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Please help; my story
Topic Started: Oct 14 2012, 12:54 AM (199 Views)
Harry

Hi my names harry and im 16.

Last year i started talking to a girl on facebook called becca who was close to where i lived and she is a really nice girl. we talked all the time and were very close. Towards the end of the last school year i was an idiot at school (i dont know why i did what i did) and i annoyed all of my freinds and none of them wanted to know me anymore, and becca was the only person who was there for me. We started getting closer than just freinds and we said i love you but never went out.

Becca meant the world to me, but then my then best friend met her and they hit it off too. They then started dating and it hurt me. i decided i would date becca's best friend out of spite and depression but i grew close to her freind called sarah and i fell for her head over heels. But after about a month she broke my heart and never spoke to me again. and this made me really depressed and i started cutting my wrists. I later found out that my best freind, who was still going out with becca, was lying to her and i was upset so i tried to tell becca but my best friend told her i was lying and she swore never to talk to me again and neither did my best freind.

So at this point, becca refused to talk to me, sarah hated my guts and so did my best freind and all of my school hated me. I hated myself and the cutting was worse than ever. to this day (about five months after the events i have just listed) becca is still dating my ex best friend but i still love her and i am really depressed and lonely. I have no social life and i am overweight. I started smoking, drinking and im also on drugs now.

I opened up to one of the girls in my year but now she does'nt like me and wants nothing to do with it and my entire school avoids me because i smoke in school. Im depressing lonely to the point of using webcam chats and i occasionaly cross dress to have a female companion, i hate myself as well as having zero self confidence but for good measure i have anger issues and am quite strong so no-one in my schools calls me up on my mistakes because they are scared of me.

I really want someone to talk to as there is a little bit more to this story and i want to move on because i cant sleep and have been falling behind on my school work because of it and my grades are slipping.

Thank you
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You can always talk to me hun. People tell me I'm good at listening and helping. I will try my very best. My inbox is always open. Stay Strong Love.
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turbo the one

harry no need to just give up i can tell you have a lot of heart and care alot so dont get your self down i know ur better than that if you wanna talk more my skype is turbokills42
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