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| Yuuya Kizami | January 3, 2013, 1:08 pm Post #121 |
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| Ajogamer | January 3, 2013, 4:03 pm Post #122 |
 
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To Dubes: First off, your art isn't crap. Now, I'll agree with you that it is kinda rough, and isn't particularly impressive from an artistic standpoint at the moment, though nobody is going to be amazing from the get-go, and I have been noticing an improvement in your art as you've been doing it more. I also notice that your anatomy and overall proportions seem pretty good, which is something even some expert artists have some trouble with, so as your skills improve further, you may actually have a bit of an edge in that way. Your art is also often interesting in the concept, and I think you're creative. I've enjoyed the humor or surreal aspect you've instilled into some of your drawings, and the morbidness you've added to others. I also want to say that just cause people don't reply, it doesn't always mean they don't enjoy it. I know there have been multiple instances in which I've enjoyed a post (not just yours, but by various people, on various forums), but didn't quite know what to say, and so I didn't say anything. Now, perhaps you'd think I could have at least said something like, "That was amusing", or "Nice job, I enjoyed that!" but I feel like if I repeatedly gave short responses like that, it could wind up looking insincere, plus I generally like my posts to have a bit of meat to them. I'll admit it's possible I may be over thinking it a bit though, since I know that can be a fault of mine at times. Another thing I can admit is that I can sometimes be lazy. There are times where I see something I want to reply to, but I want my reply to be substantial, and I either happen to be feeling tired, or am feeling impatient, and want to get to something non-forum related, so I decide to come back to it later, when I can more easily come up with a better reply. Sometimes, I wind up doing just that, but other times, I end up forgetting, and if I do remember, it may not be for a decent bit, at which point I may feel a bit too much time has passed for my reply to not seem odd. Perhaps I should try and worry about that less, though. As for your Audiotorium topics, There are a few reasons they may not always get as much activity. For one thing, many of the games you've made require a bit more thought to them, so they're not the sort of thing you can just go to and post a response in about a minute. Honestly, I'd consider that a good thing, since I've generally found the games you've made very enjoyable due to that. It does mean that posting in those topics can require more time though, so posts are bound to come slower. Another thing is that many people have been busy with the Corpse Royale game recently, and that's another game that seems to take quite a time commitment. Since that's been going, I know I've noticed less posts being made to not just to your ongoing games, but to others as well. While it's true that the players in the Corpse Royale are limited, this forum's userbase, while bigger than before, is still relatively small, and not all of our userbase visit the Audiotorum at the same frequency. One last thing to keep in mind about activity to all of your topics is that people's schedules change. Many have been busy lately due to the Holidays, and I also know that there have been a few members who have been busier in their life due to other things, as of late. I myself ended up building two computers (my brothers and my own), about two weeks ago, so between the computer setup, the Holidays, and my want to use my new computer, I may have been lazier about posting at the forums as of late. Anyway, the point of all this long-windedness is that there can be many, many reasons people don't reply other than a lack of interest. I know I've also had topics and posts on various forums that didn't get many responses, if any, so I can definitely understand how a lack of response can be disappointing. I've learned to keep in mind that it doesn't necessarily mean people didn't find my post interesting or enjoyable, however. Also, if it's a topic in which you need other's input to continue, such as the game topic, and a notable amount of time has passed, feel free to give them a quick bump. Also, lemme say that I'm saying all this not because I'm mad (I don't feel that way at all at the moment, to be honest), but because I enjoy your posts and topics, and would like to see you stick around these forums, and to enjoy the time you spend here. Also, I hope the tougher times you're going through get better soon. As you pointed out, your car broke down, so I think the limitations that imposes on you very well could be a part of what's gotten you more depressed lately; I'm not sure how the area surrounding you is, but you could try walking to some nearby places, or if the area's nice enough, even taking a walk in general, since that can sometimes be relaxing. I suppose winter isn't the best time for that, though sometimes even getting out a bit can help a person feel better. Lastly, one thing I want to say to everyone talking about either feeling like they'd want to disappear or die: When you're dealing with a lot of depression, some feelings of this sort are actually pretty normal; I've actually had similar thoughts at times. It can be unnerving the first time it happens, but unless you actually feel like there's an urge to do so, I'd say the best thing to do is to not worry about it, and realize it's nothing more than a thought; You'd be hard-pressed to find a person who hasn't been exposed to the concept of suicide, and most people tend to think more negatively when they're in a state of depression, so some darker thoughts aren't that unusual. If you see these thoughts as insignificant, then there's a much better chance they'll feel that way, too. A person who is actually suicidal will usually be seriously considering it for some time beforehand, or may wrongly see the thoughts as a sign, while a person who's simply playing with the idea while depressed may think about it for a little, then will be able to put things into perspective, perhaps by thinking of the aspects of life they enjoy, or the people they'd disappoint if they did die (I can guarantee there are multiple people for each one of you). As long as your thoughts are more like the latter than the former, and they're more "thought" than "urge", then I'd say you're better off not worrying about it, and to instead try focus your thoughts on what could be done to improve your situation, or at least improve your mood for the time being. Also, lemme say here that you guys speaking up about it isn't bad, nor would I assume that any of you are suicidal simply cause you mentioned the thought. Being more open and honest about your feelings is a good way to let them out, so when I'm saying to give those negative thoughts less importance, I'm not saying that you have to completely ignore them, or not speak up about them. I'm more saying to realize that some negative thoughts are part of being depressed, and that they're only as significant as you see them. So try to let those negative emotions escape, be it by crying, telling someone, writing them out, or whatever else works (though not violence, of course), and try to change your mindset to a more positive one (which can take a lot of work at times, but gets easier with practice). It'll generally make you feel a lot better if you let your negative emotions out rather than suppressing them. You can still let your negative emotions out in a more controlled way (and that's probably often better), but if you try too hard to completely suppress them, that can sometimes cause you to suppress other emotions as well, which can lead to that state in which you begin to feel somewhat numb to emotion, and empty. Edited by Ajogamer, January 3, 2013, 7:37 pm.
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| superdubes | January 3, 2013, 8:05 pm Post #123 |
The horror.
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Thank you for your post Ajo. I can tell it took some though and I appreciate it. |
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| DeathkaiserG | January 3, 2013, 9:25 pm Post #124 |
Faraway Black Jewel
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Thanks..... and yeah, sorry dubes... |
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| superdubes | January 4, 2013, 5:59 am Post #125 |
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One thing after another. My PC crashed and won't start again. |
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| Yoshiki Kishinuma | January 6, 2013, 9:46 pm Post #126 |
The Hero of Another Story
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Okay. Lemme sum up the events of this week. Major stress, anger, and frustration. I'm moving, but I'm late. I was supposed to move out about a week ago. But there is a bunch of things that I need to do before moving out that I'm not able to. Thank god (we/I) had more time to prepare. I'm angered by the way everything's been going, but I can't change it. I'm frustrated over everything, and I want to jump out a window. Angered by the fact that I couldn't get online to say this earlier, or to tell my friends, etc. What was going on. I wanted to post on Corpse Royale, tell my friends what has been going on, stop in this site and say hi, but I can't. I'm surprised I have time to breath, let alone make this post. I'm stressing out over something as simple as using the computer. Depressed, but less depressed. Sad, disappointed. Feels like my best is never good enough. I'm trying my best to rush the packing, hell. I'm throwing out and donating some of my stuff, but that's still not fast enough to get this all over with. Maybe I just leave it all at the house. I want to get this all over with, but god am I not going quick enough. Got a really bad cut, practically ignored it. I don't have enough time to breath. So it's really stressful when I get cut. It wasn't horrible, so I just made a makeshift bandaid and ignored it. I'm trying to use minimal computer, but I thought it'd be okay to post this to say "hey, I'm still alive!" So you know what's going on. My sister is sick, so I'm caring for her a little bit. Don't wanna talk about it. Several days over due on moving. What else did I miss? I'm moving out of the country, and the house I lived in for the longest time. I'm sick, but I don't have time to sulk over it or take a day off, and I don't even have time to get anything done lately. The stress is horrible. |
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| superdubes | January 8, 2013, 4:57 am Post #127 |
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I just found out the earliest I'm getting my new truck is now January 22nd. Classes start on the 14th. That's a whole week and a half, maybe even 2, without a vehicle. It all depends on when I can get it from where my mom lives. She's half way across the state from me. @Yoshiki I hope it all works out for you sooner rather than later. I won't claim to know what kind of stress you're going through right now, but I know first hand that too much stress can cause literal pain. So be careful friend. Edited by superdubes, January 8, 2013, 4:58 am.
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| superdubes | January 14, 2013, 3:28 pm Post #128 |
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Scratch the 22nd of this month. I just found out that I'll have to wait another 6 weeks to get my vehicle... 6 WEEKS! I think I've reached the point of not caring anymore. Nothing really good ever comes my way. I don't know why I even expect anything other than bad news anymore. |
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| Minene | January 17, 2013, 9:48 pm Post #129 |
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Arghh..I feel bad for posting here for some reason. Alack..it's the only place I can really post about this where my family won't be able to snoop and read it. Here goes, I guess. I have been super anxious lately. I think it's because I'm only just now starting to realize the gravity of my current situation..in a house with a family that's been falling apart for years and a progressive lung disease that is slowly making me weaker day by day. I shouldn't even be thinking about death, and things like that, especially at my age, but when it's practically grabbing me by the throat every day, slowly tightening it's grip, it's hard not to. I guess..I'm sick of being sick, really. I miss the times when it wasn't a chore to breathe or eat..those are basic human things, it shouldn't be so hard.. Not even drawing has really helped me lately..that's odd.. ..I've still got one hell of a life to live; I'm gonna live it to it's fullest. I'm just..afraid of what will happen to me when it's over. What will happen to those I hold dear..to my memories..I'm scared of it. |
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| superdubes | January 18, 2013, 3:05 pm Post #130 |
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You shouldn't feel bad for posting anything here. That's what I made the topic for. I'm just sorry that there is nothing I can say to try to comfort you. That doesn't mean I'm not going to try though. About the family falling apart. When I was 4 my mom and dad divorced. He was abusive to her and she left him. Even today, 21 years later, I still hear her ramming those stories down my throat of the times she was with him. She then went on to have one abusive relationship after another, and my sisters and I were caught in the middle of it all the time. Her 2nd husband actually moved us halfway across the country and I couldn't see my dad except for on the holidays. Even then we'd have to drive for 18 hours to get there. Then once my dad even beat the crap out of me, and we had to get a restraining order on him. So I know all about the family unit, and things not being good with it. It sucks to be a kid and being caught in the drama that your parents make. You feel powerless, and just have to put up with it. Just try to latch onto the moments that aren't so bad. I'm sure by now you can see things coming before they explode. So just do what you can to avoid them. I won't be the person to say not to think of the end. It doesn't mean defeat to think about it. Even those of us lucky enough to be completely healthy think about it. No one can really answer for you what comes after. I'm an atheist, and for me the end isn't sad, happy, or horrible. It's just an end. That being said it scares me too. No one wants to face the end. Just because that's what I think doesn't mean it's true though. Maybe there is a soul. Maybe there is an afterlife. The only people that would be able to tell us that are already gone. While it's normal to wonder about what the future holds. You should not let it always be at the forefront of your thoughts. The people that you hold dear will still remember you, and continue to love you. They'll laugh about the good times and even some of the bad. So you shouldn't worry about them to an extreme either. The first sentence of your last section of your post is what you need to hold on to. Sometimes it's remarkably easy for people to forget that. Just hold onto that feeling, and the fear you spoke of won't be what you think about. Just remember the good times, and think of the good times to come. There will most definitely be low points, but don't let them taint the joy you get from the good moments. Edited by superdubes, January 18, 2013, 3:06 pm.
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