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Coryn2013
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Oct 14 2012, 03:14 AM
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Hi everybody. My name is coryn. I am 17 years old and a senior at my high school. I have gone through hell and high water to be where I am today. I'll start off in 6th grade.... I was new to my school and wasn't a girly girl. I was made fun of for being a 'nerd' because I was in band and I actually tried in school. 7th grade I was made fun of because I didn't straighten my hair of all things. 8th grade I was made fun of for how skinny I am... that's when I became self conscious. In my mind I was a pizza-face-ugly-stick-forever-alone person. Every time I looked in the mirror, all I could see was bone, in my eyes. I would pick at my face to get rid of the pimples that seemed to be everywhere. I was also always self conscious about the bumps on my face that I was born with because people steadily would ask me "what are those ugly things on your face?" Everytime I looked in the mirror, I saw something wrong with me. My eyes were too droopy, my ribs were showing, my teeth weren't straight... I just wanted to change myself... then high school started and I started straightening my hair and finally trying to fit in, then my dad loled it up... a lot went down, but I'll keep it short, I haven't had much contact with my dad since my freshman year (I'm a senior now) but he called me names like cold hearted, cruel, heartless, and many more. if at this point I wasn't feeling alone enough, he made it worse, when I was at his house, I had to eat dinner by myself, I couldn't do aznything with my family. It was the worst thing. I felt soo alone, like I couldn't get out. I started cutting, my legs and arms, and suicide was always on my mind constantly, one time I actually tried.. luckily I didn't succeed. I stopped letting the comments and rumors bother me. I know who I am, not my bullies. Let them call me anorexic, spread rumors that I am having sex all the time when in all reality I'm a virgin. I've learned to accept myseelf for who I am because of who I am with. I am beautiful the way I am. Short hair and skinny legs. I am coryn. See my pride. If you need ANYONE to talk to, I am here for anybody. I l
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