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How We Became Fire; Het, REPOST from a year ago.James and ADE. Love, hate, love...
Topic Started: December 23, 2011, 1:25 pm (17,542 Views)
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Pff.. James acts like teenage girl... XD ok, more!
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Next stop New York City. We flew quite soon and I was hangover as shit from last night. The night at the club went all night long and I had my share of alcohol indeed. The crew flown alone, we had to be there sooner than the band, they were playing that same night. The craziness was about to begin, there were not much days off. I made my fast check in at the hotel, better we all did and then we left all together to the venue. The stage was on, it was incredible how fast the rest of the crew worked. Their schedule and timing was even crazier than ours.

The usual stuff previously. We checked all the cables and then we went on to check the sound. I realized part of the PA’s weren’t working. There was no sound coming out of it.

“Steven, this side of the PA’s isn’t working.” I told the tech while I watched all the cables already together with Katy. All was plugged in. I told Katy to do part of my work at the table while I roamed around the venue to check if the sound was getting everywhere. It only served my purposes, one side of the venue wasn’t getting any sound.

“Shit.” I muttered all alone. “This side doesn’t have sound.” I shouted.

“I don’t know what’s wrong.” Steven shouted back.

“And the acoustics in this place are absolute shit.” I said jumping back on stage. “We need to do some changes or it will sound like shit.” I said almost thinking to myself. I was already thinking about what I could do in the mixing table to make the sound better. “I need the guys to be here, I need to check this with them, until then we better solve this PA thing otherwise the big boss is gonna get here and set my ass on fire.” I said referring to James. Katy giggled immediately.

“It’s not your fault Ade.” She said. I looked at her with my hands on my waist.

“Sure it is not but he’s gonna make it like it is. Do you have any doubts?” Katy just shook her head. “We need to get this thing going before he gets here.”

We all began to undo and do all the plug in again as fast as we could, that was delaying our real work and after all the shit was done the PA’s weren’t still working. That was killing me as I saw the time went by and still we hadn’t a solution. They couldn’t play just for one part of the pavillion, everything had to be working. Lars and Kirk came in. My heart stopped, James should be there at any minute.

“What’s the matter?” Kirk asked as he saw us all working hard.

“These PA’s aren’t working which means the right side of the venue doesn’t have sound.” I explained. I saw James appearing from behind Lars’s drums. Faded blue jeans, white t shirt and black flip flops. I watched him for a few seconds, he looked so good. I didn’t want to look at him but my eyes kept on betraying me I was only able to stray my glance when finally his eyes hit mine. Again that intense and tense look. Lars was talking to him, probably explaining what was happening. James spoke loud after Lars was finished.

“And why do we have a sound engineer if she can’t fix the problem.” He said looking at me. I saw Katy shaking her head and I looked straight into his eyes. Like I had predicted he didn’t miss the opportunity to point his finger at me.

“Like you said I am a sound engineer not a fucking electrician.” I told him. I wasn’t in the mood for his games and bad humor. I had a shitty time this morning waking up, I was hangover and tired from the lack of sleep, plus that place was cracking my head with problems.

“Have you done anything to try to fix it?” James still addressed me and this time walking up towards me. His pose was one of a rockstar and when he was close enough I recognized his t shirt as being the one he was wearing back in London. My thoughts traveled a bit far that moment and I couldn’t take my eyes off him. Not getting an answer from me he clacked his fingers in front of my eyes. “Hey, did you hear me?”

“Yes I did! Of course I’ve done something!”

“Then what’s the problem?” He was pissing me off with his aggressive tone once again.

“I don’t know!” I shouted.

“You don’t know? Is that what you have to tell us? Is that why we’re paying you?” I turned my back on him not wanting to fight again. James knew better than that, he knew that was not problem to fix and still he was making it as if it was. I turned my back and began to walk but he caught my wrist and pulled me back. His hand burned on my skin. I look down at his hand grabbing me and then I looked in his eyes. We stared and I felt his fingers tremble a bit. I looked at his hand again and the tip of his fingers were trembling a bit but amazingly so were mine. I jerked my hand away.

“You pay me to mix the sound and let me tell you the acoustics here are shitty, I had some solution but as you don’t bother with that, I am gonna leave and I only come back once the PA’s are working because without them I can’t do my job. MIXING SOUND!” I shouted the last part to make it very clear.

Kirk looked at us confused. He didn’t understand why there was so much hatred between us and Lars was shaking his head just like Katy. The others were trying to fix the problem for the almighty king James Hetfield.

“I need to discuss some things with you, are you free?” I told James.

“No.” He said promptly. “I don’t want to discuss anything with you.” He said picking up his guitar and crossing the strap over his shoulder.

“It’s about work.” I insisted. James just picked on a string making an incredible noise.

“I didn’t even hear you.” He said ignoring me. I ran inside my spot and turned the sound of his guitar off. When he was about to play it again he looked at me knowingly.

“I said it’s about work.” I insisted coming back to him.

“I don’t care. I don’t want to talk to you.” He said turning his back on me. I pulled him by the strap of his guitar.

“Look you stupid fucker if you don’t want to talk to me I am cool with that! You don’t want to say hello, you don’t want to say good morning, FINE!” I said throwing my hands in the air. “But when I come to you to talk about work, you talk to me! If you still don’t want to do that, I’ll find a person to talk to you, I can also do that, for once you could act professional. This is not kindergarten!” I was pissed off. He had the power to piss me off that easily. James heard me, tilted his head to his left side and spit on the floor. That disgusted me in such a way. I gritted my teeth in anger. “That just shows how much of a despicable person you are.” I said leaving the place almost running. I had to be alone for some time and I closed myself in the bathroom. His gesture hammered on my head and for the first time I felt like I was going to cry.

I couldn’t cry, not because of him so when I felt my eyes on fire I just opened the water and began to splash cold water all over my face. That prevented the tears from falling. Katy opened the door gently.

“Are you ok?” She said rubbing the back of my shoulder while I watched my soak wet face in the mirror. She knew me well, she knew that moment I had weaken out. I nodded at her without pronouncing a word. “He was really stupid.”

“I just feel like grabbing my stuff and go home Katy.” I said letting it all out.

“You just got here. You’re strong, don’t let him scare you, that’s what he wants!”

“I don’t give a shit about what he wants or what he thinks.”

“You’re just tired. Look, he left the stage as you left too. I guess he didn’t even think about what he’s done. I bet he regrets it now.”

“That man doesn’t regret a thing, he’s just some self absorbed cold motherfucker.” I told her.”

“Ade…” Katy said looking pale and shaking my shoulder a bit. I turned around to find James watching us with his hands shoved in the pockets of jeans. How did he managed to get in there without being heard? I don’t know…

“Leave us alone.” He ordered Katy who left almost running as if he was Hitler himself. I stretched for a towel to dry my face. “What did you want to talk about?” He asked me. I threw the towel back to its place incredulous.

“You gave me hell outside and now you come here to ask me what I wanted to talk about? Now…I want to talk about what is wrong with you. Now, I want to know what have I done to you? Have I done anything wrong? Did I leave a bad taste in your mouth and I don’t know? Tell me…WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?” I shouted at him not caring he was my boss and he could send me home sooner if he wanted.

“I don’t want to talk about that.” He said leaning against a wall and crossing his arms across his chest.

“I don’t care about that. You have to have an explanation or is that just part of the show? Do you feel comfortable acting that way? Do you even like the person you are?”

“Stop that…” He said. I knew I was pressing his buttons. His face was turning from relaxed to rigid but I was too turned on to stop.

“No I don’t stop! I had my share of people treating me badly for no reason. I had to fight hard to cope with that for years and then get myself free from that. I stopped taking shit from people long ago and I don’t even like to remember the days when I had to. So you stop it! Right now, right this second I don’t even want to know what your reasons are because I know you don’t have none.” James threw his head back and closed his eyes. Probably he was trying to calm himself down.

“Stop that.” He said twice.

“No.” I insisted. “You need to behave. You need to stop acting like a jerk all the time. You don’t like me, it’s ok, just don’t act like a prick just because of it…”

“Stop it!” He shouted at me. But I was only beginning and my rage was just about to float. I stuck my index finger on his nose.

“You listen to me carefully, if you want me to leave just say it! Don’t make me just go out of my mind and do it myself. The game you’re playing is weak because we don’t even have the same weapons. Spitting on the floor while I am talking to you? That’s low Hetfield, very low….” I shouted at him. James just slapped my finger away from his face, grabbed me by my shoulders and shoved me against the basin leaning his body on mine.

“I SAID STOP IT!!!” He shouted loud right in my face. I stopped. He was so close. His warm body pressing mine and I saw him getting weak. I felt his hands less pressured on my skin, I saw his chest heaving, he was gasping. His blue gaze locked on mine. I wanted to move away from him but I couldn’t, he was trapping me. James let his head fall a bit, his lips too close to mine I just looked away from him turning my head around. I felt my legs betraying me, that couldn’t be happening, not after the hell he was putting my through.

“You slept with Phil last night didn’t you?” He whispered. Suddenly his voice was sweet and soft. He was weakening too. I didn’t understand his question. That hadn’t nothing to do with what led us there anyway and it was none of his business but I gave him a honest answer.

“No, I didn’t.” I said firmly. My voice choke a bit as I felt his hand on my waist. He gripped his fingers a bit and I gasped a bit involuntarily.

“Don’t lie to me Ade.” He insisted.

“Don’t call me Ade! Friends call me that and you are certainly not a friend of mine. Are you always that curious about the intimate life of the people who work with you?” I asked gaining strength to look in his eyes again. Something different was there but I couldn’t figure out what it was. Something I could thought, the same lust as in London was there. I shuddered at my realization. “I am not lying.” I said again.

“Remember London?” He asked huskily. The hand on my waist releasing the pressure and his fingers traveled a bit, he was trying to slid his hand under my shirt. I began to try to free myself from him but his other arm pushed me to him stronger.

“Let me go.” I ordered. As I said this Lars burst into the bathroom shouting.

“What the hell is going on?” He asked. Obviously he saw us in that awkward situation but James let me go fast when he realized the door was opening but not fast enough, and Lars was a smart guy. I left without explaining anything. I had my share for that day. I just wanted to get it done with and crawl into my bed.

James POV

“You were grabbing her?” Lars asked me as Adriana left me hanging in there. I don’t know what got into me but when I felt her body against mine I just wanted to possess her again and again and then some time again. I wanted her right there. I went against everything I had been telling her. I showed her I wanted her and I felt weak for that. I didn’t understand what was the power she had to make me lose my mind that easily. Last night in the club seeing her smiling and laughing and having a good time made me wish something bad would happen so she’d stop smiling. I am not like that. I am not that kind of a person. And she was right, If she had slept with Phil that was not problem, I had nothing to do with it. They were both single, they could do whatever they wanted.

“I was not.” I answered Lars.

“You were!”

I rubbed my hands in my face. Too much pressure. “Leave me alone man.” I asked him. I was not shouting or being rude. I just wanted to be left alone to process things in my mind.

“Talk to me.” Lars asked me. “Tell what’s on your head”

“I don’t know what’s on my head! I don’t know!” I told him desperately sitting on the floor.

“Is she that good in bed?” Lars asked sitting by my side. He was trying to understand what was going on. I had to smile at his comment and I knew I could talk to him. We had shared so many things through the years together.

“You think this is about that? Because I don’t know. I fell kinda lost in here. One thing I know is that I didn’t want to run into her again. I told you about that when we were still in London. She left me with a strange feeling, she’s mysterious. I don’t want to treat her the way I do, every time I leave the hotel I say to myself I won’t do it but then when I get near her I just feel like shouting at her and hurting her. I don’t even know her! I know nothing about her!”

“I don’t know how to help you, but you need to stop this. Concentrate on your marriage man.”

“I’m separating Lars.” I dropped the news. I also needed to let that out of my chest. Lars looked at me surprised. “I have to look for a house when I come back home.”

“Really? Maybe you guys can talk things out.” Lars suggested. I shook my head.

“No, we talked things out over and over again. We decided it was the best thing to do. I don’t even know if I still love her man. We grew so apart! The only thing worrying me is my kids. I hope she won’t use them as a weapon.”

“I don’t think she’ll do that.”

“My head is a mess right now. I don’t recognize myself. I have been doing stupid things, one after another.”

“Maybe you should begin to make things right from now on. You could apologize to Adriana, I bet she’d accept it.” There was no way I was going to apologize to her. She was also rude. I didn’t want to apologize. “What you did today on stage was really mean man.”

“I don’t want to be near her. I don’t want to be near her.” I added.

“Because you lose your self control?”

“Because…” I sighed. I didn’t know what was after the word because. I didn’t know why or how or what was happening. I just knew I found her incredibly beautiful. I had seen many beautiful women but Adriana had something more than just beauty. She hypnotized me. She intoxicated me.

“You need to put your head back together man, that’s all I can say. The girl is not mean to you. Try not to be mean to her like you were today. You crossed the limits. She’s good at her work, she’s proven that yesterday. Even if you had slept with her and you regret it…” I stopped Lars there.

“I don’t regret it. I want to regret it but I don’t.”

“Maybe your problem is there then.” He said standing on his feet and tapping my shoulder. “I saw the way you looked at her at the club yesterday night James and acting like a jerk to her, that’s not the way you’re gonna get her, even if you just want her for one night again.”

“I don’t want her!” I said.

“I think you’re in denial and maybe that’s where your problem with her relies. You want her but you don’t want to want her. God bless your head.” He told me laughing.

“Leave me alone for a while.” I asked him.

“This is the ladies toilets.” Lars warned me. I had forgotten all about it.

“I’ll be gone in a minute.” I said. Lars closed the door behind me leaving me alone with my buttons. Francesca and my kids hammering on my head and then the next second Adriana. “Get the fuck out of my head.” I said slamming my head softly. I couldn’t want her. I just couldn’t.
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Soooo good! James reminds me of a past boyfriend in this story. Men can be such jerks sometimes. I can't wait for more :)
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James is SO jerk! And I still try to see his point :lol:
And the worst part is that obviously they want each other :drool

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“Ade…” Katy called me sitting by my side while I cleaned the tears off my eyes. “Are you ok?” I nodded.

“He’s such a jerk.” I muttered.

“He didn’t know.” Katy told me. I looked in her eyes surprised she was defending him. “Don’t give me that look Ade. Yes, he acts like a jerk around you and what he said was totally uncalled for BUT he didn’t know where he was stepping.”

“So he should just shut the fuck up. He doesn’t know what’s behind people, he doesn’t know me, he should be careful with the things he throws up to the air.”

“I know and you’re right but you also have to understand his side, he didn’t know, he didn’t know he was touching a gentle subject. I think you should tell him.” Again I opened my eyes in surprise at her.

“No way.” I said.

“Why not? I am quite sure he’s gonna ask you about it and I think he’s the right person to understand your feelings. He was alone in the world at the age of 16 like you were. He’ll understand you pretty well. This time, I have to give him that, if he asks, you should be honest with him. But you have the last word, it’s your life.” I took the advise in silence. Soon we all were inside the plane for the short flight towards Philly.

Again after landing it was the same usual rush. Hotel, check in and then venue. I made my best moves to avoid James for the rest of the day and I was able to do it until I had to work with them some time before the show. I have to be honest, James also avoided me, I saw him do wonderful moves not to cross my path that day but, like I said, we had to work together some time. He was quiet and peaceful the whole time. Silent even, taking my instructions without reposting and I was glad that I was having a quiet day. Remembering of my absent parents was too much for me, something I never learned how to deal with. So many times I had needed them by my side and I felt all alone. I was all alone, not that it was their choice but I was left alone.

After rehearsal, the usual buffet in a large room for crew and band. I picked up a plate and grabbed some chicken salad and then I sat alone in a couch at the corner of the room. I had been like that all day, expecting some solitude in a place crowed with people. James was having his salad on the opposite corner. I watched him for a while. He was looking down not feeling exactly comfortable. I knew that by the lines of his face, it’s funny how some days with a person makes you know some aspects of her just by the expression, or was I watching him too much? James got up from his bench and I choked on my salad when I realized he was walking on my direction. He pulled another bench and sat in front of me.

“I am sorry for what I said today.” He said straightly. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, whatever it is, I didn’t know.”

“It’s alright.” I said looking down at my plate and playing with my food.

“What did you mean by foster care?”

“I don’t want to talk about it.” I told him. We looked at each other in the eyes and his gaze begged me for an explanation.

“I lived in foster care.” I ended up saying. I looked down again with my hands shaking a bit.

“I’m sorry.” He whispered.

“It’s ok.” I said shrugging.

“What happened?” He wanted to know more but I wasn’t ready to give him more.

“I don’t want to talk about this.” I said again.

“When you’re ready I want to hear the whole story.” He offered. Again I looked up at him and our eyes met. “Adriana, I know I have been acting badly with you but what happened in London has nothing to do with it.” I almost jumped in my seat.

“Oh, no…no…. I also don’t want to talk about that.” I said almost in panic. James smiled openly. I guess he had fun watching me panicking in front of his eyes. His smiled murdered a bit of my soul.

“You don’t need to be scared.”

“I am not scared, it’s just that it’s not appropriate that’s all.”

“You use that word a lot?” He joked. I giggled a bit.

“Seems like I do lately.”

“How about that diner?” He said out of the blue and that made me laugh loud. He laughed too. The sound of his laughter….dear god.

“You’re such a pain in the ass.” I said.

“I am not giving up, besides now I want to hear all bout your story and dinner is perfect for that.”

“No.” I told him.

“James, time to go!” Lars shouted and I was saved just in time.

“We’re not finished.” He said getting up and pointing his index finger at me giving me a wink. I smiled at him. I had to go too. Show time, rock time and Heavy Metal time. All in one. You wouldn’t get less from the guys.

Once again in my life and for the days touring with them I couldn’t take my eyes off James while he did his thing. This time he glanced a lot to me, whenever he had the opportunity to look back and at me. I never mind straying my eyes and we met countless times. I was hypnotized by his wild way on stage. With the show reaching its end we all went to a small club near the hotel. That was a must after every show, sometimes the band joined us others didn’t. I knew this time the band was going to be there because the invitation came from Lani with whom I was building a good friendship. I didn’t know if James was going to be there but even if he was that wasn’t bothering me at all.

James was there. Looking tired from the show but he was there. Dressed in black as I loved to see him. His hair still wet from the shower, he looked sexy as hell. He smiled at me when I arrived and I reattributed the smile. I didn’t come closer him though. I stayed with Connie, Lani and Katy talking. I was beginning to feel exhausted and the tour was just beginning. I couldn’t wait for a day off and a day where we didn’t have to travel immediately. James waited the moment I was alone to come near me. I was leaning against a pillar with a bottle of water in my hand when he stopped by my side. At first I tried to ignore his presence, too much of James in the same day was not gonna do me any good, too much of sexy James was too much for me to handle.

“Drinking water?” He began to talk to me.

“I don’t want to have a drop of alcohol tonight.”

“I told you things get pretty crazy on tour didn’t I?

“You did, in another context but you did.” I didn’t miss the opportunity to point another error of his. He shook his head.

“I am sorry for that too.” He smiled.

“You use that word a lot don’t you?” I teased him a bit. He cracked a laughter.

“Seems like I do lately.” He said picking up my own words. “How about that dinner?” It was my time to crack a laughter.

“You don’t give up.” I commented randomly.

“I don’t. One of my qualities or not but I don’t give up.”

“If I say yes will you leave me alone? God…I am getting tired of hearing you.”

“If I have to beat you by fatigue then be it.” I laughed again.

“Ok…one dinner and then you leave me alone.” I said trying to make a deal with him. I don’t know why I accepted it, I wasn’t even sure of my proposal. It seemed to me rather impossible to go out for dinner with him and then be it, but honestly, I was getting tired of having him after me almost begging for a dinner.

“Tomorrow then.” He said.

“Already?” I said surprised.

“We’re flying to Boston in the morning and it’s a day off so I guess it’s a good idea.” He said shrugging. Yes, a day off, all I had been waiting for and I was setting on a commitment for dinner and James Hetfield.

“I don’t want to be seen anywhere around with you.”

“And how are we supposed to do that when we’re going out together?” He said smiling softly. He was playing with me, I could tell.

“I don’t know. It’s your plan you sort it out. I told you my rules now you play by them.” I defied him.

“I’m sure I can figure out a way.” He said taking the game.

“Good. Now excuse me Lars is calling me.” I said leaving him alone with his thoughts. Somehow part of the real me came back in that conversation with him. I played my part and he took it. This couldn’t be just his shot this had to be mine too. I could only wait for what his solution was. Me? I just thought our dinner wasn’t going to happen due to my rules.

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I left to my room as soon as I had managed to settle the dinner with Adriana. That was the only reason I had been to that club to begin with. I had to convince her to have dinner with me and I came back to my refugee feeling victorious. Or some sort of victorious because she had set her own rules. I couldn’t be defeated by that, I had to show her I could come out with a solution. It didn’t took me long to find one, alone, sat on the couch of my suite thinking about a way, it immediately occurred to me the perfect plan. She didn’t want to be seen with me? Then be it. She’d have dinner with me in my suite. It was private, no one would go in there except us and it served the purpose perfectly. I laughed at my own and easy solution. She never thought I would come up with that, even though I was quite sure she knew it was a possibility. She’s smart, I could tell and tough. I love tough women. I love a woman who can fight and she could do it like anyone else.

I finished my water and went to bed. I couldn’t sleep, I was too exited I was going to be with her again. I was not going to try anything, I was sure of that. I knew my body wanted it, it pleaded for it but my head was being reasonable enough to command my body instead of the other way around. I wasn’t sure of what was happening to me or why it was so important to me to get to know her better but I wanted to know her better. There was a lot behind her, much more than I could think of and I wanted to learn every single piece about her. Dinner was perfect and that was my goal. Of course apologizing was another one but secretly I knew it wasn’t the main point.
Adriana ran through my mind some hours before I could finally close my eyes and let my body sleep peacefully.



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So now James is playing the good guy? :lol:

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Wow, it was 180 degree flip :o getting interesting
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Boston was hot as hell that day. It was hot or my nerves were killing me. We’ve had a quiet and peaceful flight there. Being a day off, I left all my bags in my suite and I joined Katy in the pool. Our tan needed to be worked out already and there was nothing left to do. We could have been out in the city but we both wanted something relaxing. Afternoon laid by the sun seemed nice.

“Are you nervous Ade?” She asked me.

“Yes.” I said fixing my sunglasses and sticking them in my nose. My answer was simple and short but there was not much I could tell her.

“That nervous?” Katy insisted with me. She knew when I was scanty for words I was a lot nervous.

“I should have never agree with this dinner. I regret I said yes, honestly.”

“That or you are afraid of being alone with him?” I rolled my eyes at Katy. “I know you Ade and I’ve never seen you so scared of a person. Take this as an apology dinner as he says it is.”

“I am not looking at it in a different way but he didn’t have to do it.”

“But he chose to do it and you agreed now just relax and then get yourself a shower and get yourself pretty for tonight.” Again I rolled my eyes at her only my eyes were hidden behind my shades and she couldn’t see it.

“I don’t nee to look pretty for him.” I claimed. Katy began to laugh and I looked at her inquisitive.

“What? Can’t I laugh?” She asked.

“Yes but not on this situation. Come on, I am almost freaking out.” I complained.

“Ade, it is just dinner!” She almost shouted. “Try to have some fun and since the two of you have been like cat and dog try to make peace with him, that’s what he is trying to do and that is not a bad thing. It is, actually, a good thing for you. He’ll stop giving you hell”

“Ok…” I whispered not really convinced with her arguments. I didn’t like the feeling of being nervous either. I whished for a moment I could relax just like my friend suggested me but I couldn’t and I also couldn’t admit it to myself. Last thing I wanted to feel was all the strange feelings I had whenever my eyes hit him. The shaking hands, the sweating palms, the racing heart, the weakness in my legs, my knees failing on me and my mind, franticly, looking for him whenever he was around. That I kept it all to myself. The reason I was nervous was because I was going to be alone with him, I was afraid I couldn’t control my emotions and I’d give it away.

“Have you seen him today?” Katy broke the silence again.

“No, we just talked on the phone. He’s picking me up at my room at 7 pm.” I clarified.

“You better get yourself ready then.” She said. That made me realized the time was near and I felt goose bumps in my skin.

After half an hour, around 6pm we left the pool. I went alone to my room. First I chose what I was going to wear that night. Katy’s words saying I had to look pretty hit my brain, why not? After all I was a woman and women like to look good no matter what the situation is. I’ve chosen a strapless black dress and high heel matching shoes. I knew I was going to look good and it was not exaggerated. With the task of choosing the outfit done I plunged my shaking body in the hot tub with relaxing oily scents. I remained there for a while with my eyes closed relaxing the more I could. Then I just showered quickly and got dressed. A bit of makeup, light one, made me look pleasant. I liked what I saw in the mirror when I looked in there to see if I was alright. I was, at least, according to my opinion. A few drops of perfume and I was ready.

James knocked on my door a couple of minutes later. 7pm sharply.

“He’s on time!” I spoke to myself surprised while I walked to the door. I saw him dressed simply in black jeans and grey shirt. No matter what he was wearing he’d look perfect anyway. I scrutinized him for a few seconds.

“Are you ready to go?” He asked me. I nodded.

“Did you find the place where we’re not going to be seen?” I asked him. I couldn’t wait to know what his solution was.

“Don’t worry about that, I got it all figure out.” He said with a soft smile on his lips. I went to search my purse in my bedroom and I noticed my hands shaking a bit. Then I closed the door of my room and followed him to the elevator, noticing he pushed the 9th floor instead of the lobby.

“We’re going up?” I asked him.

“Yes we are.” He said shoving his hands in the pockets. I noticed there was a bit of nervousness in him too. We were definitely not comfortable around each other. I would have never slept with him if I knew one day I’d be ending up working with him. James guided me through the corridor and stopped in front of the presidential suite. I raised an eyebrow.

“Don’t give me that look, I wasn’t the one booking the suite.” He said.

“This is your suite?” I asked him. I tried to figure out what we were doing in there.

“Yes it is.”

My curiosity was killed when he opened the door and held it for me so I cold come in. The living room had a perfect table set for two. I smiled a bit at his solution, definitely we would be quiet and we wouldn’t be seen.

“You are a smart guy.” I said looking back at him.

“I hope you don’t mind.” He said resting his key card on a small table near the door.

“No, I don’t.” I told him. I didn’t mind. James handed me a glass of juice. I knew there was never alcohol around him and that was his room so I wasn’t surprised.

“I ordered stakes. I don’t know what you like so I opted for something random. I’ve seen you eat meat before.”

“Stakes are fine.” I said. A knock on the door almost made me jump.

“Our food.” He informed me walking up to the door. James let the guy put the trays on the table and then tipped him, we were left alone again after two minutes. We sat on the table and he served me. I was a bit silent because I didn’t know what to tell him.

“Those are good.” He told me as he took a piece of his stake au poivre. I nodded, indeed the food was tasty.

“So, did or did I not came up with a good solution?” He asked smiling proudly. I smiled back at him, his boyish grin looked so perfect I couldn’t not smile back. I don’t know if I smiled because of his question or just because the sight of his own smile was just too good to ignore.

“I have to give you the credits for this. Nice job.” I said. I had put all my weapons down. He was being nice so I was acting normal too.

“You look pretty.” He said all of a sudden. I almost choked in my food and James looked down at his plate slightly blushing as he blurted out the words.

“Thank you.” I said randomly. It is what you are supposed to say after a compliment and he had given me one.

“Adriana, can I call you Ade?” He asked. He cleared his throat a bit before he addressed me the question. I was having dinner with him, that broke a bit of our distance. I couldn’t deny him his request. I nodded silently. “Good…Ade, if you don’t mind me asking, why did you live in foster care?” I knew he was going to make me that question. It was impossible not to. I could not answer him but I had the will to do it and innocently I expected he’d be satisfied with a light answer, not going into too much details. I didn’t know if I could handle to tell him all the facts without falling to pieces. That was a very delicate subject to me. I went for it anyway.
“My parents died when I was 16, as I was a minor and we didn’t have any family I ended up living there.” I explained. James looked at me a bit shocked.

“Your parents died?” He asked and I nodded. “How?”

“In a car crash.”

“I am so sorry. That must have been hard.” He said. Suddenly his eyes dropped on his plate and his face turned a bit sad. “It is hard…” He mumbled. “I know it is.”

“Sorry…” I said without much to tell him. I knew exactly what he was referring to. James looked back at me.

“How was it? How was it for you Ade?” He asked me. There I knew our conversation was just beginning and I guess for the first time in my life I was talking to someone who shared the same pain that I did. Somehow it felt good.

“I had no one else in the world…” I began. I was about to speak about something that I kept private all the time. “I felt lost, I didn’t want to believe it was true. I was afraid, scared, then I went to foster care and that was just even worse. My life was already a mess and that made things even worse but I didn’t have choice. I had no one.”

“Was it that bad?”

“I was bullied by the other girls all the time. For no reason they didn’t like me. All I could think of was getting out of there. I only did it when I was 18, I suffered again but at least I suffered on my own, not because others were causing me that suffering. I never understood why they terrorized me, I cried a lot wishing my parents would come back to rescue me from there but that was impossible. I missed them a lot, I still miss them a lot.”

“What did you do when you left?”

“Work. I wanted to go to music school and I had to live on my own so I worked. I’ve had three different jobs to have enough money to live on my own. I starved sometimes to have money to pay the rent and school. I couldn’t lose those two things.”

“You’re a fighter.” He told me smiling. He smiled for the first time since that conversation began.

“I had to, was that, fighting or I could just end up in the gutter. I’d rather fought.” I said proudly.

“It was a good decision. A decision I didn’t take it myself. You know I also ended up alone in the world after my mother died.” I was surprised he was bringing his own experience up but I let him talk. “Just like you I felt really lost and afraid and scared, you know exactly the feeling. Kids, they are supposed to be protected by their parents, they need their parents for guidance without them they get lost. I was no exception. I went to live with my older brother but he had his own life and was too busy to take care of me and my sister. We were there but we were pretty much left at our own care. Two kids living alone in a wild world couldn’t be a good thing, and it wasn’t. My sister ended up having problems with drugs and alcohol and that’s when alcohol began for me too.”

“But you had your father right?” I asked. I thought since we were having such a deep and honest conversation I could make him questions too. He nodded.

“I did but that was only 10 years after he left our house, by then I was already too lost, you know. We regained contact but we never talked about what happened, I knew we would end up fighting if we did, so I never made him questions. I was like that, always hiding my feelings, not showing them to anyone.” I could picture myself in his last words. I was like that. I decided to lighten things up.

“Well but we both ended up doing pretty good.” I smiled. He smiled back.

“It took me long years but I ended up being a better person, I guess.”

“You did, you have your wife and your kids.” He opened his mouth in a tender smile when I mentioned his children.

“My children are the best thing I have. My wife…” He sighed. “I don’t think I have her anymore.”

“Maybe you can work things out.” I said. James shook his head.

“I don’t think so. I came to this tour knowing I am looking for another house when I come back to San Francisco.”

“Are you sure about that?”

“I am. You know, the other time I saw her do anything she could to save our marriage and I went for it because I wanted it too. I loved her. This time none of us were making the effort, you know what I mean? I didn’t see anything there, none of us did, so I guess this is the best.”

“And your kids?”

“My kids are aware of what is happening. Right before I came on this tour we sat with them and explained, obviously they were devastated but in the end they understood. It isn’t good for them to have their parents fighting around them all the time as it was happening. They’ll be better this way.”

“I was married once.” I said. Again his eyes looked at me in surprise. “Divorcing wasn’t easy, it’s never easy.”

“What happened?” He asked.

“Not enough affection on my side.”

“I see…” He said.

“I don’t think I am capable of being in relationship and give affection, I guess that was our problem.”

“I’ve been there Ade. One day you will be, I was.”

“You fell in love!”

“And you will too and then things will change, you’ll see.”

“I sure would like to know what love is.” I commented almost laughing. “I am losing hope though.” James’s eyes told me not to lose hope without him saying a word.

Dinner had been finished long ago. Our conversation took hours. We shared experiences. We were much more alike than we ever thought we were and in the end it was a very pleasant evening.

“Well, it’s a bit late, I better go back to my room.” I told him standing on my feet.

“I’ll take you to your room.”

“You don’t have to, I mean I just have to go to the 5th floor.”

“I insist.” He said opening the door for me. James took me to my room.

“Thanks for dinner.” I told him opening my door.

“I had a good time.” He said.

“Yeah…me too.”

“Well, goodnight.”

“Goodnight.” I responded. When he was coming into the elevator again he called me.

“Ade…” I looked back at him. “I think we should repeat it.”

“What?”

“Dinner of course.” I was surprised. “I liked your company.” He confessed. I smiled at him not knowing what to tell him.

“We’ll see about that.” I answered, mentally blaming myself for not being able to tell him that our deal was just one dinner.

“Goodnight.” He said again before he disappeared behind the elevator’s door. I didn’t have time to tell him the same again. I closed the door of my suite behind me and threw the shoes that were killing me randomly on the floor, then I sat on the couch thinking I also had liked his company. I liked to know another side of him. A side I wasn’t able to know until that moment not even in London. With a smile on my face I walked up to my bed satisfied with the nice surprise I’ve had that night.
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AWESOME chapter! So happy that James isnt acting like a dick anymore!!!

MOAR!!! :heart: :horns2
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I loved that part! Can't wait for more. :heart:
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So this is the gentleman side we all love too! :heart:
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Next day was work day. I haven’t seen James in the morning nor during the afternoon until their time to show up in the venue was due. I had all my work done when they got there. James arrived dressed n faded blue jeans and white shirt, flip flops on his feet. He looked rejuvenated and greeted me with a simple smile that stole my peace.

“Hi.” He said.

“Hi.” I said almost choking looking at him. Lars and Kirk scrutinized us in a awe because we’ve had such a normal and quiet greeting. None of them knew we had dinner together the previous night.

“Am I missing something here?” Lars hushed when I was walking to my control table to rehearse the sound with them.

“Peace. Peace is finally here.” I told him winking an eye. Our rehearsal went with no incidents. They played, I remade the sound, no fights at all. James listened to my advises quietly and even agreeing with me. Now work was going good. When it all came to an end and everything was prepared for another metal night we all left the stage. James delayed his pace so he could join me on the back. Katy who was by my side walked fast so she could leave us alone.

“Don’t you think the acoustics here are weak?” He asked me. I nodded.

“That’s why I made all the adjustments. You guys are having a hard time with that, New York was also bad.” I told him. I had to agree with him, our rehearsal took a bit longer because of all the adjustments I had to make and they were late for the meet n’ greet with the fans. “Aren’t you guys late for the meet n’ greet?”

“We are but this was important. Rob is already going there, I am the last one I still have some time.” I looked at him and smiled and we reached the corridor filled with Metallica’s gear. I thought our way would separate there. “Do you wanna have a drink and talk a bit before I go there?” I stopped walking reluctant to accept his offer. He read my expression. “If you don’t have anything else to do that is.”

“No, I am free now until the show.” I said. One drink and a chat wouldn’t hurt so I thought. James opened the door of his own room and held it for me, I stepped inside.

“I have apple juice and water, sorry not much to offer you.” He joked.

“Water is fine.” I said sitting on a bench. James handed me a bottle and took one for him sitting right in front of me straddling his long legs and stretching his arms which made me see part of his belly. I shuddered at the view, I had ran my hands through there once and I felt like doing it again. I had to control my body not to jump off my bench and sit on his lap. Once again my desire was betraying me. He leaned forward killing my view. “Are you alright?” He asked. That wake me up from my trance.

“Sorry, I am just a bit tired.” That was all I could come up with. James gave me another one of his murdering smiles. I was feeling weird things for him, weird for me as I could not figure out what they were. It was not just desire, I also simply liked the moment I was just sitting with him and talk, listening to the peaceful tone of his voice. Friendship, that is.

“You have enough time to rest a bit until the show. You still have some hours.”

“Then it comes the party at the club and that will ruin me. I know I can choose not to go but I never resist.” James laughed loud.

“Then you’re not really tired otherwise you wouldn’t go young lady.” He teased me with a smile.

“I don’t want to let people down by refusing and invitation.”

“Really?” He asked me, I nodded. Then his expression became rather serious. “Then I think I can ask you out again because I know you don’t want to let me down.”

“Really?” I teased him, he nodded. “Where do you want to take me?”

“Where I want to take you is a different story.” He said with a grin that made me jump a little.

“Where you can take me is another thing.” I completed his thought. “Let’s not go that way…” I asked him in a honest tone.

“Yeah…but would you go out with me again?” I finished my water and rested the bottle on the table by my side. Right there Lars knocked on the door calling James for his duty. We both stood up and before we reached the door James grabbed my hand. “You didn’t answer me.”

“Yes.” I simply said, mentally knowing I was making a huge mistake.

Dinner, the show and then, obviously club party. I couldn’t say no to people that took me in as if I was family. The club was crowed with rock lovers but we were taken to the top floor where we had our own private area big enough to lose some people out of sight. I was trying to see where Katy was when a familiar voice made me, literally, jump.

“I brought you this.” He said handing me my favorite beer.

“You pay attention to details.” I said surprised taking the beer off his hand.

“Some details aren’t really details.” James said.

“Great show you guys had tonight.” I told him straying the conversation.

“It was god indeed but I didn’t come here to talk about the show.”

“Why did you come here for then?” I defied him smiling.

“I don’t know…” He sighed. Now things were getting a bit weird.

“I think you need to rest.”

“Wanna go for a walk?” He suggested. Once again he surprised me. I looked around me and felt a bit dizzy with all the noise happening on that place. My crazy self took over and I just shrugged.

“Sure.” I rested the beer on the bench half full and we left without saying anyone we were leaving. I’d rather have a quiet moment than be in a place filled with drunk people. James shoved his hands in his pockets as we began to walk down the street side by side.

“They’re gonna miss us inside.” I told him.

“Probably…” He said being vague then awkward silence took care of us and we walked a bit without talking.

“Wanna go to that park?” He broke the silence pointing at a dark park on our left side.

“Is that safe?” I said unsure.

“I don’t know but I think I can still manage to punch some guys if they try to mess up with us.” He said with a laughter.

“Even then…” I said laughing too. We ended up crossing the street and we dived in the darkness of a quiet and somehow cozy park. Not wanting to go much further we sat on the grass under a big tree.

“So I guess this is our going out again.” I told him.

“We can look at it that way OR we can think this is our escape away.” Again I laughed. He was funny. His sense of humor was fabulous. I was more relaxed in his presence than I ever thought.

“It looks more like an escape indeed.”

“That’s why I put it that way. Anyway I’m glad you accepted my offer.”

“Last night made it easier.”

“I am sorry for everything I said and done to you, I really am.”

“We’re past that or so it seems.” I shrugged. James face was lightened by the moon, he looked incredibly mysterious under the moonlight and again irresistible.

“How old are you Ade?”

“It is bad to ask that to a lady.” I joked. “I am 30.”

“Just like I thought, you are pretty young.” I wondered what he meant by that comment since he made it serious and almost sighing.

“Is that a good or a bad thing?” I asked him.

“I guess age doesn’t really matter.” He said not really answering my question.

“No it doesn’t.” I agreed with him.

“I miss my kids.” He confessed. So was that why he wanted to have a walk with me? So he could talk?

“Do you wanna talk about them?” He smiled again in that tender way. “How are they?” I asked making things easy for him.

“Cali is an artist. Her drawings are amazing, she got that from me and she’s growing really fast, she’s almost a teenager. Castor is calm and quiet like his mother, he likes cars as I do though and then Marcella, well, Cella is a girl but is the tiny version of me…” He began to laugh. “She likes everything I do. She could have been born a boy.”

“Why don’t you ask your wife to bring them here? I think she would do that.”

“They’re on vacation in Argentina.”

“Oh…” As I said this I shivered as the night was getting fresh and I was just wearing a strapless top. Seeing that James took his jacket and leaned over me. I tensed a bit and his eyes hit mine as he covered my shoulders with his jacket.

“Hope this makes you feel better.” He said with his face still so close to mine. I could breathe his breath and taste it in my mouth.

“Thank you.” I told him. James came back to his place leaving my heart beating a mile per second. Again we went silent. I felt tension between us that moment.

“Do you ever think about London?” He broke the silence in the most horrible way I could think of.

“James…” I said. “I don’t want to talk about that, please.”

“Come on Ade, we’re both adults and it happened. We can’t ignore it.”

“It happened because we never thought we’d see each other again.”

“I agree but do you ever think about it?”

“I don’t think we should be having this conversation.” I said. The fact that he was insisting was leaving me nervous.

“Why?” He played the innocent. I noticed there he was testing me. Why? I didn’t have a clue.

“Because we’re working together and we’re trying to be friends.” I was beginning to feel a real discomfort.

“It’s impossible to forget it.” He gasped. I stood up quite fast hearing his confession.

“I think we better go back to the hotel.” I said. James didn’t argue he got up and followed my fast pace. He left me almost in panic. What was he trying to do?
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James, stop thinking with your genitals! :lol:
Wtf are you trying to do? :drool

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I love how little by little their relationship begins to develop once James puts down his defenses. lol Now he has a tall wall to climb... :biggrin
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Next morning it was the usual rush towards the airport. Chicago was our destiny. We had to wait a while because the band was flying with us and James was late. It took some time sat on the plane waiting for him to get there. When he finally arrived, looking especially gorgeous he looked for me and sat by my side. I began to worry as every day I’d find him more and more attractive and secretly I wished he’d sat right where he decided to, on the vacant seat I had next to me.

“Mind if I sit here?” He asked rather casual. I shook my head and looked at him by the corner of my eye. James pulled out a newspaper and began to read. I decided not to interrupt his reading and I ended up reading his paper too. Suddenly I saw some announcement of classics exhibition in Chicago. I ripped the paper off his hands.

“Oh my god!! I have to go to see this.” I exclaimed excited.

“No one ever taught you that is a bad thing to take things off people’s hands without asking first?” He said smiling at me.

“Oh I am sorry…” I told him almost blushing but the excitement of that car exhibition got the best out of me. “It’s just that…well I have to go there.” I said looking back to read the text. “It ends today!!” I said rather sad.

“You like cars?” He asked me not caring with my words.

“I do.”

“I want to go there too.” He said. “Maybe we can go together?” I looked at him as he popped the question. His gaze met mine and I began to get lost in his blue eyes, almost forgetting what he had asked me. He had some hypnotizing power on his gaze and I couldn’t stop staring at him. He was staring at me the same way.

“I’d love to go with you.” I said. Then I almost slapped myself for using the word love instead of just like. Since when my mouth could not hold the truthful words and replace them for a simpler one? “But it ends today.”

“We still have time, we just have to go there as soon as we land.” I smiled. I wanted to go and if I was going to share that with him, the better. I liked his company after all, in fact, I thought I liked his company a bit too much.

“Ok.” I said. James turned around on his seat so he could face me.

“Ok? Like that? It’s a public place, you’re gonna be seen with me.” He teased.

“You can always say I am your assistant or something.”

“Right.” He laughed. I gave him back his paper and he went back to his reading which left us in silence. I saw Connie and Lars looking back at us and smiling then they just hushed with each other, I could only assume they were talking about us. I felt a bit ashamed. I was wondering what they were talking about when James’s voice woke me up.

“Ade…” He called me gently. Gently enough to sooth my heart. He leaned his head against his seat. “I am sorry if I upset you yesterday.” He was talking low so no one could hear what we were talking about.

“I was not upset. It just bothers me, that’s all.” I explained. That subject didn’t just bother me, it panicked me but I couldn’t tell him that.

“I just think that we cannot ignore it, that’s all.”

“Are we really talking about this again?” He gave me such a smile that I felt the urge to ran my hand across his face. I actually had to control myself not to do it. His smile was beyond tender. “I think about it sometimes, ok? Now let’s not talk about this anymore.” I confessed. Again my big mouth betraying me in a shameless way. I didn’t want to tell him anything of that, but his smile had that power. I turned my gaze away from him as I felt I was blushing. Suddenly I felt the tip of his fingers on mine and I almost jumped on my seat. My heart began to race and I didn’t like the fact that I was liking he was doing that.

“There’s nothing wrong with that.” He told me holding my hand firmly. For a moment I felt safe, just by the fact I had him holding my hand and I had never felt that way before with a guy. I took my hand away a bit scared of that safety feeling. He was making me feel weird things, unknown to me. New.

“Thanks for saying that.” I smiled at him.

“We could have dinner after the exhibition.” He suggested.

“What are you trying to do?” I asked him not taking the pressure and confusion in my head.

“Nothing. I am just trying to know you better and I like your company. I am not trying anything.” He clarified but it seemed to me that he knew exactly what he was doing. He knew exactly how to deal with me, he had been like me once in his life. He was trying to pull me to him little by little, the only way he knew he could win.

“I don’t think we should.” I said. “I mean…”

“I know what you mean…” He interrupted me. “Have dinner with me, please?” James looked at me with such pleading eyes that I couldn’t say no to him.

“Ok.” I whispered. He just shot me another tender smile and turned his gaze back to the newspaper. Again I ended up doing what he wanted.

As we arrived sooner than we thought we went to the hotel to leave our stuff there. Surprisingly my room was right next to James’s this me. A short notice from Mr. Lars Ulrich, who shot me a suspicious grin giving me the card key. I changed to a air of blue jeans and white tank top. I needed comfortable clothes. A knock on my door made me jump in anticipation, thinking it was James already but at my door was Lars and Connie holding hands.

“We came to ask if you wanted to have dinner with us?” Lars said.

“Oh sorry, I…” I didn’t know what to tell them. “I have plans already.”

“You do?” Connie asked surprised and I heard James’s door opening. They both looked at him. James stopped right behind them.

“Are you ready?” He asked me. I could crawl into a hole that moment. Lars and Connie smiled at each other.

“Have fun Ade.” Connie said.

“Invite Katy, I don’t want to leave her alone.” I suggested.

“We did but she’s going out with Phil.” Lars informed me. It was my time to smile.

“She is?” I asked enthusiastically. They both nodded. I clapped with joy and burst into my room to pick up a sweater and my wallet. Lars and Connie walked up with us to the elevators. James’s was especially silent, I wondered if he was a bit bothered with the fact that Lars and Connie knew now that we were going out together. Our ways separated on the street.

“So Katy is going out with Phil..” James’s comment out of the blue but I knew it had pun intended.

“He’s her type, blond with blue eyes…” Suddenly I shut my mouth as I was describing James innocently. He smiled knowingly.

“And what’s your type?” He asked me.

“The opposite, dark hair, dark eyes…” I told him.

“Good to know…”He said laughing. I laughed too, his face was just too funny to resist. He was my type indeed but I could never tell him that.

The exhibition was just phenomenal. I was like a kid in the middle of a toys store, pointing and commenting about the cars with James. He was amazed looking at me, sometimes he’d just stopped watching me which made me feel awkward.

“Look at that truck.” I said pointing at an old truck needing to be restored.

“Oh man…” James told me halting towards it. I had to run a bit to cope with his pace. “I want this.” He said. He called the guy and then he made the deal much to my surprise. So that’s how he worked? He wanted something and he’d get it? During his negotiation he had his hands shoved in his pockets and looked calm. I scrutinized every single inch of his body. His inked arms asking for my touch or I just wanted to touch them. His neck wanting to be kissed I had to turn around not to look at him. I had to distract myself looking at the cars again but then James was more attractive than any of the cars shown in there. My gaze ended up falling on him again and that time his eyes were on me too, he accepted my look with a soft smile for a moment the whole place went silent and there was only him in there. My brain shut down just to receive James’s cute smile. Something was wrong, really wrong. That was beyond desire.

“Did you really buy it?” I asked him when he joined me.

“I did. That is a beauty and I already have plans for it.” He said visibly happy. “I am starving, time for dinner?” He asked. We had been there for hours, we saw everything twice, I guessed it was time to leave.

“Sure.” I said. James’s hand burned on my back as he guided me outside to the driver who was waiting for us.

“Don’t forget I am dressed in jeans, don’t take me to some fancy place.” I said already in the car.

“I am in jeans too.” He said pointing at his own black ones. “Don’t worry, I don’t even like too fancy places. I am a simple guy.”

“Good.” I said. I looked out at the window watching the streets, distracting myself a bit.

“Do you like Italian?” James spoke against my ear which caused me to jump, when I looked at him, he was so close that we hit with our foreheads. We began to laugh but James complained a lot.

“Let me check it.” I asked him pulling his hands down. He held them not letting it go. “You have nothing there.” I told him trembling a bit considering the tiny distance between us and his fingers playing a bit with mine.

“So do you like Italian?” He asked not letting go of me even though I was trying to pull my hands away.

“Yes, I do.” I told him able to sit back again.

In the restaurant, a cozy place with a band playing live we ordered some pasta dishes. Dinner went quiet and peaceful with James and I talking about our life and making confessions to each other about private feelings. We had a lot in common, even in our unfortunate moments in life, we shared feelings. Our likes and dislikes were the same. After dinner, as we were close to the hotel, James told the driver to go and we walked. We took quite some time, I didn’t want the night to end. I was having a great time. We stopped near the door to my room.

“Well, see you tomorrow.” James told me shoving his hands on his pockets one more time and looking rather nervous at his feet. I wanted more of his company, somehow I just didn’t want the night to end and I had spent almost all of my day with him.

“Do you wanna come in and have a last drink?” I offered. James looked up at me and nodded with a soft smile on his lips. I opened the door happy he had accepted my invitation. The first one coming from me since we became closer. We sat on the couch sipping each on a bottle of orange juice.

“How is it like to get divorced?” He asked me breaking the loud silence.

“It’s not easy. Look if you feel like you are not ready to take that step then don’t. You have kids and all, it’s never easy. When he said he wanted to divorce me I was ok with it, I’ve also thought it was the best decision to take and even then I had a tough time because no matter what you always think about what went wrong and that will haunt you for a while.”

“I talked to her yesterday, she already has a lawyer and honestly, I feel like doing it too. I don’t feel like there’s anything to save in our marriage, our kids understood that was my main concerning but now I feel like…”

“You failed?” I added. James nodded. “I know, I’ve been there. I guess time will heal all wounds James and if the two of you manage to keep it nice, it is good for you.”

“Yes, I can’t say we’re in war or anything. We even stopped fighting since we decided to separate.”

“I don’t know what to tell you…” I sighed.

“I’m fine, don’t worry. I am really fine.” He said smiling. “Did you have a good time today?” He changed the subject.

“Yes.” I said firmly so there wouldn’t be any doubts.

“That’s great.” He said rather to himself than talking to me. He said it low. “I think I better leave you alone and I also need to rest.” He said standing up. I walked him to the door. Secretly I didn’t want him to go yet but I couldn’t ask him to stay. I opened the door and held it.

“See you tomorrow.” I told him. My heart stopped beating when he bent over me and kissed my cheek, pausing his lips on my cheek for a few seconds.

“See you tomorrow Ade.” He said with a soft smile then he ran his fingers through my face which made my heart accelerate. “You make me feel good.” He said. I ran out of words to tell him as I was controlling my emotions. James left and I closed my door confused, with my reaction and with his reaction. I walked to my room feeling a bit numb and I could not believe how hard it was for me to sleep and he ran through my thoughts. I never spent much time thinking about someone, so that was new to me.
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