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| Ist Kisaragi | November 8, 2012, 8:28 am Post #61 |
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Superdubes: I agree with diabolic, dubes, your art is pretty damn good, so don't give up just yet! Diabolic: Damn, man. I pretty similiar issues that my parents complain about my actions, and my crying, young sister is driving me nuts, since I wish she would shut the hell up. Naho: All can really advise is that, try to play games to help get over it, or try to toughen through it. Mayu: Congrats on a sucessful surgery that didn't end in disaster. Try looking up some youtube stuff to get your mind off of wanting activities. As for your dad just talk it out with him, and try to ask him what's wrong. As for the money issue, just persevere. Check out some CP playthroughs, or await for BoS. Well my turn: Just bored, annoying classmates, hard as hell homework, boring classes. Wishing for some more BoS, or maybe some manga, 2U news. Or maybe just wanted some damned CP anime to watch. Wish I could have a more stronger creativity spark, so I could write something akin to a creepypasta(want to get my foot in the door and to give it a shot), or to continue my fanfiction. |
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| Mayu Suzumoto | November 8, 2012, 12:37 pm Post #62 |
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It's no problem, hun. Better late than never, huh? I appreciate all the well-wishes from everyone on the surgery. (Er...psp-ist? I don't think every surgery "ends in disaster" but I understand what you were trying to say, so thank you. XD) @ Diabolic: Anyway, yeah, diabolic. I completely understand. I read your post, and I have to say I'm pretty much in the same situation money-wise, job-wise, and class-wise. We're quite a bit in the same boat. My family situation is a touch different, but I do understand the gist of your issues. I'm sorry -- being 20 something and stuck is pretty...difficult. I've been dealing with it for a few years, so yeah...it's really difficult. (Also, yes, this also impedes gaming -- like the Vita. Gaming = happiness. Money = Job. Job = People actually hiring. .____.) Also, when it comes to your family, I know without money and a job, it's difficult to really do anything. I feel for you though, with your mother bothering you about it. That's not really fair though, for her to judge you one day and ask for your help the next. If you're so "immature" -- why is she asking your help about her relationship in the first place? As you said, this sounds like a lack of responsibility. (Not to mention the jumping jobs thing.) Do you think perchance that she's directing her own personal insecurities on you? It's possible she doesn't even realize it. I don't know, just a thought. It sounds like there's not much you can do about your brother, so I'd try to let your stress on that one go. It's unnecessary with everything else you're feeling, you know? You can't really change him or anything, so let him go his own path. He'll realize one day what responsibility is. If he doesn't -- well, not to be blunt, but that's your mother's issue, no? I think one day she'll realize which of her kids has his head on straight and his thoughts on responsibility and his own future. You really sound like you're trying to me, and I think you sound very, very responsible. Given everything you're putting up with, I give kudos to you for keeping it together and keeping on. I mean, in the end, that's all one can do, but I also know mentally the stress toll is high, and might make one say "screw it." You're not doing that at all despite the difficulties in life, and I think, overall, that makes you an incredibly strong person. I respect you, and I know for sure that one day you'll find something. At this stage in our lives (I can speak from "right now" experience, heh.) we're all swimming about trying to find our "thing." A job, a class (online classes are just fine, I think!) or just seeing new sights. We're all searching, and because you keep searching despite the problems, I just *know* something will happen to you that's good. I try to keep that outlook in my own life, because I'm rather stuck at the moment, too. I try to always keep my spirits up by telling myself that one day, all the hard work and searching will pay off, and I'll find my "true path." Know what I mean? I know it's tough, but just keep up your faith in yourself. I'm rooting for you, and I know you can do it! ♥  @ Superdubes: I'm not sure exactly what's going on, but please remember my offer from before. If you'd ever, ever like to just talk or need someone to listen to you, please feel free to message me. I never mind lending an ear, whether you need advice or not. Feel better, please. *hugs* ♥ @ Nahomatic & psp-ist: Thanks for the advice, guys. ^^ --- My issue still stands, really. Money, money, money. Let's pay this bill this week and push this to this week and we'll pay the late fees and hope it doesn't get shut off and oh wait, this to this week, etc. >___>;; I'm simply trying not to think on it, although it's painfully obvious when I go to make myself something to eat and have to get rather creative with what food we *do* have. I have to take medicines for headaches and such to get ride of my dizziness when I haven't eaten for so long. I keep just hoping that the next grocery shop will be better. (I do the shopping, so that's a plus. If I have enough money to work with, I can get some nice food!) I really miss all the Japanese noodle dishes that I would buy. (Not ramen, the authentic noodle dishes.) It's really not something I need advice on, though. I mean, just time. It'll help. We'll get money saved. We always tend to have this dry spell in November because of saving up and preparing for holidays and bills at the same time. Kind of sucks the money out of the house, you know? Thankfully, by the end of November from what I understand, we should be doing better. (Seriously, just thinking about how much I'm going to eat on Thanksgiving makes me drool. Food! FOOOOOOD~)  Things between my dad, my mother & I are fine at the moment. We're all in the same boat, so we're just all struggling together. It's nice not to be alone, in that respect, although it's tough to see them struggle. They probably feel the same about me. I can't actually get a job, really. I mean, as much as I'd love to see if there was anything in the area, I have a bit of a job at home. (Not anything I can get paid for, though. Not anything I'd *want* to get paid for.) My mom's got an illness (no worries! not life-threatening -- just permanent.) and I generally have to help her out with little things. Nobody likes to leave her at home alone for this reason, so my dad depends on me during the day while he's at work to help her out. It's been going on for so long, it feels like second nature to me. I've become a bit of a caretaker -- but seeing how happy she is when I help her is worth more than any money in the world. I don't mind helping my mother out -- she's a lovely soul.Still, yeah...can't get a job or go to school (outside) atm. So, I've been looking around in some online courses. Fingers crossed I find something. I found a nice website to learn Korean, and you get a week's registration free before you have to pay -- I was thinking of trying it out and then seeing what I could do from there if I like it. I go a tad stir-crazy, you know? I have a heck of a lot of free time, that's for sure. So, in the mean-time for this month, I'm going to try to stay as positive as possible and keep my parents' spirits up! ^___^;; I mean, it's a bit of a burden sometimes, feeling like the adult in the mental respect -- I won't lie -- but it's also rewarding in the respect that they depend on me, therefore I can really help them out. I want them to be happy, so I'm sticking to being chipper. I'm going to do my best! |
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| Diabolic | November 8, 2012, 5:08 pm Post #63 |
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Thanks, Mayu! That honestly just made my day reading that just now, if only you knew how much of a good feeling that gave me, thanks alot! I'm happy to hear things are going better for you too, by the way. You have a really great outlook on life, it seems, and that's what's gonna count in the long run (I might have to start being more cheerful myself sometimes instead of just faking it for a cheap laugh haha). But you really are gonna go far with that viewpoint of yours, and good luck with your search for online courses, and good luck with learning korean, it sounds like it'll be fun! Don't worry, you'll find your true path too! If a guy like me can do it, you can do it too! (Not to mention you're really mature with all you have going on yourself, you'll be A-Ok!) Thanks again!
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| DeathkaiserG | November 8, 2012, 10:57 pm Post #64 |
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Well, i don't know if its simillar to mine but im going to say it anyway, since you're all venting about parts of your life... maybe real dramatic or just plain stupid
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| Mazel | November 9, 2012, 12:08 am Post #65 |
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Some things I have learned: If your baby is a boy, chances are he has a penis. Baby penis can present some unique challenges when it comes to diaper changes. Like not only should you make extra-sure the diaper is taped on securely, but you should also make sure the weenis is pointing downward. If you don't, urine will leak out over the top of the diaper. Second, baby penis can squirt like a fountain. Sometimes, you're just not gonna get the diaper on in time. In times like that, be happy you didn't get squirted in the eye. 
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| Mayu Suzumoto | November 9, 2012, 12:21 pm Post #66 |
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It made my day knowing I made another person's day so happy. I love giving people happiness and stuff, so mission accomplished!  It's very important to smile. I'm glad I could help a bit. As far as your advice -- thank you very much. I try to keep up a cheery spirit, but I've been *just as low* as other posters here, as well. When you let depression consume you, it's very easy to think you're going nowhere and don't have much to live for - yeah? (It's like a real life version of the Darkening -- except you don't usually kill people when you're depressed. xD) Anyway...meeting someone important changed things for me, drastically. When I found someone that actually made me realize my life was worth something -- that I could do things and change things about my life if I want -- it was a major turning point for me. Since then, things that used to bother me don't bother me as much anymore. I've suddenly realized that a lot of former pain of mine could have been avoided had I just tried to make a connection with someone, and yet I shunned others because I was so sad. It really wasn't the right choice, and I'm glad I've overcome that. My point? It's always nice to find someone you can talk to, no matter what. We all need to look for that person -- doesn't have to be RL! Sometimes online chats are easier, I find, anyway. Thanks for all your kind words. I really appreciate it. I'm positive about the Korean as well; I love the language *so much* that I consider it fun to learn. ^^ Anyway. Here's to both of us making it! *high-five*  -- @DeathkaiserG: Well, it sounds to me like you've got an issue with motivation. I actually felt the same awhile back, and I had to see a Doctor. I ended up getting some helpful medicine that I take in the morning that helps give me the "boost" I need. (It's not like you really even *feel* the boost, you're just more motivated than previously.) I've been on it for a little while now, and it really helps me out. Perhaps you should check into that with a Doctor? If you don't want to go to any sort of medication route though, perhaps try to force yourself to do something. Just really push yourself, and see how you feel afterward? Sometimes experience helps with keeping us motivated, therefore if we're not doing anything, we might just not care about much as a result. When you do something and end up liking it, it gives your brain the motivation to go back -- or even try other things. The key is actually getting yourself out of your comfort zone, first. I know it's very difficult, but you do seem to know that something's a little off and you don't seem totally happy about it -- in which case, I think you're open to a possible change. In that respect, I wish you luck with whatever you decide to do in the future. I know you can do it.
Edited by Mayu Suzumoto, November 9, 2012, 2:34 pm.
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| DeathkaiserG | November 9, 2012, 5:47 pm Post #67 |
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Not to be rude or anything bad...but i have given the same advice already and well, not much change happen though.. But ill just copy your post to my cellphone, maybe it will give me the "boost" i need.. Thanks ^___^ i dont know why but i like how you choose words <3 are you a teacher or something |
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| strwbry | November 10, 2012, 3:37 am Post #68 |
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Hello Venting Topic! I'm going to vent about venting! I apologize. I really don't know if I can put into words what I really want to vent about. Only one person knows about my biggest issue, one that is deeply personal to the point that I have only ever talked about it with one person. But a part of me really, really wants to talk about it. But another part of me is scared of letting it out into the world, especially since the Venting Topic is not an area where you need to be logged in to access (not that I'm complaining! Really!). It's just that I internalize every personal issue and I'm horrible at making friends and talking to people. I used to be better at being able to talk to people over the internet, but these days I hesitate so badly over it. Hell, I hesitate a lot sometimes about just posting in threads (this is my third try at a post here. Or maybe it's been more). I have done sort of okay in enigmaopoeia's streaming sessions though... But that's probably because the conversation never really veers towards personal stuff. And it's no reflection on any of you guys, you all seem like really, really nice people and I'm glad to be able to get to chat with you guys in forum topics. And... That's pretty much it... I'd thought this would be short, but it turned out to be longer than expected. edit: i can't believe that i could forget this but... i'm also scared of not being accepted for who i am. apologies all around. Edited by strwbry, November 10, 2012, 4:28 am.
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| Eagle | November 10, 2012, 9:51 am Post #69 |
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You never know beforehand who's going to respond to your posts or how. I feel the same way about forums, strwbrypanic. It can take me an hour to write a post and I usually edit it to incoherence if I don't scratch it entirelly. But everyone are so friendly on this forum and I've gotten to know most of the people frequenting here, so I feel quite safe airing my thoughts here. Usually, I'm always afraid that what I write will either go over people's heads (particularly my sense of humour), get misunderstood or kill the conversation somehow. So the fact that I have even stayed a regular poster is unique to this board and speaks volume about our community. |
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| Mayu Suzumoto | November 10, 2012, 12:08 pm Post #70 |
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Aww, you're so sweet! That doesn't sound rude, hun, it's just honest. Lots of people tend to give the same-sounding advice, so it's not unlikely that you would come across people who might have given the same advice. Regardless, I'm glad to have written the advice now, because it obviously meant something to you, which makes me feel wonderful. I hope it's able to help you somehow. ♥ You're so, so welcome. Oh wow, thanks. That's a major compliment. I enjoy literature and composition, so I think that might come across in the way I talk a bit. I'm blushing because you thought I might be a teacher, hehe. That's a compliment, really. ^___^ Nope, sure not! 22 & unemployed is me! xD I guess we were able to help each other, then, a little? You definitely gave me a confidence boost, there. Thanks, sweetie! ♥
Aww. Can I give you a great, big hug? You post reminded me a lot of myself from a little while past. I had an important issue that I kept to myself for a long time 'till I could wait no longer and talked to a close girlfriend (online) about it. I was so absolutely tight-lipped with anyone else though, as I also have extreme difficultly trusting others. Its eased up recently, but I wouldn't say the issue is completely gone. Trust is a tricky thing, so I can definitely understand the difficulty, hun. As far as this place goes, well...this is probably the most open I've been online in a long while, really. Everyone here is just so gosh-darn kind, it makes it easier for me to talk about myself. Overall, this place has helped me in that respect, and I'm extremely grateful. Of course, when I wasn't posting, and just looking around, I didn't have that trust yet, here. I gained trust in the people here once I started posting and recognizing usernames -- and noting that nobody seemed to have a bad thing to say. Once I figured that out, posting was simple, and it somehow became increasingly simple to post about myself. (Not an exact solution though, because if I were to go to a different forum, I'd be extremely tight-lipped again.) This place is so down-to-earth. In that respect, I think I'm trying to tell you to post and try to get a feel for the folks here. I know it can be tough, but it might help. Let's see -- if you're too nervous to post in the venting topic (I can get that -- I talk about life in here, but I don't put nitty gritty details, so I can understand in that respect) -- you could always just make a good friend here and speak with them. I hope this doesn't sound creepy, but you can always message me if you'd like. I always tell newbies to message me in case they're having difficulties with anything, but I also wouldn't mind if anyone in general messaged me just to chit-chat about personal stuff. I'm discreet and I seem to give okay advice, based on some responses I've received. Of course, you don't have to do that. I was just giving you a suggestion. I just felt for you in your "really wanting to tell someone" aspect, because I know it hurts to keep things inside sometimes, even if one other person knows about it. Sometimes we need several outlets for our feelings. Regardless, all of that is up to you, sweetie. Just puttin' it out there. ^^ Oh, finally? I've never been shunned, here. I think people will accept you. Of course, I can't speak for everyone -- but I can speak for me. You seem like a sweet girl who deserves a chance to let others get to know her. I bet you're a lovely person. ♥
Agreed. I don't usually stick around message boards really long, either. I tend to get bored quickly or don't connect with people very well. Somehow, this place just clicked, completely and utterly. I hope maybe, the same can be said for you eventually, strwbrypanic. |
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