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| Topic Started: January 31, 2016, 6:37 pm (284 Views) | |
| superdubes | January 31, 2016, 6:37 pm Post #1 |
The horror.
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I just finished watching the most amazing time travel story I've ever seen. The anime Steins Gate. So much of it had me in tears the beautiful moments of pure emotion between characters was just so perfect. During one of the moments that had me crying my manly tears of manhood.... ahem...... I had a realization. For possibly my entire life I've had dreams of doing something creative. I want to write stories, draw comic books, be a voice actor, or doing stand-up. All of these things are creative endeavors that I've touted as my dream jobs at one time or another. I'm sure if you scour this forum for my posts you will find me saying it at least once. Though, it wasn't until today that I knew what the thread that tied them together was. All creative endeavors, once passed on to the audience it draws out emotion. Happiness, anger, fear, and sadness can all be derived from the arts. That's the reason I've always wanted to have all of those different careers. I wanted to make people feel. For as long as I can remember I've had a strong apathy toward myself, but when it comes to others I am extremely empathetic. I have a very hard time feeling emotions for myself, but I can feel it when it involves others, whether they're fictional or real. So, I think that subconsciously I believed that if I could be creative. I could feel the emotions that I pass on to others. Like an emotional leech. Maybe a better metaphor would be an emotional farmer. I would fatten up the masses with emotions just to eat the juicy feels meats for myself later. Now on to the what the title of this topic means. What is this "Creative Fear?" It is the fear that I have that if I do finally get to writing the stories in my head that eventually they'll all be gone. Not just that people won't like them. That's to be expected, but the fear that I will use up all my creativity and no longer be able to visit these places in my imagination. I've been thinking of saying screw it all to that belief system recently and finally getting to typing up a synopses for one of the stories in my head. I was just wondering if any of the people here have felt the same way before? |
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| Ist Kisaragi | February 1, 2016, 12:28 am Post #2 |
The Void Walker
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First off, awesome that you found Steins Gate such an enjoyable watch. Second, while I can't share my answer, as my lack of writing on here stems from laziness. However, if you really use your imagination, it's really doubtful that you'll run out of stuff to write about. Again, not being an often enough writer to really comment on this, I can't really say anything about "Creative Fear". But I believe in you man. If you can make humor when coloring manga pages, just by changing some words around, then your creativity is still strong. |
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| Yoshie Shinozaki | February 1, 2016, 10:35 am Post #3 |
The First Victim
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Honestly, I think you're a very creative guy. Like take for instance, look at your latest Avatar picture. You made something based on One Piece and put your own creative spin on it that's funny and it grabs others attention right away.(It's honestly the first thing I notice when I read all your posts) And on top of that, I think you'd make a great artist and stand up comedian. I especially think you'd make an awesome voice actor. Really all it takes is to apply yourself into what you feel passionate for. I'll admit, not everyone will have an understanding of your work, but having creative freedom is about taking risks. I learned that when I pushed myself to record Music. It was scary and despite not drawing in everyone's attention because my tracks are brash and 'Extreme' as some would put it. But when one looks for the deeper meaning, there's actually a meaningful premise to what I wrote. What truly matters when it comes to creativity is of course, self expression, and it should please the most important audience member you'll ever have. You. I believe you can do whatever you set your mind to. It's hard, but as long as you feel satisfied by your own work, It should have an effect on others and they'll come to appreciate what you've made. I could go on but I've rambled enough already, haha. |
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| superdubes | February 1, 2016, 12:07 pm Post #4 |
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I am so screwed then lol. I never have, and probably never will like anything I've ever "created." I'm so overly critical of myself that when I was a music major my trumpet instructor had to tell me every practice session, "Why do you care so much about it being perfect? Just play." My biggest problem is that I can't do that lol. I have an idea for something that should prove fun to do. If I stick to it is another story entirely though. |
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| Yoshiki Kishinuma | February 1, 2016, 2:13 pm Post #5 |
The Hero of Another Story
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First off, I totally understand where you're coming from. I have a bunch of ideas in my head that I accept will always just remain in my head because I cannot finish a writing project. Ever. No matter how passionate I am about writing something, once I start, I completely lose motivation. So, sometimes, I just imagine scenarios without ever writing them down -- the imagining is the easy part, writing it in a nice, poetic way is the hard part. Sometimes, what helps, is if you don't write the synopsis first, and instead write it later once you've started on the story. There are some details you can realize fit the synopsis that you hadn't before if you do it that way, and you also won't get bored trying to write "details you already know." Write for yourself, first (the story) then write for others later (the synopsis). Also, remember that you can write absolutely any part of the story you want first. If the beginning is boring, write the middle first. If you can't write the middle, figure out how you want the story to end and write backwards from there. One of my favorite writers, Kotaro Uchikoshi, does it this way. Just write in the moment, and do whichever is funnest for you. Personally, I don't think people can hate everything they make. There are always little achievements people make that they're proud of, even if the self-hate and anger towards 99.9% of what they make makes it hard to remember those moments (which is a Relatable Feel.) Remember that the odds are lesser you'll make something you adore if you stop making things at all. Though, I completely understand caring about your writing being perfect. Most of the time, I don't even start writing because I don't feel I'll be able to do it justice. I "think" about what I'm going to write first, and when it doesn't sound right, I don't even write it down. Sometimes I don't even think about what I'm going to write at all, and just keep imagining scenarios, because I'm too afraid I'll do it injustice even in my head. Ugh, I can't even help you with that problem, in hindsight. Anyway, tl;dr: just start writing. If you don't like what you write, it's okay to erase it and then rewrite it in a way you like. Just don't give up because you can't perfect certain scenes. Remember: what could be good to you, could be bad to others. What could be bad to you, could be fantastic to them. There is literally no such thing as real perfection, it's just a concept. People hate Shakespeare, people hate Edgar Allen Poe, or F. Scott Fitzgerald and those three are still regarded as excellent writers. So, honestly, just screw it, write something for you and then eventually post it online because you're proud, because you can't control/appeal to everyone, but you can control/write something that appeals to you. You can only know for absolute certain what appeals to you, so go for the sure thing and write something that is good for the one person you understand -- you. Even if you don't like it, if you write it the way you want it to be written, that's okay. In the end, don't write, or draw, or anything just to like the end result if you feel like you never will. Do it because you have fun even if you don't like your work. I'm rooting for you! Edited by Yoshiki Kishinuma, February 1, 2016, 2:30 pm.
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| mgnsh83 | February 2, 2016, 5:39 pm Post #6 |
Bones
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Oh boy. I can sure relate to this and then some. Except in my case, it's less that I'm afraid I'll lose my ideas or they'll stop existing in my head. My problem is that they're very much there and have a tendency to fester if they're not written down somewhere. Then when they are, they sound nothing like what I originally set out to write. Then people tend to misinterpret what I did write, so I need to heavily revise what I'm doing to make it so people do 'get' it. I've been taking writing commissions for a long time, but it never quite got me to hate my own ideas any less. I'm trying to push past it a lot more than I used to, but it's been a hard and very frustrating process, twice as much so when I post something original for feedback and the cycle of 'I don't get it'-s or radio silence are my only two answers.
This. Even on days where you'd rather be doing anything else, just give it a go. Not saying that you won't hate it and revise it later, but it's something. It's like a seed. Plant it and let it grow a little before writing it off. I can't offer as much advice about what to do about other peoples' opinions on it, but I try to see it this way; if it exists, there will be people who hate it, and people who love it. Don't know until you try, eh? |
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