Welcome Guest [Log In] [Register]
Welcome to zetaboards. We hope you enjoy your visit.


You're currently viewing our forum as a guest. This means you are limited to certain areas of the board and there are some features you can't use. If you join our community, you'll be able to access member-only sections, and use many member-only features such as customizing your profile, sending personal messages, and voting in polls. Registration is simple, fast, and completely free.


Join our community!


If you're already a member please log in to your account to access all of our features:

Username:   Password:
Add Reply
I'm The One Who Waits For You...; Metallica, Iron Maiden, James/OFC
Topic Started: November 24, 2009, 5:26 pm (66,489 Views)
Kimmi
No Avatar
Outlaw Torn
[ * ]
Oh man... James, you need to lay off the alcohol. Posted Image
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
namenlos
Member Avatar
The Daft To Your Punk
[ * ]
Axhole is lying. James, you should know better. :angry

EDIT:

This was for the last part. I see you just posted another. :D
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
namenlos
Member Avatar
The Daft To Your Punk
[ * ]
Aw, James, you let jealousy get the better of you. :(
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Kitty
No Avatar
Frantic
[ * ]
Dear God, poor Angel...:(
James what where you thinking???

I am so curious what's next. More please! :D
Thanks Olya, you are great! :heart:
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
MetalSanta
Member Avatar
Imitations are pale...
[ * ]
I can say James is stupid as shit not trusting his WIFE !
Past is past, man !!!

Anyway, I hope they'll talk about it, and that Angel will be better.
I'm on her side for that one...
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Auluna Raie
Member Avatar
Shark-Tastic!
[ * ]
*puts on helmet* Alright, this is it!!! Any member of the All Girl Firing Squad, LOCK AND LOAD!! :nanner3:
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Olyamet
Member Avatar
Jäger.....

Well, there is no other madness, like the madness of jealousy... :(

Thank you for comments girls!
love you all!

:heart: :heart: :heart:

Okay, here is the rest of it.














(Continue of James' POV)






A sudden light noise from the bedroom grabbed my attention and I got up, pushing the bathroom door open. Angel stood with her back to me, fully dressed, fighting with her jacket and trying to find an arm opening.

Oh... no... please don't! I can't... I deserved that... but I can't live without you...

“Angel... please don't leave... I'm begging you...” Shaking words, trembling heart, shivering with sudden cold body.

She didn't even look at me, continuing to turn the jacket in her hands. I watched her, feeling emptiness slowly creeping into my chest... if she leaves me... I'll die.

“Angel... please don't... I'm sorry, it wasn't me... I couldn't stop it...”

She stopped for a second, then threw her jacket across the room with a growl then dropped onto the side of the bed, covering her face with her hands and started to cry. I walked to her and stood on my knees by the bed, wrapping my arms around her shaking body.

“I'm sorry... I lost it... I couldn't control it... please don't hate me...” I tried to swallow the lump in my throat, feeling tears dropping from my eyes. “Please... don't leave me... I love you...”

”Why?” Her voice was shaking.

“I... I just... when I saw your eyes closed... I thought you were thinking of him... and I lost it... Angel, please forgive me...” I buried my face in her lap, bursting into tears.

“Who him?” She pulled my face up, looking into my eyes.

“Saul...” I swallowed, feeling my heart beating fast somewhere in my temples.

“Why would I think about him when I'm with you?”

“Axl told me you and him used to... and I... you were so happy to see him.. and... I'm an idiot... it was before me, but I... I just got...” I pulled her hands, pressing them to my face, but she pulled her hands away and stood up.

“Axl told you we used to fuck? And you believed him.” She started to walk to the door, then turned back to me. “I told you we were just friends, nothing more. You don't believe me, you can ask Saul, he has no reason to lie to you.” Her hand reached for the door handle and I felt iron hand squeezed my heart.

“I believe you... please don't leave...” Scattered mind, chest feels so tight it hurts to breathe, lips pushing desperate plea through the suffocating lump. “Please... I'm a fucking jealous asshole... you can kill me if you want to, just don't leave... I'll do anything you ask me too, anything for your forgiveness...”

She let go of the door handle and turned to me, her voice was strong and low.

“You'll promise to trust me. You'll promise that this was the first and absolutely the last time you EVER take your anger out on me!”

“Angel... I'll never...” I swallowed and her eyes darkened.

“Promise!”

“I swear.” My heart was pounding in my head, my whole body felt cold, eyes gazing into green stormy oceans, trying to read my verdict.

She closed her eyes, slowly breathed in and out, fingers tightened into fists and relaxed. When she opened her eyes again the storm was gone, green lightened, face softened.

“I forgive you... but just this one time.” She slowly walked to me and I grasped her in my arms, still standing on my knees and her hands ran to my face, pulling me up. “Can you forgive yourself?”

My eyes slid to a deep cut on her bottom lip, covered with hardened blood. How could I? Eyes moved down to her neck with a bright bruise, heart sunk following eyes to bloody bite on her shoulder. I pulled her hands to my face and saw red marks on her wrists and forearms. I did all this... I hurt her... Fuck... I deserved to fucking die for this! Lump in my throat grew, making me swallow my sorrow, eyes closed in pain of shame. I don't deserve her love... or her forgiveness.

”I'll never forgive myself for what I did to you...” I pressed her body to me, feeling tears making their way down on my cheeks. “I hate myself... I hate this monster in me...”

“We all have monsters inside... I know how hard is it to fight anger and what horrible things you can do in rage... it took me a long time to learn to control my demons. I forgive you.”

“Thank you...” My lips trembled against her head and she pulled back, looking into my eyes.

“Secrets make people imagine something that's not there. We will end this right now. Ask me anything you want to know about my life before you. Ask me, right now, right here, so you know it all.”

“Angel, I trust you...”

“Ask me! So you don't listen to rumors. You want to know who I was with before you?”

“I don't need to kn--” I started, tying to pull her back to me, but she pushed back.

“James, ask me! ”

“Just tell me if I know any of them...” I lowered my eyes.

“No. The first guy I dated in the high school. Second guy cheated on me while I was on tour. Neither of them have anything to do with music and I have no idea where they are now and I don't care. I was down one night, got drunk, and woke up with our first drummer, Barry. That happened only once. You've never meet him. This is all of *them*. There was no one else. James, I don't dream of other man with me. I love you, and only you...” Her eyes darkened. “But if you ever disrespect me with pointless jealousy again, I'll leave.”

“I won't... I swear. I'll never hurt you again... I'll never... I can't lose you... I love you.” I picked her up, holding her close to me and she wrapped her arms over my neck, pressing her face to my chest.



Posted Image
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Oh Hell
Member Avatar
Outlaw Torn
[ * ]
Oh James, you jealous little sod :heart: :rolleyes:
That ought to teach you trust someone other than the Mrs again!
Doofus...
<_<
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Auluna Raie
Member Avatar
Shark-Tastic!
[ * ]
Oh Hell
Apr 4 2010, 07:05 PM
Oh James, you jealous little sod :heart: :rolleyes:
That ought to teach you trust someone other than the Mrs again!
Doofus...
<_<

*brandishes baseball bat* I still say we beat him silly for being an arse. *hands Torr extra bat* Here sister, you can join in :biggrin
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Kimmi
No Avatar
Outlaw Torn
[ * ]
Awesome that they made up. :tu:
Still thinking James should close the cap. That shit causes too much trouble... :rolleyes:
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Auluna Raie
Member Avatar
Shark-Tastic!
[ * ]
Kimmi
Apr 4 2010, 11:07 PM
Awesome that they made up. :tu:
Still thinking James should close the cap. That shit causes too much trouble... :rolleyes:

*hands kimmi a bat* You wanna join in too? :biggrin
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
elena
Member Avatar
Outlaw Torn
[ * ]
Angel is a great girl,James has to be more careful and stop drinking.
I love this story! :heart:
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Olyamet
Member Avatar
Jäger.....

Thanks for the comments girls!

:heart: :heart: :heart:

Sorry it took a while to update.

More.













(James POV)




I opened my eyes and the light of the room exploded in my head with a pounding headache, making me shut them close. I tried to swallow and wince. Shit... My throat and mouth felt like I'd been eating crushed glass. My legs were cold, my arms were numb and stiff, aching back was pressed against something hard. What the fuck...?

I opened my eyes again. I was sitting on the bed with my back to the headboard, completely naked, holding fully dressed, sleeping Angel in my arms. What the... Why is she dressed and I'm naked? Head pounded, stirring up the memory of last night and it slowly surfaced, making me tighten my arms around my wife. Fuck...

I hit my head back to the headboard and my wife moved, rolling her head on my chest. I looked down and saw a big purple bruise on her neck. I can't fucking believe I did that... She moved again and opened her eyes, snuggling her face to my neck.

“Did you hold me all night?”

“I did...” My voice burned through my dry throat like sand paper.

Angel stretched and moaned.

“Oh God! I feel like I was run over by a truck... everything hurts.” She sat up, turning to me with a smile. “Ouch!” Her hand flew to her lips.

“I'm sorry...” Fuck!

She slid off my lap and stood up.

“Just tell me, how bad does it looks?” Her fingers were examining her slightly swollen and bruised lip.

“Like you spent the night with a fucking monster.” I sat up clenching my teeth. “Like your husband is a fucking dickhead, unworthy your love and your forgiveness.”

“Awesome... and I have to be on fucking stage in eight hours... fucking great.” She pulled her shirt off and threw it on the bed, inspecting her shoulder. “Fuck! Okay, I need a warm shower to feel better, shower and coffee.”

“You take a shower and I'll get the coffee.” I lowered my eyes away form brutal evidence of my drunken madness. Fuck... I can't believe I was capable to hurt her like this...

She didn't answer me, and I looked around the floor in search for my jeans, finding them all the way at the door. When we came back to the room last night, everything was perfect, until I fucked it up. I looked back at Angel, but she wasn't looking at me, yanking her suitcase open and throwing over her shoulder.

“Thanks...”

I sighed and lowered my head. Is this how it's going to be from now on? She said she'd forgiven me, but had she really?






(Angel's POV)




I found everything I needed, pulling and throwing every item on the bed. Fuck! I wish the weather was cold, so all of this wouldn't look so specious. Fuck! I walked into the bathroom, feeling something crunch under my foot and looked down. The floor was covered in broken pieces of the mirror, a small part of it still hanging in the frame. I carefully stepped closer, inspecting my reflection.

Nice... My swollen and blue lip had a cut with a scab over it, my neck had a huge bruise, my shoulder had a bite mark with a big dark purple circle around it. Fuck, how am I going to come out on stage looking like that?

”God... all I'm missing is a few knocked out teeth and a shiner under my eye to complete the look of a crack whore!”

“I'm sorry...” James quietly opened our room door and stepped out with his head lowered down, and I sighed. Fuck! Me and my tongue! He feels bad already, and I just had to say that. Shit! Why do I have to be such a bitch? I'm not angry at him, I'm really not. I know better than anyone what you can do in rage... He just let jealousy take over him. I should've said something nice, but shit, he knows I'm not a morning person, plus I feel like crap! And look like one and I have a fucking show to do!

When he comes back I'll fix it, I have to, I can't let him drown in his guilt. I understand how you can get overcome by anger. I've felt it, dealt with it most of my life. I know how it can take over you and you're absolutely powerless to stop it. I know how bad you feel after you hurt people you love. I need to help him forget about it.

I swept glass from the floor into the corner of the bathroom, using a towel and carefully inspected the floor before taking my shoes off and taking the rest of my clothes off. I washed my face, brushed my teeth, and turned the water in the shower on. What is taking James so long? He should be back by now...






(James' POV)




Never in my whole life I felt so low, so horrible, so disgusted with myself and so lost. Heart was screaming in pain, 'she'll never look at you the same, you fucked it all up, you ruined it!' as dragged my feet back to our hotel room, carrying a cup of coffee. The door to the bathroom was half open and I saw Angel's body through the fogged glass. I had no idea what to do now, I wish I could just erase last night... wash it from her memory... from my memory.

I put the cup of coffee on the night stand and sat down on the bed. Now what? I don't know how to act around her... I dropped my head down, bringing my hands to my face and my eyes slid on dark red streak of dried blood on my forearm. Heart skipped and flopped down, eyes drifted to the bathroom door. I need a shower... should I wait...or...?

I slowly undressed and walked into the bathroom, stopping unsure of what to do. Should I join her? Would she want me to after what I did? We've always taken a shower together before... but now... Maybe I'll just wait till she invites me in. I picked up my toothbrush and started vigorously rubbing my teeth. It'll never be the same... we never be the same...

I rinsed my mouth and glanced at myself in the broken piece of the mirror that somehow survived my rage. I've forever ruined what we had... I looked at the shower and saw Angel standing under the water with her hands on the wall, face up to the streams with her back to me. She didn't ask me to join her... she didn't even want to look at me. I have to wait till she's done... I had nothing else to do in the bathroom and stepped to the door. I was just about to walk out when I heard the shower door opening.

“James, you're not going to join me?” I turned back and sighed.

“I didn't know if you wanted me to...”

“C'mere!” She reached to me and pulled me under the water.

Her hands embraced my face and she peered deep into my eyes.

“I don't hate you, I understand you. I would've done so much worse... if I ever thought you were thinking of another woman when you're with me... I would've done worst.”

“Angel, I never...”I started, but her fingers pressed to my lips.

”I know you feel horrible, but please, can we just forget last night. I still love you and I hate to see you all diminished and broken, I want my James back.”

“I love you...” I whispered, feeling the lump in my throat getting bigger.

“I know, baby... kiss me...” She pulled me to her lips and my eyes stopped on her bruised lip and I swallowed another wave of guilt.

“Your lip...”

She pressed to me, pulling my face to hers. “I want you to kiss me.”

I carefully touched her lips with mine, afraid to inflict even slightest pain, but she yanked me closer and I gave into her will. My arms slowly wrapped around her body, still not sure if they are allowed to. And she answered with a light moan, embracing me in her arms. Her hands slid on my back, caressing, encouraging, loving, and my heart warmed up. She still loves me. Oh my Angel, thank you! I sucked her lips in mine and felt her tense up a bit and immediately pulled back.

“Sorry...”

She gave me a wicked smile. “You will be when I tell you what punishment I have for you...”

“I deserve the cruelest punishment...” I looked at her neck and shoulder and the smile that was about to emerge on my lips, varnished. “Death would be one I can think of...”

She pulled my face back up and eloped my lips with hers, hands moved over my chest, kiss deepened. My body responded with a moan, hands brought her closer, mind let go of my guilt, drowning in the loving fog. Her hands slid lower on my stomach, reaching for my groin and another moan escaped my chest as her lips moved to my neck sucking my skin in. Her hand slowly stroke my dick, bringing it to hardness and I pulled her to me, but she moved back.

“Your punishment will be cruel... unbearably cruel...” She made a serious face and I held my breath, watching her face and trying to read her mind. She looked down at my erected flesh and when her eyes rose back to mine I saw devilish sparks dancing in them.

“Anything...” I breathed out and her lips slid into a wicked smile.

“No blow jobs until my lip completely heals.”

She is joking! Oh thank God!

“Oh... no... that is so mean! Can I chose the death penalty instead?”

“Nope, my verdict is final! Now...” Her knee moved on my hip, teasing me. “I think you owe me something from last night... love me...”


Posted Image
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
elena
Member Avatar
Outlaw Torn
[ * ]
Thank you! :heart:
I would have forgiven James too.He'so sweet when he feels guilty that you can not forgive him. :P Angel punishment is really hard for James. :P :lol:
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
Kimmi
No Avatar
Outlaw Torn
[ * ]
Awkward situation... :unsure:
I wouldn't have forgiven him that easy. I would forgive a lot, but not physical violence from a man, not even from James.
Angel is too nice for him. She's a real angel. :P
I hope they will solve the problems fully, because James seems like a bomb ready to explode again.

Thanks for update, Olya. I loved it. :tu:
Offline Profile Quote Post Goto Top
 
3 users reading this topic (3 Guests and 0 Anonymous)
ZetaBoards - Free Forum Hosting
Free Forums with no limits on posts or members.
Go to Next Page
« Previous Topic · Het / Gen · Next Topic »
Add Reply