| Catch A Falling Phoenix; Put it in your pocket . . . never let if fade away | |
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| Cendrillion | Feb 27 2012, 02:11 PM Post #1 |
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This is a work in progress article about what it was like to be a phoenix in my realm. I will also post how our realm was perceived by outsiders if I can find the convo I realize now that there needs to be an entire section devoted to how I came to know all this. I will post it at the bottom even though it belongs at the top. We are beings of air and fire. Sky and heat. Though we are phoenixes, we probably are only one realm or creature resembling a phoenix. So I am not speaking for all phoenikin, just myself and the few I have met like me. We look and move like fire colored heron's essentially. I believe we might always be on fire but I see it as feathers. Whispy flame like feathers. Our logic was very different then human logic. What I called green and you called green were not always the same color. But they could both be called green because perception trumps reality. Color and most things humans indulge in were not important, or talked about. Actually we didn't talk much we sang a lot though. The sun was fixed and the land was flat and fragmented. They very likely either rotated around the sun so the sun did not rise and set. We likely built these islands so we could live near the heat source. I believe different flocks may have lived on different islands. Flew at different heights and just generally were same but different. Same but different is a huge concept to my people. We slept in a citadel. I really have no idea why. We either become smaller or what I believe was we took on human form to sleep. Our phoenix bodies rested inside us. Leaving us looking like glittering humanoid creatures. Sleep was very breif. We then took to the skies for morning flight. We danced, sang, courted our mates. reproduced by splitting and lived a very simple life. Emotions of another were easily perceived and almost impossible to be hidden. There was no such thing as a lie, not even the lie of omittance. Everyon functioned at some sort of job that was different then everyone elses, thus we all fit together as a flock. There was no jostling for rank. Everyones personality had suited them to the task they were in, thus they enjoyed it naturally. ( I relieaze with some humor that had it been a creatures function to lie he would've been able too.) I was an initiator. I was first in the skies to fly. Everyone would follow me because I was the first to do anything. The first to lead in the name song reheasals, the first to begin a dance. Outsiders would perceive me as some kind of leader but I led soley by personality. I could not force them to follow me in any way, merely they did becasue of my personality and they followed because of some kind of flock instinct. I cannot order my species about, I can only hope the follow my example, if I am doing the right thing that is. I theorize that perhaps my perception of time was different and closer to a humans then it was to the rest of my speices. I was a time keeper for them, leading them from task to task. I saw time in a linear or block fashion, where as they saw time more fluidly. My mate was our progenitor. We all came from him splitting himself. Over time a phoenix possess an overabundance of soul and then splits. This is perhaps how we manage to be one body with many functions. As soon as a phoenix has too many functions or is growing to much in function he splits the aspects of himself to create another phoenix who takes on whatever function he had gained. Thus we remained highly simple creatures. Even though our function can be complex, like Hopwa, we are simple in the way we carry it out. Hopwa was the first of my kind I had contact with. I know of Hopwa's function to be one who brings hidden things to light. However to do this he often causes pain. I don't perceive Hopwa as gentle, quite the opposite. Hopwa's contact helped me find the phoenix tucked deep inside myself. No job was some how more important or valuable then the other. The only exception to this would be our progenitor. He was very special but still. He was special by function. His soul had brought all our souls into being. Thus we may have chosen to protect him at all costs perceiving him as most valuable. With my people group our souls are matched in worth. Some souls are worthy of a soul but the other soul is not worthy of them. It is the unworthy soul that would be perceived as 'better' in our human culture. The unworthy soul is the more unique and harder to match soul. Many souls might match it's worth and be able to mate with that soul. But that soul could only mate with one or two of it's many matches. Because Progenitor and Initiator are very similar my mate was perceived as the King and I as the Queen. Though we might have been perceived backwards. Given Progenitor is more of a motherly role. And again with my people a spade is not a spade. I remember the citadel being colorful and sky being blue. I remember me flying across my people group and them looking up. I was capable seeing through their eyes because some of them were my children, my soul splits, and so I had a special connection with them. They were me and I was them but we functioned differently. I remember seeing through my Progenitors eyes and him through my eyes. (Likely he saw through everyones eyes at once) We loved each other with a painfully simple love. We regarded eachother highly. To be regarded by the Progenitor feels special but I'm not sure it felt any better then an other mating pair. We were soul related though so we could feel eachothers regard and see eachother in a special way as mates. I suppose this has it's downside compared to being non soul split mates. You would also not see there anger at times. If they felt any. When he flew he flew in the middle of the flock, a bit towards the beginning. As a human I would've expected him to spend all his time with me as his mate, but that was not his function. Our mating rituals were somewhat war like and violent. Their was a lot of mock fighting and showing off in these rituals. We would grab talons and spiral about. We would attack and peck at eachother and hiss and duck down. It was a lot of fun actually. It was likely a way to take out aggression and to prevent differences from forming. We did not mate to reproduce though, in fact we reproduced so that we could mate. So that we could match each other with similar soul worths, which was not similar to function, only a little bit. Worth and function are not the same thing. But they can be similar. Obviously Initiator and Progenitor have some functional overlap. However courage and other things are what truly make up a soul. We would spread ourselves wingtip to wigtip and align our necks to greet eachother. Beaks were closed. I don't believe we ever touched feathers though. And there was never a need for feather grooming. However my phoenix side has allowed my human side to groom her. Kind of concession to the idea that I am primate. Also we danced quite a bit. Spreading wings, hoping and rotating our heads, bending out necks backwards. We had name songs. Hopwa is the middle end part of Hopwa's name song. The beginning of my song was Rashanakaru. However when heard as phoenix song there is little conection in the sounds. Ra is a high mournful pitch and every elongated whereas sha goes down several pitches and is shorter. I don't understand fully the translation part or why it comes to my ears or mind as Rashanakaru. I wonder if we had two languages, one of song and one of words. Or perhaps a written language. This is the only way I can understand it at the moment. Our names were our life stories, they explained how we fit into the group. We did not keep track of genealogy though. Obviously that was known intuitively. Name songs shifted. A soul split would obviously create the biggest difference and change in song. Also new functions gained or names recieved. These are life songs. My new name has changed quite a bit since my phoenix side returned to her realm. Despite the fact that we did not reproduce sexually we may have had lose gender identities. I'm still trying to figure this out. However I return to our logic system. Just because two phoenix's identify as female doesn't mean an outsider would. Edited by Cendrillion, Mar 1 2012, 07:30 AM.
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| Cendrillion | Feb 27 2012, 02:22 PM Post #2 |
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We were attacked by a threat They came to take the sky away They hated us because of our fire. These were the two thing we perceived by the threat. We perceived them as a single unit, a sky beast, a white dragon surrounded in mist. I remember some of us fought against the creature. I through myself at it's very mouth perhaps to save the others. Perhaps I was just intiating the fight. However the Porgenitor split his soul, destroying it so that we could be saved by propeling us into different universe planes. But he did what any progenitor would've done which is split his own soul and destroy himself to save all of his children. My memories are vague and being phoenix seem illogical compared to the way the attack was perceived by the attackers. However I could just not want to lay hold of the true memories. We were perceived as beings of illusion. Which usually implies trickery. But for us I believe it stemmed from our strangeness of logical illogic. Hopwa was perceived as guardian by outsiders, and perhaps he is. I know of Hopwa's function to be one who brings hidden things to light. However to do this he often causes pain. Thus perhaps he seemed fiercer then the other. I don't understand. I don't perceive Hopwa as gentle, quite the opposite. But he is not really a guardian of the royal court. Hopwa is a very strong creature but I don't believe we had a royal court. I was perceived as king. The progenitor was perceived as queen. Because our realm was one of steady fire we must have seemed volatile and dangerous. Edited by Cendrillion, Feb 29 2012, 10:53 PM.
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| Cendrillion | Feb 29 2012, 10:15 PM Post #3 |
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I ended up on earth and that is why I live here now as a human with connection to a phoenix. I was present at is formation I believe. Though I doubt I played a creative hand. If I /did/ it was only the phoenix who resides in me, I am merely a human descended from humans. I was fighting a large blue giant. Who looked an awful lot like the god Nun. Nun is a peaceful god though so I wonder why I felt he was an enemy. Perhaps being thrust into that primitive creative realm I still felt the need to be fighting. I resonate with the Bennu bird because I recall passing through a flaming stone heart which is eerily similar to some of the Bennu myth. I then came into what we now call earth. As an earth creature I lived many animal lives. This is the first time I recall being human. Perhaps after many years it was time to apply human logic to the phoenix problem. I don't know. Perhaps I was born human to meet the people I have met. Edited by Cendrillion, Feb 29 2012, 10:51 PM.
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| Cendrillion | Feb 29 2012, 10:27 PM Post #4 |
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I also theorize that the progenitor of our species. And he was the original progenitor. He was the first to be phoenix and form phoenixes. Had lead a life as another creature prior to becoming a phoenix and founding our planet. I imagine him to have been dissatisfied with his own people group. He may have been one of the gods who gave up godhood in order to form a sort of utopia. |
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| Cendrillion | Mar 1 2012, 07:39 AM Post #5 |
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First off I should explain how I know this to be true, or more accurately why I think this to be true, I really don't know if it's true or just creativity. But I will explain the highlights of my awakening in order. 1) I realized I have wings. This happened when I became aware of my energetic body. They were traditional angel wings that extended out my back. 2) I had a very specific vision in which I pass life regressed. I started out seeing and feeling myself flying as a vulture across the sky. My arms where folded but I could feel phantom limbs. I continued to regress backwards in a fashion. I went through many lives of animals touching on them briefly. I don't actually remember what animals they were now. It's been a year or two. I do however remember I was jaguar. She is another important life that I haven't fully tapped. And I remember being a beautiful phoenix bird. At first I looked more like an exotic bird of paradise. I was making a trip to Heliopolis I believe. However I then encountered a large stone heart set ablaze. I inverted through this heart which was somewhat painful but brief. I was no longer on what we know as earth. I was a giant blazing phoenix and I was fighting a equally large creature who looked exactly like the Egyptian God Nun. We were part of a pre earth plane. I remember a few things more about this vision. All my animal lives I practiced magic and was a spirit guide. Even if my job was simply to show up at the right time and place to give someone a 'sign' I felt these things more then saw them though. It was like a major information download so not everything could be played out. Also I knew that I had existed before that fight with the creature like Nun. I had an existence that spanned and even longer time and I was from a distant part of the universe. 3) I had another dual vision. By this I mean it was shared by me and a friend. It mostly consisted of me in my massive fiery phoenix form. 4) I met Hopwa. I actually forget the circumstances of his introduction but at first I though Hopwa was my kin side. Hopwa helped me quite a bit in meditation. I would be meditating and he would search my body and pull out anything that seemed to be off in my spiritual body. Also Hopwa would move about within me and around me. 5) I rescued I's. Now I's is my kin side. I = me. I was in meditation, and Hopwa was no where to be found. I saw a dragon (sorry dragon kin!) uncoil itself and open it's eyes. I summoned a sword into my hand and cut open the dragons heart. Inside the heart sack was a small, sickly sad phoenix. I held the phoenix with one hand and slashed the dragon to bits with other. Apparently slicing through it's heart was not enough to kill it. 6) I cared and learned from both Hopwa and I's. Over time however I began to understand that I's was related to me closer the Hopwa was. Hopwa was merely around so I would find and take care of I's. I's name was revealed as Rashanakaru. After Rasha and me became a functioning unit Hopwa left. 7) I had a very specific memory about my people through Rasha's eyes. I also watched how my people were destroyed. Thinking deeply about this memory allows me to give most of the information in the article, except when I theorize and then I state I am theorizing. 8) When ever I want I can access Rasha's thinking and memories, it's not as strong as when I totally enter the mind space of a phoenix, but it is still strong. Edited by Cendrillion, Mar 1 2012, 08:09 AM.
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