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| Some_Kind_Of_Monster | April 9, 2012, 1:55 pm Post #166 |
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☠ (R.I.P) † Return Is Possible †
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Yey Finally I had the time to read!!!Damn it goes the way I like, I need some hot kiss now. Jams was playing he needs to compensate some More
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| Shayniz21 | April 9, 2012, 4:41 pm Post #167 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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Yay!!!!! Nadia has grown up alot and I think maybe James was just waiting for that. But...I dont understand why James wants to hide the tenderness he has for Mara?? Hmm its interesting to me that he wants to hide his love for Mara. Like he wants to piss Nadia off, like what Lani said in the story. Like he needs to have her attention because he knows that she is trying to foget about him and maybe he doesn't want that to happen??? I dont know, these are just my theories
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| Lilith | April 9, 2012, 5:32 pm Post #168 |
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♥ Jaimelicious ♥
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Well, she has grown up, too suddenly for me, but I guess motherhood does that. Since it's written form her POV, it's easier to me to understand her. But not him, I'm glad he is changing around her, but I did think he was looking very bad ignoring the kid, not only in front of her, but in front of everybody. That is an ugly thing to do, discriminate your child among your friends. Maybe he does it for a total different reason, not giving Nadia the least of hopes of coming back, and keep killing the feeling in her. IDK, I'm a bit at a loss in here right now. He is not congruent in his behavior. Anyway, let's see how this goes. :horns2 |
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| Scorpion Flower | April 10, 2012, 6:10 am Post #169 |
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Outlaw Torn
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The next morning I was yanked off my sleep with Mara’s desperate cry. She yelled at the top of her lungs making me open my eyes abruptly. I barely had time to stretch and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes, I had to go to her immediately. “Calm down.” I whispered sweetly while I rocked her in my arms. I was sure she was going to wake up everyone in the house and even more James who was sleeping in the room right next to ours. I grabbed her pacifier and put her in her mouth hoping it would shut her enough time to let me slid inside some clothes and it worked. I knew Mara was hungry, so I just put on the first shorts and top I found and took her down to the kitchen. In there I prepared a bottle of her formula while rocking her in my arms at the same time. I had my tricks and I was already used to her rush. Between whimpers and my soft kisses in her forehead I managed to keep her quiet until I finally was able to feed her. I sat on a stool and watched my daughter sucking her bottle franticly. “Easy young lady.” I said running a hand over her tiny head. “You’re going to choke.” But Mara wasn’t able to understand any of my commands and just sucked until she was tired, then it was the usual fight for her to finish it. It took some time but eventually she did. Knowing she wouldn’t sleep right away and as it was still so early, I decided to take her down for a walk on the beach. I walked along the shore holding my sweetest treasure in my arms, enjoying the soft morning sun. I talked and singed to her. For a while I sat on the sand and played with her, sucking every smile and every stare from her blue eyes. She wanted to blurt sounds when we talked to her already but she couldn’t do so, she’d just open her mouth as if she was going to do it, but it delighted me same way. Then, when I felt the sun rays were becoming too strong, I made my way back to the house. Everything was still quiet, like no one was around, but I saw a person near the pool, so I went there. I found James lied on the grass already dressed, I assumed Mara had waken him when she cried earlier. His eyes opened as he felt my presence and he sat. “Everyone’s still sleeping?” I asked him. “Yeah…they came home really late at night and they were kinda happy, so it might take a while until they get out of bed.” “I’m sorry she cried so early, but she was hungry. She has her own schedules.” I explained. “It’s ok…she cries loud.” He commented laughing a bit. I sat by his side and put Mara on my legs. “She’s not sleeping…” “No…” I said looking down at her. “I took her to the beach for a walk, but she’s fully awake.” “I saw you from the balcony.” “I was expecting her to sleep, but…” Mara stared at James and then she smiled. I looked at him and he was making her a face, then we stared at each other silently. “You told me a while ago that you were in love with me.” James broke the silence. My heart jumped in panic at his comment. “But then you didn’t do anything to win me back…” “Oh James…” I said making a painful face. I disliked that subject tremendously. “I was expecting you to do something, but then you didn’t do anything. Why telling me you love me if then you not act like it?” He insisted. “I didn’t tell you that to win you back. I told you that so you could understand some of my reactions. It was never my intention to win you back.” I explained. “I just didn’t know how to be around you and we were fighting all the time, so I thought I had to let you know why I acted the way I did.” “Do you still love me now?” I was caught off guard with his question. I stared at him not knowing what to tell him, but I had to tell him something, so I searched inside myself for the most honest answer possible. “After what you’ve done…” I paused. “…I loved you for quite some time after that. I felt your hands on me for quite some time, also felt your lips on mine too vividly, but then I also felt the humiliation, the abandonment and I felt worthless. You initiated sex with me and then you just interrupted it like I meant absolutely nothing in your life. That kind of determined everything. I came to terms with my feelings for you. Then Mara was born and I haven’t had the time to think about it, she keeps me extremely busy and possibly all the love that I feel was transferred to her.” “We hurt each other too much.” He stated. “That is right. We did. Both of us, not just me and not just you, we both did, and you have to agree that tends to bring feelings to an end. Then nothing else exists but resentment and hurt.” “I also didn’t know how to be around you, so just like you, most of the things I did were related to that. I don’t know how to act around you when we have a daughter together. Everything seems to be left in limbo. We say things that don’t match our actions. For us everything started wrong and it ended up even more wrong. We started our relationship in a very bad place. We didn’t trust each other, and without trust nothing can work.” “I see that now too. I understand now what you meant when you said I wasn’t mature enough. You were right, I wasn’t. I wasn’t at the same level you were concerning relationships, so I couldn’t give you what you wanted and what you needed, not because I didn’t want to but because I didn’t know how to. So we failed tremendously, and to make things even worse, I discovered I was pregnant after we broke up.” James shook his had. “We didn’t break up. You broke up with me, I never broke up with you.” James stared into her eyes. “I never broke up with you Nadia. I never wanted to break up, I asked you to come with me and you left me hanging in the airport. I never wanted to break up with you. It was you alone.” “Ok…” I said nodding. “I give you that. I was the one being stupid enough not to give you a chance to explain.” Then we stayed in silence just contemplating the view in front of us. Deep down inside I couldn’t believe we were having that conversation, let alone so calm and quiet. No accusations at all, not pointing fingers and throwing stones. Just talking honestly and openly. “Why this conversation now?” I turned to ask him. “Because we needed to have this conversation, don’t you think? And I think we are both at a better place now and we can talk without yelling.” James looked down at Mara and smiled at her so tenderly it melted my heart. “And from now on please stop pretending that you don’t care about her. I know you do. Why do that James? I don‘t understand, she‘s your daughter there‘s nothing wrong with loving your own daughter. ” I said. James looked at me with a curled eyebrow. “I don’t want to explain that.” He said then looking away. I took a deep breath “I just don‘t understand…” I waited for him to say something but James remained silent, I knew then he really wasn‘t going to explain why. “I’ve seen you around her at Lars’s, then I assumed that alone with her you could connect with her, so I began to find excuses to leave the house when you visited. After that I began to realize Mara calmed down when she heard you talking, which meant you talked to her and yesterday when I put her in your arms she also stopped crying, which means you hold her. She knows your smell and your arms. Also yesterday you scared the shit out of me because her crib was empty, I am sorry but I peeked in your room and you were sleeping with her, so now that we talked openly, you can also openly enjoy your daughter. I know you didn’t want her…” James raised a hand to stop me. “We’re past that Nadia. She’s here now and she’s real.” “Look, honestly I should have told you I had forgotten to take the pills, but I had taken the ones missing so I really didn’t think it would happen. I am sorry for that, I really am, but I didn’t do it on purpose. I was naïve indeed as you said once, but it was never my intention to force you to have her, even if in a way I did.” “You were pregnant Nadia, you had a baby inside of you. I was also naïve thinking you’d interrupt the pregnancy because I wanted you to. I didn’t want her but I do love her now, how couldn’t I?” He said taking Mara away from my lap and raising her to the level of his face. His lips opened in a sweet smile while looking at her. “She’s adorable.” He said. “Look…” I said getting up. “Since you’re here and I still haven’t had breakfast and showered, can you stay with her while I do so?” James looked up at me and briefly our gaze locked, then he nodded. “Thank you…” I said. His head turned to Mara and I gave a step ahead to leave, but then I came back. “I would never separate you from her, even if I said many times I would. That would be inhuman. Mara needs you as much as she needs me. It’s not her fault that things developed the way it did for us. It makes me happy to know that you care about her, and thank you, really thank you for everything you did for me these months.” With that I began to walk away, but to come back to him again. His eyes looked for mine, he knew I wasn’t done yet. “And to answer your first question, if I still love you now, the answer is not no, it is either I don’t know…I don’t know…try to put her to sleep.” I said and then I left for good, leaving him taking care of her while I enjoyed, for the first time in two months some time just for myself. I made the most out of it and instead of the usual quick shower, I went for a bubble bath. The day was extremely hot so I put on a strapless top and black shorts. I went with flip flops because that’s what I liked to wear in my feet when I was at the beach. I grabbed my Isabel Allende novel and came back near them in the garden. There was still no noise in the house and I found both James and Mara sleeping on the grass. He had put her under the shadow of a tree and a towel so she could lay on it and they slept peacefully. I laid near them and began to read. A couple of time later Mara yelled crying. James sat up in a hasty movement with is eyes wide opened, not giving me time to grab her before that happened. I laughed when I saw him, I couldn’t hold it. “God…can she be anymore noisy than this?” He exclaimed still scared. “I’m sorry.” I told him still laughing, it didn’t take long until he laughed too. “She’s hungry?” James asked. “Yeah, she’s like this. Yells first thing when she wakes up to eat, then she’s quiet. I’m going to take her inside.” James got up. “Let me help you.” He offered. That time for a change, I had help while coping with hungry Mara and making her bottle. While I tried to calm her down, James offered to prepare her bottle. “So, how does this work?” He asked. “Put seven spoons of the powder inside the bottle.” I exclaimed and he did so while I counted it. “Now, fill it with the boiled water in that jar until the mark 90, and then shake it quite well to dissolve it.” “Francesca used to breast feed.” He explained why he didn’t know how to prepare her bottle. “I tried, but the milk was not enough to feed her so I also had to use the bottle and finally I gave up.” I said. “Now warm it up in the microwave for a minute.” I said. When the time was due, he took the bottle off the microwave and gave it to me. Mara eagerly opened her mouth when she felt the bottle probing on her lips, and James sat by my side watching me feeding her. Mara stopped sucking and smiled at him, then she began to suck again. “Hey…” He said. “The milk is not going to disappear.” He laughed seeing she sucked franticly. “She’s always like this. In a minute or so she’s gonna get tired and then I have to work my way so she sucks the rest.” “There’s so many things about her that I don’t know…” He said out of the blue. “You’re gonna catch up.” I said. I took the bottle away from Mara’s mouth and she protested angrily. “Here…” I said putting her in his arms, then I gave him the bottle and James fed her, working his way to make her finish the bottle, and under my instructions as I taught him her tricks. When she finished I took her up to my room to change her diaper, as usual. I was doing so when I felt a presence at the door of my room. James leaned against the threshold with his hands shoved in the pockets of his jeans. “Nadia…” He called my name and then went silent. James cough clearing his throat. “I…eerr…I thought…well…since they’re all sleeping and it’s almost lunch time…I thought…hum…maybe…hum…maybe we could go out and have lunch.” He finally blurted it out. I stared at him holding Mara in my arms. “With you?” I said. “Well, yeah…” He said. “There’s this place quite near that we could go, and we can bring her…” “She needs to sleep.” I said still astonished. My heart was beating fast. “She can sleep in her stroller.” “You want to have lunch with me and her?” I asked him clueless of what to say. James looked down at his feet and bounced one back and forward nervously. “I guess I do.” He said not looking up. I smiled softly watching him and stopped right away when he raised his head. “I guess it’s alright then” I told him. Our gaze locked briefly and then he smiled softly. “I just need to prepare her bag. And can you put this dress on her?” I asked him for help. James ripped the tiny white dress of my hand and held it in front of his face giggling. Then he began to dress her and I began to prepare a bag with things of her to take. “You’re ready Cinderella.” He said sweetly and I smiled with my back turned at him hearing him calling Mara that. “Are you ready?” He asked me then. “Yeah…” I said holding her bag. James carried Mara downstairs and then I put her in her stroller and put her bag in it too. James pushed the stroller outside and our way to the restaurant began. We looked like a family, but we weren’t one. |
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| Shayniz21 | April 10, 2012, 8:02 am Post #170 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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Aww this chapter was so cute. I almost get the feeling that James is still in love with Nadia but cant tell her yet. And of course Nadia still loves him, shes just more focused on Mara. |
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| Some_Kind_Of_Monster | April 10, 2012, 8:24 am Post #171 |
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☠ (R.I.P) † Return Is Possible †
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They are in love!!! And the kid will only maka things stronger
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| Scorpion Flower | April 11, 2012, 9:19 am Post #172 |
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Outlaw Torn
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We sat at a terrace with a wonderful view to the greenish sea in front of us, and under a huge shadow provided by a white awning above our heads. We put Mara’s stroller in the middle of us and we sat face to face so we were able to talk. Immediately the waitress brought us the carts and we both chose grilled fish and fresh water to drink, then Mara became really cranky and we both tried to divert her attention so she’d stop bothering the other people in there with her persistent whimpering. “I think she’s hot.” I told him. “And she’s fighting her sleep.” James added. “She’s like that. She’s so stubborn.” I smiled looking at my daughter who had stopped crying for a moment. “I need to go to the toilets.” I said after and James nodded. When I came back he was holding the baby. James sat her on the edge of the table while holding her under her arms and his hands supporting her little head. “She was crying…” He said as some sort of excuse, or I felt it that way. “James…” I called his name to make him look at me. “You don’t have to explain to me why you took her off the stroller. It’s ok…” I said in reassurance. “She’s mine as much as she’s yours, so even if you felt like just holding her it’s ok.” I wanted James to feel free to deal with Mara the way he wanted. “She’s so cute.” He added with a smile on his lips while looking at her and my heart raced so much that moment where I saw so much tenderness in his eyes. “She looks like you…” I said and there his eyes encountered mine and we rested in silence. But it was true, Mara looked so much like him it was impossible to ignore it, and after all, if she was his daughter there was nothing wrong with telling him that. “You were right, she was hot in the stroller, the back of her neck was just soaked wet in perspiration.” “Let’s see how se behaves once the food is here and she has to come back in it.” Mara behaved relatively alright, letting us eat not in a rush to leave the place, but also not relaxed as I wanted to. Still, it was alright and still she didn’t closed her eyes to sleep. There were moments where we both thought she would, but just the second after she’d open her eyes wide open and stared at one of us, making us laugh and comment about it. We talked like two normal people, there was no awkwardness after a while, no silent moments, and it was as if no sort of fights ever happened between us. There wasn’t also weird subjects, our talk that morning had been enough for us to be alright. I guess we needed that, we needed to have a decent and honest conversation to come to terms with our past. After lunch we decided to prolong our getaway from Kirk’s house and we walked along the pier until we found a traditional market that we decided to visit. Mara, lost in her will to sleep and stubbornness to not do so, became cranky and James held her, while I carried the stroller. We stopped at every tent admiring the local art craft and Mara ended up falling asleep in his arms. James tenderly carried our little girl against his chest and her head leaning against his shoulder and since he didn’t put her back in the stroller I also let him carry her that way. Sometimes we stopped as people wanted to talk to him, other times we’d just talked friendly and laugh with his jokes or funny things we’d see. I bought some tops and a funny hat for Mara, and James bought two pairs of shorts. Again we looked like a family, but we weren’t one. We were just parents of the same little girl he was holding in his arms. We came back home around dinner time. Kirk was preparing to throw a barbecue and James stayed with him to help and I went to my room to bathe Mara before dinner. I was preparing her when someone knocked at my door. “Come in.” I yelled from the inside while I was taking Mara’s diaper away. Connie came him tiptoeing and grinning. I knew what that was about. “You went out with him?” She asked first thing and sat on the edge of my bed. “He invited me out for lunch. You guys were all sleeping and I said yes.” I said. “Even yesterday you guys were fighting, come on…we were surprised.” Seeing I was about to take Mara to the bathroom, Connie grabbed my baby and did so. “We had a talk this morning.” “Really?” She said surprised giving Mara back to me. I put Mara under water and began to bather her. “He asked me if I still loved him.” I told her. “And? Do you? What did you say?” “I told him that I didn’t know.” “And don’t you know or you didn’t want to tell him?” Connie asked me. Mara cried when I poured some water in her head and I washed her first before answering. “I truly don’t know…” I finally told her. “Can you just give me her towel please?” Connie handed me her pink little towel and I took Mara off the tub. “Since Mara is born that I didn’t have the time to think about it. I just don’t know and that was I told him.” I continued. Connie followed me back to the room. I lied Mara on the bed and began to dry her. “I think you guys really needed to talk.” She told me. “I know…and we did…then he asked me to go out for lunch with him, and I said yes. I had a good time. It’s good to see him with Mara.” “Didn’t your heart beat faster while this time you were with him?” “It does, when I see him with his baby girl. So I don’t know if it’s just my mother’s heart or my woman’s heart. Do you understand?” I looked at Connie and she nodded. “I am confused now…I truly don’t know what I feel. If you ask me if I liked to be with him today? I am going to tell you that I did. I liked his company, he was funny, we had a great time, but if I am still in love with him…I just don’t know…” “Didn’t you have the will to kiss him or hold him?” “I don’t think so. There was a moment when we were walking along the pier where I wanted him to take me under his arm, but I guess that’s because I feel lonely and not because it was him. I don’t know…maybe it was because it was him…” I said as I remembered how good it felt when he held me and I’d fit perfectly under his arm. Connie grabbed Mara in her arms once I was done with her. “Don’t you think it’s weird that he asked you if you still loved him?” “He said he didn’t understand why I told him that if I didn’t do anything to win him back. I think he just needed to understand that’s all.” “I think it’s because he wanted you to do something to win him back.” Connie got up as she knew I was going to take Mara to the kitchen to prepare her formula. “You think?” I asked her while I opened the door. “I think he still has feelings for you.” She said and that put an end to our conversation as I made the rest of the way processing her words. We had dinner in the garden in complete goofiness. Laughter echoed loud and people talking amongst themselves really loud. Mara slept peacefully in her stroller in a corner under heavy control from either James or I, and in the end they all wanted to go out a bit again. “Guys, I can’t.” I told them, but they all began to complain. “You came on holydays with us and not even once you go out a bit, you have to come. Come on Nadia…it’s still early and this pub has a nice quiet balcony outside. We stay there, she’s sleeping, she’s not going to complain.” Kirk said. “Yeah…Nadia…come on. We all had babies.” Lars added. I looked at my little girl in her stroller and then back at them, but unable to make a decision. James spoke. “It’s still early. I don’t think there should be a problem. She’s going to wake up to eat again, so…” “I don’t know…” I said reluctantly. “I take her.” He said. I ended up agreeing. For some time Mara slept but then she was yanked off her sleep by the heavy noise that was heard around her and she became impossibly cranky. I tried to calm her down, James did too, but she cried non-stop and that dictated the end of my first night out since she was born. I got up and put her in her stroller. “I’m coming back home.” I said. “She doesn’t stop crying…” “Maybe tomorrow it goes better.” Lars said in support. I shot him a smile. “I go with you.” James said getting up too. “You don’t have to, the house is near and it’s not that late.” I said. “No…I’ll go with you.” He said beginning to push Mara’s stroller. We waved everyone goodbye and I felt some whispering behind my back. I looked back and Lars waved with an undeniable grin and flashed me cool, raising his thumb. “You didn’t have to come James.” I said on our way back home. “I wasn’t going to let you walk alone at night with her.” He said. “But you were having fun, I could tell.” “It doesn’t matter.” He simply said. When we got near the door, I tried to open it but I didn’t manage to turn the key around. “It’s stuck.” I said. “Let me try.” James said, but at the same time he takes his hand to it, I didn’t have time to take my hand away and his ended up on top of mine. There I felt that shudder, the shudder I’ve always felt when he touched me, and my heart raced franticly. I didn’t take my hand away and he turned the key around that way, holding my hand under his. Then when the door cracked opened and he took his hand away, carrying mine with his and feeling this panic inside, I pulled my hand away from his and grabbed Mara from her stroller. “You can leave that in the leaving room.” I told him. I took Mara to the room and put her in her crib as she had fallen asleep meanwhile and then told him goodnight. It wasn’t until two am that I saw James again. Mara burst into loud crying and despite all my efforts to shut her up she didn’t. For about half an hour I tried to rock her in my arms, then I tried to feed her again, though she had had a bottle around midnight, so I knew she wasn’t hungry, but nothing worked. Finally I took her outside, always rocking her in my arms from one side to another, and then I heard the window of his room running and James stepped out in shorts and shirt. His eyes were swollen and his hair was messy, she had woken him up again. “I’m sorry.” I said as he walked up to me. “Why is she crying so much? At least for the last half an hour or so.” “I don’t know. I think she’s just cranky, but she doesn’t calm down.” James put his hand against her little face. “She’s not feverish…” “No she’s not, I checked that too. I think she’s just cranky, sometimes it happens that she gives me a night like this.” “Let me try…” He said stretching his arms and I gave him Mara. She stopped crying for a few instants and then began again. “hey…hey…” He whispered at her with his lips against her head. “Come on Cinderella…calm down sweetie…” hearing him calling her Cinderella soothed my heart once again, and sweetie too. “Maybe it’s her belly…” I suggested as sometimes I had to massage her belly to relief her pain. James went inside my room and put Mara on my bed and began to massage her belly. Mara alternated the quiet moments with whimpering ones, when he’d stop. We both laid down and we also alternated with the massage, after an hour I saw James profoundly asleep and my eyes were beginning to shut down. 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| Some_Kind_Of_Monster | April 11, 2012, 11:59 am Post #173 |
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☠ (R.I.P) † Return Is Possible †
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They are geting more and more relaxed around each other Wonder if James will welcome her nicely in the morning
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| Scorpion Flower | April 12, 2012, 6:04 am Post #174 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Around seven am my eyes opened wide almost in shock. Mara didn’t cry or waken up to eat in the middle of the night as she usually did. I looked at her sleeping in the middle of us and calmed down seeing her so quiet, maybe she was just so exhausted that didn’t feel like eating, but enough was enough and even if she was sleeping I held her and took her to the kitchen. She whimpered a bit from having her sleep disturbed and had to fight so she’d suck her bottle, she was just falling asleep every five seconds, and continued sleeping once she was done. I came back to the room after and put her down in her crib and finally was faced with the dilemma of James sleeping in my bed. Not having the courage to wake him up and tell him to leave, I just came back to bed and pulled the sheet over us, then I turned with my back to him and he moved a bit, coming closer. I held my breath as he did so and when I felt him sound asleep again I turned around to look at him. I had this incredible will to run my fingers through his hair and this will to kiss his slightly parted lips assaulted me too. Maybe my feelings didn’t disappear after all. He stirred a bit more and I closed my eyes shut to pretend I was sleeping and soon I felt the tip of his fingers grabbing a strand of my hair. I tried to remain as calm as possible as his fingers caressed me, then I felt his lips kissing my cheek really softly and pulling the sheet up to cover my shoulders. “I still love you.” He whispered, and that was just too much for me. Still pretending that I was sleeping I turned around and gave him my back again and there my eyes opened as he couldn’t see it. “Nadia…are you awake?” He asked, but I remained silent. Then he also turned around and my eyes watered at his confession. I still loved him too, who was I trying to fool. “James…” I called him softly but there was no response. I turned around to him again and touched his back with the tip of my fingers. “Are you sleeping?” I asked and still there was no response from him. I guessed he was. My tears fell down my face that moment. “I love you too…” I whispered really low and then I closed my eyes to sleep a bit more as I was exhausted. I woke up a few hours later to find the bed empty on his side already. As Mara was still sleeping I took the chance to shower and then put on some beach and light clothes, then she finally whimpered ready to have her milk. I grabbed her and kissed her cheek and took her downstairs to the kitchen. James was there, in beach shorts and white tank top. His head turned around as he heard me coming in and our blue gaze locked for brief seconds. “Hi.” I said almost stuttering as I remembered him touching me in bed. “Good morning.” He said almost as a whisper as his eyes sparkled a bit while his lips showed a soft, barely perceptible smile. We stared at each other without saying anything else, and I couldn’t but wonder if he had heard what I told him. It looked like it. “Where is everybody?” I asked grabbing the can with Mara’s formula powder. “They’re all down at the beach. Hurry up, the day is amazing.” “It’s too hot for her.” I told him. “I made a nice shadow down there, she’ll be fine, really.” I looked at him surprised, he had thought about Mara. With that said he came to take her off my arms and then tenderly kissed her. “Hi princess…” He baby talked to her and instead of preparing her bottle I watched him in a awe. James sat on a stool and then I turned around preparing the baby’s meal, while hearing him baby talking to her sweetly. “Let me give it to her.” He asked when I approached him with the bottle. I nodded and took the chance to have my own breakfast. It was a given fact, with some help things were much easier. I sat in front of him watching him feeding Mara, but instead of looking down at her, he looked at me with that glow in his eyes. “Thank you for letting me sleep in your bed.” He said making me almost jump off the stool. “It’s ok…you were sleeping and I didn’t want to wake you up on purpose.” I tried hard my voice not to shake but I was quite sure it did a bit. “Nadia…” James called my name making me look up at him again. He stayed silent for a few minutes but our eyes didn’t pull away, then he spoke. “This time…I mean…did you…what I want to ask…” He stuttered. “Well…did you go out with someone?” “James…” I said rolling my eyes, though surprised with his question. “There’s not a guy in this world that finds a pregnant woman attractive unless it’s the father of the kid she’s carrying, so the answer is obviously no, I didn’t. Not even a proposal…” He stared at me silent and then my own curiosity spoke loud to me. “You?” I asked quickly. “I did.” He said looking down at Mara. “Two different women. First one was boring and the second was ok, she fulfilled my needs…you know…” I didn’t need so many details, and knowing that it hurt me some way, but then I couldn’t expect him not to have sex for such a long time. “Are you still with her?” “No…it came to a point where she thought we were dating and I was not dating her, so I had to make that clear and since she seemed not to understand what I told her, I had to leave her. There’s no one…” “Hum…” I mumbled taking a spoon filled with cereal to my mouth. “But I haven’t loved anyone ever since…” James shut up and my eyes set on him. “You…” He whispered. “Well, you don’t have to explain things to me.” I said fast and getting up, feeling the conversation was going on a weird way, and I didn’t want to take that path. “You asked…” He argued. “Is she finished?” I turned to him changing the subject. “Yeah…she is…” He nodded. “Then I am going to pick up my beach bag and grab her bag too. Will you stay with her?” James simply nodded resigned with my sudden change of subject. We walked side by side down to the beach in absolute silence. It was weird for me that suddenly we were close again. It was alright, it was all because we had a daughter together but since that early morning that I could not but hear him saying he still loved me, even if he thought I was sleeping. His confession happened because he thought I wasn’t listening, he didn’t want me to know. “There you are!” Lars exclaimed when we got near them. I stretched a towel under the shadow and put Mara on it, then I occupied myself of my stuff; my towel, sun cream, and put some on Mara’s legs and arms too, after all, her skin was too sensitive. “Do you wanna go try the water?” James asked me when we were all set. Again I looked at him surprised. “Go ahead, we’ll look after her.” Lars promptly offered, but I shook my head. “Not yet, maybe later.” I told him. James left and then I looked at Connie who smiled at me. I looked away, I didn’t want to know what she was thinking, but Connie was softer than Lars. “He’s smoothing you.” He blurted laughing. “He’s not. We just talked and well…we’re friends…I think…” “He’s smoothing you.” Lars affirmed leaving me with no arguments. “We have a daughter together, so it’s better if we get along than if we don’t. We realized that. I prefer it this way too.” I could also be stubborn like that. “I knocked on his door really early this morning and he wasn’t there…” Lars was so sneaky. “He slept in my room.” I said. Both Connie and Lars looked at me with eyes wide open. “Not what you are thinking…he just slept there.” “In your bed? With you?” Connie asked. “Just slept, but yes…Mara woke him up and he came to see what was going on, then he was helping me with her and we both ended up falling asleep, the three of us actually…” “Oh…” Connie exclaimed laughing and Lars laughed too. “Guys….don’t laugh ok? It was awkward, for him too…” I told them. “There’s nothing wrong with you still loving him and him still loving you…” Connie added. “Which we think it’s the case here.” Lars ended her thought. “Well, it’s not…” I said and then was saved by Mara’s crying. I went to rescue her and held her in my arms. The conversation ended there. When Mara calmed down I gave her the pacifier and put her back on her towel, meanwhile James came back soaked in salt water and looking gorgeous than ever, my eyes raked his wet body from feet to head and I was glad I was wearing my shades and he couldn’t see it. He brought his towel near mine and Mara’s and lied on his stomach. “She doesn’t want to sleep.” He talked to me seeing her struggle, opening and shutting her eyes. “Well…you know her…” I giggled. Connie and Lars got up and began to walk away, I knew they wanted to leave us alone. Finally Mara fell asleep and I turned on my back, closing my eyes and taking the shades away. James did too and we lied in silence, but I could feel his hand so close to mine, in fact I moved my fingers and it touched his, making me pull away immediately. I opened an eye to look at him and he was quiet, didn’t move and I was glad he didn’t react, it had been an accidental move anyway. Then I turned around again feeling too hot, and after a while James got up. I heard him with the bottle of sun cream in his hands and I thought he was going to pour it on him, but then I felt some drops falling on my shoulders and then his hands spreading it. All I can say is that I was incredibly tense and unable to tell him to stop. Though I had my eyes closed I felt his chest right on my face and I couldn’t even breathe properly. His touch was strong, and his fingers pressed on my skin as if he wanted to touch me, and I could tell he was taking his time doing it. I had to say something to make him stop. “It’s ok now.” I said opening my eyes. He stopped but his hand stayed on the back of my left shoulder and he looked down on me. “You don’t want me to touch you…” He said talking low. “James…” I said unable to say more. “Nadia…” He whispered my name. Then his hand left my shoulder and got hold of my hand. My heart skipped a beat in seconds. “Don’t do this.” I pleaded. “Why?” He asked leaving my hand and beginning to caress my hair. “Don’t you like it?” His voice was sweet and calm. “That’s not even the point.” I said getting up to get rid of that proximity. James threw himself back on the towel and threw his arms above his head. Eyes closed. I crouched near Mara just to check on her and then he turned around taking hold of my hand again. “It is the point.” He said grabbing me firmly. I tried to pull away but his grip was firm. Our blue gaze met. “Let me go.” I asked him. “No.” James said almost annoyed. “You always runaway, this time you stay. I want you to stay, so if I mean anything at all to you, now it’s a nice time to show me. So you stay.” I tried to free myself and he gave me some sort of disappointed look. “Nadia…” He said in tone of a warning. The moment I sat back on my towel he freed me, maybe satisfied. “But don’t touch me…” I said, and he didn’t… |
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| Some_Kind_Of_Monster | April 12, 2012, 6:53 am Post #175 |
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☠ (R.I.P) † Return Is Possible †
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Okay a lady boner was there for sure I had one It's going the right way
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| ElisabethOrion | April 13, 2012, 5:32 am Post #176 |
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I'm creatively constipated.
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Such a cute story. Keep going!
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| Scorpion Flower | April 13, 2012, 8:11 am Post #177 |
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Outlaw Torn
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At night the guys decided to go out for dinner but I stayed at home since I knew Mara would be sulking, disturbed by all the noise around her. My daughter and her comfort came first, so I stayed home so she could be in a calm environment. James stayed as well. “You should have gone with them. Ever since we got here you haven’t been gone out with them except for yesterday and even then you came back home sooner.” I told him. He turned his head to look at me, ignoring the TV for a while. “I don’t mind.” He said absently. “It’s holydays James, you’re supposed to have some fun. Mara doesn’t need the two of us all the time. I could stay with her and you could go have gone with them.” James turned his head to look at me again. “It’s not only because of Mara. I want to stay with you.” “James, two days ago we were fighting like two mad people…” I commented. He grabbed the remote control and put the TV mute, then he got up and walked up to me and got so close that I had to take a step back. “Let me stay with her and go relax for a while.” He said taking Mara away from me. “I’ll take care of dinner meanwhile.” I stared at him unable to say a word, he sure was confusing me. The night before, the words in the morning, the events at the beach, all messing up inside my head, and my heart was just yelling. “James…” I called his name as he was beginning to walk away. He stopped and looked at me. “Don’t argue…don’t say anything…don’t make questions…” He told me. “I am here, I wanted to stay, just do whatever you feel it’s right with that.” “I don’t know what it’s right. I never know what it’s right when it’s about you and concerning you. I heard you say you still loved me…” “I heard you say you loved me too…” He said and then we stared at each other in silence. I turned around and began to go upstairs. In my room I took my clothes off and when I was going to the bathroom he knocked on my door. “Can I come in?” He asked. “No…I’m naked!” I yelled. Silence was heard. “Ok…” He finally said. “Then just hear me. I loved you all along, though I tried hard I never stopped loving you. Gosh…I am glad the door is closed because I don’t know if I could tell you all this looking at you…” He said making me smile. I leaned against the door. “Are you listening?” “Yes…” I said. “If we love each other don’t you think we should give it a try?” He asked me. “You hurt me too much, and sometimes when you are this hurt something disconnects…so I don’t know…” “I didn’t go to your apartment the first three weeks after Mara was born because your parents were there. I couldn’t stand your father’s looks, like I was some kind of criminal.” He explained and I giggled., I thought that was funny, but at the same time so true. “My father just think I am still a little girl and that you stole my dignity by abandoning me pregnant. Which isn’t true at all but it’s what he craved in his head. Give me some time…” I asked him. “Is it true what you said this morning?” “Yes.” I confessed. “I asked you yesterday and you said you didn’t know and this morning you know?” “You were sleeping in my bed!” I exclaimed raising my tone. “You also never said you still loved me and this morning you did!” “I am waiting for you downstairs.” Then I heard his steps going away. When I finished a long quiet bath I gathered the courage to come back downstairs. The living room was empty, the TV was off. Then I went to the kitchen and no one was there as well, finally I saw some lights in the garden, so I went there. Only the lights by the pool were on. “James?” I called. “Over here…” I heard his voice and I turned around, then the lights on the porch went on and I saw a table set for two, Mara’s stroller near it and James was lighting the candles. “What’s this?” I asked surprised. “Our dinner. Thought if we couldn’t go out maybe we could have a fancy dinner.” He said quietly shoving his hands in the pockets of his jeans. My eyes raked the perfect table one more time and then I looked back at him. A soft smiled showed on his lips while he watched my reaction to his surprise, and then he pulled a chair so I could sit. “How did you have time to put all this up?” I asked him while he sat in front of me. “You stayed upstairs for more than an hour. I had the time…” I looked at Mara and she was sleeping peacefully in her stroller. “She’s ok. She’s warm and the night is hot again.” He said. “What’s in the trays?” I asked then seeing two trays on the table. “Well...I can’t cook…” He began. “So, there’s shrimp salad and then some eggs.” He said. I giggled, I had to, and then he laughed too. “It’s ok, the rest is perfect.” I finally said. “I thought about ordering but then I thought I didn’t have the time, so I had to come up with something edible, so…I’m sorry if it’s not better…” “No it’s ok…really…” James uncovered the first tray and served me of some salad, then he filled my glass with wine and poured some water for him. We began to eat in silence, I was unable to say anything and it seemed like he was too. Normal if we consider our previous talk, not even being able to say all that looking in each others eyes. “Is it ok?” He asked then seeing I was eating. “Actually it’s quite good.” I approved. “Are you ok?” He asked then. “I mean…it’s awkward now for me…not in a bad way…I mean…” “It’s awkward for me too.” I confessed. “I meant what I said.” “But I do need time…I don’t forget easily…” I told him. James nodded understanding. “But I am not shutting the doors…” “I understand. I don’t want you to think it’s because we have her…” He pointed at Mara. “My feelings are real, even if I tried it not be real or not to feel it, but I do and I can’t ignore it.” “I thought you didn’t feel anything.” I said remembering the way he had left me in the middle of sex. “I may have done many things that led you to think that, I know I did. I am a jerk as you say…” He sighed. “But I am usually a jerk to the people I love the most and I didn’t want to be in love with you so that made things a lot worse. Am I making any sense?” “Yes.” I assured him. “I hurt you too, remember? Maybe we’re not that different after all.” “That time I didn’t leave because I didn’t want it Nadia. I wanted it, too much…I left because I just didn’t want it to be that way. We were both so mind heated, barely conscious of what we were doing.” “I know that now, but it felt really weird, it still feels weird when I think about it.” “I know it looked weird…” James sighed and then looked down at his plate. After dinner we stayed a bit outside just talking about random stuff. It was alright, we were calm and quiet and it was just the two of us once more, then Mara woke up and it was all about her. As the night went by, I fed Mara one more time and then I was tired. “I’m going to bed.” I told him grabbing Mara who was sleeping again. “Ok…I’ll stay here watching TV for a little while.” He said “Good night.” “Night Nadia.” James whispered looking at me. Reluctantly I turned around and went upstairs. It looked like we still had something to say to each other, from the way we stared but we both refrained to silence. After putting the baby in the crib I changed to my nightgown and went to bed, falling asleep almost immediately. Later I woke up out of the blue. My eyes simply opened wide and it was like I wasn’t able to sleep anymore. Maybe it was the recent events in my life, I don’t know, but I tossed around for quite some time unable to go back to sleep. I got up then and went to check on Mara, who was still sleeping, then I went down to brew some tea. The light in the living room was off, but the TV was still on. I peeked to find James completely asleep on the couch. I walked up to him and crouched, watching him sleep for a bit. James was fast asleep breathing steadily and laid on his back, arms opened. I looked at his face again and not fighting the urge to caress him I ran a finger over his face. I traced the line of his eyebrows and then traced the line of his jaw, coming down to his chin and just when I was about to trace the line of his lips he opened his eyes suddenly, not leaving time me to pull me hand away. I was caught but I didn’t move and neither did he. We just stayed there looking at each other and just then I decided pulled my hand away. “What are you doing?” He asked with a husky voice. “Sorry about that.” I said feeling embarrassed. I tried to get but when I was about to do it he caught my wrist pulling me down and I fell on my knees. “You don’t have to leave.” He said. “I’m sorry. I was just watching you sleep and then…” James interrupted me. “It’s ok Nadia. I liked that.” He said softly smiling. “You better go to sleep in your room. You were sleeping with the TV on.” I told him. “What are you doing up?” He asked sitting and rubbing the sleep off his eyes. “I woke up and wasn’t able to sleep, so I decided to brew some tea to help me back to sleep.” I explained getting up. James grabbed my hand softly and hypnotized by his gaze I let him. “Can you brew some for me too?” He asked me and I simply nodded. I brew us some tea and we had it quietly in the kitchen. I acknowledged we were still in the house alone, another long night out for our friends who were enjoying their vacation. “Are you done?” I asked him when I saw him resting his cup on the table. James nodded, so I grabbed it and put it in the dish washer. “So, we better go now.” I told him. When I was about to turn away his hand got hold of mine again, making me spin to look back at him. James was still sat and his eyes hit mine with a plead. “Let me sleep with you.” He finally spoke. “I don’t think we should.” I said. “Please…I won’t touch you, I promise.” He said. The point was not him touching me, the point was would I be strong enough not to touch him? I remained silent. “We slept together last night. Nothing happened…please….let me sleep there with you again…” James insisted. Insanely enough I nodded my head shyly. |
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| Some_Kind_Of_Monster | April 13, 2012, 8:28 am Post #178 |
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☠ (R.I.P) † Return Is Possible †
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I know I'm horny I want them to have sex, please!!!
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| Shayniz21 | April 13, 2012, 9:01 am Post #179 |
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Poor Twisted Me
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lmao!!!! Yes they need to just do it! |
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| Scorpion Flower | April 14, 2012, 6:38 am Post #180 |
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Outlaw Torn
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Mara cried and my eyes blinked a bit trying to process the sudden awakening. Then I realized how close James and I were sleeping and how his arm was on top of me, but it was randomly on top of me, not like he was holding me or anything, he must have had stirred and his arm fell across my waist. His eyes opened too a bit after and instead of going to our daughter we just stayed there staring at each other. There is arm slid and his hand tugged unto my waist as in a caress. “What time is it?” He asked in a sleepy tone. “Seven thirty.” I answered feeling my body burning under his hand and his soft touch. He turned on his back taking his hand away to rub his eyes and a heavy sighed escaped his lips. A desperate sigh I dare to say. I immediately pulled the sheet away and got up. “She wants to eat.” I said aware that he was bothered from having to wake up that soon in the morning. As I held up Mara her crying became less louder and James was just watching us still disturbed. “I’ll take her downstairs, you can sleep a bit more if you want.” He must have noticed my sudden dry tone, though I didn’t meant it to my words to come out that dry. “I’ll go with you.” He said getting up too. “You’ll feed her and I’ll make something for us.” I just nodded, and so we did. Breakfast was rather silent for two people who were meant to work things out between them, or at least, that were supposed to try to. I didn’t want to pick up a fight, and probably neither did he, so silence was all we were able to give to each other for quite some time. Then when Mara was calm and our stomachs were full, James decided to talk. “Wanna go for a walk?” “Do you wanna go for a walk?” I asked instead of answering. “We’re not going back to sleep, she’s fully awake, she won’t let us, so why not?” “Ok…” I said. We took turns looking after Mara while each of us prepared ourselves to leave. I went to shower first, then while he took his, I prepared Mara to leave the house. There’s just this arsenal of stuff you have to take with you when you have a two months baby, and nothing could be forgotten. James appeared in the room a good half an hour later in black shorts, white shirt and flip flops, contrasting with my pink ones and black shirt. We left. I pushed the stroller and we walked towards the pier in silence for a while, then he was the one speaking again. “I am sorry if I was rude this morning.” He told me. “Your words weren’t rude, it was just your body language.” I said. “I didn’t mean it by blaming her you know, I just wanted to sleep more. I know she’s just too little to have regular schedules, so that had nothing to do with her. I woke up in the middle of the night with the guys coming home all drunk, they were too noisy and then it took me long to go back to sleep, so I was kinda cranky but not because of her.” He explained and there I understood. “They’re just having fun and enjoying themselves…” I said. “You know when I told you I didn’t want to have kids it was mainly because of this. I mean…I know a baby just traps you, you have to live according to their schedules and you can’t go out when you want to, and I had lived that, and now I was free again because my kids are big enough to go out and not sulk and they’re ok, they love to stay up late. That was the reason why I didn’t want to have a baby.” “And now you have one and you’re trapped again.” I commented feeling my rage building up. James took his hands to my shoulders and turned me around to look at him. “No…I have one and I love her and I don’t mind staying home. I am not telling you this to shove that in your face, nothing like that…I am just telling you this because I need you to understand why I didn’t want to have a baby, when I told you so. That’s all, don’t take it as I am attacking you, that is not it.” “It seemed like it James.” He shook his head. “Maybe I have given you the wrong example. I don’t care about nights out and you know it. Even if we didn’t have her I would probably stay home the same way. I just used it as an example, because babies are a lot of work, they depend too much on us, and I was enjoying not having my kids so dependable on me anymore and I could have a little more time for myself and do what I really wanted to do. You’re clever Nadia, you know what I mean.” We continued walking and then James took the stroller off my hands and parked it near a shadow, then he grabbed my hand pulling me down to sit on a rock. “I thought about not having her.” I said, his head turned to me fast, as if he didn’t know that but I was quite sure I had already told him such fact. “I did James. When I found out I was pregnant it didn’t cross my mind to have the baby. I was determined to interrupt the pregnancy, I went to the doctor and asked her to terminate it…but then…then she made me hear the heartbeat and it changed everything. I had a life inside of me, it was my baby. The next day I went there to terminate everything but I just couldn’t. I wished for quite some time that she hadn’t made me listen to the heartbeat, I struggled for quite some time accepting the fact that I was pregnant and then to make things worse I had to tell you. That was the hardest part for me…” “Because you knew I didn’t want it…” He stated and I nodded. “My whole struggle was knowing I was having a child you didn’t want, don’t think it was easy for me too. I never made this as something to confront you with, I had her because I fell in love with her first thing, and many moments since we met again you made me regret I was bringing her into this world.” My eyes watered there and I stopped talking. “I love her.” He said grabbing my jaw in his hand. “I do love her, believe me…” “But you tried to make me believe you didn’t…and that James…that hurts so much…and I still love you…and I let you sleep in my bed…how crazy is that?” He looked at the ground in shame but his forehead rested against mine while he shook his head slowly. “I know I did wrong.” He whispered. “And now you’re so tender with her that you even blow me away. It’s like you’re not even the same person. You confuse me so much…I don’t know what to do with you…” “I’ve always been tender and sweet with her, when you weren’t looking. At some point I knew what you were doing when you left the house leaving me alone with her, and I thanked you for that because most of the times I was dying to hold her you know? I just wanted to get a reaction from you…God…we’re a mess…we have so many things to talk about…” He acknowledged in the end. “I am a jerk…” I had the courage to rest a hand on his face while our eyes met. “You’re just silly.” I said and then we both smiled at each other. Mara whimpered and he looked back at her. “Think she wants to get out of there a bit.” James told me. “Bring her here.” I said. James took her off the stroller and lied her on his legs, Mara stared at him with her blue eyes and he softly smiled at her, then bend over and kissed her forehead making her make a face. “You know Nadia…if you weren’t so stubborn and determined, she wouldn’t be here and I would be missing this, so thank you for not terminating the pregnancy and having the courage to have her. Honestly…I really mean it.” My eyes watered and he grabbed my hand, intertwining his fingers in mine and then took it to his lips to kiss it. “This part I didn’t want is the part delighting me more in my life now. I am delighted with her and with her wonderful baby smell.” And then we stayed silent, holding hands just staring at the ocean. “And your kids?” I asked him later as I remembered he had told me he had a hard time with them. James sighed heavily and then looked at me. “It’s been hard…” He said. “It hasn’t been easy. When I had to tell them I was going to have a baby, they took the news very badly, then they began to accept it or I thought they were. Mara didn’t exist yet, you know? When I told them she was born it all came back. They are grown up enough to make questions…they bombed me with questions, I told them it was an accident, but what kind of an example am I if I had a baby by accident, you know? They also ask who you are, you know, the woman I was having a baby with, because in their heads that woman can only be their mother and they don‘t know you at all, and they are used to be just the three of them and then this baby appears…they struggle too, and I hate that part. They didn’t show any interest in meeting Mara, though I asked them to, they refused. It’s weird…it’s gonna be tough Nadia, I won’t lie to you and say everything is gonna be perfect.” “I understand…” I told him. “They asked me if the baby was going to live with me, you know because they aren’t, all that messes up with their heads and they have been cranky and I have to yell at them too much and I hate to do it. It’s not like our relationship is broken, no…they still love to be with me but whenever they remember I have another kid they become rude. I learned they are trying to get my attention, afraid to lose me or something and I am not sure if I can show them well enough that it’s not like that, that I can love them all the same way.” “You just have to be their father the way you always were, and as you say, they are big enough to understand, once all this mess is organized in their heads, that you love them and always will. They’re jealous, you know that, don’t you?” James nodded. “It’s just hard.” “I am sorry I caused all this.” “I am proud of you Nadia. Even when I was struggling you were so protective of her, and you stood up all the time and didn’t let me rule you. And when you brought up my father as an example, and I was so hurt, man…you carved a knife in my heart when you compared me to him, but it was the best way to make me see your point of view. Though hurt, I understood what you meant and I also realized that was only your mother instinct talking, but you know me…I take things so personally I tend to burst easily…only later I saw what you meant. So, I am proud of you and the way you defended her.” “If she didn’t have me to defend her then she didn’t have no one. I am her mother, and I have to be there for her.” James smiled and then his hand left mine and caressed my face. I let him do it. “Wanna keep walking?” He suggested and I nodded. He grabbed Mara and put her in the stroller. She was sleeping already and I knew that would give us a couple of time quietly. James began to push the stroller and mindlessly I wrapped my arm around his, which caused him to look down at me and smile. We walked along the pier that way, looking like a couple more and more. “Did you bring enough milk for her?” He asked. “Yeah, I brought water and formula powder for two bottles, why?” “Because we can go out for lunch again, just us?” “We came here with friends and we’re not spending any time them.” I told him, letting go of his arm. “We need to spend time on our own and I think they understand that. We have been talking so much…and it’s good when we talk…we open up and we understand better what was going on with us and the way we acted.” “But it’s not fair for them, I think they also want to have our company since at night they can’t, at least mine.” “It’s just lunch and then we go back. They got home at 3 am, and from the noise they were wasted…” James laughed. “…even Connie and Lani…” “Ok…” I agreed. I also wanted to be with him. Things were going alright and I was liking to have him around me. “Can you put you hand back where it was?” James smiled. I did so. “Now we can continue our walking…” |
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Finally I had the time to read!!!





Keep going! 
8:37 PM Jul 10