| Hello; Introducing myself - Christie | |
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| FoxxyRed | Oct 14 2012, 01:31 AM Post #1 |
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Hello everyone! My name is Christie. If anyone needs a friend, I'm your girl! I recently wrote a summary of my story for Facebook, since October is national bullying awareness month, so I'll share it with you here: I was bullied as a child. I was not, thankfully, physically bullied. I was verbally and emotionally bullied. When I was 5, I was the most extroverted little girl you could have met. I was friendly and I loved meeting new kids to play with. When I started kindergarten, my mom tells me I ran off to meet my new classmates without even hugging her goodbye. It was that day that I met the girl who would become the bane of my existence for the next 9 years. Throughout Elementary school and Jr. High I was picked on for everything the other kids could imagine. They called me ugly, stupid, fat, worthless, smelly and anything else they could think of. Most of what they called me was not true, but I took it to heart. This happened every day (with the exception of 6th grade, when I had a good friend in my class to protect me). I tried my best to become invisible. I stopped wanting to raise my hand in class, or do anything to draw attention to myself. By the time I reached 8th grade, I wanted to die. I often ate my lunch in the nurse's office or bathroom. I had always been a good student, but I stopped even caring about learning, doing homework and things I enjoyed doing, like reading or going outside. I was failing all of my classes. Nothing seemed important anymore, except to make it stop. I considered several ways to kill myself. I could hang myself, cut my wrists, down a bottle of pills... but fortunately for me, I had a few good friends. If it wasn't for them, the thought of what they would go through if I committed suicide, I would have done it. Others are not so lucky. I had a complete meltdown. One day, I threw myself into a wall in my living room, sobbing, grabbing fistfuls of hair and tearing at my face and body. I told my parents I could not take it anymore. I needed help. They took me to see a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I was put on medication and I went monthly to see the psychologist, to talk. It helped, but to this day I live with emotional scars because of what I went through. I'm still very introverted. I have a hard time making new friends or trusting new people. I'm still paranoid that when someone around me is laughing, that they might be laughing at me. I'm slowly learning to be me again, but it's going to take more time. I'm 25 years old now, and I think that I'm rediscovering the girl I once was. I wish I had known when I was a child what I know now. I was just a nice girl who had been targeted by people around me who were not so nice. It wasn't me, wasn't my fault. I blamed myself for a long time. I must have done something to bring all that on myself, I thought. I know better now. For those of you who have been or are being bullied, stay strong. Don't let them bring you down, and don't ever blame yourself. www.stopbullying.gov/ If you are considering suicide, PLEASE get help. Call 1-800-273-8255. |
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