” I sobbed. “No…” I repeated and Connie patted my back. I looked up and saw the coffin. I got up and walked up to it. It was black and it was closed, on it a photograph of him smiling, gorgeous. I saw flowers with my name on it standing right in front of his coffin and then I took my hand to it as if I was touching him and ran my hand through it as if I was caressing him, I rested my head against it and embraced it as if I was holding him and I cried loud. He was inside that wooden box but couldn’t move or talk to me or hold our kids, anything. Lars was sat on one bench but didn venture to take me away leaving that moment just for me and him, then the priest came in and I sat back near them. He stood himself in front of his coffin, he was about to begin the mass, rose on arm and said “In the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit…” I blessed myself praying that wasn’t true. I cried the whole time during the priest’s speech, Lars held my hand the whole time and after half an hour the priest blessed him and the coffin was carried away. We all followed it walking slowly until the cemetery. I was first in the line together with Lars who never let go of me, Katy and the guys were behind us and then there was lot of people but I didn’t recognize anyone, except for some of our friends. The bell of the cemetery tolled when the coffin passed through it and I released a loud sob at that moment, we were so close of letting go of him forever. Lars squeezed my hand a bit as giving me strength and I felt Connie tapping my shoulder. We stopped walking a few meters later, the priest said his last prayers, I was hurting too much to listen to anything, I was just sobbing and crying, I was even feeling dizzy, weak and before they’ve taken the coffin to the grave I held it close as if I was giving him a hug and placed a kiss on it, then I just watched them covering it until I could no longer see anything but sand. James was gone forever. I fell on my knees yelling in pain. “COME BACK!!! YOU CAN’T GO…” And I felt Lars’s hands on my shoulders pulling me back but I jerked him away. “How could you go without me? James!” I called him. “Take me with you…” I sobbed and shook as sobbing. “James…” I called again. “NOOOOO….” I yelled as Lars began to drag me away from his grave and then everything went black. I opened my eyes all of a sudden inhaling as if I was struggling to breathe. I didn’t recognize the place I was at, I looked around and everything was white. I was tied up to a bed, I wanted to move but my hands were tied to the bed. It was a hospital I was pretty sure. “Where am I?” I asked. “You’re awake!” Lars told me. “Untie my hands, why are my hands tied up?” I asked him. “Because you didn’t want the medication and you kept on struggling. They had to put you to sleep.” He explained. My mouth was dry and my mind was a blur. “I need to wash my face.” I told him. Lars nodded and untied my hands. I walked up to the washbasin in the room feeling my legs weak, I looked at my face in the mirror I looked like a corpse, even my lips didn’t have color. I looked terrible. “Call James. I need him.” I asked him and there Lars looked away from me resting his hands on his waist. “Ade…” Lars looked at me with pleading eyes, my eyes watered right away as flashes began to ran in my mind. “You need to let him go Ade. I know it’s hard but he’s no longer with us.” I stood silent looking at him as a tear finally dropped, I felt it landing on my lips. “You’re going crazy Ade, look at where you are!” He said. “He’s not dead.” I said clenching my fist then I smiled. “And do you wanna know why? Because he would never go away without me.” I smiled and cried at the same time. “I am going to sit here and wait for him, he’ll be here, he’ll pick me up.” I said sitting on the bed. Lars didn’t hold his tears. “Ade, he is gone.” He insisted. I looked at him in the eye and felt rage taking care of my being, I grabbed him by the collar. “You’re lying! Why are you doing this? He’s alive! He’s going to pick me up!” And Lars began to struggle to get rid of my hands as I tried to shove him against a wall, then a doctor and a nurse came into the room and pushed me onto the bed. I tried to jerk them away. “Leave me alone.” I yelled as they were tying my hands again. “JAMES!” I called him again. “COME BACK! Please take me with you to wherever you are” I began to cry and yell hysterically. “James…you’re not dead. Come to me. JAAAAMEEES…NOOO….” “AAAAHHHHH….NOOOOO….” I cried and rolled on the bed, then I felt strong arms around me and I struggled to get rid of them, I felt my hands free and I took the chance to slap the person with all my strength. “ADE!” He exclaimed indignant and grabbing my hands to stop me to hit him more. I knew that voice. “Babe, you were fucking dreaming.” He said. I heaved as my blood rushed in my veins, I was really crying and I felt real despair. James turned the light on and I could see him, he was alive, he was in our bed and he was alive. I sobbed and surrounded his neck with my arms and when I felt his arms around me it was like I was put back to life again. “Aaaahhh…” I sobbed. James ran his hand through my hair. “Don’t you ever do something like that to me again.” I told him as my voice came out in hiccups. “Calm down.” He whispered. “I am here. I am fine.” He said. It had been a week since the accident and since then I kept on having nightmares about it, so he knew why I was crying and what I was talking about. James came out of that accident with just a few scratches and a bruise on his forehead, he was lucky but since then I couldn’t stop thinking about how I could have lost him that night, it was very traumatic for me. “Fuck, you could have slapped me a little less stronger.” He said laughing a bit. I strayed and run a hand through his face. “I am sorry.” I smiled. “It’s ok.” He kissed cupping my face between his hands. “Let that go Ade. It’s past alright. I am not going anywhere, not without you.” He kissed again. “Is it hurting?” I asked him rubbing the spot where I’d hit him. “Yes but let that go, you weren’t even awake yet, you were yelling my name.” “I’m glad you took me out of there. I was with Lars in some sanitarium, I think and before I was in your funeral, it was horrible.” James shivered and I kissed him again and then again. “I love you, so good to have you here.” I held him close. “You have to have more bad dreams often. You say nice things.” He laughed. I tapped him. “Like I don’t say it often!” I complained, he laughed loud making me laugh too and then lay me on the bed resting on top of me. He ran a hand through my face and rubbed his nose in mine. “Wanna see how real I am?” He asked kissing my lips after. “See…I am here and I am kissing you…” He whispered as he kissed me. I giggled. “Yeah…and you’re undressing me.” I stated as his hands began to pull my nightgown up. “Am I?” He asked pretending he didn’t know what he was doing but he kept on pulling it up, satisfying his need when he finally pulled it off my head. He kissed my neck and I knew he was up to some fun, it was 3 am and there we were ready to get wasted on each others arms. I tugged my hands on his air and pulled his head up to kiss his lips. His kiss was soft at first, then he grabbed my lower lip between his teeth and let go kissing my lips again. His expert tongue made my lips part and he met mine teasing it the only way he could. “I am alive.” He whispered thrusting against my thigh. Hard as only he could. All of a sudden my body didn’t want to wait or sweet, my body wanted to vent, wanted to drain all the adrenaline in it, wanted to calm down the flushing blood running through my veins. “Take this off.” I said tugging my fingers on the waist of his boxers pulling them down. He took off the rest, fast and quickly responding to my rush. He was frantic as he returned to my arms. His kiss was savage but so tasty, I moaned inside his mouth as his thumbs met my panties. My fire set his own body on fire and his rush was the same as mine. His touch was strong, his kisses became small bites on my skin, I rammed my nails on his back feeling him losing his mind. “Ade…” He moaned. “I don’t want to wait any longer.” I told him wrapping my legs around his waist pulling him down with my feet. He entered me strongly, roughly and fast. I inhaled feeling him. “Did I hurt you?” He asked stopping and looking into my eyes. I shook my head and bit my lip at the same time. James began to pull in and out, slowly but he groaned like protesting. “I want to let lose…” He said. “Go ahead…” I told him. Like I said I just wanted to vent. His thrusts increased, the power, the sensation was just insane. I moaned loud and insanely, powerless to shut up the overwhelming pleasure he was giving me. “Fuck Ade…this is good.” He said ramming onto me. “Yeah….like that.” James kneeled in front of me pulling my hips onto him almost savage. “God…James….Yes….” His face was flushed and we were both sweating, His hips pumping at a steady but fast rhythm. “Adeeeee…” He moaned throwing his head back and his eyes closed. Cayla cried and he stopped. “No baby, let her cry, she will shut up.” I said. He retook his thrusts a little slower. None of us wanted to stop, Cayla was crying on their room but we just ignored her. “Fuck…” He cursed and I knew that was because our girl was crying and it was disturbing us. James retook his frantic pace again and our moans were even louder than our girl’s cry, for a moment we stopped listening to her as our love sounds filled the room. “I am coming Ade.” He quivered. “Oh fuck babe…” His jaw clenched. “James…” I said. “Oh baby yeah…” I said satisfied as I quivered franticly while my body peaked in pleasure. I seizure in delight and convulsed. “Ooohh…” I moaned as the feeling didn’t abandon my body. “Oooooohhh. Chriiiisttt….” James almost yelled pressing his fingers on my hips almost violently. When he was done I stayed still heaving like crazy and he did too. We stayed quietly hearing our girl still crying. James picked up his boxers and went for her. “I’m gonna go check on her.” He said still panting and leaving the room. I stood there naked on the bed, trying to relax with my eyes closed. He brought me back to life indeed, I smiled all alone and he got back in time to see that. “Look, daddy made mommy smile.” He said making me open my eyes to find him holding Cayla in his arms. Cayla stretched me her arms the second she saw me, I slid inside my nightgown again and took her, she wanted me to put her back to sleep. I sat on our bed rocking her in my arms and James laid in bed still panting a bit. “Tired?” I asked him. “You kill me Ade.” He smiled with his eyes closed. “But I don’t mind dying that way.” He laughed making Cayla open her eyes again. “You awaked her.” I said. “Sorry.” I rocked Cayla for a couple of minutes more, until she fell back to her innocent sleep, James took her back to her room, coming back to our bed after. He kissed my lips before turning the light out. “You have your appointment tomorrow right?” He asked me. “Yeah.” I answered. “What time?” “4 o’clock, why?” “I wanna go with you.” He said. “’kay.” I was falling asleep fast. He was talking about the appointment I had with the doctor that followed my pregnancy with the twins, I was going to check with her if it was alright to get pregnant again. The album was done so I was staying home most of the time, having fun with my children. James, on the other hand was busier than ever, even though the album was recorded, now it would start all the marketing around it and they had a lot of decisions to take, he’d spend most of his days at HQ. But still that day he was with me at the doctor’s office. “Your twins are just so gorgeous Adriana.” The doctor told me looking at them and James and I smiled looking at them too. They were gorgeous indeed. “So, what brings you here?” She asked. “Well, I want to get pregnant again.” I said. “Already?” The doctor asked surprised. “Yeah…We want to have another baby.” I said. “Well, let’s examine you then.” She said getting up. She observed me for a while taking some time on the ultrasound. “I think you are fine.” She said. “Go practice.” “So, do we have green card?” I asked her. “Sure. I am just going to prescribe a few vitamins.” “Alright.” I got dressed and came back to the room where James was with the kids. The doctor prescribed the vitamins and handed it to me. “Good luck to both of you.” She said shaking my hand and then James’s hand. “Thanks.” I told her. “So?” He asked when we were waiting for the elevator. “We’re ok to go.” I said smiling. James opened this huge smile and kissed me. “Oh, so good.” He kissed me again. “You really want to have this baby don’t you?” I teased him as I saw his eyes shinning in happiness. “Yes Ade. I don’t know what happened to me but I just want to have another kid and right now, I can’t wait until it’s here.” “First we have to practice…” I said smirking and he smirked back, then I put my lips against his ear. “a lot…” I purred. “Let’s go home.” He whispered in my ear. “Dada.” Cullen called him and he looked down at the stroller. Cullen handed him the car he had in his hand. “Unless they sleep babe…” I said laughing. “They are gonna sleep so mom and dad can have fun right?” He said nodding and the babies did the same. They nodded. James laughed loud. “See…they agree.” He said with that cute boyish smile. “We’ll see about that and stop saying those things to them.” I laughed. “They don’t understand.” He said. James pulled me to him strongly holding me by my waist. “I want to fuck you senseless.” He said. The babies clapped and giggled making us hoot with laughter. “You’re making me horny.” I kissed. “That’s the spirit my wife.” He said pulling the stroller off the elevator. |
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| cmania | March 7, 2012, 11:09 am Post #258 |
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Frantic
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Cute lovelyWOW what a dreams girl you make me like this Uff he his alive and he wanna another baby ahah still okie and hot
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| Voxx | March 7, 2012, 11:31 am Post #259 |
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Some Kind Of Monster
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Well jesus! Glad he's not dead. That would have been the saddest ending ever! That was a tricky little dream. So glad he's not dead. My favourite line in this chapter was, "Look, daddy made mommy smile". In the context it was just cute and funny! Well I hope they get the baby they want. But no more twins!! I don't know if Ade could handle 4 young children all on her own while James is on tour. And I hope having another baby doesn't send him off the dead end! |
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| Lilith | March 7, 2012, 5:29 pm Post #260 |
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♥ Jaimelicious ♥
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+__+ Oh God... lol Phew, thank God that was just a dream. lol Hehe! I bet they'll have fun trying to make that new baby...
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| Scorpion Flower | March 8, 2012, 9:17 am Post #261 |
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Outlaw Torn
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“Ade…” I heard the door slamming downstairs and then his footsteps on the stairs “Ade…” He called again. “I’m in our room.” I shouted as I was walking around naked after taking a shower. The door opened and he shoved a CD case in my eyes. “It’s done.” He said smiling. “And I brought this copy for you.” He kissed me. Their new album was done and that’s what he was bringing me. I grabbed the case and turned it around to read, Sound: Adriana Hetfield. I felt proud and I smiled. “Thanks for bringing me a copy. This is just so awesome.” He held me close and pecked me again. “You are a pain in the ass in the studio but I loved to share this experience with you and it truly makes me proud that my wife’s name is written in one of our albums.” “Thank you. You better get ready, we are running a bit late babe.” I told him. That night was the launch party of the new album for a couple of metclubers. That time they decided to make something different, instead of playing live, they got a theater with good acoustics and they would play the CD and the guys would be sat commenting on the songs, telling stories of recording it in the studio, whatever they wanted. Some press was invited too and then they would answer questions of whoever wanted to question them. I found the idea interesting as it was different. “I better run.” He said pulling his shirt off his head and letting it fall on the floor as he walked to the bathroom. “James…” I called him and I pointed at the floor as he turned around. He rolled his eyes and threw his tongue out at me but picked the shirt of the floor and took it with him inside. I put on my lingerie and refrained from putting on my dress as I still had to dry my hair and do my makeup. I came back to the bathroom to do those things. I didn’t even bother looking at James as we were running, I just picked up the hairdryer and began to fix my curly hair. Since it was curly I didn’t have to do much, I just had to dry it and then fix the curls with foam, sometimes it felt good to have such wavy hair, it could make things easy on these occasions. “Why are you in your lingerie?” James asked me as he closed the water and grabbed a towel, there I looked at him through the mirror. “Because I still have to do my makeup and usually we don’t get dressed before it’s done.” I didn’t bother explaining too much, he would never understand such feminine thing. “Oh…ok…” He said but he didn’t sound convinced at all. Through the mirror I saw his eyes traveling over my body. “Is there something wrong?” I smiled questioning him. James threw the towel on the toilet and grabbed me from behind rubbing himself on me and kissing my shoulder. “No, everything is right…Everything is in the right place. Damn you.” He said while planting kisses on my back. “Quit the dirty thoughts Hetfield as Katy is downstairs with your kids, including your older ones and we’re a bit late to the release party of your album.” “Which make things even more tempting.” He hushed biting my earlobe making me shiver. He slid his hands down my belly and inside my thong and as he stroked me he bit my shoulder. “Ooooh…” I moaned losing my senses a bit. “We have to go James…” I told him with my voice trembling as he was pleasuring me tremendously good. James just ignored my pleading and kept his teasing fingers at the right spot but at the wrong time. “It’s not good if we get late…” I tried again but my voice was a whisper, he was taking me far. I felt his erection between my legs as he rubbed himself in me. “Do you really want me to stop?” He asked bringing his lips to my ear. Then one of his hands grabbed my neck pulling me even more against him and he imprisoned me like that. “Yes…” I said still trying to be reasonable but who could be reasonable when all of a sudden I just wanted to come against his hand. “Oh no…” I said. “No..” I had my eyes closed but I felt him smile against my neck as he slightly bit it. His hand still preventing me from moving and his fingers working on me, sending me to another dimension. “No…right answer.” He said. “tell me how good it is.” He said. “Oh fuck, that is good.” I said but I couldn’t say much more as I convulsed. “Oohh…” I moaned until I calmed down. He took his fingers off me and pulled my panties down in a hasty move and I stepped out of them, with one foot kicking mine he pulled my legs apart and then with a hand in my back he made me bend. Roughly, he was rushing and didn’t take time to enter me guided by his hand, then he let go and gripped on my hips. “Fuck…yeah…” He said as he began to thrust. At first he tried to control it but then I began to push back against him as my body was just insanely urging. “Ade…shit…” He moaned. His grip became tighter and he lost control of his body. “Yes… like that babe.” I moaned as he pumped me. “Harder…” I asked and he sure gave me what I wanted. “How’s that?” He asked. “Good…” I said. “Oh fuck Ade I can’t hold this any longer.” He said pumping even harder. “DAD!” Castor called making James halt like frozen. “What the fuck?” He gasped, we were both panting. “WHAT?” James asked. Our position was the minimum funny. James was still inside of me. “We are late.” Castor blurted. He was inside our room and I kept thinking when he’d open the door to find us like that. James and I exchanged glances through the mirror and he motion with one finger on his lips for I remain in silence. I bit my lip holding my laughter. “Go back downstairs Castor. We’ll be there in a few seconds.” “Can I come in?” He asked near the bathroom door. “NO!” James yelled. “OKAYYYY….” Castor yelled back and then we heard the boy closing the door coming back downstairs. “Damn kids…” He cursed withdrawing from me. “Nice sense of opportunity.” He said. I just burst into laughter, I couldn’t hold it any longer. James looked at me and joined me laughing. “I was in panic he’d open the door and caught us like that.” I said. “So was I.” He said taking a deep breath. “We better get dressed now but I tell you when we come back home, I want to have my way with you.” I came up to him and kissed him. “As many times as you want.” I said. “Arrgghh…I hate to be interrupted like that, especially when I was already so close.” “Just get dressed.” I laughed again. We finished getting dressed and we joined his children downstairs. “Really, how long do you guys take to get ready?” Asked Cali visibly annoyed. “As many time as we need lady.” James blurted and she rolled her eyes. “Let’s go dad.” Marcella jumped off the couch. James and I kissed our twins and I say goodbye to Katy who was sleeping in our house that night as we were coming back home late. James went driving and as we got there we were greeted by a thousand photographers hungry to have a recent photograph of us together. It was public that I had been the one mixing their album which brought even more attention to my persona as if being his wife wasn’t enough already. That was the part I hated the most, the fact that being married to him my private life came to an end but Marin County was excellent to keep some part of life private. Small place used to have us around and we could go around town without being bothered. The kids walked in front of us, many cameras shot them too. Castor gave the horns and posed like a grown up man making James and I smile watching him then we were requested to pose alone. James held my hand and we smiled leaning . Many photos were taken from many angles, I knew we would be everywhere around the press the next day, but that was for a good cause and it came with the territory. Inside I sat with the kids front row, the row reserved for the wives and family. On our left there was the part reserved for the press and behind us it was all members of the club. The ones who were lucky to win a chance to listen to the album the day before it came out. James and the boys sat comfortably on the stage on the red couch that was there. Each one had a micro in their hands. The crowd applauded standing when they came in, again flashes were shot, this time towards the band and I applauded proudly my husband who was smiling and applauding back at us. He glanced at me and his three children standing beside me and his smile grew wider, we applauded even more and there some flashes were shot in our direction, then the first track of the album was played with no further warning. The lights went down, the boys sat and the theater went quiet listening to the powerful heavy metal of Metallica. In between songs there was always a story to tell. One of the guys would tell how it was like to create that song, writing the lyrics and some funny stories that happened in the studio during the recording, for example how during one of the songs James was singing with our boy sleeping in his arms and when we thought everything was ready Cullen cried ruining the recording and we had to start again. Stories like that, stories that made us laugh during the creation of that master piece. When the album was over, again we all applauded standing. “Go dad!!” Castor cheered making me laugh, then we all sat and the crowd and reporters began to make them questions. Lars couldn’t stand quiet though. “First of all, I think we have to thank someone who is here tonight and that had to cope with us for the last months on the creation of this album. Ade can you please stand?” Lars asked me. James applauded. “Stand up sweetie. My wife Adriana.” James introduced me. People began to applaud and I felt a bit awkward by all of a sudden being exposed that way. I was more comfortable behind the scene. “So, Adriana worked with us all these months and we want to thank her. She was strong to cope with us in the studio, hell she is married to James so I think she can bare anything…” People began to laugh including me. “Anyway, I was joking. Adriana, thank you so much for all you have done. It was a pleasure to work with you. Thank you for everything you did. This album is a piece of you too.” The crowd applauded and I bowed to Lars. James got up applauding to and I smiled at him. Lars brought me his micro so I was able to say something, my shy meter grew an inch there. I found myself speechless with the micro in my hand. “Well…” I said. “It was a pleasure to work with you, be part of this project so thank you for letting me be part of it. Thank you for inviting me, this is definitely special.” I said taking my hand to my heart. From there I sat and watched everything quietly as they answered to all the questions. The last half an hour was reserved for the press and their questions were tougher and they had to think more of what to answer. A reporter asked for my attention again. “James, how was it like to work with your wife in this project?” He asked him. “Hard…” He laughed. “She is very persistent and I am very protective of my work so there were times where we struggled to get things done the way we wanted.” “Who won?” The reported teased making the whole theater crack a laughter. “I’ve learned that it doesn’t matter what I say she always get things done the way she wants it.” More laughter in the theater and I was laughing a lot too. “Seriously…there were never major fights about this or that, we always managed to do things well and friendly. She knows us and she knows what we like so she didn’t try to go out of our boundaries but instead she tried to work the best until those boundaries. It was a great experience to have her in the studio with us. She had been on tour mixing our sound first and she did a great job and now she did this album, she’s a awesome professional, maybe one of the best we’ve ever worked with.” More applauses. After that it was the party but a private one, only for us family and close friends in a club rented for that moment. The kids were extremely excited to be able to be part of all that. “They look so happy.” James commented watching them talk with Myles and Layne. “And grown up.” I commented. “Yeah…” He said. “Hey guys.” Lars said with a cup of champagne in his hands. “What are you doing here so quiet? “We were watching the kids.” James said. “They are so grown up.” “Cali and Myles are teenagers, freaking hell!” Lars said. “You bet…” “Ade, come dancing.” Connie grabbed my hand pulling me to the dance floor. I danced with Lani and Connie. I danced until I could take no more and music changed to slow music. I came back to James who was alone. “Tired?” He asked me pulling a strand of my hair away from face. “Yes.” I said bending over him and kissing his lips. He intertwined his fingers in mine. “Come dancing with me.” He asked. “Really?” I asked surprised. James nodded and so I went to dance with my husband, close and slow to the sound of Angie by The Rolling Stones. “You were amazing tonight.” I told him. “Awww…proud wife.” He rubbed his nose in mine. “You bet. I am really proud of you.” “Don’t you wanna go home now?” He whispered in my ear. “I want to make love to you slow and easy.” I smiled. “I’m gonna miss you.” I said ignoring his offer as I realized he’d be gone on tour soon. James rested his forehead against mine and I saw some sadness in his eyes. “I will miss you too babe.” “Yeah…” I nodded. “Let’s go home.” I said realizing I wanted to make the most of the time I had with him. “I wan to love you all night long.” He said as he kissed my lips. “Oh baby… and you’re gonna get it.” Edited by Scorpion Flower, March 8, 2012, 9:18 am.
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| Voxx | March 8, 2012, 12:00 pm Post #262 |
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Some Kind Of Monster
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Castor. That was funny! I'm glad the album is done! The launch party was definitely cool and I liked how time was taken to thank and acknowledge the work that Ade did on the album. It was a very sweet moment, especially since James had his whole family there. Very nice!Now the tour is coming up! I hope nothing awful happens to set things off track. The last thing I would want to see is James and Ade fighting over something that happened on tour! I just keep remembering how he cheated on her while he was off on tour. I hope that doesn't happen again! |
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| Lilith | March 8, 2012, 9:40 pm Post #263 |
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♥ Jaimelicious ♥
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Oh, this is ending... ;_; Loved the whole ceremony, the speeches were funny and moving.
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| Scorpion Flower | March 9, 2012, 9:03 am Post #264 |
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Outlaw Torn
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As we got home the kids all began to fight where they were going to sleep. Their voices became loud and they began to fight amongst them. “Hey…” James raised his voice a bit. “Katy is sleeping and so are two babies, show a little respect.” He warned. “Says the one who just raised his voice.” Cali blurted. James looked at her and narrowed his eyes. “The one is your father and you obey, alright?” He said but his tone was low and quiet. “Sorry.” She said lowering her eyes. “I want to sleep alone in a room, I don’t want to share it Cella.” She said. “’Cause she wants to talk with her boyfriend on her cell.” Cella said throwing her tongue out at her sister. “Guys there are enough rooms on this house for all of you, so just go upstairs, chose one and let’s end this conversation at 3 am.” I said turning around towards the kitchen. I was going to have a tea before going to bed and the kids began to climb the stairs, James stood quiet a bit puzzled. “Wait…what boyfriend?” I heard him ask. “Cali…” He called. “It’s 3 am dad, please…” She said making me smile all alone. I knew he would enter the kitchen making me the same question. “Did you hear that?” He asked me still trying to cope with the words blurted by Marcella. “What boyfriend? What the fuck was she talking about?” “Do you want some tea?” I asked turning around, James studied my face and I hated when he looked at me that deeply, like trying to read my mind so I strayed my gaze right away. “Wait a minute…” He said grabbing my arm and turning me around to him. “You know something…” He said looking straight into my eyes. “Ade…” He said raising an eyebrow. “She’s 15, what did you expect?” I said. “Does that mean it is true?” He opened his eyes and sat on a bench. His shocked expression made me giggle. I put the cups on the counter and went to him pulling his hair back with my fingers. “I don’t know if it’s true but I am not shocked. She’s 15, it’s not like she’s going to run to you or Francesca and say she has a boyfriend. She’s gonna hide these things as they are private. You can’t stop her from growing up. Have you noticed? She puts makeup on, she studies carefully what to wear, tonight she asked me if she could use my perfume, she’s a young woman.” “Oh fuck…” He rolled his eyes. “Why can’t they be little all the time?” He smiled. “It’s ok to worry if the diaper is clean but it’s not ok to worry about some prick getting his hands on my daughter.” “Well, you’re gonna go through that…Cali is the first so it’s a little hard to accept it but then when it’s Marcella’s turn you’ll be ok and then Cayla, you’ll be a master at surviving it.” “Thank God I still have some years for those two.” He laughed. “Now do you want some tea?” I asked but he sat me on his lap and kissed my lips. “Let’s go to our room and make our baby.” He whispered. “Your older daughter is dating and you’re making babies.” I kissed him again. “I might just forget about the tea…” I kissed him again and then again and then James demanded more. My lips parted and our tongues met in a teasing dance. His arms holding me strongly as we delighted in each others lips. “Eww…guys!” We heard a voice in the kitchen. James and I parted instantly with me almost jumping off his lap as a spring. “Castor… what are you doing here?” James asked him as the boy took a cup off the cupboard. “I want to have a glass of water, sorry I interrupted.” He said making a face. I held my laughter as I saw his face then Castor walked up to the fridge. “You guys should be more careful there’s kids around the house.” He said. I was barely keeping my self together and James looked at me with a smirk, he wanted to laugh too. As Castor was done with his thirst he put the cup in the sink and began his way out, stopping at the kitchen’s door and turning to us again. “You know guys…what I just saw is disgusting, I might have some nightmares now. Get a room you two!” Turning on his heels right after. James and I just looked at each other with tears in our eyes and burst into laughter. James gave me his hand. “Let’s go to our room?” He asked and I took it smiling, ready to whatever he had on his mind. He kissed me again on the stairs refraining to vent, afraid one of his kids would show up but when the door of our bedroom closed it was our world, only us, no interruptions. He shoved me against the door and kissed me deadly. I felt my knees getting weaker as his lips explored my mouth. I didn’t know how he still managed to move me that way after two years but he always had a new trick and I still loved him insanely. “If they interrupt us now I swear I hang myself.” He smiled kissing my neck and sucking here and there. I tugged my fingers onto his hair. The slow and easy he promised was no longer part of his plans, he was up to something rougher but he was driving me insane. His lips, teeth and tongue explored my neck teasingly, and as his desire grew the sucks became bites and I loved it. I reached for his shirt and unbuttoned it, pulling it away from his shoulders then I reached for his skin too. I kissed, I sucked and I bit, I did everything I was entitled to and I would do more if that was possible. I tasted every inch of his back with the tip of my fingers and as the zipper of my dress got stuck he just ripped it. “Fuck it.” He cursed as the fabric ripped easily on his hands. I escaped off his arms and called him to our bed motioning him with a finger and licking my lips. While going there he took his shirt off and joined me bare chest. “Still the madness of this afternoon.” I said as he kissed his way up through my belly. “You make me lose my mind. Everything in you makes me lose my mind. You scent, your kiss, your skin…everything Ade.” He said kissing my lips again. “You had me from hello.” He said looking into my eyes. “In fact that is so true.” I teased laughing remembering London where we first met. He bit my shoulder. “You little bitch.” He smiled and kissed my lips after. “Am I lying?” I cupped his face between my hands and pulled his head up making his blue eyes meeting mine. “No.” He confessed. I pulled him down and kissed his lips one more time. “Just so you know I can’t get enough of you either.” I said in his ear. His hands pulled my bra away and I began to get rid of his pants. “Take these away James.” I asked him as I couldn’t do it by myself. He stood on the bed and stepped out of it. I got up standing on my keens and pulled his boxers down which left his hard manhood in front of my eyes. I didn’t waste no time, I gave it a stroke and put my mouth in it, it pulsed under my touch and his hips bucked a bit. “Oh Ade…fuck…I love when you do that. Yeah, babe.” He moaned. I kept on teasing him like that, he got lost and he tried to go deeper into my throat. I decided to get him on fire, I picked up a fast pace. “Yeah…so good.” He moaned resting his hands on my head. His fingers gripped on my hair as his pleasure grew. “Like that…” I took my lips off it and stroke it with my hand looking up at him. James looked down with his eyes darkened by the lust and his lips swollen. “More?” I asked him. “Yes…” He said running his tongue through his lips. My lips locked around him one more time “OOOoooh…God.” He shivered and his voice trembled. “Fuck…” He moaned low. He was panting heavily, his gasps filling the air. “Oh babe.” He let out in a cry then his hands pulled me off him. Kneeling in front of me, he took his hands to my shoulders and pulled me back making me lay down then he just ripped my thong off, gripping on my knees he opened my legs. I held my breath anticipating his next move but I was so turned on that he slid inside easily. “Always eager and wet Ade. I fucking love that so much.” He said laying his body over mine. He kissed my cheek, then my chin and then my lips as he thrust into me then he locked his gaze in mine watching my reactions. “Is this ok?” He asked in a whisper. “It is good.” I answered on the same lost and low tone. I closed my eyes as my body shuddered under him. He rocked me perfectly, like only he could. “Ooh…that is fucking good babe.” I let him know. His lips kissed my neck while he leaned on his elbows. “Shit…” He cursed as he began to thrust faster, my body quivered in response to his change of rhythm. He was sending bolts of energy all over my body. My nails carved on the skin of his back and my teeth dug on the skin of his shoulder then I just threw my head back almost violently. “James…” I gasped as I peaked, my body shuddering with extreme pleasure, my back curved and my muscles tightened, squeezing him more and making him groan. Our orgasms hit us almost at the same time, both of us calling each others names, panting for air and convulsing then he just threw himself on the bed catching his breath and I stood still doing the same. After a while he rolled on his side and grabbed a strand of my hair. “I’m gonna miss you.” He said. “I hate this part of your life.” I confessed. “I know babe…I feel awful to leave you here with the kids, especially because they are so little and they’re gonna do so many new things and I won’t be here to see it.” “Oh my love.” I kissed his cheek. “You are a great father anyway.” I reassured him yanking an awesome smile from him. “Sleep well.” I told him turning the light off. The day arrived in no flat time. “Are you ready?” I asked him holding the door with two babies cranky on the stroller. “They are impossible today.” He commented taking his suitcases outside and watching them quivering on the stroller crying. I closed the door behind me and locked it to take him to the airport. I would come back alone to that house. It took us long to get there. The airport was on the other side of the city and the traffic was chaotic. James puffed the whole time visibly annoyed. “Hey…” I patted his leg. “They are getting on my nerves.” He said looking back at our twins whimpering all the time. “I love them, really, but sometimes I just wished they had a on/off button AND…” He emphasized. “I am really annoyed I have to leave you. I don’t want to go…” He complained. “Two weeks, then you’re here again and then we’ll go with you.” I tried to support him. “You love to play live.” James cracked a smile. “I do.” He agreed. “I will be fine.” James parked the car and we crossed the airport looking for the right gate. The boys were there together with their wives and kids. This was a sad moment, no matter how much we understood they had to go, to us they were our loved ones and they were supposed to be with us. James kissed my lips and I couldn’t avoid the tears flickering in my eyes, he rested his forehead against mine and closed his eyes. “Don’t cry Ade.” He whispered. I felt a bit guilty I was making things even more difficult to him so I cleaned my tears and took a deep breath. “I am not crying. Go and have fun and a safe trip.” I said forcing a smile and caressing his face. He turned to our kids in the stroller and Cayla cracked a smile making him smile too. James crouched in front of the stroller and kissed their forehead. “Bye guys, daddy is going to miss you.” He said. “Dada…” Cayla stretched her arms so he could pick her up. “Dada has to go Cayla.” He told her grabbing one of her little hands and kissing her palm, but a year old doesn’t understand and she bent towards him and cried. “No sweetie.” He said getting up. Cayla look up and sobbed loud hurt. “Fuck…” He cursed. “It’s ok.” I said running a hand on his arm. James crouched back in front of her and she clutched her little arms around his neck. “Dada…” She whimpered. James picked her up and held her close. Cayla rested her head on his shoulder and he rocked her a bit from one side to another. “Sleep little panda…” He sang low with his eyes watering. I had to turn around so he couldn’t see mine. When Cayla calmed down he put her back in the stroller and came to me again. “Now you…” He said holding me close. “I love you.” I whispered in his ear. He brought his lips close to mine too. “I will be thinking of you all the time.” Then he strayed and kissed my lips one last time. “I will call you when I get to the hotel.” I just nodded. James waved at the babies and they waved back innocently, then he grabbed his bags and walked away. I saw him cleaning his eyes and then I pushed the stroller with the babies back to the car cleaning my own tears. Having two babies changed my priorities a bit. After spending so much time with Metallica on the studio I decided to reduce the time I dedicated to work, I decided to dedicate more time to my twins and watching them grow up and support them. I took some time off working, I would not give up, I would just stop for a while and delight myself parenting. Obviously, being at home alone during that two weeks gave me a lot of time to think about my life and how much have changed in it since I met James. He made my life brighter and made me happy again, he made me change my priorities and showed me life could be good again, he took me out of the darkness I was living in. He made me a better person and so that gave me an idea. I started writing a book where I’d share my experiences surviving the death of my parents. In it I wrote about how James helped me and how he made me see things different. I wrote about being alone in the world at 16 and struggling to survive, how I hated my parents at some point, how I could not love anyone fearful they’d abandon me too. I wrote about my life and my deepest feelings. It felt like therapy. At first I was only writing notes, then I changed it to blog style and then as it turned longer than I thought I began to work a bit more on the language and it took the format of a book and as it took format of a book I added more things, more details and so it occupied me quite well but it needed more work into it and I dedicated myself to it with all my soul. It was my life in it, my feelings so it deserved my attention. When James came back from the first weeks of touring he’d found strange I was always with my laptop around. He’d ask me about what I was doing but somehow I didn’t want to tell him, I thought it was rubbish but you can’t hold a curious Hetfield. So one day, when I was working on it on our bed and one of our kids cried I left the file opened, when I came back he was reading it. “What are you doing?” I asked him closing the door of our room. He raised his eyes off the file with tears in his eyes. “This is awesome Ade.” He said with tears rolling down his face. I took the computer off his hands. “You shouldn’t have read it.” I said a bit embarrassed. “Ade, that is so touching, what you wrote about us…I just read a bit. What is this?” He asked. Since he had read a bit I thought I would tell him. “Well, since I was home with free time, I decided to write about being alone and surviving it, abandonment in your case, our relationship, how similar we are concerning feelings, those things…then more and more things came to my mind and it became this, a sort of a book, but I am working on the language and well writing it more formal, it’s not finished.” I explained. James cleaned his tears. “That is beautiful Ade, that is fucking good, touching and God…that shows so much what I felt when I was alone.” “This is like therapy to me, letting those bad feeling go even though they remain in us for the rest of our lives, I also say this somewhere.” “Can I read a bit more?” He asked me. I gave him the laptop and he scrolled to page one, a preface where I thanked him and our kids for changing my life. “Thank you.” He kissed me wetting my face as he read my words then he read page one, the first chapter where I explain I had lost my parents at the age of 16 and I talk about the accident and how I felt and then how I ended up in foster care. James cried more and I took the laptop away form him. “So?” I asked him. He cleaned his eyes and took a deep breath. “The way you explain things, the details…awesome. You should work on that and publish it Ade.” I looked at him surprised. “No…” I said shaking my head. “It’s a fucking experience Ade.” “But it reveals some private sides of our life, things you told me and stuff.” “I haven’t read it all but I think that book would sell and a big plus maybe it would help kids who are living with the same fears we had. Like you say in here there is hope and maybe that’s a message you should pass on through.” “Naahh…” I smiled. “Think about that. Meanwhile I want to read it all.” He kissed. “How are you gonna call it?” “I don’t know…” I said looking a bit puzzled at him. “Ade, if we can help other people, we should do it. What you have in there is good stuff.” He insisted. “I’ll think about it.” I kissed him. |
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| Lilith | March 9, 2012, 12:15 pm Post #265 |
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♥ Jaimelicious ♥
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lool I would die of embarrassment if my guy would found something I wrote about us. lol Now we know how far Ade has come, from the cold business woman with intimacy issues, to the loving mother and housewife.
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| Voxx | March 10, 2012, 12:58 am Post #266 |
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Some Kind Of Monster
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^ Everything Alma said!! I really enjoy the progression of Ade. It was really great to see her progress and grow as a person into who she is now. |
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| Scorpion Flower | March 10, 2012, 8:18 am Post #267 |
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Outlaw Torn
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I grabbed my kids, my laptop, our extremely stuffed bags and I left on tour with my husband. Families gathered together for a crazy nonstop crazy vacation, 3 months filed with shows with just a few days in between to wind up and relax and spend some time with family. “Tell James I am not feeling well.” I told Phil before I left my husband on stage entertaining 40.000 Irish. My 15 month twins were cranky and wanting to sleep and I wasn’t feeling very well. Our driver took me back to the hotel and then came back to wait for James. The twins fell asleep on my way back to the hotel, I think it was a bit too much to ask a baby to cope with a rock n’ roll schedule, sometimes they did others they didn’t and that day was one of the occasions when they didn’t. They had spent the whole afternoon playing backstage that they were drained. I put them in bed and went to the bathroom to wash my face, I looked down at the basin and smiled, I had a reason for being sick after all. I knew since the beginning but James didn’t have a clue, I wanted to surprise him. Ever since I was late that my suspicions began to take place, then there was a bit of sickness and finally I made the test. I left it on the basin to surprise James later. After cooling down I grabbed my laptop, put it down on my knees and I began to work on my book. Officially a book because I decided under James agreement to publish it. It wasn’t hard to find someone interested in it and so I was busy writing it the best way I could. It was a sad biography with a happy ending, I called it. Two twin souls meeting and taking care of each other, healing each other, but that wasn’t a fairytale it was a real story with real feelings, with real struggles, with two real persons falling and then rising. The book was centered on me, on my life, on my struggles, on my problems, on my feelings but James inevitably was in it, things he told me, his own struggles, some of the feelings he shared with me and there I had his agreement to leave it all there. He was very supportive on this project and I was thrilled of doing it. The door of the room closing made me take my eyes off my work and look back. James walked around the couch fast until he was in front of me and then crouched. “Are you alright?” He asked. His hair was still wet and the scent of freshly shower filled the room. I nodded. “I am fine. They were a bit cranky too, always crying. I think you drained them this afternoon.” “I drained them?” James asked pretending he was indignant. “Mommy, ever since they began to walk that they can’t stay still in one place, I just made them happy.” I smiled and kissed his lips. I was dying to tell him why I wasn’t feeling good. “You have something for you in the bathroom.” I told him to force him to go there, James raised an eyebrow and I just motioned him a hand to go. He got up and left without saying anything else and it took some time to come back when I heard his steps back I smiled and took my eyes off the computer again. James brought the test and waved it in front of my eyes with his eyes shinning. “Really?” He asked with a wonderful smile. I nodded smiling as well, knowing I was pregnant again made things so perfect and tender. “Our baby is here.” I said rubbing my belly. James kissed my lips taking his time on them and then strayed. “Wonderful news.” He said rubbing my belly all of a sudden his eyes watered and he couldn’t hold his tears. “Aw baby…” I said cleaning his tears and planting kisses all over his face. “I love you so much Ade, really…there aren’t words to describe the way I love you. I am so happy.” “According to my calculations this baby was made in Prague.” “How fancy!” He joked then he kissed my belly. “See you in nine months little one.” He looked up at me again grinning. “Oh fuck, I am so happy.” He held me close. That was a very expected baby for us. “Soon you won’t be able to sleep at night again.” I teased. “Soon we’ll be holding a cute little thing in our arms and we’re gonna love it.” “I just hope there’s just one in here.” I rubbed my belly again. “That, I have to agree.” He nodded rather serious. I laughed. “You are still shocked with the twins.” “Babe, I love them but come on, double work. You’ll see this time with one we won’t even notice we have a baby around the house.” He kissed me again. “Are you tired?” I asked him running a hand through his hair. “I am. Wanna go to bed?” He asked me and I nodded closing the laptop. I was feeling sleepy. “Did they call you from the publisher today?” James asked while we were undressing. “Yeah, they began to advertise it. I have to go on the net to check the announcement and they told me there were a lot of interest in it from the press, they received some phone calls wanting to know more details.” James whistled and pulled me to him for a kiss. “Seems like it’s gonna be big. What about the music?” “I am not giving up on the music, it’s the air that I breathe. I took some time off, to be more with the kids. I won’t go on tour with bands, I decided to stop that but I want to go back on the studio for sure. After this book is done I will come back to my music. I love it.” “I love to see you all full of plans.” “My life is just wonderful at the moment. I am married to a man that I love deeply, I have two gorgeous kids and I am expecting another one. I have a career that I love and know I am writing a book, that hurts when I write it because it calls feelings on, but I know that will do some good to other people on the same situation. I have everything to be happy. Before I just had a career but now I have everything and I am not alone anymore. I made peace with my parents, I can feel, I can love.” “You make me proud.” He said rubbing his nose in mine. “I owe it all to you James, I want you to know that.” I said. “Let’s go to bed, we have to fly to Germany tomorrow morning.” He pecked me. We snuggled against each other as usual and I closed my eyes dreaming with my new life, better say, with my new project and my new baby. Next morning it was the usual rush to the airport. James carrying one of our kids, me carrying another one and two assistants carrying all our stuff. I felt bad about that part, it seemed like we were using people but honestly, we needed help. “Dada..” Cullen pointed out at the street seeing some birds. “Those are birds sweetie.” James patiently explained and Cullen smiled. “Vrrruuuummm…” He made the sound of a car as he saw a bus passing right in front of us. “Is it daddy’s car Cullen?” I asked him. “No.” He said and shook his head at the same time. Cayla was sleepy in my arms, sucking on her pacifier, holding her pink diaper on her hand. “And you Cayla…” James teased her taking her pacifier away off her mouth. She frowned. “Don’t make her cry.” I laughed talking to him. “Can I have it Cayla?” He said pretending he was going to put it in his mouth but she stretched her arm at him. “No.” She said. Cracking his heart he didn’t try to fight back and gave her what she wanted and she snuggled against me right away. “She is tired.” He said running his hand through her blond hair. “She is, at least she’s quiet.” At the airport we took the jet he had rented to fly us around Europe during that summer. The twins slept a bit during the three hours flight between one country and another and once there a van was waiting for us to take us to the venue. Download was a huge festival and there was some green spaces backstage where I spent some time playing with my kids. James was busy with interviews and meet and greet that I could only seem him again around dinner time. “Did they sleep?” He asked while eating a bit of his salad. “No. I tried to put them to sleep but they were too excited and wanted to play, guess during the gig it’s gonna be hard to keep them quiet.” I said. “And how do you feel?” He asked again with that tender smile that made wanna hold him close. “I am fine. I didn’t feel sick today. I guess having two kids to worry about makes me forget I am pregnant.” I laughed. “Maybe this time you won’t feel so sick as you did when you were pregnant with them.” He kissed the tip of my nose. “Hope so. It’s horrible, I hope I won’t feel that way this time.” “James!” Lars called and James smiled and kissed my lips. “Time to go.” He said. Cullen and Cayla who were walking around the room tried to run, as if they could, to James when they heard his name. It was funny how they could identify our names already, maybe due to the time we spent on the road and they had to be in the middle of people calling us by our names all day long. I caught Cullen’s hand but I didn’t manage to grab Cayla. She ran after James calling him. “Ade…” James called me. “I’m sorry.” I said going to him who had our girl in his arms and he passed her on to me. Cayla cried. “It’s ok sweetie. We are going to see dada, ok?” I carried Cayla on my arm and taking Cullen by my hand with the other. “Ade, the headphones are in there.” Phil pointed. I always wore ear plugs and my kids would put some yellow headphones on the heads. They were electric walking around from one side to another. I missed Metallica going on stage as I was running after them then settled playing with Kirk’s kids and I could watch the show for a while with Lani by my side. “Download…Metallica is with you. Are you with Metallica?” James roared to the crowd after the third song. They responded with thunderous noise. “Whiplash baby…” James yelled beginning the riff right after. I kept an eye on the father and an eye on the kids, you never knew when they would just burst out walking somewhere. I had never seen such a huge crowd, I lost sight of the heads seen from there, I was marveled. Cayla and Cullen became cranky at the middle of the show but I tried to entertain them to see if I could stay until the end. The pacifiers worked and Cayla asked for her pink diaper, then they still walked around making me go after them all the time. Almost in the end, when James was talking to the crowd, saying his goodbyes and announcing the last song, the twins slip one from each side and when I went to grab Cullen, Cayla ran in her unsteady steps through the stage shouting “dada.” “Shit.” I said looking as my girl ran towards her father. She fell on her knees on her way but she got up right after continuing her journey, as soon as the crowd realized the girl going to him, I heard a 50.000 people laughter. James looked back to find Cayla on stage with her pacifier in her mouth and pink diaper on her hand, her headphones bigger than her hand. He smiled looking at her but stayed still until she reached him. “Seems like we have a visitor.” He said on the microphone making the crowd laugh again, then when Cayla reached him she pulled his jeans getting his attention, when he looked down she took the pacifier off her mouth and stretched it to him, again the crowd laughed. “Time to sleep James.” Lars teased on his micro. James grabbed the pacifier of her hand, “I think she came here to sing the next song.” James said grabbing her in his arms. Cayla took her pacifier again and put it in her mouth, resting her head on his shoulder. “My daughter Cayla everyone.” James presented her and people cheered. Cayla looked at the crowd as she heard the clapping and clapped making James laugh. “Do you wanna say hello?” He asked her but she shook her head and leaned back on his shoulder. Of course Cayla wanted to sleep and was expecting James to put her to sleep like he used to do it many times. “Say bye bye Cayla. Bye…” James waved and Cayla raised her head and waved at the crowd who clapped again. James turned around laughing and brought her to me. “Sorry.” I said taking her in my arms. He came back starting Seek and Destroy with no further talking and the show continued until the last goodnight. The babies fell asleep as I waited for James to shower and then we came back to the hotel and it was our turn to lay our bodies in bed. I was exhausted. “I am sorry for today babe. She escaped when I was grabbing Cullen and Lani was distracted with her own.” James laughed. “That was funny. Don’t worry about that.” “Do you know what cracked me up? When she reached you she offered you her pacifier, that was so cute.” I laughed loud. “She wanted to sleep, she always does that when she wants me to put her to sleep. So innocent, she saw me and yay, that’s my dad and I want him to cuddle me, she doesn’t have a clue of where she was, of what I was doing and that she had 50.000 pair of eyes watching her. It was funny…” He laughed again. “Where are we going tomorrow?” I asked him already tucking my pillow under my head. “Tomorrow it’s a day off. I am all yours and our kids.” He said putting an arm around my waist pulling me to him. “Good, ‘cause we miss you.” I said sleepy. “Good night love.” He kissed my cheek. “Surviving Chaos.” I whispered. “What?” James asked. “The name of the book.” I said. “…and if it’s a girl I wanna call her Nia.” I said. James giggled. “I like both.” He kissed me again. “Now sleep.” |
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| Lilith | March 11, 2012, 4:20 am Post #268 |
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♥ Jaimelicious ♥
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Aww... She is pregnant again! :3 And her book will be published, and Cayla... in the concert... sooo sweet! :3
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| Scorpion Flower | March 11, 2012, 7:48 am Post #269 |
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Outlaw Torn
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A year passed… “Mommy…” My twins ran to me at the same time as I opened the door of our house. Each one of them clutched onto one of my legs and I couldn’t move. “Hey guys.” I said crouching in front of them and kissing their cheeks. “Did you miss mommy?” “Yes.” Cayla said clutching onto my neck. “I have only been out for a couple of hours.” I laughed as it seemed I had been away for ages. I got up and I knew James was in our living room as I heard the TV sound coming from in there. The twins burst in there running and sat on the floor with toys scattered all over. James was sat on the couch holding Corey against his shoulder. “Was he crying ?” I asked kissing his lips. “Yep, these two don’t let him sleep, keep on making noise and yelling.” He said. “Wow…” He said looking at my hair. “You look like a Hollywood star Ade. Really nice.” He smiled. “I have to look gorgeous for tonight.” I told him. “They delivered my tux a couple of time ago, I left it on our bed.” “Now give me that cute little thing.” I said taking Corey off his arms. Corey was calm with his blue eyes staring at me. “Hi baby.” I said and the three months boy cracked a smile. “Your brother and sister don’t let you sleep and still you’re all smiley, how lovely is that, uh?” He opened his lips in a O but no sound came out of it. “Soon is going to blurt sounds.” James commented watching our boy over my shoulder. “Yeah…look at his attention?” I said as Corey was just looking really serious at James hearing his voice. “Hey…cutie thing, hearing dada?” He baby talked. James had been a terrific father to Corey since day one. There was no jealousy, nothing. He’d spent more time with that baby on his lap that I can remember, he’d feed him whenever it was needed, he’d burped him, change his diaper. He was just tender. It was not like he wasn’t with the rest of his children but I think the fact that he asked to have that one created a special bond, or maybe that baby had a special and different meaning to him that I didn’t know about. “Daddy, play with me?” Cullen asked. “What do you wanna play?” James asked him promptly kneeling on the floor. He was more and more dedicated to our children. “This.” Cayla said giving him a green piece she had on her hand. “Constructions!” James exclaimed. He gathered all the pieces, obviously he would be the one managing the pieces and the twins would watch. “So, what do you want me to do?” He asked them. “A house daddy.” Cayla said clapping. James began to do it while I watched the three of them with my baby already sleeping on my lap. “Give me a blue one.” James asked. Cullen extended him a yellow piece. “Is that blue?” James asked him and Cullen looked confused at it and then at the others on the floor. “Which one is blue sweetie?” I asked him. He still looked serious and then he put his hand on a blue piece but didn’t grab it, he looked at James expecting his reaction. “Yes buddy, that’s the one.” He said. Cullen smiled and gave him the piece. That way we were able to teach our kids the colors, it was a good exercise. “Come play mommy.” Cayla got up grabbing my hand and pulling me. I put Corey on the stroller and sat down with them. James and I spent quite some part of the afternoon playing with our eldest in the living room. Corey was a very quiet baby, nothing like the twins have been when they were that little, sometimes we forgot that we had a baby around the house, except when he was hungry, there he was impatient and when Cayla and Cullen made noise and waked him during his sleep, other than that he was an angel. “Don’t you have to go and get ready?” James asked me reading the time on the clock on the wall. It read 5 pm. “I still have some time.” I said. “Women take too long getting ready for these parties.” He laughed. “You also have to get ready.” I said. “Yeah but someone needs to look after them until the nanny gets here. Plus, come on Ade…I’ll be ready in half an hour, you I am not so sure.” He laughed and I threw my tongue out at him. “Don’t fuck with me Hetfield.” I said a bit low so the kids wouldn’t hear. “Fuck.” Cullen blurted and I took my hand to my mouth. James chuckled. “Glad I wasn’t the one doing it.” He said pointing at me. “Fuck.” He said again giggling as he learned a new word. “No Cullen, bad word.” James said. “Let him, it’s worse if we say anything, if we don’t say anything he will forget it.” I said getting up. “I’m going.” I kissed him. I took my dress of the closet and stretched it on my bed next to James tux. Then I chose the lingerie and put it there too. I took the new sandals I bought to match the dress off the box and put it near the bed on the floor and then stood still looking at it. My stomach churned as I felt nervous. I undid my clothes and left it for the laundry then I opened the water and let it run until it was arm. I needed to calm down under warm water falling down my body. I stood there for quite some time, showered with the calming gel as if it could really calm me, as the time was getting near I was getting a nervous wreck. “The nanny is here.” James said opening the door of the bathroom as I was already drying my self. “What did you think of her?” I asked him. “She seems responsible.” He said. “I am not sure about this. Leaving our kids and a baby with a stranger, I’m just not sure…” I felt a bit insecure. “We don’t have a choice for tonight Ade. All our friends are gonna be there, so there was no one to stay with the kids. Lars and Kirk always hire this service, so I think they are trustful.” He calmed me down planting kisses on my face. “I don’t like to leave them this way too but I guess tonight it was needed right?” He smiled. I smiled back and nodded. “That is the only reason why I hired this service because they have done it before otherwise I think I would take them with us.” I laughed. “Nervous?” He asked putting his hands on my hips and pulling me to him sucking on my neck after he looked in my eyes waiting for my response. “Yes.” I confessed. “It’s the Oscars of literature.” He said. “Don’t make me even more nervous.” I said pulling away off his arms and walking to the door. James began to undress. “The prize is yours Ade, you already know that so why be nervous?” “The moment they’ll call my name and I have to go up there to receive the prize and then making a speech.” “You’ll do great.” I closed the door not sure if I was going to do great. My book became a best seller and during that year I had been around the country talking to groups of kids who were alone and hopeless, talking in schools with James nonetheless who supported me through the whole process unconditionally taking time off his band to help and talk to the kids with me. He’d always say, “She was like me. Same anger, same fears, same loneliness. Things do get better.” That night I was going to receive a prize for it and I had to make a speech, yes I was nervous and I had all the right to be. I put on my lingerie and walked to the mirror where put some light makeup then I slipped inside the black satin dress. Before I put my sandals on, I put a diamond necklace and matching earrings and a few drops of perfume. James got out of the bathroom meanwhile. “Wow…Ade…so gorgeous.” He said grabbing my hand making me spin for him. “I am the proudest man in the world.” He said. “And I’ll definitely have the hottest chick in the house.” I laughed loud. “You can be such a dork sometimes.” I said sitting on the bed to put the sandals on my feet. “I am ready.” I said getting up. “Give me just a few minutes and I’ll be ready too.” He said, walking around the room getting dressed. After 10 minutes we kissed our kids and left the house towards downtown. As we reached the theater in a limo, we saw Lars and Connie on the red carpet posing for the cameras. The whole front of the building was crowded with hungry reporters, then it was my turn and James to walk on that carpet. As I was one of the writers receiving a prize the cameras shoot franticly almost blinding us with the flashes. I heard my name being shout countless times and I felt a bit lost unsure where to look. Finally we made it to the incredible cozy and luxurious room where a guy guided me and James to our table in the front. “I hope they’re sat near us.” I whispered to James. Our friends and my guests were all sat right behind us. I looked back and smiled at them as my hands shake a bit. “It’s gonna be alright.” Katy bended over the rail to whisper. I smiled and sat. The show began. My nerves peaked as the time went on, as the writers were called on the stage, I was the last one because of the delicate subject I had written about. My introduction was touchy and I felt some tears in my eyes right before my name was called. People stood clapping and I felt my stomach flip. James kissed me and I made my way up to the stage. When I got there the guy greeted me and placed the prize on my hands, it was an overwhelming feeling and when I turned to face the crowd they all stood and clapped for quite some time, I controlled myself not to cry as I still had my speech to do. When everything calmed down and people sat I put the paper with my speech on the small table and came closer to the microphone. Before I began my eyes touched James and he smiled, he looked really proud and on the back all the friends I had made meanwhile. “I am very honored to receive this prize.” I began. My hands shake a bit and I took a deep breath as my emotions began to rush. “When I was 16 I was a happy girl, I had friends, I had plans and I had a great family.” I choked. “I was the regular happy and invincible teenager until one night a police officer knocked on my door and said my parents were not coming back. I was left alone at that tender age and all the plans I had disappeared. The happy girl was gone, the friends were gone and I was put in foster care where I suffered from bullying.” I made a pause to breathe as I was feeling my eyes burning, James gaze was on me supporting and I continued. “For the time I was there I raged, I hurt, I blamed my parents for abandoning me. I stopped feeling, having emotions, I stopped trusting people. I became solitaire and didn’t let anyone come close to me. Then when I got out of there I starved and struggled to survive and to go on with my studies. I think I didn’t fall into nasty habits because I simply didn’t have the money for it. Many nights and days I thought about drinking until I fall asleep, or numb my pain with drugs and even thought about suicide but I decided not to do any and music became my drug.” The crowd clapped fiercely. “At music school I met the first person that I trusted after many years and someone who supported me, Katy can you please stand up.” I asked her. She did. “Thank you for being a friend when I most needed one, for keeping my mind sane and always trying to make me smile. You’re the best friend I’ve ever had.” People clapped and Katy sat. “With Katy I began to live again, but wounded by my past I didn’t let much people walking into my life, I couldn’t love afraid of losing people around me, afraid they’d left me too. One day someone told me that this wounds don’t ever go away but with time we feel better, he was right.” I choked again and this time I didn’t hold my tears, I saw James cleaning his eyes. “Lars, Kirk and Rob, can you please stand?” I paused until the three of them were standing. “Thank you for receiving me so well inside your family, for being the great friends you are and making me trust you. Connie, Lani and Chloe, please stand up.” As the guys sat the three of them stood. “Together we are the female power in the Metallica’s family, I can’t count the times where I laughed with you until my belly hurt. Thank you for all the support and friendship.” I clapped and they clapped back at me. “I would like to thank Cali, Castor and Marcella, please stand up you three.” The kids stood right beside James. “Thank you for welcoming me in your family the way you did, for making me feel a child again and putting a smile on my face every moment I spend with you. I love you.” I paused again to clean my eyes. “To my three children, who are too little to be here, Cayla, Cullen and Corey, I love you unconditionally, thank you for filling my life with joy everyday and with you the world is a better place.” And then I had to take another pause. “Finally, I would like to thank the person that showed me there was a different side of life, someone who found me and that I love…” I sobbed a bit. “I would like to thank my husband, James please stand up.” I asked him. He got up visibly emotional and I smiled at him with tears in my eyes and falling down my face. “Thank you for teaching me how to love, for everything you’ve done and said. You are the person I admire the most in this world, without you none of this would have been possible. Thank you for our beautiful family and for putting a smile on my face every morning. You were right, things do get better and you were the one making mine better. I cherish every moment of our life together. I love you sweetie.” I ended with my voice shaking, people got up and applauded while I cleaned my tears. James mouthed a I love you from the table and applauded too. “Finally for those out there who think they are alone and have no one and if you think you’ve lost your ability to love, take it for granted that with time things get better and if someone offers you a hand filled with love take it without fear because the moment you do you won’t be alone anymore and it’s good to love again and have that person we could die for. I have found my soul mate you will find yours too. Believe that there is hope. Thank you all and goodnight.” With that I came back to my table where James got up to received me pulling me to him into a tight hug. The crowd cheered and applauded as he kissed me. “I found you.” He whispered. “We’re the same. We’re one.” I said holding him against me one more time. THE END ________________________________________________________________________________ Thank you all who took time to read this and the ones who even took time to comment. Meanwhile there's a new fiction posted "At Tragic Heighs" Edited by Scorpion Flower, March 11, 2012, 7:52 am.
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Aww! That was a lovely way to end it! I really enjoyed reading this! Thanks for posting!! I really enjoyed the character progression and the way that there was a real, noticeable change from who Ade was at the beginning and who she became after she fell in love with James. And of course, all the interactions with the children were just adorable!
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Cute lovely
Castor.
The launch party was definitely cool and I liked how time was taken to thank and acknowledge the work that Ade did on the album. It was a very sweet moment, especially since James had his whole family there. Very nice!
sooo sweet! :3

8:42 PM Jul 10