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not really seeing a point
Topic Started: Oct 15 2012, 01:08 AM (62 Views)
Paul

i really dont see a point.. why is it soo easy to help everyone else feel better about themselves and lift their spirits but yours still stay low and untouched? how is it possible to feel like your not important enough for the people that are important to you, why should i always feel alone when there are people around me?! i have a lot of hatred, i've been through too much to just forgive and forget all the sick, twisted and cruel things that have been said to me like a living nightmare that replays in my head day after day no one seen the pain in my eyes no one notices how much i really hurt and they never will ill hide it 'til the day i die. i ramble from one thing to the nxt not knowing which direction to go, which way is up or down.. in complete darkness with no light insight.. im used to pain and self inflicted injuries.. i know i enjoy pain, but not sure why after everything i've been through... is it an addiction? or maybe it's just pleasure? am i scared of dying? not at all, it's the fear of loling up and living with what happens if i dont succeed! not many people will understand me, now would i want the wrong ones to know? lol no doctors and shrinks cant help me the only chance for me is those who can understand this... those who can see past the fake smile and laugh, those who actually care enough to look deep to the root of the problems. do i expect everyone to come to my rescue? no i dont. so i'll continue to be the support everyone needs the voice that doesnt shake the person anyone can rely on! cuz that little bit i may save someones life puts me at peace and makes fighting my demons a little easier.
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Jayce

Hi Paul. It takes a lot of strength to be there for people when you feel ignored yourself... you must have a lot to give from your heart. If you'd like to talk, feel free to post up, PM, or add me on skype: jayce.on

Don't give up the fight against your demons!
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StandUpToBullying
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Paul I am afraid to say this but I think you might have an addiction... Go to your happy place when you think of anything bad...
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Kate

It great that you are supporting other people Paul. If you ever need someone to talk to yourself feel free to pm me :)
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Paul

as many times as my heart has been broken i cant seen to turn away from people in need people who hurt like i do. i give my trust, my respect my honor my loyalty to those in need because i know the feeling of having no one, the feeling of being in complete darkness with nothing but your thoughts raging... pulsing through your head and veins like adrenaline some of use, me included get the voices in our heads tormenting us.. drilling us why we are still here, why continue to fight a losing battle.... why keep putting ourselves through this sh*t on a daily basis.. and for me it's all of you reading this i may be damaged and hurting like a lot of people are but i will bend over backwards to give them all i have to offer because they deserve it! they deserve to feel the love and warmth of having friends that genuinely care about them and want to see them grow strong and become amazing and shinning individuals
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