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Topic Started: Oct 15 2012, 01:35 AM (51 Views)
mdwingate

I have had a crazy life, I had to listen to my parents fighting all the time, i saw my mom throw something at my dad and hit him in the face, I was 11 when they finally divorced. My mom pretty much left me after that. The summer in between my freshman and sophmore year i was in a really abusive relationship and was raped. We were only together for a month because I lived in a different state and was just visit family. Once I came back home I never saw him again. But it still happened and it has changed me so much. I started cutting because I thought that i did deserve what happened, i just wanted to die. and sometimes when i think about it now i even want to die. I haven cut in a while because my dad said he was going to send to a phsyc hospital and i didnt want that so i stopped and had to find another way to forget what happened for a while i would just cry, or punch a concrete wall but i finally realized that i will never forget it and ive accepted that. Ever since then every relationship that i have been has been ruined because i am to afraid that it will happen again. So i havent been in a good relationship in years. me and whoever i am with get a small fight and i tihnk that its going to happen again. Now I am 19 and have a 2 month old son. If it wasnt for my baby i would still be wanting to kill myself but I cant because I have him and he is everythng to me. But i do still think about it alot and idk what to do anymore. I want to be able to be happy with someone.
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BrittanyLove13
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I understand what you are going through. I was raped...it was the worst thing ever...my inbox is always open if you need to talk!
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Trinity
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I'm sorry to read what you've been through. I'm here if you want to talk.
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LoveMeForever

I COMPLETELY understand where your coming from. I too was raped and it changed me completly. I haven't been in a good relationship, im 20 now and have an 18 month old. If she wasn't here, i wouldn't be here either:/ pm me! Your not alone<3
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CryingForHelp234

i was raped when i was 8,my mum was careless and left me,the door knocked and i thought it was her,but it was some guy from our area,he got a kniefe and put it to my neck and said if i ever told he would slice me,he's in prison now so its okay,but i also got raped not long ago and ever since then i cant look at a boy anymore,i'm now 17 and have had to miscarriges (also got raped last year) i've had councilling etc,my inbox is always open and i'm online all night so if you or anyone wants to talk it will stay secret with me :)
Edited by CryingForHelp234, Oct 15 2012, 02:02 AM.
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