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Venting Topic
Topic Started: August 18, 2012, 11:26 pm (16,996 Views)
Shigitou burikaa	July 20, 2015, 7:29 pm Post #771
give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust- Posts: 3,590 Group: Banned Member #858 Joined: 01/16/14 Country Belgium Location: Locked up in a casket.	I want to take my head and scream out insanely.
	ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás. . ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana! http://www.myfconline.com/?do=view&type=character&character_id=264324


spookyfan2	July 22, 2015, 7:57 pm Post #772
Fool Posts: 178 Group: Members Member #1,445 Joined: 01/31/15 Gender Male Country United States Location: The Underground Bomb-shelter...	I actually get upset when people on the internet call me an idiot, even though they have no clue who I am. I am way too sensitive. >.>
	"Well, being a cameraman is kind of a strange thing that way. As long as I'm looking at them through a finder, it's all just business to me. But if I try to look at them with bare eyes, I freeze up."


Shigitou burikaa	July 22, 2015, 8:05 pm Post #773
give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust- Posts: 3,590 Group: Banned Member #858 Joined: 01/16/14 Country Belgium Location: Locked up in a casket.	spookyfan2 July 22, 2015, 7:57 pm I actually get upset when people on the internet call me an idiot, even though they have no clue who I am. I am way too sensitive. >.> Honestly. I know how you feel. I deleted one of my youtube videos just for calling me a P**, a dumb*, and for calling my voice total shit. So i know how you feel honestly.
	ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás. . ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana! http://www.myfconline.com/?do=view&type=character&character_id=264324


spookyfan2	July 22, 2015, 8:08 pm Post #774
Fool Posts: 178 Group: Members Member #1,445 Joined: 01/31/15 Gender Male Country United States Location: The Underground Bomb-shelter...	Shigitou burikaa July 22, 2015, 8:05 pm spookyfan2 July 22, 2015, 7:57 pm I actually get upset when people on the internet call me an idiot, even though they have no clue who I am. I am way too sensitive. >.> Honestly. I know how you feel. I deleted one of my youtube videos just for calling me a P**, a dumb*, and for calling my voice total shit. So i know how you feel honestly. Hoo, it's nice to find some one who understands. I'm sorry people were rude to you, and hopefully I can learn to ignore those kinds of people.
	"Well, being a cameraman is kind of a strange thing that way. As long as I'm looking at them through a finder, it's all just business to me. But if I try to look at them with bare eyes, I freeze up."


Shigitou burikaa	July 22, 2015, 8:14 pm Post #775
give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust- Posts: 3,590 Group: Banned Member #858 Joined: 01/16/14 Country Belgium Location: Locked up in a casket.	spookyfan2 July 22, 2015, 8:08 pm Shigitou burikaa July 22, 2015, 8:05 pm spookyfan2 July 22, 2015, 7:57 pm I actually get upset when people on the internet call me an idiot, even though they have no clue who I am. I am way too sensitive. >.> Honestly. I know how you feel. I deleted one of my youtube videos just for calling me a P**, a dumb*, and for calling my voice total shit. So i know how you feel honestly. Hoo, it's nice to find some one who understands. I'm sorry people were rude to you, and hopefully I can learn to ignore those kinds of people. Heh. Yeah trust me. People on the internet (most of them) are complete assholes. Just avoid their dumb comments. Do what you think is good and move on. (Trust the guy whom had that happen to him constantly. ^^) Anywho. Take care and i hope you take my words in consideration. Otherwise you will skončí ako ja a spadnúť do depresie.
	ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás. . ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana! http://www.myfconline.com/?do=view&type=character&character_id=264324


Souly	July 22, 2015, 11:48 pm Post #776
♪ Piece of Garbage ♪ Posts: 750 Group: Members Member #210 Joined: 12/05/12 Gender Female Country Puerto Rico Location: hell	Ugh. I feel a little incomplete. Like I left something unfinished and I'm just rotting away. Spoiler: click to toggle I dunno. I'm feeling apathetic towards everything right now. The other day I was feeling pretty good about myself and now I'm back to square one. I have all these friends and people who support me, but then again, at the same time, the moment I'm left all alone with my thoughts, I feel a little empty. I always wanted to be that kind of person that with or without people, they'd be okay-- like, mentally sure of themselves no matter what happened; I always looked up to that, but in the back of my mind, just knowing that I feel like nothing without other people around, it makes me feel like all I've worked up to has amounted to dust. I make myself sick. A lot of people always tell me that they feel like they're in my shadow, and I'd hate to make anyone feel that way. I don't want that. I love my friends so much; it would suck that I'm the very thing that hurts them. My mind is all over the place, hmhm. Edited by Souly, July 22, 2015, 11:55 pm.
	Ah? Ah? What's wrong with a little f i l t h* in your life?*


Yoshie Shinozaki	July 23, 2015, 6:01 am Post #777
The First Victim Posts: 1,655 Group: Members Member #842 Joined: 12/25/13 Gender Male Country United States Location: The Infirmary, Taking Notes.	Just to keep my vent from turning this into a mile long sheet, I'll be discreet and leave my thoughts under a spoiler tag. Spoiler: click to toggle I've been crumbling under the weight of Bipolar Disorder harshly for the passed five months. I went through several mental breakdowns, some I managed to keep under control and not make it much of an issue, but two of them for sure had me to the point to where I wanted to swallow a bullet. It's infuriating, one minute I'm happy, joking around with my friends and family, the next minute I'm not feeling anything at all, including pain.(I've been self destructive as of late but I felt nothing when I would hurt myself) I've been hearing voices, seeing shadows in the corner of my eye, and I've literally seen someone by the yard's heavy machinery, inspecting the equipment one minute, I look away for a moment then return my attention toward his way and nobody was there.(I looked around the machine and there were no traces of anyone working on it. Every crew member was huddled around the same area as me at the time) Everyday looks and feels the same, I have a freakin' walking pattern I take everyday so the days are nothing but a blur. Everything I've enjoyed feels dull and empty, even visiting the Forums feels like a chore nowadays. I can't shake this feeling of obscure anger towards everything, everyone and especially myself. I'm depressed, crying my eyes out, thinking extensively about death, wishing my life would end and finally be done with my frantic thought patterns. I don't know what to do, I'm scared to death of my ideology. It's just too much.
	"I Return This Nightmare. I Will Find You. Sleepless, Cloaked In Despair. I'm Behind You. Man Has Made Me Oh So Strong. Blurring Lines Of Right And Wrong. Far Too Late For Frail Amends. Now It's Come To Sweet Revenge. Desperate Hands That Lose Control. Have No Mercy On Your Soul."- Here Comes Revenge By Metallica.


spookyfan2	July 23, 2015, 4:26 pm Post #778
Fool Posts: 178 Group: Members Member #1,445 Joined: 01/31/15 Gender Male Country United States Location: The Underground Bomb-shelter...	Yoshie, I may not understand the full extent to what you are dealing with, but I do have an anxiety disorder, and for many days at a time, I used to feel like days went by in a blur, and life was just dull and empty. The thought of self harm crossed my mind, but I never actually did anything. Seeing your posts on here lately proves to me that you are capable of fighting through this, though. You've got all of us here for support.
	"Well, being a cameraman is kind of a strange thing that way. As long as I'm looking at them through a finder, it's all just business to me. But if I try to look at them with bare eyes, I freeze up."


Mayu Suzumoto	July 23, 2015, 9:50 pm Post #779
[L O S T S O U L] Posts: 560 Group: Members Member #97 Joined: 08/16/12 Gender Female Country United States Location: Virtual Reality~	Just some recent stuff. Not really a vent -- moreso a concern. I'm not sure if this is a vent persay as I'm not angry about it or anything -- just nervous. Hmhm. There's no need to say the day, but around early August, I'll be undergoing surgery. I've actually had two seperate surgeries -- so I'm not a stranger to such things. Still, no matter what...it worries you, you know? Who likes surgery? Eheh. On the bright side, I have quite a few family members coming with me for emotional support; I can't explain how grateful I am for that. Regardless, I hope it all works out okay. The other two were done at a general hospital -- this particular hospital specialies in my particular illness and is considereed the absolute best hospital in Michigan. (It definitely is.) So, there's that, at least. Regardless, I'm a bit nervous/scared. In the end, it'll help all around, so I'm all for it. I'm just a bit scared, too. So it's like good/bad. I know it'll help me, but I'm extremely nervous about it. Still -- I've managed two before at a lesser hospital, sl I should just remind myself that if I could get through that -- I can get through this, y'know? Anyway, I just hope it goes well. I hope it helps. I'm pretty much willing to try anything to help me out, so even though I'm nervous, I'm rather anticipating it. It's kinda like being torn down the middle with two different opinions, y'know~? Hence I figured it would fit n the vent topic. Still--I think it'll be okay. I'm an optomistic person, and I always wanna find the best in stuff, so I'm gonna do my best with this, too. Wish me luck, 'kay? I hope everyone else here manages to find a solution to their problems! Take care, everyone~! ♥ Edited by Mayu Suzumoto, July 23, 2015, 9:53 pm.
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Shigitou burikaa	July 24, 2015, 12:36 am Post #780
give me a reason to care once more. new mod for the grt. -in sachiko I trust- Posts: 3,590 Group: Banned Member #858 Joined: 01/16/14 Country Belgium Location: Locked up in a casket.	Mayu Suzumoto July 23, 2015, 9:50 pm Just some recent stuff. Not really a vent -- moreso a concern. I'm not sure if this is a vent persay as I'm not angry about it or anything -- just nervous. Hmhm. There's no need to say the day, but around early August, I'll be undergoing surgery. I've actually had two seperate surgeries -- so I'm not a stranger to such things. Still, no matter what...it worries you, you know? Who likes surgery? Eheh. On the bright side, I have quite a few family members coming with me for emotional support; I can't explain how grateful I am for that. Regardless, I hope it all works out okay. The other two were done at a general hospital -- this particular hospital specialies in my particular illness and is considereed the absolute best hospital in Michigan. (It definitely is.) So, there's that, at least. Regardless, I'm a bit nervous/scared. In the end, it'll help all around, so I'm all for it. I'm just a bit scared, too. So it's like good/bad. I know it'll help me, but I'm extremely nervous about it. Still -- I've managed two before at a lesser hospital, sl I should just remind myself that if I could get through that -- I can get through this, y'know? Anyway, I just hope it goes well. I hope it helps. I'm pretty much willing to try anything to help me out, so even though I'm nervous, I'm rather anticipating it. It's kinda like being torn down the middle with two different opinions, y'know~? Hence I figured it would fit n the vent topic. Still--I think it'll be okay. I'm an optomistic person, and I always wanna find the best in stuff, so I'm gonna do my best with this, too. Wish me luck, 'kay? I hope everyone else here manages to find a solution to their problems! Take care, everyone~! ♥ surgery, huh? heh. ive had WAAAY too many of those to the point where I enjoy going to the hospital. (we are talkin like 30 or so, but either way) I and others know how it feels.it isn't that great, haha. I hope the surgery goes good for you. and when it is all done, walk it off like a boss. nah that last part was a joke. unless you want to actually do that, haha. take care.
	ste teraz mojej obete. Vitajte v mojom herňa, zvieratko. Ja som teraz mučiť vás. . ~ポケウォーズ9000™ i am servent to no one. I'm married to nana! http://www.myfconline.com/?do=view&type=character&character_id=264324


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