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Hey I'm hailey beck; My life changing decision
Topic Started: Oct 14 2012, 03:26 AM (199 Views)
Halo1123
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Hey I'm Hailey Beck. I'm 16 I am athletic and the MVP of most of my basketball games. I am a lesbian and I constantly get picked on/ bullied. In 8th grade I had beautiful long dirty blonde hair that went to the swell of my back. I went to a charity event called saint baldrics. This organixation shaves people's heads as others watch and donate money. Normally the longer your hair the more money you raise. I wasn't planning on shaving my head that day because I loved my hair, but the moment I watched the first person do it and at that moment I knew I had to do it. I gelt so drawn to the fact that I could donate all my hair to a child with cancer.
I thought what I did was an amazing selfless thing. Well apparently not. Apparently by doing that I was a dike, my head was a weird shape and I need to wear a wig, I'm selfish for shaving my head just cause I'm lesbian. Well yes I am a lesbian but that doesn't mean i shaved my head just cause that. I never wanted to shave my head until I heard the stories about all the little kids that lost their hair. Little girls that were bald because there treatments. I know this isn't that bad but it's still bullying.
I just posted this to show people even the people you would never expect, such as a jock with lots of friends, cut and try to commit suicide. I can tell you that still even today I can stand in a crowd of people and still feel so utterly alone that sometimes I wonder if maybe I am?
I know people wha are saying why is Amanda so special? What about all the other kids? I said she's special cause just days before she made a international cry for help on YouTube. She wanted just one person to be there for her. And out of gosh I don't know trillions of people no one answered her cry for help....
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mandylee89
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If you need to talk im here :) anytime. Im always signd in and i dont judge. Pm me if u want
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acegod

hi the problem these days aren't because of you. Its NOT YOU. you are not the problem. Its every one else around you. If you go into main high street and town and just stand there you'll see people in their own world, like the file THE MATRIX. People are stuck in the matrix thought, they have to do this and that. Your different you decided to do something different. Don't let people put you down. Were all here for a purpose, yours was to help, someone else is there to hurt you. Ignore those with negativity.
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shellybledsoe2002

I have to give you a thumbs up for doing what you did. When my mom got cancer I thought about shaving my head so my mom wouldn't feel alone. In the end I never did because she wore a wig instead. You're story touches my heart because you were reaching out to people with cancer. If you want to chat please feel free to contact me anytime. I will listen to whatever you want to talk about. Your not alone.

When I was in school I was bullied. All through grade school and high school. Even when I got married, my husband would beat on me. Back in 2007 I moved to Dayton Ohio. In 2008 I found myself homeless not knowing where I was going half the time. Well in 2009 I met my husband Jerry. While things were great when we were dating we decided to get married. Thats when things changed. Two weeks after we got married we got drunk one night and we had a fight. He bounced my head on the floor like a basketball and pulled my hair so hard I pulled hand fulls of hair from my head. He went to jail for 30 days. I was stupid in thinking that he wouldn't do it again. So, I took him back. Then things just kept getting worse. When we got drunk he would beat on me. There were times I thought he would kill me. He would chock me and he wouldn't let me go. He would take all my money and my cell phone. I was really scared. Abuse was all I knew.

In that same year I met a guy who went through some horrible stuff like I did. We became friends. At that time we were both in relationships so getting together wasn't going to happen. Then one day out of the blue he said he was getting a divorce and I already had left my husband. He opened his heart to me and told me that he loved me from the time our eyes met and dreamed of getting together. I thought yeah right. Here we are today, together. We got together may 8th of this year and I couldn't be happier. We plan on getting married at some point. We left ohio (because of no jobs) in search of a new life. We found a new life in Oklahoma. I have been here a little over a week and already have a job interview tomorrow. So, there can be a happy ending after all. Our relationship is blessed by God. I can tell you this, I never loved any man like I love my fiance. I never felt loved like I do with him.

So, whatever your going through don't give up. When I was homeless I wanted to give up. I broke down and asked God for his guidance. He was a huge help to me. I wanted to just die and get it over with. Now I want to live and have a life. I plan on going back to school which I started in ohio before I came here and even though I didn't have a life outside of school and homework I had a blast. College is nothing like high school. So, keep your heads up high.
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