Mayu Suzumoto

July 3, 2015, 2:11 am

Just popping up a spoiler!tag as it's a few paragraphs and I don't particularly want to take up the page with my personal ramblings~

Personal Growth.

I recently underwent an ordeal that you would consider tragic(?) -- or perhaps just sad. At first, I was -- but I'm a bit proud of myself as I managed to turn a negative into a positive. Sometimes bad things happen, you know? Sometimes they're unavoidable; perhaps inevitable. Still, if you can take such an event and perhaps learn something from it; don't you think it can change your outlook on particular things and perhaps overall turn into a good thing? (Eheh, I'm not looking for an answer btw, I personally believe it to be true~)

Hmm, in the past I've generally looked at certain bad events/things happening as experience. Perhaps you make a mistake and learn from it; grow. Perhaps you simply go through something that may have seemed bad at the time -- but oddly turns out to be an interesting factor in your growth as a person -- life experience. That's personally how I'm viewing my most recent "sad event." If something's sad -- it's sad. I'm not taking away from that, but I'm saying that taking such an event and learning, growing, and even managing to find something positive from it is truly what life is all about. It might hurt at first, it might not. Still, if you can (not to sound cliche, but--) turn that frown upside down, well, I feel that's a rather large accomplishment in itself. Taking it further and actually learning from something initially sad? It's growth as a person. It was an experience that you went through; difficult or no, and you got through it. You forged through. You learned. You realized something. Perhaps you're even better off afterwards. (Which isn't always the case--but it can be.) I find this to be...life experience.

So! My point? Despite something negative happening in my life recently, I find it to be a "daily yey" (to quote the OP) overall as I forged through something difficult, I realized something extremely important about myself and managed to change myself for the better. I feel a strong sense of emotional growth as a result, and it makes me happy that I was able to come to such a conclusion from something that would perhaps normally be too difficult to ponder.

Overall, despite the sadness of the initial event, I feel as though I've grown as an individual. Considering the stagnation of my life (not particularly of my own choice) I find this to be extremely important. Learning something about yourself and truly realizing that you've grown emotionally -- that you're better off in the end -- it's a nice lesson for someone like me. Considering, again, the stagnation of my life at the moment, this is a rare opportunity and while I won't say I'm "happy" it happened, I feel invigorated and confident from this single event, regardless. To me, this truly deserves a "daily yey" as far as my personal life goes. (These are my own convictions of course -- I don't expect everyone to follow the same thought process.)

I think it's important to remember (for everyone, in this case as it's true) that sometimes sad things happen. Again -- this can be inevitable. Life has its ups and downs, you know? We all know this. Still, I'm proud that I was able to take a step back and truly reflect. I did indeed learn something shortly thereafter that truly helped with my moving forward, and I can't explain how grateful I am for that. It made me realize that in the end, I was and am still a good person. Despite the outcome, I feel I did the best I could. Personal emotional achievement is obviously very important. Sometimes it helps to take a step back and look at something objectively -- even if it seems impossible -- it doesn't hurt to try. As sad as things seemed at first, when I was finally able to do as such, it brought me a sense of renewal; hence my use of the word "invigoration," as well as gaining confidence for being able to see things as they are -- for being able to stand my ground and hold firm with my beliefs. Hence, "confidence."

In the end, I was taught to stay true to myself: my feelings, my thoughts, my convictions. For someone so stagnant, for someone so concerned with others' all of the time -- this is truly a good thing overall for me as a person. I truly am invigorated and confident again, and I shall keep that strength (which I hadn't the slightest clue existed inside of me) true. I will remember, and I will continue to grow. I finally feel as if I can say that, and as mentioned -- it's invigorating. "Yey," indeed. ^_~

PS: On a super light and fluffy (because she is!) note, I've had my lovely little kitty cat for a little over a year now and she's definitely my heart. I love her so much~! We grow closer each day, ehe. She's the sunshine in my morning and I could type about her every single day~ ♥

Shigitou burikaa

July 5, 2015, 3:58 pm

Holy hell, ajo. Your avatar looks bad ass.