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Topic Started: May 9 2009, 10:37 PM (297 Views)
kelseyyy.
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so i've been having mixed feelings about a buncha things in my life that have changed recently.
then, obviously i felt the need to express it.
this isn't a poem (til the end) so i couldn't post there.
and it's not really a story.
it's kindof just thoughts put together in an order.
and i would love it if you took the time to read it,
because they are really good topics to hear other people's opinions on.
thanks!
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Change is inevitable.

We've all heard the expression before. All of us have learned to cope with it in one way or another. For me, i write or go to the gym. But when those constants in my life change, what is there to count on anymore?

I'm afraid of losing the people i care about and love. The thought terrifies me. Which brings me to Love...

"The greatest accomplishment in life is to Love and Be Loved."

Those are the most true words a teacher has spoken all year. True, we do have other goals, but think about it: who would you be without a mother's love, friendships, and acceptance? Alone.

So, to me, i believe that being loved is the best thing there is. It might not solve your problems, but it makes them a hell of a lot easier to deal with.

So what IS Love? I've wondered about that thought countless times. I don't have a perfect explanation, but i know it's the best feeling in the world knowing there's people who would do anything for you.

In my opinion, there's three kinds of Love...
Respected Love
Friendship Love
and
Romantic Love

Respected Love
This is the Love you feel for you parents or an important adult in your life. For me, it's my coaches and parents. They're the people who i look up to. I can always count on them to be there, listen, and help when they can. They're authority figure and friends. people you can go to, and occasionally enemies. No matter what you do, they'll always care for you and do their best to help through the hard times.

Friendship Love
This is Love you feel for friends, the ones who can get you back up on your feet after anything. They're the ones who can get you laughing so hard you cry, and neither know why you started laughing in the first place. They're the people you can trust with your secrets and then some. You can talk for hours on end, and it seems like minutes. They pick you up, dust you off, and minutes later you'll both be on the ground again, wondering how you got there.

Romantic Love
This is the Love you feel for you "significant other." For me, this is the hardest Love to explain. Basically, it's a mixture of the other two, and then much more. They mean the world to you, and you never want to be without him/her. It's a friend, respected other, and a lover all wrapped together. THey seem flawless and amazing, to say the least. You can argue and walk away from each other, but next time you see them you still can't help but to smile. Love like this is perfection.

So, back to the change part of this. When you seem to have finally gotten used to life the way it is, something always screws it up again.

Kainotophobia - the fear of change.

Isolophobia - the fear of being alone.

It's the end of the school year now, and the seniors just graduated. This got me thinking: what will happen to all of my friends after we graduate?

People tell me not to worry, I'm only 14. Supposedly I'll be ready for it then. I don't think i ever will be.

I don't want to lose my friends. I don't want to lose my boyfriend of almost two years, the love of my life. I don't want to leave my parents and coaches. Truthfully, it scares the hell out of me.

But changes happen.

My coach is moving at the end of the summer. My boyfriend will be gone almost all summer. My friends and I don't all have the same interests, so we don't see each other as often. My parents are working full time so we have enough money for me and my brother to reach our dreams.

Everything is falling apart.
The threads that hold us together grow thin.
But love keeps our lives super-glued together.

Right now I'm treading on my hope, waiting for that super-glue to dry.

But the only constant is change,
and the only change is Love.
The love is the only reminder,
of who we are,
what we need,
why we are alive.

Love and Change go hand in hand;
both are inevitable,
and both screw the other one up.

But Hope is what keeps us floating on top of
this tsunami of Change
and
these waves of Love.



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*collects thoughts*

I think it was exactly the opposite for me. Perhaps its because of my background, I don't fear change but I don't necessarily look forward to it either. To cope with problems as a child, I learned not to get too attached to people and places. You should ask Anomy how I felt about graduation and college last year, I could hardly say anything but "meh". I didn't even feel graduation was an accomplishment - I mean, c'mon, it's public school for Christ's sake.

But attachment, like love, is inevitable and ripping those roots from the ground certainly does hurts. After I moved... I felt crushed, empty - tossed to the side, out of the bigger picture, in some sort of self-exile. I suppose everything finally caught up with me.

And if you're worried about what's after highschool, don't be. I promise you, in 3-4 years you'll come into your own. And college isn't a pitch black void where your life ends. It's where your life starts. New people, new activities, new ideas. The best way to overcome homesickness is just to get involved. And that's my mistake, I think. I'm not involved with my university. If I was smart, I'd be in a club of some sort. :goof:
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hmm those're some good points.
i guess im not so much worried about whats after highschool, im probably more worried about who is no longer going to be a big part of my life. I've never moved at all, so i guess that would be why i'm so attached to where i'm at at the moment. And also, i spend more of my time at the gym than i do at home or at school. And it's been that way for about 5 years, so, honestly, it'll be a really big change...
also, i went back and reread this today. i still have these feelings, but not at all to the same extremes. i guess it was just one of those thinking days...

but thank you for your feedback/opinions!
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aww i <3 you Kelsey (the friend love of course, and the respected) i don't know if i have feedback for this, i feel pretty much the same, change is normal, it's regular in small ways and big, good things come out of it, and also bad, but you take what you get and move on with your life, remember and don't forget.
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thanks jessie=]
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