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| L3Z4 | January 29, 2015, 6:16 am Post #521 |
 
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@Poké: Sure it sucks... In addition, I'm in the red, so it's not like I can spend any money― OTL
Edited by L3Z4, January 29, 2015, 6:18 am.
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| Yoshiki Kishinuma | January 30, 2015, 7:47 am Post #522 |
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Today, as I walked into the bathroom to take a shower, I made a the mistake of looking in the mirror. "But Broshiki -- it's just a mirror! What's the big deal?" I don't think you understand -- I think I've only told one person about this prior to now, but I have a pathological fear of looking at myself in the mirror. I don't even have the words to describe how I feel when I accidentally look at myself. It's a mix between self depreciation, fear, and a small piece of dissociation. It's like my self image is so skewed that I feel a mix of fear and shock when I look in a mirror. For a very long time, I've been actively avoiding mirrors -- not because or superstitions of fear that I may see a monster, no -- unless you count seeing myself as seeing a monster. Sometimes, when I look in the mirror, or I'm crying, or any other random situation, I feel so disgusted -- this is the person people have to see every day. My family has no choice but to look at my face and I feel so, so guilty. If I could change it, I would. I'm so, so sorry that people have to look at it. I look... haha... there are too many words to describe how terrible I am appearance-wise. On another note, I feel a sense of impending doom. I feel like the end is near and I'm very scared. I don't know what to do at this point. I'm really, really scared and I don't know what to do. I just don't know. I'm sorry. I don't know where I was going with this. |
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| Shigitou burikaa | January 30, 2015, 8:17 am Post #523 |
give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust-
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(I swear i learn new things about you every day.) Well i fear of looking at myself naked... ._." Not really important i guess considering it isnt as bad as with you and mirrors. So.... I dont know where i was going with that.. In another case, i understand why you fear that, and i hear that it is a very hard fear to overcome. ...  i wanna say more but i dont know why i cannot!? Im sorry for only having pointless replies, yoshiki. Sorry.
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      ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás.. ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana!
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| Yoshiki Kishinuma | January 30, 2015, 8:30 am Post #524 |
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Don't worry about it, Poke... |
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| Shigitou burikaa | February 1, 2015, 2:46 pm Post #525 |
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give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust-
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... Apparantly when they say "cheaters never win," they lied. So that whole term is all a hoax and it is just bull. Well i spent another minecraft night Alone. But it wasnt like anyone would come. There isnt much else to say, other than i had a nightmare where everyone was yelling at me for everything bad that i did... Via skype and here. It was so bad that i appologized out of the blue for the reason. *sigh* At least it is all over. |
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ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás. . ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana!
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| Yoshie Shinozaki | February 1, 2015, 3:35 pm Post #526 |
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At least it is over, it's all I can really say of your nightmare and playing alone. Take care of yourself, man, don't have a heart attack at such a young age. But speaking of the term 'Cheaters Never Win', apparently it's the case for my dad as of late. He spoke to me while he was cleaning some clothes and said "What are you gonna do about your job when I leave?"... Those words startled me to say the least. My mom's been holding onto the thought of him cheating on her twenty two years ago, and keeps reminding him of it. So he's ready to throw it all away and walk, but I'm not exactly sure how to react, I've heard these threats before so it's like it's nothing anymore. To me, I think they're both nuts, and I just want this vicious cycle to end already, it doesn't matter whether good or bad. I don't care anymore... |
| "I Return This Nightmare. I Will Find You. Sleepless, Cloaked In Despair. I'm Behind You. Man Has Made Me Oh So Strong. Blurring Lines Of Right And Wrong. Far Too Late For Frail Amends. Now It's Come To Sweet Revenge. Desperate Hands That Lose Control. Have No Mercy On Your Soul."- Here Comes Revenge By Metallica. | |
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| Cain Marder | February 1, 2015, 4:47 pm Post #527 |
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Well, when I look on the mirror I'm like... *looks in the mirror* HOLY F*CK!!! *jumps back* *hits the wall* *bounces and hits the ground*.... Nah, actually every time when I look in the mirror I start to make jokes, tonse of them, like being in the fron of the public of something, like, really, if anybody would put a camera in my bathroom and then compare that with any of Jacksepticeye's videos, you would never guess who's who. I'm loud, and really darn funny.... and I get up early in the morning with no darn reason like 5 A.M. in the morning and what to do for 2 hours, making fun of myself for 1 hour in the bathroom, the best hobby you could ever ask if  And about "cheaters never win", believe me, it is true, in a way or another, the cheater is punished. And back to the mirror thing, I do this whatever, is like smoking man, I just can't stop doing it every morning, but is more of a benefic thing cause I feel so relax for the rest of the day^^ What scares me for rwal is when I meet a new person because I always got the feeling that that person might see me just as a boring guy, a nobody and ignore me or to hate me right away, and that's why I am always sooo nervous when I meet someone new, like seriously, sweating and everything...... even that I know that is mostly unlikely to happen, I still am like that, which makes me to feel like ounching myself after the awkward meeting like "you goddarn idiot" If you would meet me for the first time it would be like. You: Hi, how are you? Me: H-hi... I'm ok, I guess.... And that would be the first conversation, and after that I feel like an idiot because I don't have to worry about anything, and I know it, but I still do it..... |
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Spoiler: click to toggle  " ... You welcome, I love you ... Ima gonna die now... Oh shit, here they come, I'm fuckin' dead, this car has no traction... NOO!! Don't kill me!! Anything but this! WHY I'M MAKIN' DONUTS?!?!" " This keer  !!!"
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| L3Z4 | February 1, 2015, 5:19 pm Post #528 |
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Yeah, smoking is definitely much, much worse. Trust me, I'm certainly not gonna stop smoking any time soon, even if I know it is no good. And it's not cheap, either. |
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| Cain Marder | February 1, 2015, 5:32 pm Post #529 |
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Yeah, I know what you say, my father smokes every day and he have asthma and he's allergic at cat fur so yeah..... I will stick with saying jokes on the bathroom, is much healthier, and doesn't cost me anything^^ |
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Spoiler: click to toggle " ... You welcome, I love you ... Ima gonna die now... Oh shit, here they come, I'm fuckin' dead, this car has no traction... NOO!! Don't kill me!! Anything but this! WHY I'M MAKIN' DONUTS?!?!" " This keer !!!"
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| Shigitou burikaa | February 1, 2015, 9:11 pm Post #530 |
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give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust-
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I think there is something wrong with me! My head feels lightheaded, from drinking too much root beer. WATTHAFACK! |
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ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás. . ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana!
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