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| IchimatsuBoy | Jan 30 2016, 01:26 AM Post #1 |
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[It's been an awkward few weeks, truthfully... Karamatsu isn't quite sure how you're supposed to interact with your brother when you were sprawled on top of him and trying to vehemently deny feelings that actually exist, after overhearing him confess those same type of feelings for... the brother that had walked in on you.] [It's a complicated situation, to say the least, but he's taking it in stride as best he can. (That's what a cool, calm, collected guy like him does, after all.)] [He still hasn't quite figured out why Ichimatsu put on his clothes, either, but... there haven't been very many chances to ask, nor does he think it'd go over that well. He's still not sure why Ichimatsu keeps trying to throttle him all the time, even in the face of sincere support, but it's not like that's actually that unusual in terms of how he's treated...] [Anyway, today's the day, probably! The rest of their brothers are out of the house, and Karamatsu feels as prepared as he ever will to go and try and talk to Ichimatsu... he really doesn't want this to ruin their relationship, he thought he'd been doing... an okay job, up until now, of not ruining it, all things considered...] [So, upon peeking around the corner and seeing Ichimatsu looking... happy? with his cat, Karamatsu decides to enter the room, looking confident but not too flashy!! and give him a grin.] Ichimatsu, my brother! [... He pauses, unsure of what to say and follow up with...] How are you? [10/10!] |
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| IchimatsuBoy | Feb 19 2016, 01:05 AM Post #121 |
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[A deliberate, confident laugh.] Rely on me all you want! My shoulder and arms are always open to you! [He gets much more reserved after that, though, and nuzzles Ichimatsu a little again, partly out of... well, guilt, really...] I tried to. I mean, I thought that would be better, for all of us, but especially you. I just didn't do a good job of it, it was too hard. Every time I'd think I was making progress, you'd do something tiny, like just smile a little, and I was back to square one. |
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| KaramatsuBoy | Feb 19 2016, 01:16 AM Post #122 |
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[He gives an "mmhm" while thinking about how strange that abrupt change would look to the rest of them. It doesn't matter. Well -- it does matter, probably, but it won't change how they feel and it certainly won't change what's already happened. Right here. On the futon they all share.] [Anyway, he'll try to rely on Karamatsu at least a little no matter what the rest of them think, is what it comes down to.] Well... it worked out in the end. And I'm glad it did. I love you. [That consideration that it would have been better for him is appreciated and all, but now that he has this, it's kind of terrifying to think about if Karamatsu had managed to back off. What would he have done, what would he have felt...] |
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| IchimatsuBoy | Feb 26 2016, 12:28 AM Post #123 |
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And I love you, too, little brother. [He squeezes Ichimatsu a bit in a hug, closer to him, just to make that even more clear. Ichimatsu is still probably going to spend a lot of time thinking he's the lucky one and all, but Karamatsu, really, feels much more so. The whole situation is kind of surreal, too, just because he never, in a million years, anticipated this much (positive) attention from anyone, let alone Ichimatsu, so... it's nice that there was a pay-off to his feelings, for both of them. The frustration and fear he felt at not being able to put them aside almost feels silly now.] So much. You've made me so happy. |
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| KaramatsuBoy | Feb 28 2016, 12:10 AM Post #124 |
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Likewise... [There aren't words good enough to really express just how much he thinks so. A one word answer like that feels pretty lame, but he hasn't got anything better here and now.] [He leans into his brothers hug, hugs back, because it feels so unbelievably nice to that someone else feels he's worth this effort and this closeness and this fondness. And if he thinks about that too hard right now he might cry and he doesn't really want to, so he focuses on the physical warmth and comfort instead.] You've been a better big brother than I could ask for. |
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| IchimatsuBoy | Feb 28 2016, 03:02 AM Post #125 |
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I don't know about that, but... I've always been really happy to be your big brother, so, it's good that I've managed to be one you're happy with having. [He kisses the top of Ichimatsu's head, wishing they had a little more time for this... He'd be more than thrilled to have some hours to curl up with Ichimatsu and, even if they ended up saying the same thing again and again, get to just... talk about how much they really did like each other. It sounds so nice.] I remember when you were younger and how much you used to smile at me, I always wanted to live up to your expectations and all... Being an older sibling is tough! More so when you also... want to be your sibling's boyfriend. |
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| KaramatsuBoy | Feb 28 2016, 10:47 AM Post #126 |
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I think you can trust my judgement as younger brother on whether you've been a good older brother. [He would be the one to know, wouldn't he? Even if he acted ungrateful and perfectly awful, actually, in return sometimes (many times). Still, he's glad to hear Karamatsu has some good memories from when they were younger. And maybe he'll be smiling at his older brother more once again... it seems possible now.] Well. I don't know how you could have managed much better. I don't know how anyone could have. |
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| IchimatsuBoy | Mar 5 2016, 03:27 PM Post #127 |
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Hahaha, I guess so! It's true that you might have a pretty good perspective on that. [nuzzle nuzzle nuzzle] [It is reassuring to hear that Ichimatsu was happy with having him, truly... there's no good guide on how to be a proper older sibling, and he thinks, in general, their family is kind of odd and dysfunctional. He likes it that way! no doubt, but still. A lot of his behavior was kind of based off of, "don't bully them like Osomatsu does".] I can think of a few ways, I'm sure, but it seems like it all worked out. I don't think you were socially ruined by us or anything, so... that's a relief. Osomatsu really sets a bad example, doesn't he? |
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| KaramatsuBoy | Mar 5 2016, 10:13 PM Post #128 |
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Well... there are a few other people you could ask for perspective on that. But that's my honest opinion. [He means it, and he really wants to be more honest about these things. He doesn't know when that got so hard or why, exactly. It's kind of a blur from when they were younger and all smiling and laughing and causing trouble to now. But they each grew into individuals and somewhere along the way, Ichimatsu failed to be able to express that properly for himself.] [Now feels like a time to make a conscious effort to overcome that. Karamatsu is worth that, always has been. Not that Ichimatsu succeeded before.] We all had to make mistakes, but. even then, it was your best, I think. And...not following his example was a big mistake avoided, yes. |
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| IchimatsuBoy | Mar 5 2016, 11:18 PM Post #129 |
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I don't know about that. I'm not sure they'd even really have an opinion... Maybe Choromatsu, but the rest of them aren't exactly paying attention, so... [He doesn't want Ichimatsu to think his opinion matters less just because he's the only one who might offer it, though... He's pretty sure he would have fallen for Ichimatsu no matter what, so his thoughts here were always going to mean something different to him.] Yeah, I did something right, at least, to end up here. We both did! So those mistakes don't really matter anymore. Which means that you, especially, should stop feeling guilty for things. |
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| KaramatsuBoy | Mar 6 2016, 03:07 AM Post #130 |
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Maybe... [Ichimatsu shrugs, since it's not like he's had this conversation with any of them, actually. He begs to differ a little, thinks Juushimatsu might be likely to have an opinion also, but those kinds of details feel a little besides the point right now.] Mm, I guess... as long as we don't make those mistakes again, anyway. I'm lucky to have you, you know. |
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