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How We Became Fire; Het, REPOST from a year ago.James and ADE. Love, hate, love...
Topic Started: December 23, 2011, 1:25 pm (17,539 Views)
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“Come on Ade, if you miss him just call him. He didn’t say you couldn’t!” Katy was almost shouting at me as we were sitting in my balcony watching the sea. I had been feeling down since our week off tour had began and I must say that was only the second day.

“He didn’t say I couldn’t call but he said it was good to have some time off, so I guess that means the same.” I argued.

“He said that because he wants to give you space and time to think. It seems to me like he has it all figure out in his head but you don’t. You’re not sure and I guess that’s why he said that BUT I think he’d like if you’d call him and break the silence.” She explained her point of view. I didn’t know if I should do it but ever since I got back home for a small week away from work that I had been missing James. I wanted to talk to him but y pride was not letting me do it. I didn’t know how to give the first step and that was what I would be doing if I broke up the rule. I just wanted to talk to him but I wanted him to give the first step, plus I knew he was spending time with his children and I didn’t want to get in the middle.

“What a shitty situation!” I retorted frustrated throwing a pillow at the floor.

“It’s only shitty because you’re being stubborn. I bet he’d like to hear your voice and it would give him some confidence, maybe next time he’ll be the one to call you. If you just pick up your cell and ring him he’ll feel like he can do it as well but if you shut yourself up he’ll think you’re enjoying your time off and he won’t do it either. Come on, just call him and put an end to your misery Ade. I can tell you’re suffering and you’re dying to hear his voice even if he’s far away but you want to talk to him, you even said so, so I just can wonder how hard it is for you now.” I took a deep breath as Katy’s words rang in my head. My heart was racing just from the thought of talking to him and it was bleeding at the same time because I missed someone so much. “Look, I have to leave because Phil is waiting for me.” She said getting up. I smiled at her, Katy and Phil became rather serious and I enjoyed that. She was happy and in love again and Danny was, finally, just a memory. “Call him.” She ordered. “Promise me you’ll do it.” She insisted.

I nodded my head but that didn’t mean I was going to do it. “I’ll think about it, I can only promise you that.” Katy left and I stood at the balcony thinking, scrutinizing the ocean as if it would give me a valid answer to my prayers. After a while I just went for a relaxing bath in my hot tub, I tried to clear my head but it kept on bringing me the one thing I wanted to get rid of, James. He was constantly there, it didn’t matter how hard I tried he was there. I came to the conclusion that I was probably in love with him, even though I had admitted that to Katy before but I was becoming certain of it as I felt for him different things from the usual, at least the usual for someone like me, someone unable to miss someone and I was missing him, missing him deadly. Tired of fighting against my will I got out of the tube and rolled a towel around me, I stretched myself in bed and picked up my cell that was standing on the bedside table. OI dialed his number and my heart jumped when I heard it calling. Too late, I wasn’t going to give up even though it crossed my mind to hang up. It wasn’t useful as my number would appear on his screen as a missed call. I took deep breaths and waited for him to pick it up. After the fifth ring I thought he wasn’t going to do it so I was a bit glad but then…

“Ade…” I heard his voice on the other side. I smiled like a fool hearing his deep voice calling my name in such tender way.

“Hi.” I said too loud and clumsily. I didn’t know what to tell him and “I missed you.” wasn’t appropriate at all.

“What a nice surprise.” He said. I could tell he was smiling, his voice was joyful, he was actually happy to hear me.
“I…” I choked thinking about the right words. 2I wanted to talk to you.2 I finally said.

“I’m glad you called. How’s LA?” He asked. A thought ran through my mind as I heard his words, who cares about LA when you’re in San Francisco. I frowned as this line came up in my head. But that was my reality at the moment.

“The usual. Windy as St. Anna’s winds are striking.” I said. “Other than that everything is fine.” I said. My voice was coming out more relaxed as the conversation flew.

“I miss you.” He whispered. My heart jumped again.

“Where are you?” I asked as I hear too many voices.

“At the park with my kids, they’re playing and I am watching them.” I smiled, he loved his kids more than anything and I was glad he was spending some time with them. These little details again made me see how important he was to me. I wanted him to be ok and if he was ok I was ok too.

“You didn’t call me…” I said, waiting for him to explain it to me. I knew what he was going to say but again saying I missed him was too much for me.

“I thought you wanted to be on your own so I thought I’d me pulling your strings too much if I did.” James was simple and honest, I liked that in him. “Ade…” he called me as I dived myself in silence studying his words. I, myself, was running out of words to tell him as the true reason why I called him was stuck in my throat just waiting for the perfect moment to come out. I tried to gulped them down but I wasn’t that strong.

“I was missing you.” I blurted and as I said the words I covered my mouth with my hand to prevent it to say anything more. I heard him giggle on the other side.

“Wow…” He said. “That is so good to hear.”

“I’m sorry if I am interrupting something but I just wanted to talk to you. I guess I got used to your company while on tour.” I tried to excuse myself.

“You can call me any time Ade, you know that. I just didn’t do it because of the reasons I already told you but I also wanted to talk to you and it makes me really happy that you took the phone and called me anyway. So, what’s your plans for tonight?”

“Nothing. I am gonna stay home tonight but tomorrow we’re going out with Connie and Lars, we’re going to this club, Lars says it’s cool, I’ve never been there, so we’ll see…” I told him.

“Oh, really?” He asked. And so we talked on the phone for nearly 40 minutes. As I talked to him I felt my mood lightening up. He had that power and lately only he had that power, like I was dependent on him, after talking to him I just turned my TV on and stayed in bed watching “Gone with the Wind” for the ten thousand time.

Next day was just a blur until the night arrived. I stayed home doing nothing until it was time to leave for the club. I hadn’t called James that day and neither did he that made me sad somehow, like I said I wanted to talk to him every day, or even, see him and be with him, which was even better. I missed his smile, the sound of his laughter. I missed his embarrassed gestures and his clumsy moves. I just missed him.

I drove alone to downtown LA, according to my accounts I was already late and they all should be waiting for me already, all with their dates but me. I was going alone and for the first time in my life I felt lonely. I wanted a company, not any company but at least I wanted one, one I couldn’t have not that night, at least.

The club was better looking than I expected. I’ve always pictured clubs as dark places filled with smoke and loud music playing, this one surprised me. As I entered the lobby I couldn’t but notice how the music was playing at the right beat. Not too loud, it was good to speak with your friends and the walls were painted in white, which is the opposite of the regular club and the violet lights gave it and extremely awkward but cozy environment. I saw Katy, Phil and Connie sat at one table under a balcony. A large table already with two bottles of champagne in it and they were all sat in white couches, it looked comfortable, almost like being at home in your own living room. I liked the place more and more. I noticed Lars missing though.

“Where’s Lars?” I asked Connie as I greeted her.

“He had at the last minute duty but he’ll be here later.” She said giggling. I noticed Katy giggling too but I didn’t have a clue of what it was. After greeting Phil I walked a bit until the pillar I had in front of me and leaned against it watching people talking joyfully amongst their friends, that place was indeed a nice one. I stood there for white long, lost in my own thoughts while the three of them talked among them, just when I saw Lars coming in. He smiled at me as he saw me, no he just threw me a huge, huge grin when he saw me, but again I didn’t find anything strange as Lars was always in a extremely good mood.

“Hello.” He said placing two kisses in my cheek.

“You couldn’t leave work behind even for a week.” I teased him referring to his late appearance.

“I wasn’t working. I just went to help a friend.” He said. Just as he said that a hand appeared above my shoulder holding a bottle of my favorite beer.

“Why aren’t you drinking?” The voice behind me said. I knew that voice too well, plus the hand with an M81 tattooed on it was more than enough to know who was behind me. I turned around in no flat time with my heart racing a mile per hour.

“James!” I shouted. I literally shouted. I looked above his shoulder and our group was all giggling but I didn’t care. All of a sudden the club was even brighter and pleasant. One single soul made that place perfect. The best place to be in huge town LA. James was there. “What are you doing here?” I asked not containing my surprise.

“I missed you.” He said smiling. There it was, that smile I was missing more than anything, right in front of me.

“You couldn’t wait a week?” I teased him but my lips were betraying me with a smile. He knew right there I was happy to see him too. James began to shake his head slowly.

“No…” He said. I, finally took the beer off his hand and took a sip, my throat was dry. “No, I couldn’t wait.” He said. I looked into his eyes and threw myself onto his neck in a hug not caring if people were watching, not caring if our friends were watching and not giving a damn if the place was filled with paparazzi. The one person I wanted to be with was right in front of me and a hug seemed perfect. I wanted to feel his arms around me one more time. I wanted that safety feeling he gave me.

“Not mad I break the week off?” He asked as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

“Not at all.” I said honestly. “Not even one bit. Welcome.”

“God, I missed you.” He whispered in my ear. There I felt another urge, the urge to kiss him but I refrained. Not in a public place and not with so many people watching. My lonely night turned out to be a wonderful night after all. We stayed there for hours, I had great fun. I laughed, I danced, I drank and I was a happy person. Happy like I’ve never been before and most of all I was glad that I got all dressed up for my night out, I wouldn’t like to be not well dressed with James there. After long hours we all decided to leave. James and I stood behind our group for a final talk.

“Where are you staying?” I asked him.

“At the Marriot together with Lars.”

“So, you’re going with him.” I said.

“Yes, I guess so.” James said. But none of us were certain of what we were saying. I didn’t want to leave him, not just yet.

“James maybe Ade can give you a ride back to the hotel. We’re still going somewhere.” Lars shouted turning back to talk to us. I knew instantly they weren’t going anywhere, they were just arranging for us to be alone. I felt fear all of a sudden and I looked at katy for help.

“Don’t look at me.” She said. “I am going to Phil’s place and it’s still a long drive, you can give James a ride.” James and I looked at each other a bit lost even though we knew what they were doing. Those little seconds where we stood in the middle of the street lost looking at each other the others stepped in their cars and just took off, waving us goodbye and they passed by us, we looked at each other again and burst into laugh. That was funny for sure.

“Well, seems like I have to be the one driving you.” I said pressing the remote control to open the doors to my car. James got in and then so did I.

We drove in silence, I don’t know why but we fell into deep silence during our way there, just when I parked in front of the hotel James opened his mouth to speak.

“It was so good to see you.” He said.

“Thanks for taking time off your kids to be here tonight.” I said. I could only thank him for his gesture, it sure was a nice one.

“Would you like to come up for a bit, it’s not that late.” He invited. I took a glance at my watch, it wasn’t late indeed. Not caring if his invitation had other intention into it I just smiled at him and nodded. I wanted to be with him longer.

“Alright. I just need to park my car.” James grabbed my hand and place a kiss on it.

“Give the keys to the doorman, he’ll park it.” He said. The look in his eyes suggested he was going to try and make the next move. I threw caution in the wind and got out of the car giving the keys to the guy with a red suit and a funny hat. James grabbed my hand as we walked in the hotel. He was there with me and I just didn’t care what he was thinking, I just wanted to be with him.

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Why oh why did you have to stop there!!

I need to know what happens! More soon please!
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Omg I need more!! Are they...? :o
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I really like this chapter! It's so funny :) can't wait for more. As always :D
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It didn’t take long until I was sat on the black couch of the cozy suite at the Marriot hotel. It wasn’t too luxurious but still it was above the medium rate. James walked up t the fridge to get us some drinks and I ran my hands through my legs to dry them up. It was cold sweat, I was nervous, almost shaking. I took a deep breath to calm down just before he turned around to look at me with a soft smile on his lips.

“I am glad you called me.” He said sitting by my side. I didn’t know what to tell him. Deep inside I knew that telling him I missed him and that’s why I called him was the right thing to do but the words were stuck on the back of my throat and I knew they weren’t going to come out. That was still too much for me.

“I almost didn’t.” I said. I know these were not what he was expecting but I also knew he’d understand the hidden message in between my words. I wasn’t wrong, he opened a huge smile and stretched one hand to caress my face with the tip of his fingers.

“Are you that scared Ade?” He asked in a soft tone. I closed my eyes feeling his fingers against my cheeks. That felt so perfect.

“I am scared.” I admitted whispering and weakening as I felt him really close. I kept my eyes shut as his fingers played with my hair.

“Don’t be scared.” He said. I felt his warm breath against my face, that’s how close he was. I didn’t move, I didn’t even try to walk away or stray. “If you only knew…” He whispered but he didn’t finished his sentence. I felt his lips brushing mine and I knew that was the moment where I had to make him stop. I opened my eyes and got up suddenly leaving him sat on the couch looking at me with some hurt on his eyes. That killed me inside.

“Don’t look at me that way.” I asked him. He remained still and silent for a while, just watching me with the same look, then he stretched his hand at me. I took it but I wasn’t sure at first, anyway I took it firmly in mine.

“I don’t know what else to do.” He said. “I have been trying gaining your trust. You called me, I came here and now you ran just from a simple kiss Ade? As if we haven’t done it before.”

“I know we have. It’s not that…” I complained. I didn’t want to tell him that I was afraid to be alone in that room with him. That I was afraid of what he had in his mind. “I just…” I said choking because I didn’t have the exact and right words to tell him.

“You don’t want to have sex?” He said straight up leaving me a bit off guard. I just shrugged. “You think I brought up here just for that?”

“James…” I tried to talk.

“It’s not like I don’t want it. I want it since the first time I saw you and yes this includes London and then includes the very minute we met again. Why do you think I tried so hard to be away from you?” I smiled involuntarily at his words. We were so far from that hatred between us. “I want it Ade but I want it when you want it too.” He said still holding my hand.

“It was so easy in London.” I said openly.

“Because it was a different situation wasn’t it?” His question made think briefly again. Of course it was different, there I wasn’t afraid of his touch, I wasn’t afraid of the things I felt for him, I wasn’t afraid of get hurt. “There, it was just an adventure for both of us, what I am asking from you now it’s not sex Ade.” I thought again about how far our relationship has become. How he made me feel. I let go of his hand and sat back on the couch with his eyes stuck on me all the time.

“I missed you.” I said all of a sudden, blurting out the words that were chocking since I first saw him that night. James cracked a soft laughter. “I called you because I was missing you, I missed you so much.” I said almost in despair and clutching against his neck. I heard his laughter again but I also felt his arms around me, pulling me to him tightly.

“That’s so good to hear.” He said kissing my cheek. When I felt his lips my body shuddered a bit. What I felt for him was so much more than I ever felt before for anyone else.

“I want it.” I whispered in his hear. I knew I wasn’t ready but then all m senses were claiming him. James strayed a bit and cupped my face between his hands.

“What I want from you now it’s not sex Ade.” He said. “I don’t want to have sex with you, I want to make love to you.” He said kissing my lips softly at the same time. I didn’t know what making love was.

“Isn’t that the same thing?” I asked smiling and joking with him at the same time. He looked me in the eye.

“No it’s not babe.” He said kissing my shoulder and pulling the strap of my dress down. I let him do it, my body began to shake in such urge that I got scared, even more than I already was. James got up and gave me his hand, I took it firmly and without thinking twice this time. He led me to his room. A huge bed was waiting for us and as I looked at it I found myself excited with what was about to happen. I wanted it as much as he wanted it, only he was sure of what he was doing and I was not. I felt his hands pulling my hair to the side as he kissed my back. His lips felt so warm against my skin. I closed my eyes momentarily enjoying the caress f his mouth on my back Then I just turned around to him and delivered myself into the moment.

I pulled his head to me capturing his lips for a juicy kiss, our tongues met in seconds for a seductive dance. He was so demanding, I loved the way his kiss always demanded more. I began to pull him to the bed while we kissed. I laid down as my legs bumped into it and James followed me, landing on top of me. I pulled his shirt off while he kissed my neck, at that point I was already on fire. We were almost at the same point as we were in London, the same madness, the same urge but one thing was different for sure. My heart beat so much faster and the more he touched me the more I wanted him to do it. I couldn’t get enough of him, I couldn’t hold him close enough. I just wanted to pull him to me so tight as if I was afraid of losing him and that moment. That was different, the fire was the same. His hands burned against my skin as he undressed me. I was surprised as his touch was still so fresh in my memory. I smiled when I saw the lust in his eyes, when his swollen lips smiled at me, his hair tangled and his cheeks red. He was right at the point.

“Ade…” He called me before drowning into my mouth again. My fingers began to roam around the waist of his jeans. I unbuttoned it and then I unzipped it, then I just tugged my thumbs in it to pull it off. He broke the kiss to help me and in seconds he stood, right in front of my eyes, naked. I looked at him attentively because I didn’t have a memory of that, in London it happened so fast that the last thing I knew he was back into his clothes again.

“You are beautiful.” He said running his hands through my belly. I stood on my elbows and stretched my head to kiss him, my eyes were closed but I could feel him smiling against my lips. “Make love to me.” I asked him.

He pushed me back on the bed and urgently I surrounded him with my legs, he slid inside of me in a perfect move and stood still just looking at me in the eye. I smiled at him and in an answer he kissed my lips gently and even gentler he began to move much to my pleasure. I knew right there what he meant between the difference of making love and just have sex. I’ve had sex before but what I was feeling that moment was so different. My caresses were not fake they were real and heart felt. I didn’t feel like my body was being used I wanted it to be used by him. My heart and soul were there not just my body and even when my orgasm stroke me I wanted it to go on, I didn’t want the moment to end, I wanted him right there with me forever.

When, finally, he also reached his peak he threw himself to the side of the bed panting, I turned around to look at him and ran my hand through his sweating face. I can’t deny I felt the urge to get out of that bed get dressed and leave, just like the usual but he knew me so well. He pulled me to him and held me against his chest.

“Don’t even think about leaving.” He said still catching his breath.

“I’m not, not just yet.” I said.

“But you’re going.” He said rather sad.

“I…” But he turned around and laid on top of me.

“It’s ok Ade.” He bent his head over mine and kissed me. “I am in love with you.” He said against my lips. My heart raced hearing the words and then I panicked a bit thinking maybe he was expecting me to say the same. ”You don’t have to tell me the same.” He said studying the panic in my eyes. “Somehow you made me feel loved.” I felt like I was in debt with him.

“You’re different.” I said hoping he’d see what I was doing with the words. “You’re different from anyone else.” He smiled satisfied with my words and I held onto his neck unsatisfied with my words. He was more to me that just different. He was real. He was another feeling…he was love. I came to that conclusion as I held him close against me. All the things he made me feel I didn’t know were love and I didn’t recognize it because I didn’t know what love was until he had shown up in my life.

“Then stay here with me for the night.” He asked. I shook my head. “Why not? What’s there to be afraid of now?”

“Everything is so new and I am afraid of new.” I explained. He nodded in agreement, deep inside he understood me too well.

“Then stay just a bit more.” He said kissing me again. I couldn’t deny him that. I stayed with him for another round of pleasure and when he finally fell asleep I left the hotel and went home.
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I hope she stays with him soon! I want them to be an actual couple. They are just too cute!
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:drool :drool :drool Man, just imagine, really... to date James in this point of his life... now that he is this mature, clear of mind, and sweet... :heart: He is just perfect now... *sighs*
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January 12, 2012, 1:28 pm
:drool :drool :drool Man, just imagine, really... to date James in this point of his life... now that he is this mature, clear of mind, and sweet... :heart: He is just perfect now... *sighs*
YES YES YES EXACTLY :drool :drool :drool


Btw, I loved this chapter, good to see them having more than sex, its like they're doing it for the first time. No rough stuff (although I like it too :drool ). :heart: :heart:
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The rest of the week went fast. James called me every day. I still missed him though. I couldn’t stop my heart from beating fast as I saw the hotel on the other side of the street. Seattle, the town that saw me and James meet again.

“You are smiling alone?” Katy joked as she looked at my face. I pushed my stroller beginning to cross the street.

“I know this is crazy and completely insane but I can’t wait to see him” I told her.

“I thought he was the reason why you were smiling, I wasn’t wrong at all. I like to see you that way Ade, happy. I’ve never seen you like that. James is doing a miracle and I bet he doesn’t know about it. Are you that opened with him as you are with me?”

“No.” I said fast.

“I thought so too. When are you gonna tell him how you exactly feel?” Katy insisted.

“Katy stop that.” I replied. Before we got in the lobby she grabbed my hand to prevent me from going in.

“He also wants to know if you desire him. One day he’ll want to know how you feel and it’s only fair. He’s been coping with you and your fears. He’s been understanding but he’s human Ade and he’ll be tired of just giving. He needs to receive as well.” I put my gaze on the floor as I heard Katy’s word. I knew she was right.

“I know…” I breathed. Then I looked at her. “Somehow I want to do that I just don’t know how to do it.”

“You just have to tell him “James I am in love with you.”

“What if I am not?” I argued. “I’ll be lying and I don’t want to hurt him.

“Oh, do you still think you’re not?” She laughed. “Ade you are fooling yourself and you’ll hurt him sooner or later with your fears and stubbornness.”

I just shrugged and then I got in. I saw him right away. As if he felt my presence he just turned around to look at the door and our eyes locked and without even thinking twice I smiled at him with my heart racing fast. I left my stroller with Katy and walked up to him.

“Hi.” I told him.

“Hello.” He said returning me the smile. He looked better than ever and all of a sudden my smile began to fade away as a feminine voice called him. Francesca was there with the kids again.

“I better go up to my room.” I told him as I saw she was walking towards us. “ Have a great day.” I said. With that I turned my back on him and caught the lift up to the 12th floor. I felt my insides pulsing with rage. I puffed and breathed heavily inside the isolation of the elevator. “Calm down ADRIANA.” I said to myself. I pushed my stroller violently along the corridor and when I found my door I just got in and threw myself on the couch. “What the fuck is she doing here again?” I asked out loud. I knew I had to calm down and think clear. They were getting divorced. James assured me so.

I got up and decided to take a shower. I turned the TV on to have some sound inside the room, that way I would not think much about Francesca. I quickly found out that I felt insecure with her around. Or more insecure than I already was. I was about to take my clothes off when I heard a knock at my door. I found James on the outside.

“Why did you leave that fast?” He asked straightly but calm.

“Nothing. I just wanted to have a shower and leave the stroller here, that’s all.” I said turning my back on him but I heard the door closing behind me. He was inside with me.

“At least you could kiss me now that we are here alone.” He complained. I turned around to look in his face. Was he serious? Of course he was. His face said so. I took two steps closer and stood right in front of him but I froze and I didn’t go any closer. James stretched a hand, grabbed my hand and pushed to him. I crashed against his body. I took one hand to his hair and then I touched his lips with mine.

“That’s better.” He said low rubbing his nose in mine. “I missed you.” He continued.

“What is she doing here?” I asked suddenly. I took a hand to my mouth as soon as I blurted the words. I didn’t want to tell him that! I didn’t want him to know that it bothered me. James frowned.

“Francesca?” He asked letting go of me. I continued silent. “Answer me. Gosh I hate when you go all silent.” He complained. “She’s here to take care of my kids as they wanted to do the rest of the tour.” He explained even though I didn’t confirm I was talking about her. James was smart I didn’t have to confirm anything. He knew I was talking about her. Who else could it be? “Ade…” He called me seeing I wasn’t reacting. “Say something…” He insisted.

“Ok…” I said.

“I’m gonna have dinner with them.” He informed me. “But I’ll come back as soon as I am finished.”

“You do what you have to do.” I said.

“Ade…” He said coming closer. “Why are you sounding so cold?” He asked me tenderly running a hand through my hair.

“I’m not being cold. It’s ok if you’re having dinner with your kids. They need you of course you have to spend time with them.” I said freeing myself from his hands.

“Yes you are.” He said running a hand through his hair. I knew there he was getting nervous.

“I’m not really. I am not.” I assured him trying to sound normal. “Look, I want to have a shower and change for dinner myself.” James gave me a faded smile.

“You are throwing me out of your room.”

“I am not.” I almost shouted. “I understand. You go and have dinner with your kids and then if it’s not too late you come back and we talk.”

“Are you sure?” I nodded at him. James came closer and kissed my lips again but I didn’t move or returned the kiss myself. He gave me a weird look before he left. I put myself under water immediately. I definitely needed to calm down and stop bugging him with my insanity. He was a cool guy. After shower I just put on some jeans and a tank top. I wasn’t expecting to go out again as I decided to have dinner by myself in my room. I was just raiding the menu list when someone knocked on my door. I knew it wasn’t James because he was having dinner with his kids.

“Who is it?” I shouted.

“Lars!” I heard on the outside. I opened the door for him. “I came to take you out for dinner with us.” He said not even giving me time to think.

“What? I want to stay in my room” I complained. Lars got inside and I closed the door.

“Yeah James told me you could say that but he expressly told me not to let you stay here alone too.”

“You’re on a mission now? And why the hell does James asks you to take me out for dinner?” I argued.

“Because none of us is blind right?” Lars joked.

“What are you talking about?” I asked him raising an eyebrow suspiciously.” Lars laughed loud.

“Come on Ade! I know you too are secretly dating. He likes you and you like him.”

“We’re not dating!” I exclaimed surprised.

“Whatever…I just have to take you out and I will. Put on some shoes woman and let’s go ‘cause I am starving.” I opened my mouth to speak but Lars can be tough. “Don’t argue with me. I’ll do what I promised to a dear friend of mine.” He said. I turned around quite fast. They were both getting on my nerves. I heard Lars chuckling all alone.

“What is it now?” I shouted.

“You are just like him.” Lars said. I rolled my eyes and I put some sandals in my feet. When I was done I came back. “You might deny it Ade but the way you two look at each other…ah, that’s priceless.”

“I don’t wanna talk about that Ulrich.” I said opening the door so we could leave.

“Why are you mad at him anyway?” He asked.

“I am not mad at him now stop talking about him.” I said.

“If you’re not dating him why the fuck did he go to LA just to see you?” Lars insisted.

“Aaarrgh… Just shut the fuck up!” I said. Again I heard laughter. Dinner went with no incidents though but as soon as I was finished I went to my room and not happy with it I hang the “don’t disturb” sign outside my door. I crashed with my butt on the couch watching old movies alone and trying not to think that James was having dinner with her. I was almost falling asleep on the couch when the phone in the living room rang. I jumped on the couch.

“Hello.” I said rubbing my eyes.

“Can you come to my room?” I heard James’s voice on the other side.

“Now?” I asked taking a glance at my watch to acknowledge it was past midnight already.

“It’s not that late. I just didn’t knock at your door because you had not disturb in it. You knew I was coming Ade. You made that on purpose. We need to talk.”

“Can’t we leave that for tomorrow?” I tried to delay the subject. I hadn’t studied yet what to tell him. I was like that I had to think first what to tell him instead of being honest like I had been that night.

“No.” He said firmly. I didn’t want to push his strings to much and I didn’t know how he did it but he’d always get what he wanted from me.

“I’m going.” I said not waiting for his answer. I just hung up the phone the second I said it. I put on my flip flops and I left to his room. His door was already opened and he was there waiting for me. He stepped aside to give me space to go in the minute I got there. James grabbed my hand not letting me slip away from him.

“Now tell me what’s bugging you.” He said seriously.

“How was dinner?” I asked trying to light things up.

“Dinner was fine but don’t try to change the subject Ade.” He said resting his hand in my face. James looked me straight in the eye.

“It’s nothing really.” I said. James didn’t say a word he just gave me an inquisitive look. I knew there he was not satisfied with my answer. “I was just tired of the flight.” I tried again.

“It’s not that long.” He argued back. I took a step away from him and took a deep breath. “Tell me the truth Ade. Be honest with me. Don’t I deserve that?” He pleaded. I kept with my back turned on him and looking out at the window. “Say something! Don’t go silent again. That drives me crazy!”

“I understand that you have to be with your kids. I understand that she needs to be here because you don’t have time to look after them and they want to be with you. I know all that. But it bothers me. It bothers me that she’s here. And it doesn’t matter if you tell me you guys are separated and getting divorced. Her being here it’s weird. It makes things weird. You guys had so much in common, I cannot just ignore that. I can’t” I let it all out. It was James’s turn to go silent but I heard him walking behind me and then I felt his hands on my shoulders. ”I’m sorry.” I said. Instead of using words I just felt his lips on my neck planting small kisses. “I’m sorry.” I said again whispering. James took his lips to my hear.

“You don’t have to be afraid Ade.”

“But I am.” I said honestly.

“I am in love with you.” He said. I turned around to look at him and he rested his forehead against mine. “I’m in love with you.” He repeated. Katy’s words rang in my head. I knew I should return his words but I could not do it. I just reached for his lips and I kissed him.

“Make love to me.” I whispered in his hear. He just took me in his arms and carried me to his bedroom, laying on top of me when we reached the bed. James ravished my lips with a devastating kiss and his hands traveled under my tank top in seconds. He ignited my motor in seconds. I was powerless under his touch but somehow I also felt him melt under my arms quite easily. He gasped slightly in my ear when I nibbled on his neck. He moaned gently when I slightly bite his shoulder. I begin to pull his shirt up. I wanted to feel his skin on my skin. I ran my hands through his naked back up and down countless times. His skin was soft and he smelled so good. His lips were hungry for mine. We kissed time and time again. Each kiss setting us on fire.

“Take this off.” He told me out of breath. He was so lost and so gone. I took my jeans off and then I came back to bed where he was waiting for me. It was my turn to be on top. His hands went straight to my breasts. I curved wanting him to touch me more. With a hand on my back he pulled me down to him and we united in another kiss while I already thrust against him even though he was still with his jeans on. “You drive me crazy Ade.” He gasped.

“That’s the point.” I answered and he smiled at me feeling my hand on his zipper. I teased him before I did it.

“Just take it off.” He complained. I did what he asked with his help of course. He was too eager to wait and too hard. Once he was free from his clothes he rolled on the bed and took charge again. He kissed my neck while his hands pulled my panties down. I lifted my hips a bit so he could pull it all off and then he just threw it randomly on the floor. He kissed the length of my legs, all the way up to my belly then paused to toy with my breasts.

“Gosh who’s the teaser now.” I complained. I just wanted him inside of me. I felt him smile against my skin. In a act of despair I pulled his head up to look at me. I gave up what I was going to tell him the second I laid my eyes on his lustful eyes. He wanted it as much as I did. I just went for his lips and in the middle of that kiss he slowly began to make his way in. Thrusting slowly until I was fully adjusted. I moaned low in his ear.

“James…” I gasped his name lost. Out of control. He was in charge. He was the one controlling me that moment and I didn’t care.

“I love you.” He said as a response to my call. I can’t deny hearing those words at that moment made my heart jump in joy. I carved my nails on his back asking for more and he gave me more indeed. His thrusts were harder, faster and stronger. My whole body was beginning to be numb. I was tightening around him fast. The heat invading me. I was moaning loud not caring if someone could hear us. That was our moment and us alone. That moment he was mine and only mine. I loved him. There was no doubt. I loved that man. My vision blurred, I arched my body for more and I contracted around him in ecstasy. I gasped his named loud and held on to his back as if I was fighting for my whole life. He came soon after me and collapsed on my body panting like crazy.

It was the first time I wanted to stay cuddling with a man after sex. It was the first time I wasn’t praying he’d just roll off me so I could leave. I just surrounded him with my arms and kissed the top of his head. James lifted his head and smiled at me and kissed my lips. Tiny drops of sweat all over his face. He looked too sexy. Then he rolled to bed but took me with him. I was glad I didn’t want to break the contact. Could that be real? I just wanted to stay there a bit more cuddling with him.

“What is it that you feel for me?” He asked all of a sudden. That ruined the moment for me. I rose my head off his chest and looked at him. He was forcing me to tell him that I loved him. Katy was so right.

“Don’t…” I pleaded.

“I need to know Ade.” He pleaded back. I just got rid of his arms and sat on the bed looking for my panties. I was on the verge of panicking and wanted to go away fast but he read my move. I just felt his arms around my waist preventing me from going. I looked back at him.

“Ok…don’t go. Just stay here.” He said. “I won’t push it. Just stay here with me.” I believed in him and came back to bed. “Stay here with me.” He repeated as I came back to his words.

“Ok.” I said.

“The whole night Ade and that I won’t take no as an answer.” He said. I looked up at him again just to lay back on his chest without saying a word. I felt I was falling asleep so I didn’t fight back but when I woke up in the morning and James was still fast asleep that was as far as I could go. I got out of the bed without waking him up and went to my room. I wasn’t sure if I was doing the right thing but I did it anyway. I left him alone.
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Look to what she has! James in bed saying he loves her!! Come'on bitch, you better admit you love him back soon! :lol:

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James didn’t look for me or called me during the whole day. Due to a traffic jam I got late to rehearsal before tonight’s show. I ran through the corridors of the venue to find the stage. They were already there playing with the instruments.

“Sorry guys.” I said excusing myself. They all nodded with their heads in acceptance except for James who was picking his strings and didn’t even bother looking up at me. He ignore me I guessed immediately that he was mad at me. I didn’t push it and went straight to my table and began to work the sound with them. The whole time James was quiet, serious and not even once he talked to me even if I talked to him to check his sound. He just followed my instructions not facing me or opening his mouth to talk to me. He was hurting me but I knew I had been the one hurting him first. When I was done and they began to leave the stage I walked up to him.

“James…” I called him. Still he crossed the strap of his guitar off his shoulder not looking at me and he was ready to proceed walking but stepped right in front of him putting a hand on his chest to make him stop.

“Don’t.” He said taking my hand away.

“What’s wrong?” I tried to make him talk. He ran a hand through his hair and his tongue through his lips nervously.

“What’s wrong? You have some nerve!” He said. “You left me alone! You thought I was sleeping and sneaked out of the bed leaving me there alone even though I asked to stay with me.” He said.

“And I stayed!” I added.

“You stayed? You have got to be kidding me. You left as soon as you opened your eyes! Would it cost you that much to wait for me to wake up too?” He was beginning to raise his voice.

“I stayed until the morning.” I excused myself. He just laughed resting his hands on his waist.

“When I asked you that I meant wake up with me and have breakfast with me not leave as soon as you opened your eyes. Ade…I am trying but this is getting hard. I am mad at you. Was t that hard? Am I that disgusting that you have to leave? Fuck I am trying so hard but you aren’t trying!”

“I am trying!” I shouted.

“No you’re not!” He said shaking his head. “If you were trying, you’d stay. I know for you to stay there was already a huge step but it hurt me that you didn’t think twice before you left. I told you that I loved you and you stepped on that. I need to feel that I am not trying this alone and until now it felt that way.” He was complaining just as Katy warned me. She was so right. He was so right. I was the problem, I was aware of that.

“I did the best I could.” I said trying to sound cold. That was my trick, pretending it didn’t matter when in fact I was cracking inside.

“That was not your best Ade. You know you haven’t tried, you just played along that was all. Right now I feel like a toy in your hands.” He said beginning to walk away.

“I’m sorry.” I said.

“Yeah…” That was all he said. My eyes burned immediately when I was left alone. I loved him but I didn’t want to and at the same time my mind was shouting at me for being such a jerk. I let my tears roll down my face for a few seconds then I just grabbed his guitar and I sat on the floor with in on my lap. I could play a few things and I liked to do it when I felt that sad. I began to play randomly. I felt a presence on my back but I didn’t bother to turn around. I just sang.

“Lost and insecure…you found me…” Then I just choked a bit on my tears and couldn’t sing the rest just the end of that chorus. “Just a little late…you found me. You found me.” I saw James shoes he had came back, he was the person behind me after all. He crouched next to me.

“I found you…” He whispered. I sobbed a bit looking at him. “Guess that’s what matters right?” He asked. His tone changed guess he was a bit calmer. I nodded cleaning my eyes with the back of my hands. “It scares me when I see you slipping between my fingers. You’re tricky you know? Just when I think I am getting there you pull away. You leave me clueless sometimes. Sometimes I can’t read you so I don’t know how to deal with you. I thought you were staying. I thought we were getting there but then you pulled away. You stabbed me! Ade…you drive me nuts. I catch myself many times thinking about the way I used to think when I was your age so I can get through to you. That’s not healthy! I thought by now you’d trust me enough to risk it. I’d love to hear the words. I’d love you could open up to me at least feel you more willing to do this. I know it’s hard for you, I really do but I can’t do this all by myself you have to help me. You have to make me stay alive in this and keep this alive. I want to keep this alive but I also want to feel that I am wanted and loved. I am missing that right now and even though you can’t tell me the words at least you could show me by staying with me and you didn’t. I guess that means you don’t or it should mean you don’t. I am so pissed off at you at the moment. I really am. I just need you to leave me alone for a while that’s all.” He got up and disappeared again.

I respected the space he wanted. I didn’t try to talk to him the rest of the afternoon even though we passed by each other countless times. The show was a blast. The boys played wild and in tune. James rage showed on stage. He was aggressive at his playing he was putting it all down on his music and that only contributed to the awesome show they delivered. The crowd went wild. Again I saw Francesca and his kids on the other side of the stage. The kids didn’t bother me at all but she did. Her presence corroded me.

“Are you ready?” Katy asked while I was finishing to put some cables on a bag.

“Yep.” I said nodding.

“You look sad Ade.” She observed.

“It’s nothing.” I said but then I looked at her. “Better it’s something but I don’t want to talk about it right now.” She nodded in agreement. She had a clue indeed but she respected me.

“Wanna come with us to the club?” She asked me. I thought maybe it was a good idea to out and have some fun even though I was drained.

“Yeah…I guess it’ll be good.” I said.

The whole band was there and crew except for James who had left with his ex wife and kids to the hotel. I heard Lars telling Kirk that he coming though. It wouldn’t make a difference since he didn’t want to have me around. I leaned against the bar sipping on my beer watching people dance around. Then after the beer I had another one and then another one. After my fourth beer I was already laughing and enjoying myself on the dance floor. I was drinking my pain away I knew it but at least I was having fun. I saw James coming in freshly showered. He was standing far but I could smell the scent of his perfume from there. My nose playing tricks on me. I just knew what his scent smelled like. He leaned against a pillar talking cheerfully with Kirk but he’d glance at me now and then. I also couldn’t pretend he wasn’t there I’d stared at his figure whenever I could not even caring if he was seeing I was doing it.

“Why don’t you tell him.” Katy whispered in my ear making me jump.

“Because I’m not sure.” I said.

“Ade stop that. You are sure you are just terrified. He loves you can’t you see that? Just from the way he looks at you it’s possible to see it. His staring eyes don’t deny it. Don’t struggle just go for it without fear.”

“I can’t ok.” I said with tears pulsing in my eyes again. “I want to tell him but it doesn’t come out.” With that I turned away but then I came back to her. “And you people need to stop telling me I should do this or that. That is only making things worse for me. The pressure I have from him is already enough. I don’t know if I am strong enough to deal with this or strong enough to love him the way he deserves so stop telling me what to do. Just stop.” Then I turned away again and went outside to cry but not without taking another beer with me.

I sat on a wall facing a lake taking small sips of my beer as my tears fell down again. I looked up at the sky and asked for help. “Please mom and dad. Help me!!” I said. “Why is it so hard to tell someone that love him? Why is it so hard for me to love someone?” Then I smiled at my own craziness and shook my head. “Nice Ade! Now you’re talking all alone in the dark.” but not satisfied I continued. “Maybe I am not crazy maybe I am just drunk and as far as the answers to my previous questions go it’s because I am afraid of losing the ones I love same way I lost my parents and ended up alone in this world.” Then I went all silent just watching the moonlight in the water and then I felt him sit by my side. I looked at him over my shoulder. He was sat with his elbows leaning on his knees looking at the water as well. He sat there in silence so I also didn’t speak. We stayed there for a couple of minutes like that in absolute silence then James rested his hands on the wall and I realized his hand was very close to mine. I felt the urge to grab it. I needed his forgiveness.

I didn’t fight back and I rested my hand on top of his I saw him turning his hand to look at it as he felt my hand. I wrapped my fingers around it and then I finally felt his fingers giving in and he wrapped them around mine too. We stayed a bit like that just holding each others hands watching the water and the silver moon.

“I think you’ve had enough alcohol.” He broke the silence.

“I think so too.” I could only agree with him as the world was beginning to spin a bit inside my head. “James…” I called looking at him and he turned his head at me at the same time.

“You’re good with the guitar.” I smiled at his words. He was calm and peaceful but I could tell he was hurt and again he was trying to fix things. I had to give that man what he deserved.

“Are you still pissed off at me?” I asked him.

“Oh yes I am.” He said nodding. “I am really pissed off at you Ade.”

“I didn’t mean to hurt you. I know this is a lot to ask but try to understand me.”

“I’m so much into you Ade and it’s such a shame you don’t see it.” I rested my forehead against his. ”Gosh it hurts just to think you are unable to see how much I care and how much I love you. I love you what part of these words is that you don’t understand?” He whispered at me. I ran a hand through his face and he closed his eyes as I caressed him and in an attempt he could take the words out of my mouth I brushed his lips with mine. Faking no more I just kissed his lips for real. It took him a while to kiss me back but eventually he gave in. I felt his hand tugging at the back of my neck softly. His kiss was tender and sweet. Calm with no rush and our tongues danced in slow motion enjoying every single bit of that kiss. I guess it was the first time we were kissing in public but I didn’t bother with that at the time. I just wanted to be with him.

“Take me to the hotel ‘cause I feel really dizzy.” I said when we broke the kiss. He cracked a soft laughter and then helped me standing. The world was spinning around at a frantic velocity. James motioned to his ride and helped me getting in. I cuddled against his chest and he played with my hair.

“I told you you had too much alcohol.” He joked.

“And I agreed.” I said. He ride took just a few minutes until our hotel James took me to my room helping me standing and then he guided me to my bed. Once sat he crouched in front of me and rested his hands on my knees.

“Will you be alright here by yourself?” He asked. I just nodded Then he got up and bent over me kissing my forehead. “Sweet dreams.” He said turning away but I stretched a hand and grabbed his which made him turn around again. I pulled him back without saying a word and he didn’t offer any resistance.

“Stay here with me.” I said looking up. “Stay here with me until the morning.” I corrected. He stood there looking in my eyes for a while then he just let go of my hand and walked around the bed. He sat on the other side and took his shoes off. I knew there he was staying. I crawled on the bed and surrounded his neck with both my arms and kissed his cheek.

“You found me…” I whispered in his ear. James turned around to look at me and I kissed his lips softly then I just got up and began to undo my clothes. He did the same and snuggled under the sheet simply offering me his arm to cuddle with him in bed. I did it as soon as I was done. I snuggled against his chest. His hand searched for my chin and pulled my face up.

“Do you really want his?” He asked.

“Yes.” I said. “I want to sleep I am sorry.” I said excising myself. He laughed.

“It’s ok. I am tired too.” I kissed his lips goodnight and returned to my pillow. James turned to lamp on his nightstand off and the room went dark. I felt his arm around my waist and I grabbed his hand with mine. I fell asleep fast.
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So glad she asked him to stay with her. A step in the right direction!

Though I don't blame James in the slightest for being mad that she left him before he woke up. I would be mad too. :angry

Looking forward to more!
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I woke up with something tickling my face. I stirred a bit and then I realized it was James’s lips planting tiny kisses on my cheek. “Wake up beauty queen.” He whispered. I confess that his husky voice in my ear made my insides pulse. I was horny, hungry for him but then my stomach also warned my I was hungry for real food. I rolled on my back and James’s landed on top of me immediately, capturing my lips in a wonderful good morning kiss. Perfection had never been so close. I kissed him back.

“I’m starving.” I said when we broke the kiss. James’s, leaning on his elbows, kept on plating kisses all over y face. I couldn’t help but smile.

“I ordered breakfast already. Good afternoon sweetie.” He greeted me. I opened my eyes and raised an eyebrow.

“Good afternoon?” I asked him. He nodded.

“It’s past noon already.” He said. I don’t remember sleeping so many hours in a row. Maybe I was still tired and my body wasn’t used to the rock n’ roll clock or James’s sharing the bed with me had something to do with it.

“Shouldn’t you be with your kids?” I asked him running the tip of my fingers through his cheeks. He looked irresistible in the morning. His hair all tangled, his eyes swollen, it all gave him a special killer look. We were indeed sharing another moment of intimacy.

“They left this morning. I said goodbye yesterday night when I brought them back to the hotel.” He explained.

“What happened?”

“Marcella was a bit feverish but nothing to worry about. Francesca just thought it was better to take the kids back home.” Meanwhile we heard a knock at the door. “That’s gotta be our breakfast.” He informed me standing up and offering me his hand to help me up. James slid into his jeans quite fast and went for the door while I searched for my robe. I joined him in the living room where he was already serving me of some eggs and bacon. “We could go for a walk down there.” He said pointing out of the window.

“In that park?” I asked.

“Yeah..” He said coming back to his seat. “There’s a park and a river. We could go there for a walk after breakfast. It’s day off Ade. We could spend the day together.” He offered. I left the window and rested my hands on his shoulders bending my head a bit to kiss his neck.

“I think that’s great.” I told him. I sat in front of him and watched him for brief seconds while he wasn’t looking at me. He looked peaceful and relaxed and I couldn’t be happier I was having his company in the morning. It felt wonderful to wake up by his side. I couldn’t deny that.

“Why are you looking at me that way?” He asked catching my eyes on him.

“Nothing.” I said but James wasn’t an easy person to fool so he just continued giving me his suspicious look. “it’s just that I like you are here with me.” I confessed. His lips opened wide in a wonderful smile then he just got up and bent over me and kissed me. As I finished my food I got up.

“Wanna join me in the shower?” I asked him. He didn’t say a word he just put the napkin back on the table and followed me. He wanted me since we were in bed and I wanted him. I opened the water and let it run for a while until it was warm enough and slowly I striped in front of his eyes. James’s leaned against the basin looking at me in a awe forgetting to get undressed himself. “Aren’t you going to take your clothes off’” I asked him running my hands all the way up through his chest. He breathed heavy at my touch. I smiled and kissed his lips suggestively. I loved how I could make him lose control with such little. Since he didn’t move I unbuttoned his jeans and pulled it down together with his boxers. He was already hard. “Naughty boy.” I told him. James laughed and pulled the rest off while I stepped inside the shower soaking my hair and body under the water.

It didn’t take long for him to join me, only James wasn’t bothering much with getting wet or soaked, eventually he did but just because he came under water to search for me and my body. His hands roamed through my breasts and teased my nipples. I curved my back to give him better access and he took my left nipple in his mouth. His tongue playing circles with it arousing me even more.

“You are so beautiful.” He whispered kissing his way up through my neck and reaching my lips. I couldn’t answer as my words were swallowed by his mouth. My hands roamed way up and down through his back. His erection rubbing against my legs. Hard as rock. I broke the kiss and kissed his neck. James’s tilted his head back with his eyes closed enjoying every movement of my lips on his skin. I began to kiss my way down. He breathed heavier in anticipation. He knew what I was about to do and I knew he liked that. I took him in my mouth and instantly he released an “oooohh” of delight. I worked on him for a while, his hands leaning on my head softly. He didn’t push, he didn’t thrust. He remained quiet but not silent. His gasps filled the bathroom with sexy sounds and sexual ones too. Soon he pulled my head up and I obeyed satisfied with my little show.

His face so delightfully aroused. His eyes dark blue with lust and his lips swollen. James shoved me against the wall and captured my lips in a killer kiss. He was possessed. With a perfect move he pulled me up a little and then even more perfectly he made his way inside of me. I whimpered a bit and bit my lip. “You feel so good.” I let it out in a breath. James stopped when he was fully in and looked in my eyes with a soft smile on his lips. Guess it was his small victory. I knew he also like to take charge and I didn’t mind. I’ve always found myself getting lost with him than with anyone else. He always pulled new and weird things out of me. Like the love I felt for him. After kissing my lips he began to thrust, slowly, painfully slow. Too slow for my eagerness. I wanted more from him. I rammed my nails on his back as he was still driving me crazy either way.

“Ade…” He breathed in my ear. I knew there he was about to lose his self control. I’ve felt him buck and quiver. I smiled hearing him call my name in such that uncontrolled manner. He returned to my face just in time to catch my little smile and smiled back. He’d easily read my thoughts. “I love you.” He kissed me. I don’t know what happened but I just kissed him back and suddenly my chest was screaming and shouting and it wasn’t the peek of my pleasure coming up, that was something else. I kissed James again hoping to shut down the fire in my heart. I kissed him fiercely probably like I have never done before. He responded to my kiss thrusting into me harder and there I felt the expected ecstasy sensation. My mind was running a mile per hour, my body on fire and my heart still asking me for more. I took his face between my hands and looked in his eyes.

“Oh James…” I let it out in a gasp. “I love you.” I said. He stopped suddenly. “What are you doing?” I almost shouted.

“What did you say?” He asked me. His eyes begging me to say it again.

“Can we do this some other time?” I said smiling and kissing his lips. “You stopped on crucial moment.” I complained in his ear. James accepted with a nod and came back to his show. It didn’t take long until I cried out in ultimate pleasure and him following me the next second.

“What did you say before?” He asked me panting in my ear.

“I said I loved you.” I repeated. I was surprised at how the words came out off my mouth so easily. “I’m in love with you.” I said in his ear. His heavy breathing was subsiding. James took me in a tight hug against his naked body. I hugged him back.

“Oh God. Say that again.” He asked in my ear.

“I love you. I love you James Alan Hetfield. I love you.” I repeated it as many times as I could. I was happy and relieved I was finally capable of telling him the words I had kept inside for far too long. The more I said it the more he’d hugged me tightly until he finally kissed me and shut me up.

“I love you too sweetie.” He breathed against my lips when he softly broke the kiss.

We left the hotel around two o’clock. Smiling, happy and hand in hand we walked down through the street towards the park.

“I forgot to tell you that I’m going to see a show of a friend’s band tonight.” I said when we were walking through the green lawn.

“He’s in town?” James asked. I nodded.

“Yeah, I also mixed the sound of their album. Do you wanna come with me?” I asked naturally. Not only I had told him that I loved him I was also welcoming him into my world, something I haven’t done yet. James stopped walking and pulled me to him surrounding my waist with both his arms.

“I’d love to go.” He said. I smiled and approached his lips to kiss him but then refrained as we were standing on public property. He read my move. “We came here hand in hand. We are holding onto to each other now. Do you think it’s a kiss that it’s gonna make any difference? If there was any paparazzi around they’d be happy enough with the cuddle thing so why not give them the full show?” I laughed and then I just kissed him. I was dying to do it and he asked for it anyway. We were together and for the first time with no hidden feelings. The book was opened up and it felt incredibly good.

The day went too fast but I enjoyed every minute of it. I enjoyed every second I had spent with him. We had lunch and dinner out and went straight to the club where my friend was playing. We spent the whole day together just the two of us and it never felt so right. After the show we came back to the hotel in a taxi.

“After next week tour is over I was thinking maybe we could go somewhere.” James proposed.

“Go somewhere?”

“Yes. A week or two just the two of us somewhere calm around the world.” He suggested with a huge smile. I couldn’t say no to that smile.

“Yes.” I said.

“Yes? You’re coming?” I nodded.

“But I need to go home first. I have some things I need to organize and then we can go.”

“Where do you wanna go?” He asked.

“Surprise me!” I defied him. James kissed me.

“Neverland?” He joked.

“Been there before with you, believe me.” I smiled. James whistled.

“Phewwww…” He put a hand between my legs. “We can go there in a couple of minutes again if you want.” I tapped the top of his head lightly.

“You’re roaming! Stay focus.” We both laughed. The taxi parked in front of our hotel and we got the elevator towards our room. I teased him.

“Now before we go on holydays together I think I’ll accept that offer and go to neverland once more.” He gave me a saucy smile.

“This time I’m gonna take you there and more. “ He said taking my hand and pulling me to his room. I followed him without resistance. I was powerless to resist that man, helplessly in love. I prayed silently that everything turned out for the best.
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