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How We Became Fire; Het, REPOST from a year ago.James and ADE. Love, hate, love...
Topic Started: December 23, 2011, 1:25 pm (17,541 Views)
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LOL Not that having James pulling your strings is such a bad thing, right? :drool :drool Ade refuses, but she's all shook up. :biggrin
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In the morning I invited Katy to have breakfast with me before we left to the venue. I wanted to know every single detail about her night out with Phil. We sat by the table, both of us, not eating just messing around with the eggs in our plates.

“What’s wrong, why aren’t you eating? Was is that bad?” I asked her as she was making me nervous.

“It was great. I think I like him.” She said. I couldn’t do anything but smile. I was happy she was finally letting go of Danny.

“That’s a good thing! Did anything happened?”

“No, we just went out just the two of us but there is an obvious connection.”

“Humm…seems like we’re going to have an affair or more.” I shot her a grin.

“How was your night?” She asked me referring to my night out with James. I sighed and the grin faded away. Suddenly, as memories of my night with him became fresh, I stopped smiling and my face became rather serious. “What’s wrong Ade?” She asked.

“Nothing’s wrong. We had a good time.” I explained.

“Then why that serious look on your face? I know you…”

“I don’t know…” I relieved. “I just don’t know. I like to be with him but I just don’t know if it’s a good idea. I like what I see when I look at him, it’s hard for me to stray from what happened in London, it keeps popping up in my mind, like I want to do it again. Not in the same crazy and adventurous way. I don’t know if I would resist if he tried, honestly. And when he smiles…oh man…” Katy just shot me a huge smile. “Why are you smiling that way?” I asked. She shook her head.

“Nothing, just nothing, we’ll come back to this subject later. When you’re ready.”

“Ready for what?” I asked her curious. Katy got up and grabbed her purse.

“We’re running late, we better go.” She said. I looked at the watch in my wrist and followed her, no doubt we were running late to prepare that night’s show.

The usual and same stuff at the venue. Katy left me doing almost everything as she got distracted by Phil’s presence. She was falling for him only she didn’t have a clue or didn’t want to admit it, but all of us around could feel the chemistry between them and I didn’t understand shit about love. What did I know, I had never been in love but I could notice it in other people. I longed to feel the same way. It never happened. The guys joined us after lunch for our usual rehearse pre show. I noticed James a bit sad and even looking tired. He was especially silent, mumbling just a shy hello when he saw me that day, then it was all about work until we were all finally settled.

“What’s up with him?” I asked Lars when we were all leaving to the backstage to relax until show time.

“I don’t know. He’s been like that since we left the hotel.”

“Probably personal problems.” I mumbled. Lars looked at me surprised aware that I knew what was happening with him. James walked inside his private room and closed the door behind him.

“Maybe you could talk to him.” Lars suggested. We stopped in front of James’s room talking, I wasn’t feeling sure if I should interrupt his moment alone. Maybe he just wanted to be left alone.

“I don’t think I should.” I told him.

“I think you should Ade. I’ve seen the two of you almost getting at it and now I see the two of you being really close. I know you know what’s happening in his personal life, that means in some way that he trusts you. Go talk to him.” Lars words made a little sense to me and seeing James that down was bothering me for a clueless reason. At least for me. I nodded at him and knocked softly at his door. Lars left right away and Connie gave a sympathetic smile.

“James…can I come in?” I asked him opening the door gently. He was sat on a couch with his elbows leaned on his knees with his head down. Definitely he was sad but he nodded at me so I stepped in and sat by his side. “What’s wrong?” I asked him. “If you don’t mind me asking, that is.” James looked at me and gave me a smile. His eyes were painful I felt like running my hand through his hair to give him support.

“I talked to my daughter today on the phone, actually to the three of them. God I miss them so much.” So that was it, James was craving for his kids. I let go of my refrained feelings and tangled my fingers in his hair and ran my hand through it. He closed his eyes while my fingers slid on his hair and a soft smile appeared on his lips.

“Thanks for doing that.” He told me.

“Ask your wife to bring them here.” I suggested again.

“I did, I asked her but as I told you she’s in Argentina and she doesn’t want to come back so soon. I understand that but I miss them anyway.” James grabbed my hand and held it, I didn’t feel like pulling it away so I left it there. As I said before I liked the safety feeling that simple gesture brought me.

“Is she gonna forbid you to see your kids after the divorce?”

“No, she’s not. It’s just now that she’s out of the country. I understand her point but I feel sad anyway. I am used to have them with me.” James played with my fingers between his still.

“Be patient then.”

“I am. Thanks for caring.” He told me.

“You’re welcome.” I said. James took my fingers to his lips and kissed them. I felt chills, I wasn’t expecting him to do that.

“Are you going to the party after the show?” I pulled my hand away that moment and he smirked.

“I don’t think so. It’s a public party filled with other stars, I don’t like those type of places.” I explained.

“Come on, just this once. I am asking you to come.” I shook my head.

“I don’t think so, sorry. I am going to my room as soon as this show is over. Have a good time in there.” I got up to leave and walked to the door.

“It’s not the same thing without you.” He blurted. I looked back at him surprised. Things were definitely getting weird.

“I am sorry but this time you can’t convince me.” I said shutting the door behind me. I left his private room shaking, the hands holding, the kiss in my fingers and his last sentence made me shudder.

Like I had told James after the show I went straight to the hotel. I hadn’t changed my mind. I didn’t like big parties. I was not the sociable kind amongst strangers at all and I didn’t like big publicity by appearing with Metallica on a pubic event like that party was. I slid into some sweaters and crashed on the couch with a book. I was glad I was having a quiet night. I needed that too.

James POV

Adriana was right. These parties suck major balls and don’t bring you anything new. I couldn’t stop thinking about her and how I’d rather be with her having a normal conversation that there, surrounded by people and women hitting on me as my divorce hit the news. She was nothing like that, she was supportive and she understood me. She calmed me down and she made feel good. Yes, I’d rather be with her than surrounded by greedy people with fake feelings. Plastic world that is.

I strayed from the crowd and sat against the counter of the bar opened for the party with Adriana running through my mind. I was quiet and not talking to anyone. Lars saw me from across the room and began to walk, I knew he was coming to me. I wasn’t wrong, he sat in the bench next to mine in seconds.

“Why are you so quiet Het?” He began.

“Nothing, I’m just not in the mood to socialize.”

“Seems to me like you’re far away from here. Where is your head?” Lars knew me too well. I sighed at his acknowledgement. “Come one, talk to me.” He insisted.

“Adriana…” I said her name.

“Ade? Is there where your head is?” I nodded not caring I was confessing it. I was thinking about her. I’d thought about her all time. I’d caught myself thinking about her great part of the day and wishing for the time to come when I can see her again. I liked to be with her. “What’s happening between you two?”

“Nothing is happening between us.” I said shortly taking a sip of my water. “We’re just friends.”

“Why are you thinking about her then?” Lars was patient. He knew he wouldn’t get a straight answer from me that easy.

“She’s not here and I was thinking that I would like to be with her.”

“Are you having feelings for her?” Lars asked.

“I like to be with her, I like to talk to her, that’s all.” I clarified. I was a bit confused with the feelings she made me feel.

“Why don’t you go then?” Lars suggested. I looked at him and put my bottle on the counter.

“I don’t think I should. I don’t want to invade her space, she’s at the hotel having a quiet night. If I go there I am invading her space and I don’t want to do that.”

“You know her a lot.” He commented being vague.

“We talk a lot Lars. She’s like me or better say she was like me when I was her age. She doesn’t let people getting too close.”

“Well, you know how to deal that James. Like you said, you were that way so you know how to break into that wall.”

“What are you implying?” I asked him as I got lost in the conversation. I hadn’t a clue of what he was trying to tell me. Lars smirked.

“What I am implying is that I see the way you look at her.” I opened my mouth to speak but he motioned to silence me. I waited. “I see the way you look at her and how much time you spend doing it. You say you like to be with her, that’s a good thing so if you are having doubts in how to break her wall, I am saying that you know exactly how to do it, you above all of us know what to do, I think you are afraid though.” Lars left me speechless. “If you don’t want to be here and you want to go to her, then go. I am sure she won’t mind. She went to talk to you this afternoon didn’t she?” I nodded. “Then what’s so impossible into breaking her wall?”

“You think I should go?”

“Clearly you want to go otherwise you wouldn’t be thinking about it and you wouldn’t be having this conversation with me. Just go man!” I smiled at him. “GO!” He almost shouted. I tapped his shoulder and got up. I left the place right away towards the hotel. I wanted to be with her. I took a taxi, the driver took like an eternity or it seemed to me that way. Already there I grabbed the key card to my own room in the reception and took the lift up to our floor. Her room was just next to mine. In the elevator I looked at my watch and saw it was a bit late, maybe she was already sleeping. When I got out I noticed the light from under her door which meant she was still awake but I chicken out and went to my room instead, before I put the key card on the door I looked at her door again. I put the card on the back pocket of my jeans and went to her door. I was still unsure if I should knock. I looked down at my feet, asked God for help, took a long deep breath and finally I knocked.
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I was almost at the end of my novel when a knock at the door awaked me from the most important moment of the story. I got up from the couch muttering and walked to the door.

“Who is it?” I asked from inside as it was a bit late for someone to knock at my door.

“Ade?” I heard James’s voice from the outside. I regretted immediately that I was wearing sweaters.

“Shit…” I said rolling my eyes, then I opened the door. He was leaning against the wall and gave me a clumsy smile as our eyes met. “What are you doing here?” I asked him surprised to see him. He was supposed to be at the party. James just shrugged.

“I wasn’t having a good time, I decided to come back to the hotel then I saw your light and I decided to knock.” I strayed from the door to give him space and he walked in. I closed the door with my heart racing again, mentally I asked him to calm down as he was just there randomly, not for any specific reason.

“I told you these parties suck.” I joked.

“You read Kafka?” He asked with the book I left on the couch in his hand.

“Yes I do. I was born a reader.” I laughed.

“I came because I wanted to be with you.” He said out of the blue. I looked at him a bit shocked. “Don’t look at me that way.” He asked.

“I’m sorry.” I excused me. I sat right next to him.

“I mean, I wasn’t feeling good in there and I like to talk to you, so I came here.” He explained, which was a relief to me he didn’t mean anything stronger. I knew I wasn’t capable of dealing with that.

“You made a good choice.” I told him smiling.

“Really?”

“Sure…” I said.

“Because I didn’t know if you’d mind, you know, maybe you wanted to be alone and I was going to interrupt…” I interrupted him, somehow I was feeling he was nervous.

“James, I don’t mind.” I told him. “Are you feeling better?”

“I am. That conversation with you made me feel better it’s nice to be able to talk and let things out. We talk about a lot of things and I like that. I feel comfortable around you. I am me around you.”

“You don’t have to be anyone else.” I said honestly. “I appreciate your honesty. So what do you want to talk about?”

“About anything.” He said shortly, it was an awkward moment between us as we just stared at each other. “Ok, this is weird.” He broke the silence with a nervous laughter. I scratched the back of my head.

“Yes it is. I have to agree with you.”

“I just wanted to come here and be with you Ade, I don’t know what else to tell you.” He said shrugging. “I guess I better go to my room, I feel tired and embarrassed.” When he got up I grabbed his wrist.

“Don’t go.” I said. James looked down at me. “Stay. Stay a bit longer.” I asked him. James sat back on the couch looking a bit confused at me. I just shrugged at him and gave him a smile which he reattributed with his cute one. Suddenly his expression soften a bit.

“So how’s Katy and Phil?” He asked me. I laughed.

“You are very curious aren’t you?” He laughed again and nodded. “I think they are doing good. They are together now so I guess that says everything.” I said. James looked at me, saying things without words. “I know what you’re thinking.” I said.

“We’re also together now and…” He cleared his throat a bit. “Does that says everything?”

“I don’t know what that everything is.” I said seriously. The conversation kept on derailing.

“I truly better go to my room.” He said getting up. I looked at him with pleading eyes. “Please Ade, I better go.” He said reading my eyes. I nodded. Yes it was better for him to go. That was the most strangest conversation I’ve had with anyone in my life. I walked him to the door.

“We’ll see each other tomorrow morning at the airport.” He said.

“Yeah…” I said. My voice sounded disappointed somehow. I didn’t want him to leave, but why? James lifted a hand and grabbed a strand of my hair and let it slid between his fingers.

“This is getting weird.” He said almost whispering. I strayed from his gaze and looked down at my feet. With his other hand he held my chin with two fingers and pulled my face back to meet his eyes. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” He said again in a whisper. His voice was enough to send me to another dimension and when he bent over me to kiss my cheek I was about to take off. My knees were shaking and failing. Not happy with one kiss he kissed me a bit lower, right at the corner of my lips. I couldn’t even move, then he looked into my eyes from that tiny distance, our noses almost touching, I wasn’t even able to breathe properly.

“Definitely, this is getting weird.” I managed to say also, just like him, whispering. James rubbed his nose in mine and that made me pull away out of fear. I panicked and gave a step back. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” I told him. James didn’t seem shocked with my reaction he just smiled and got out of my room. I closed the door with my head spinning around franticly. I took a deep breath and went to bed.

Next day it was all about going to the airport really soon. Destination Detroit. It was a bad day for me, other than I was really confused about James from the previous night, it was my parents’ anniversary death. It didn’t matter how many years had passed that was always a hard day for me. The day I was left alone in the world.

I got at the airport with black shades on my eyes from the crying in my room, and as I wanted to avoid James that day I sat with Lars and Connie but I did not talked to them, I didn’t want to talk to anyone. Katy knew very well which day that was and she also left me alone. Once in Detroit we all ran to the venue after a quick check in at the hotel, I didn’t know if James’s room was next to mine or not, we ran so late that I didn’t have time to check the details. At the venue, we all did our work in less time than usual and even the band was just rushing. James looked at me awkwardly several times wondering what was wrong with me but I was not in the mood to talk to anyone and as soon as our rehearsal was done I left alone to a small room that was made especially for me, so I could relax alone if I wanted. It was the first time ever I used that space. I ran to it sucking to have some time alone.

Once there I crashed on a bench and pulled the photograph I had of my parents in my wallet. I looked at them and tears began to fall. I didn’t want to cry but I couldn’t stop my tears from falling, then I heard a knock at the door.

“May I?” James’s peeped. I quickly whipped the tears off my eyes with the back of my hand I didn’t want him to see me crying. “Are you avoiding me?” He asked closing the door and leaning against the white wall. That made me smile.

“No.” I said trying to control my voice not to tremble.

“Yes you are.” He said. I wasn’t looking at him, I was with my back turned at him. I took a deep breath to clear my voice again.

“No I am not.” I said.

“Yes you are.” He said again and I could tell he was giggling a bit. I looked back at him and his smile vanished. “Ade…” He said seriously when he realized I had been crying. My eyes filled with water again.

“Just leave me alone.” I asked him. James walked up to me and kneeled on the floor right in front of me. I looked away. “What’s wrong?” He asked. His tone showed he was concerned.

“Nothing.”

“Nothing? And you’re crying…” He said pulling my face with his hand so I could look at him again. “Talk to me.” Instead of saying something I stretched him the photo I had in my hand. James took it and looked at it. “Are these your parents?” I nodded.

“Today it’s the anniversary of their death.” I explained choking as my voice failed and I began to cry again. “I am sorry, but it still hurts too much.” James put the photo aside and pulled me to him into a tight hug.

“Oh Ade…” He whispered. It took me a while but then I also put my arms around him and I felt him pressuring me against him even more. If holding my hand made me feel safe I can’t even say how being hugged my him made me felt. His arms around me somehow eased my pain, it felt good and right. It felt like that was all I needed to be alright. A mixture of feelings, my heart began to race and I didn’t want that hug to end. I felt my arms hugging him tighter and in response his lips kissed my cheek and his hand ran through my hair. Why did that felt so good? Why did that felt so right? I felt I was at home, like I had found my missing place, the place I’ve always looked for and never found it and now I was there.

“It’s gonna be alright.” He said in my ear. His voice sounding so sweet and caring.

“Why does the pain never disappear?” I complained. James strayed and looked in my eyes.

“It never disappears Ade, you just need to know how to deal with it. Time heals.” He said cupping my face between his hands. I gave him a smile.

“It’s been so long.”

“But it hasn’t been long enough, believe me.” He said returning me the smile. “Now, you have been avoiding me.” He laughed. I clenched my fist and smacked his chest softly.

“I have not, I told you.” I said giggling.

“Right.” He said rolling his eyes.

“Stop that.” I laughed. A genuine laughter. James ran his fingers through my face.

“At least you’re no longer crying.” He joked.

“Thanks.” I said. James got up.

“Come on, let’s grab something to dinner because show time is almost here.” He said giving me his hand. I took it. I wanted physical contact with him. James entwined his fingers with mine and took me out of the room towards the catering.

Later, after the show at some club in a 80’s party…Lars approached me. I was sat all alone at our table while the others were having a blast at the dance floor. Even James was there, though he wasn’t dancing, he was happily talking to Kirk, smiling. I was watching him, lost…

“He dragged you here.” Lars said sitting by my side pointing to James.

“Yeah…he did…” I said vaguely not straying my eyes off him.

“He did good, you need some fun tonight.” I looked at Lars, James must have told him what that day meant to me. I smiled at him knowingly. “He told me.” He confessed.

“He talks too much.” I joked.

“Nah…he was just concerned about you, that’s all. What’s up between you two?” Lars question made me literally jump in my seat.

“Nothing, we’re just friends.” I affirmed. Lars nodded taking a sip of his beer smiling. I knew that smile. “Really.” I said again.

“Ok…ok… if you say so.” Lars got up and gave me his hand. “Come on miss, get your ass off that couch and come dancing.” He said.

“I’m fine here, I don’t feel like dancing.”

“Really? Who can resist this crazy pop sound.” He said making weird moves through the sound of Big in Japan. I threw my head back laughing hard.

“That was awesome. Go ahead, I want to stay here, really.” Lars left and then hushed something at James’s ear. James looked at me and motioned me to join them. I shook him my head. James winked me an eye and then danced a bit for me. Just like Lars his movements were awkward enough to make me laugh loud. The king of heavy metal dancing through that 80’s sound was just too much funny. James laughed as well and then walked up to me.

“I won’t take no as an answer.” He said stretching his hand at me. His grin was just too cute to resist. I held his hand and walked up to the dance floor with him.

“You have to dance too.” I told him beginning to move. I kinda liked to dance to that music.

“Oh…God…” He said covering his face with both hands. I grabbed them and took them down but I didn’t let go. I began to dance and he followed me, holding hands. I saw Connie tapping Lars to look at us, then they also began to move. In seconds I was laughing my ass off together with James, Lars and Connie.

“That’s the spirit.” She shouted. Suddenly the music changed to a slow song. Cindy Lauper and True Color began to play. Being holding hands with James he didn’t give me time to escape, he pulled me to him tightly and glued his body in mine.

“I can dance this.” He said in my ear. I wrapped my arms around his neck and we began to move slowly to the sound of the music.

“Thanks for everything you’re doing.” I told him, not caring we were talking so close.

“That’s the least I could do.” He said talking low. His lips brushing slightly in my ear as he spoke. I didn’t know if he was aware he was doing that or if he had plain conscience of it and just did it anyway. I was feeling shivers.

“But thanks anyway. Let me thank you because I want to.” I said.

“God…Ade…” He whispered. I sensed some desperation on his voice.

“What?” I asked. His arms began to pull me tighter and his hand brushed my back in a tender gesture. Involuntary my hand caressed the back of his neck in response to his gestures.

“Don’t do that.” He begged me. His voice was trembling a bit.

“Ok. I am sorry.” I said a bit sad he had stopped my caresses. James strayed a bit to look in my green gaze.

“Don’t be sorry, it’s just that…” James stopped talking looked up at the roof biting his upper lip a bit. I pulled his face down.

“Hey, it’s ok. Let’s dance ok.” I told him. James smiled and pulled me back to him holding me even tighter against his body. I felt his chest breathing heavily against my own. Again being that close with him and with his arms around me, I felt I was at home. I closed my eyes just enjoying the moment. When the music was over James kissed my cheek and smiled at me.

“Time to have some rest at the hotel now?” He said. I nodded. James took my hand and we left. I was tired, I didn’t realized how tired I was, I fell asleep in the car. James woke me up when we stopped at the hotel’s door. I was sleeping against his chest and he had his arm around me.

“Sorry for that.” I said rubbing my eyes. He just smiled.

When we both climbed to our rooms we found out that, again, our room was side by side. Lars was working on something, that was my first thought.

“Sleep well.” James said opening my door for me. He kissed my cheek and then pushed me in. I waved at him smiling and wishing I didn’t have t say goodnight to him yet.

“See you tomorrow.” I said. James blew me a kiss and then I closed the door. Smiling and feeling dizzy. He turned my darkest day into a beautiful one.
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I had a quiet night, I slept quite well but my body was begging me for a rest. Touring was killing me in ways I’ve never expected. I was beginning to feel exhausted. I took a long shower and packed my bags again. Honestly I learned not to take anything out of it except for the things I was going to use. We had to fly all the time and that made it easier, so I packed just the stuff I had taken off it during my brief visit to Detroit. With my hair still wet I took all my bags to the door of my suite. I was just checking everything again when someone knocked on my door. I opened it to find James smelling like fresh shower and smiling at me. His eyes still a bit swollen.

“Good morning.” He told me. I was still a bit numb looking at him and scrutinizing his sleepy face but after a few seconds I replied.

“Good morning.” I said. James peeped inside and I saw his eyes dropping on my luggage.

“You already packed.” He commented. I nodded.

“Well, we’re leaving in a couple of hours.” I said.

“No we‘re not.” He said. I looked at him with an inquisitive look. “Well…” He began. “We’re leaving, that’s a fact, but you’re not going. You’re spending the day with me.” I opened my eyes in surprise.

“I am?” I asked playing his game. James just nodded and then stepped inside my suite.

“First we need breakfast.” He said picking up the phone on the table. He dialed room service and asked for breakfast for two. I was just too lost to say anything to him, lost and surprised. What did he have in mind this time?

“Are you feeling better?” He asked me when he finished his phone call. I sat on the couch, I was going to have breakfast anyway.

“I am feeling better, again thanks for everything you’ve done.” I smiled.

“Don’t thank me yet, the best is yet to come.” He smiled back sitting right next to me.

“Oh really? And do you mind telling me what is next?” I joked. James gave me another of his too incredible smiles. I wish I could tell him not to smile at me that way because he didn’t have any idea how his smile made me feel.

“I am not gonna tell you everything yet. Just a hint, you’re not flying with the crew today, you’re flying with me.” I opened my mouth to speak but he silenced me with two fingers. “Don’t say anything, I won’t take no as an answer. You’re coming with me and that’s it.” I didn’t have any idea what he was up to but his plans couldn’t stray much from the band’s schedule and we had to be in Oklahoma because they were going to have a show the day after. A knock at the door made me jump off the couch and we both got up to receive our breakfast. The boy put everything on the table and then James reached for his wallet tipping the boy when he left.

“Aren’t you going to eat?” I asked him as I caught him sat looking at me and not moving while I was attacking the eggs already. James stretched his hand and grabbed his plate.

“Of course I am, I am starving, I was just watching you. You look a lot better indeed.” Did he know me that well?

“You did a great job, part of this I owe it to you.” I had to give him his proper credits.

“I am glad I could help Ade.”

“You look a lot better too. Have you talked to your kids again? Are they back now?”

“I talk to them every day, they won’t be back until the end of the month.”

“Oh, that’s a long time.” I said rather sad and honestly concerned about him as I knew he was going to suffer with it. James shrugged.

“There’s nothing I can do, guess I’m gonna have to learn how to live with it. It’s not gonna be easy though.” James eyes changed to sad ones, I grabbed his hand in support.

“I wish there was something I could do.” I told him. He squeezed my hand a bit. Then stared at me for seconds, still holding my hand.

“Ade…” He said but then he choke. “I…” He choked again. “Come on, let’s eat, we have a lot of things to do.” He said letting go of my hand.

“What is it?” I insisted, clearly he was going to say something and then he regretted it.

“Nothing really, just eat. We have to go to the airport remember?” I looked at him confused, he said previously we were not going to fly with the crew and now he was saying we had to go to the airport. I heard some noise on the corridors, the crew and other members were already leaving. I looked at James trying to read something of his face but he was just neutral. I hated that part of him.

“Aren’t we going to be late?” I asked him. He shook his head.

“I got everything under control.” I relaxed and had the rest of my breakfast peacefully, after all I had to trust him. When we were finished James said it was time to go to the airport. The doorbell boy carried our luggage on a stroller and we head it outside with James smiling deadly at me all the time. A car, a simple white car with black glasses was waiting for us on the outside. It was not the usual van, so I assumed we were taking the drive by ourselves. Honestly, not that I cared, was enjoying more and more to spend time with him.

“Scared?” He asked me playfully when our little drive began.

“Not one bit.” I answered, though I was curious. Somehow I had this feeling that we were just having breakfast and that drive alone and then, once there, we would meet everyone.

“I don’t scare you?” He insisted. I giggled a bit.

“I told you once that it takes more than a tattooed guy to scare me.” I said remembering one of the first things I had told him back in London.

“I remember that but this another time, another thing.” He said rather serious. I smiled at him.

“You don’t scare me.” I affirmed.

“Good.” He said straying his gaze towards the street. We drove in silence the rest of the way, then I saw the airport. A wave of sadness invaded me as I realized my time alone with him was over and we were going to be back to reality. James stepped out of the car and held my hand to help me out. I searched for a stroller while he took our bags of the trunk of our lift. We got in the airport and searched for the private flights area which led me again to the thought that we were joining the others and my suspicions were true when I saw all of them waiting at one gate. We walked towards them and greeted every one. James stepped aside to hush with Lars and I stayed with Lani, Katy and Connie talking. To me, I was joining all of them again to work until James shouted my name.

“Ade, we have to go.” He said. Katy looked at me with her eyes wide opened, I reattributed her the same look.

“Where are you going with the master?” Connie joked.

“I don’t have a clue and I am scared.” I replied.

“You better go, seems like you’re not going where the rest of us is going.” Katy giggled. I turned around to walk up to James.

“We have to go.” He said when I was near. Once again his hand burned at the back of my shoulder as he led me to another gate. A private white jet waited for us and I realized, rather shocked that we were flying alone with just the crew of the flight.

“Why all this?” I asked him. James laughed.

“Do I hear fear in your words?” He joked. I poked him.

“I am not scared mister. You can give up.” I said. We got inside our plane and I was again amazed by the luxury inside. Everything was shinning. Black leather seats. Screens, blankets, a huge table in the middle. It looked like an apartment inside.

“I hope you enjoy my company as much as I enjoy ours.” James said behind me which caused me to jump. I turned around to look at him.

“I enjoy your company.” I said being honest with without fearing he could interpret other things in my words. We sat side by side in our seats while a woman of the crew gave us all the instructions. We’d have lunch on the plane from what I’ve heard.

“We’re not going to Oklahoma.” I said as soon as I realized the lunch’s detail.

“I never said we were going there.” He smirked.

“I have to go there.” I said almost in panic.

“Yes Ade, you have to go there but not until tomorrow. Tomorrow you will be there on time, don’t worry. Now fasten your seat belt we’re about to take off.” I did as he asked but when we were on air I popped the question again.

“Where are you taking me?” I asked him. James pulled out a car’s magazine and looked at me randomly.

“San Francisco.” He informed me. I jumped on my seat and stood up as I was already allowed to do that.

“Are you out of your mind?” James grabbed my arm and pulled me down to sit again, I felt like a puppet on his hand as he did it perfectly.

“Maybe I am.” He said looking straight into my eyes. I gulped.

“What are we going to do there anyway?”

“I have some houses I need to see, you’ve been saying you’re tired so I thought you could come with me and get away of the routine a bit.” I heard him attentively and secretly I’d rather hear him saying that he just wanted to be with me and that’s why he decided to take me with him.

“I see…” I said vaguely leaning my back against the seat. James opened his magazine and I stared at the ceiling for a while. Suddenly, as fast as he opened his magazine he closed it.

“Do you know San Francisco Ade?” I nodded.

“Yes, I know it quite well.”

“Really? You go there often?”

“Yes. I absolutely love it.”

“That’s good to hear. Look, I am quite happy you didn’t quit at the last minute.” James grabbed a strand of my hair and played with it between his fingers. I didn’t do anything to pull him away, the closer the better. Something was different. This wasn’t lust or desire, even though he was desirable enough, this was something else. This was a restless feeling.

“Why would I quit? We’re friends…” I said. His eyes narrowed a bit when he heard the word friends and quite frankly I found it weird too. What I felt for him was not friendship but it wasn’t the occasional crush I’ve felt several times. I didn’t know what we were.

“I don’t know if what I feel for you is friendship…” He said. I don’t know how I was capable to smile hearing those words. “Still not scared?” He asked tenderly. I shook my head. And I wasn’t, somehow, in another time, if some other guy would tell me that, I’d freak out and with him it just put some rest in my heart. Seeing I wasn’t gonna say anything he looked away, then he looked back at me and cleared his throat. “I didn’t say this to pressure you or anything but I think you have to be aware of this, you know, if you want to stray or anything I understand. If you want to be away from me I guess I understand your point…” Suddenly he began to babble. He was nervous. I covered his mouth with my hand.

“You talk too much.” I joked.

It didn’t bother me a bit what he told me. He wasn’t pressuring me at all, he had never done anything out of the line, he was respecting my boundaries but then, he was an expert moving himself there, because he had been there and that left me a bit vulnerable but still I didn’t care. He was making me wanting to stay and I don’t remember wanting to be, that much, with a person before. After endless hours talking and sharing the magazine we landed in San Francisco. Damn it was hot in there. God bless California.

We walked towards a car.

“That’s one of my body guards.” He explained. Then he held my hand in his while we walked fast to it. I was plain aware that we looked like a couple even though we weren’t one.

“Did you do this because you wanted me to be in your environment?” I asked as we walked. James stopped, I guess he got a bit shocked at my question. He gave a step closer to me and talked low.

“I did this because I wanted to be with you away from all the mess.” I stayed still looking at him waiting for the rest but apparently that was it. “Am I stepping out of the line here?” He asked a bit embarrassed.

“I have never said this so many times but this is getting weird.” I told him. James shrugged.

“I know.” He said throwing his hands up in the air and a bit desperate too. “Welcome to San Francisco Ade.” He babbled again. “God I stepped out of the line didn’t I?” He said resting his hands on his waist. My silence was driving him crazy, I could see it.

“Just shut up.” I said grabbing his hand and pulling him to walk.
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I watched the landscape while we were driving. We were both silent due to the awkward conversation we’ve had minutes before. I knew hour drive was going to take a bit long as the aerodrome was far from the city. I was looking out at the window when I felt his hand on my leg. His gesture was one of a fearful person. I wondered for seconds while I looked down at his hand why he was so afraid to touch me. Was I that scary? I looked up at him and smiled. James returned me a tender smile, tender than usual, maybe it was the fact that we were so far away from the group. I had just arrived to our destination and my heart kept telling me that I had made the right choice to jump on that adventure with him.

“I am going to leave you at the hotel so you can rest and then I’m gonna go look at the houses the real estate has arranged me. Later I’ll pick you up for dinner.” He spoke.

“What? You brought me here to leave me alone in the hotel?” I complained, but I tried to use a tone that didn’t sound as a complaint. I didn’t want to give much of my thoughts away.

“I thought you wanted to rest Ade but if you want to come with me I’ll be happy.” He smiled at me. James smile showed how much he was reading into my words. I was transparent to him. He could read my thoughts in seconds.

“I think I can look through the houses with you, if you want it of course.” I said

“I just thought it would be boring for you that’s all.” He said trying to defend his cause.

“It’s not.” I assured him.

“Then it’s even better.” Ha said with a delightful grin. Suddenly I felt my cell vibrating on my purse, it was Katy.

“Hi sweetie.” I answered the call visibly happy, after all I was going to spend my whole free time with James. That was the cause of my happiness. “What?” I said seriously as Katy spoke a mile per second telling me she was in the venue and none of the sound system was working. “How come is not working?” I asked her. I saw James tapping my shoulder and rolling me his eyes.

“I don’t know Ade, everything is plugged in and no sound comes out of it.” Katy told me on the other side.

“Are you sure everything is plugged in? Is there any electricity at all?” I joked.

“Don’t joke Ade, this is rather serious. You should be here damn it, I don’t know what else to do. We tried everything.” I sighed hearing her desperation. James rolled his eyes at me again, then he just grabbed my cell and put it on his ear.

“Katy?” He called her. “Look, Ade is off duty until tomorrow, so please let’s leave it that way.” He said not giving her time to say anything as he hung up the next second. Then he just turned my cell off. I opened my mouth to argue but he motioned a hand to shut me up. “Lesson number one, you’re off duty, it is a day off, so no work at all.” He told me.

“Are you out of your mind? The sound at the venue is not working, that’s a serious thing!” I argued.

“Yes it is. Tomorrow you’ll be there and you’ll check it. Today you’re here with me. I didn’t bring you with me so you could spend your time on the phone talking about work, even if that work concerns mine. I brought you with me, to San Francisco, away from everything and everyone so it could be just us, the two of us. No work at all. Got me?” James looked like he was talking to a small child. It almost made me laugh apart from the fact that his sort of arrogance got a bit on my nerves. I stretched him my hand.

“Give me my cell now.” I ordered. He shook his head. “James…” I said in a menacing tone. He smiled at stretched his arm up so I couldn’t reach for my cell.

“No.” He said.

“Look, I got your point ok, but you can’t just take the cell away from me, other than work there can be other phone calls that I’d like to answer.”

“No work until we land tomorrow in Oklahoma?” He asked me. I thought for a few seconds and then I nodded at him. James had taken his time to prepare a flight and sleep over with me in San Francisco. I had to value that.

“I promise.” I said a bit uncomfortable I was agreeing quite easily with his terms and conditions. He gave me my cell back. I didn’t turned it on again. I just stuck it back inside my purse.

The car parked in front of the Sheraton hotel, a five star huge building downtown San Francisco. When I got out of the car the doorman was already taking our bags of the trunk. James instructed his body guard to wait for us. Inside we made the check in. Our rooms were side by side, something in common with the last dates of the tour.

“Unfortunately you don’t have time to do much, I am running a bit late.” He said while I was just leaving my bags inside of what I could see it was a huge suite. He was paying for it much to my disagreement, but again, fighting in the reception with him was not useful or fruitful. He was a stubborn person.

“It’s ok.” I said closing the door the next second. “I am ready to leave now.” James remained still with his hands in his pockets looking a bit serious. “What?” I asked.

“Don’t you rather stay here?” He asked. I didn’t answer. I walked past him and pushed the elevator’s button. James turned around looking at me but didn’t move.

“Are you standing there?” I asked as the doors opened. James opened a smile and walked up to me, then he surrounded my neck with his arm and pulled me inside kissing the top of my head. I truly felt like holding him too. More and more I had to fight the urge to respond to his gestures. More and more it felt good to be with him. More and more it seemed right to give in to him.

“You’re learning.” He said smiling. I raised an eyebrow at him inquisitive. “It’s ok…” He said running a finger through my cheek.

“Maybe I’d rather spend some time with you and enjoy this than be alone at the hotel. Since I am here that doesn’t make sense.” I told him.

“Is that true Ade?” He asked me.

“I guess so…” I said a bit insecure.

“You JUST guess, which means you are not sure.” He teased me. I tapped his chest as we got out for the lobby.

“Stop reading between the lines.” I said. He cracked one of his lovely laughter.

“You said you guess, I am not reading between anything. The word was there.” He teased again.

“I am almost regretting I came here with you.” I muttered. He laughed loud again as we entered the car.

“Only you’re not regretting anything, you just guess…” He said in my ear as we sat inside.

“You’re being a pain in the ass right now.” I told him smiling, but his face was so close as I turned my head and the smile faded off my lips right away.

“Are you sure Ade?” He asked serious himself. His eyes again begged for a honest answer and I wasn’t able to lie to him, even more because I knew whenever I tried to lie to him, he’d caught my real intentions right away.

“I am sure James.” I said courageously. He strayed and smiled, grabbing my hand in his as soon as the car began to roll on the streets of San Francisco.

We met the real estate director and we just followed his car until the first house he had arranged for James to see. We didn’t even get inside the building, it was an apartment, in the middle of town and James denied promptly to see it. According to his patterns with was too messy, he wanted something quieter. The second house was in the middle of the woods. More like he wanted it. We visited it and there was enough space for what he wanted, rooms for his kids, guests’ room, a garage for his cars and enough space in the basement for a studio as he said it. That one stood on stand by. Then the third, and last one, came. At the beach, just like mine. James toured around the house with the guy and I just made myself comfortable in the large balcony facing the beach. I could tell it was a private beach just like mine back in LA. The place was amazingly beautiful and peaceful. I realized how much I was missing being at home that moment. I felt James stepping in the balcony but I didn’t look back, I couldn’t take my eyes off the calm sea I had in front of my eyes and the sound of the waves was just smoothing. He placed himself right in front of me and put both hands on my shoulders.

“What are you thinking about?” He asked me.

“Home. This house reminds me of my own.” I explained. He gave me a smile.

“You’re homesick?” I just nodded. Suddenly feeling is hands on my shoulders and being away from home and fragile I just felt like hugging him. In a repent, I surrounded his waist with my arms and I pressed my body against his. I wanted to feel his arms around me, for that safety feeling he usually transmitted me. James was caught by surprise with my gesture but soon I felt his arms around my back too. There it was, the most wonderful feeling I’ve ever felt just taken out of a hug. His hug and his arms were miraculous to me. Suddenly I was home even thought I wasn’t physically there.

“I’m sorry.” I whispered trying to excuse me from my sudden move.

“I am sorry James I hugged you?” He asked me giggling. We were still glued, none of us let go of each other.

“Sort of…” I said unsure again.

“These are not the right words.” He whispered in my ear.

“It feels good.” I confessed. He strayed and cupped my face between his hands. A soft smile on his lips.

“Yes, it feels good.” He agreed.

“Mr. Hetfield?” The guy of the agency called him from the door which caused James to let go of me. I was disappointed the real estate man had ruined our little moment. “Do you like this house?” He asked him.

“I do. I am going to think about it. I am not sure yet which one to buy ok? I’ll give you a call as soon as I have an answer.” He said.

“Alright. You have my contact so just call me when you have decided.” The guy told him. With that James grabbed my hand and we walked to the car towards the hotel again. We’d still have some time before we were out for dinner.

“I’ll knock at seven.” He informed me when we were both at our floor. I just nodded at him. Somehow my emotions were running wild and I was feeling more than I expected. I wanted to be alone a bit and think clearly about what was happening to me and between us, clearly something was not right, or at least, according to my definition of right. Right to me was friendship and James admitted before he was not sure if what he felt was friendship, I, myself, was having doubts but then I didn’t have a clue of what it was. If it wasn’t friendship then I was clueless.

Alone in my room and still without an answer to the rush of my emotions I called my best friend. I needed to talk to someone.

“Katy?” I said as she took my call.

“Ade, are you ok?” She asked.

“I am feeling weird things.” I said in panic.

“You had sex with him again?” She laughed.

“NO!” I shouted. “But I am referring to him.” I explained. Not that I had to explain much to her. Just like James, she could read my mind.

“Then tell me…” She said.

“I was with him and I just felt the urge to hug him. Whenever he does it I feel safe, it feels beyond good. It feels like I don’t want to let go. I like to be that close to him. I am enjoying being here alone with him. He’s…” I sighed.

“He’s what?” She giggled.

“Amazing…” I confessed. Katy laughed.

“What’s so weird about that?”

“Everything.” I said. “What is happening to me?”

“You have a crush on him Ade.” She made it simple.

“Oh God…that can’t be. I work with him!”

“Look, yes you work with him but then don’t you think that going away with him, even if it’s just for a day is breaking that boundary? And it came from him, he made the invitation, better, he almost forced you to go with him so I don’t think he’s giving a fuck about that detail of working together and Ade…I’ve never seen you so quiet and peaceful since you two became that close. I think he does you good Ade. Don’t push him away.”

“I am not thinking about that.” I said.

“Yet!” She exclaimed. “But I know you’ll be doing that once you get scared. Give him a chance.”

“Give him a chance for what?” I asked.

“ I cannot tell you everything I am thinking because it will scare the shit out of you and I see you leaving the hotel you’re staying now towards the airport and leave him there. Just don’t freak out. I didn’t like him at first because he was so stupid with you and now I see things differently, I understand why he was that stupid he was trying to push you away when in reality he wanted to be close to you.”

“Now you’re confounding me. This is not about him, this is about me!” I complained.

“Ade, just enjoy the moment. Can you do that for the first time in your life? Enjoy the moment without thinking about the consequences or the impact this will have in your life. Give him the chance for him to do what he wants to do when he thought about taking you there. Just enjoy the fucking moment.”

“I have to get ready for dinner.” I said randomly as I read the time on the clock.

“Good. Have a great dinner miss. Don’t freak out.” Katy advised me.

“See you tomorrow.” I said hanging up. I hoped the shower would help me more than my phone call to Katy did. What she said was just too much information and too much complicated fro my narrow mind to process.

After the shower I raided my clothes to look for the perfect outfit. Again my mind wondered why I wanted to look so perfect to him, because there was no one else, just him. I chose a black strapless dress and matching sandals. Perfume and light makeup made me ready for a night out with James. He knocked on the door just in time. Katy’s words rang in my mind as I walked to the door. I just shrugged.

“Ok, I’ll enjoy the moment.” I said as I opened the door. My jaw dropped when I looked at perfectly dressed James. “Wow…” I said out loud looking at him. He looked amazing in black trousers and a black buttoned shirt. His sleeves folded up until his elbows.

“You look stunning.” He said looking amazed.

“So do you.” I blurted. James raised an eyebrow and smirked.

“Excuse me?” He asked in response to my comment. I cleared my throat.

“You look good.” I said trying to sound as normal as I could. James gave me his arm smiling.

“Right.” He said.
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They are sooooo in looooooove. :heart: :heart: :lol:
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